Secret Admirer

Title: Secret Admirer
Author: Angelsdee aka Dee Dee
Date: 8/23/06
Chapter: 5/?
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Ronon/Elizabeth
Archiving: My LJ, Atlantica, Elizabeth/Ronon LJ, RDFever LJ, WRFever, and RDFever
Warnings: Violence, Stalking, Explicit Sex, Torture
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer: I do not own any characters in this fic but I sure like to play with them.
Summary: This is in response to Carol’s Challenge #9 on the WRFever Group. An obsessive admirer stalks Elizabeth and Ronon takes it upon himself to keep her safe.

Ronon lay perfectly still as Elizabeth slowly began to wake. He had watched her sleep for a few hours but wasn’t capable of joining her. He held her in his arms, felt the warmth of her body invade his, and committed every detail of her face to memory.

His mind was racing over his increasing depth of feelings for her. His heart beat wildly in his chest whenever he saw or thought of her. He could feel his soul reach out to hers and that was something he never felt before. He had loved Milena but it didn’t consume him like his feelings for Elizabeth did.

He had put aside his insecurities so that he could tell her how he felt and show her how much he wanted her. Now he lay there thinking how he would broach the subject when the time came. It appeared his time had run out when her eyes fluttered open and fixed on his.

“How long was I asleep?” She yawned and stretched against him. Her eyes widened when she heard him growl and finally noticed that she was lying partially on top of him again. His hard shaft was beneath her thigh and she guiltily looked up at him. “Did I do that? I mean…I’m sorry if I…crap…”

“Would you be quiet for a moment?” He smiled when her mouth hung open for a second and then snapped shut. “You really squirm a lot in your sleep. It is definitely not conducive to a good night’s sleep.”

“Maybe I should stay on the sofa. I can’t seem to control myself in my sleep because I keep molesting you.” She began to ramble and Ronon smiled as her brow furrowed in frustration. “It is your bed and I am much smaller than you. I’ll stay on the sofa so that you can get your rest.”

“Not a chance, Elizabeth.” He stopped her when she tried to move away from him. “It wouldn’t do any good anyways. I just have to see you, scent you, or know you are near and I want you. You are staying here…with me.” He slowly lowered his mouth down to cover hers and kissed her softly. “If I could have my way, you would never leave my quarters again.” He stared deep into her eyes as he whispered and then took her lips a little harder. His tongue ran over the seam of her lips until she opened her mouth and accepted his probing tongue.

She felt like she was drowning in his kiss. Everything around them vanished until he was all she was aware of. He rolled them over until he was settled on top of her and continued to ravage her mouth with his searing kiss. It felt like an eternity of pure bliss to her. All time seemed to stop as she explored his lips, teeth, and tongue with her own until he suddenly broke away.

“Elizabeth…” He gasped as his chest heaved with barely reined in restraint. “I can’t…I won’t be able to…control this.”

“Shh, Ronon.” She stroked the side of his face until he calmed enough to look at her. “You don’t have to control it. I know you need this for you and I know it needs to be this way. It’s okay if this is just for you right now.” She smiled as his eyes widened in shock. “I promise it is okay. We can make it for us afterwards.”

His eyes darted back and forth between hers seeing the open approval in them. He swallowed heavily as he sat upright and straddled her waist. His hands settled on her shoulders, skimmed over her collarbones and began a slow trek down. He glanced up at her face when he cupped her full breasts in his large hands and traced his thumbs over her nipples.

Elizabeth’s eyes drifted shut and a moan escaped her lips as she felt that caress shoot straight to her core. When she opened her eyes, Ronon was captivated by the hard tips and flicking his index fingers over them repeatedly. “If you keep that up, they are going to poke through your shirt.” She blushed profusely at her own expense and giggled when he looked at her amusedly.

“I can’t have that.” He pulled her to a seated position, grabbed the hem, and pulled it over her head. “I love seeing you in this shirt too much to see it ruined.” He threw it aside and lowered her back on to the bed. She was a vision to his eyes. Her dark hair was splayed across the pillow. Her breasts were heaving from his heated gaze running over her flesh. “You are so beautiful.”

Before she had the chance to reply, Ronon leaned forward and devoured her right breast in his mouth. His hands squeezed them both while his lips sucked deeply on her nipple. Her hands clutched his head desperately trying to keep him in place until a moment later he pinned them beside her head with an insistent push to tell her to keep them there.

He continued to suck voraciously on her swollen tip and when she almost moved her hands again, he bit down on the sensitive flesh as a warning. Elizabeth arched her back and cried out from the pleasurable pain he inflicted. He quickly moved to her neglected breast and started the process all over again.

She thought she was awash in sensation before but she was wrong. His fingers skimmed over her labia and she bucked against his hand in surprise. He quickly darted one long digit in to test her wetness and found her slick with arousal that he had to taste. His teeth bore down on her left nipple before he scooted down her body and ran his tongue the length of her slit.

“Oh Ronon!” Elizabeth cried out when his tongue slipped inside her pussy and lapped at her juices. He seemed to be everywhere at once and Elizabeth’s mind reeled from the intensity of Ronon’s appetite. She spread her legs wide to give him full access and was rewarded by his lips closing in on her clit. He held it in place and thrashed his tongue over the tiny nub until she screamed out her release.

He lapped up her cum like it was the nectar of the Gods and gave her a moment to come down from her high. It was just a moment though because he couldn’t wait to be inside of her any longer. The scent of her desire drove his need to a point where he couldn’t think of anything else. He pulled his towel from his waist, threw it to the floor, and crawled up her body.

Her eyes were closed and she was breathing heavily through her mouth as she still recovered from her orgasm. In the back of his head, he knew he should wait and give her time. He didn’t even know if she wanted to go this far but his current mind frame wouldn’t let him stop. He grabbed his cock in his fist, rubbed it against her wet lips for lubrication, and slid into her tight channel to the hilt.

“Ahh!” She yelled out and her whole body went rigid. He was bigger than anyone she had ever been with and it had been so long since she had engaged in sex. Her eyes watered with the pain she felt from his occupation of her body. She felt like he was splitting her in two and her nails dug into his shoulders as she struggled to accommodate him.

She forced her mind to focus past the pain and her body to relax. Ronon needed this and she could tell by his shaking body that he was fighting himself to remain still. He was trying to give her time to adjust to his size or to change her mind. She wouldn’t let him feel rejected. She cared for him too much to let his first time in so long turn out so badly.

Not to mention, she wanted him just as much as he wanted her. “No.” She hissed between her clenched teeth as she felt him withdraw. She wrapped her legs around his ass and pulled him back into her before he changed his mind. “I want this.” Her eyes opened and pierced his with a matching hunger. “I want you.”

“I’m hurting you.” He looked so dejected as he met her gaze. He was horrified to see the tears leaking from the corners of her eyes. “I can’t…I promised you I would never hurt you.”

“Ronon, it has been a long time for me and I am unused to someone of…your size.” Her voice became a whisper as she spoke of something so personal but she needed to reassure him. “I just needed a moment to adjust. You are inside of me now.” She caressed his cheek and he nuzzled into her touch. “You feel so good inside of me and I want you to make love to me.”

“But…”

“No. Don’t give me any excuses about your control slipping. Take me as you will now.” She wrapped her arms around his neck and used her legs to pull him deeper within her pussy. “We will make love later after we have satisfied your needs.”

“Elizabeth…” His eyes pleaded with her. The man was terrified of hurting her and was giving her a chance to kindly back out.

“No, Ronon. I want to feel you move inside of me. I want us to fall apart in each other’s arms.” Her gaze fixed on his near feral eyes and knew her words were exciting him further. She gave him a sultry smile and traced a fingertip over his parted lips. “I want you to make me scream your name.”

A low growl erupted from his chest and Elizabeth could swear she saw a spark of flame ignite in Ronon’s eyes. All doubt was erased from his mind and he didn’t hesitate any longer. He pulled almost all the way out of her and slammed back in. Ronon pumped into her with long, hard strokes. Each thrust filled her completely and was accompanied by a cry from Elizabeth.

Ronon grabbed Elizabeth’s legs from around his waist and pushed her knees further apart before him. She was spread wide for him and he moaned at the sight. His eyes glazed over as he focused on his cock gripped within her tight channel. He could feel his transition into her pussy was easier as she began to relax and her desire had her dripping wet.

It felt so good to be inside of a woman again. He had forgotten until just now how alive it made him feel. He was honored to be granted her acceptance of him and grateful that she decided to share herself with him. It was the highest praise the males of his world were given.

He watched this beautiful creature writhe in ecstasy on the bed from his manipulation of her body and it fueled his desire for her even more. He slid his length from the warmth of her core, dropped her legs to the bed, and flipped her over on to her stomach. He grasped her hips in his large hands, pulled her on to her hands and knees, and drove his cock into her again.

“Ahh…Ronon!” Elizabeth cried out when she felt him push against her cervix in this new position. She couldn’t believe how incredible he made her feel. There was still some discomfort but he excited her so much that her pleasure overshadowed it. Feeling quite bold in her carnal need, Elizabeth pushed back to meet each of his thrusts.

He bared his teeth when he saw his woman fuck herself on his cock. It made something snap within him to know her need for him was as great as his for her. Sweat covered his entire body as he continued to piston his shaft into her like a madman. The sound of her cries blended with the slapping of his pelvis against her ass and drove him to further heights of passion.

Ronon could feel her tighten around his penetrating cock and knew she was close. He leaned over her back, grabbed her bouncing breasts in his hands, and pinched the tips between his index and middle fingers. Elizabeth’s whole body arched like a bow and she wailed out his name as her climax crashed over her.

His heart rejoiced when he heard his name rip from her lungs. He used his hold on her breasts to pull her back on to his length several more times as he felt his balls draw up. His thrusts became frenzied when he felt his orgasm approach. It had been 8 long years and he finally found a woman that he wanted to fill with his seed.

The thought of keeping her to himself and being able to do this with her whenever he wanted sent him over the edge. His teeth bore down on her shoulder and a guttural cry was muffled against her flesh as he exploded within her. His body convulsed as long jets of cum filled her pussy. It seemed to go on forever until he finally wrapped his arms around her waist and rolled them to their sides.

He was still buried within her as they both lay there trying to calm their breathing. It took Ronon several minutes before he could form any words and before he had the chance to speak them, he was overwhelmed with emotion. “Elizabeth…” His voice cracked as he unwillingly slipped from her warm sheath.

She heard his choked voice and rolled over to look at him in concern. “Ronon.” She saw the tears leak from his clenched eyes and palmed his cheek lovingly. “What is it?” His eyes popped open and she gasped at what she saw reflected there. “What’s wrong, Ronon?”

“Nothing. I just…” He faltered and took a deep breath before he could continue. “Thank you.” He buried his face in her breasts and slid his arms under her back to hold on to her. “Thank you.”

His body was trembling against hers and she knew it was from years of pent up emotions. “You’re welcome.” She whispered as she wrapped her arms around him and held him tight. “It’s okay, Ronon.” She kissed the top of his head and nuzzled her cheek against his hair. “I’ve got you.”

“Did I hurt you?” He raised his head and looked down into her serene face.

“A little at first but I just needed to get used to you.” She smiled and caressed the side of his face when she saw his guilty expression. “I have now so the next time should be even better than this one was.” Surprise replaced the guilt and she grinned as she nodded her head. “We are definitely doing this again, Ronon, so don’t even second guess yourself. I’ve never felt so wonderful and fulfilled in my whole life and you gave that to me.”

“Elizabeth…” The awe was written all over his face and before he had a chance to say anything more, she placed a finger over his lips.

“Shh. You don’t need to say anything except have a nice nap.” She laughed when he furrowed his brow in confusion. “You wore me out and I need a nap before we do it again. So lie down and get some rest.” She took him in her arms and cradled his head to her chest. She smiled when she felt his sigh of relief blow across her nipple and felt it pucker.

~*~

It wasn’t long until Ronon had drifted into a deep contented sleep lying half on top of her. Elizabeth ran her fingers lightly over the scars that marked his back and felt her heart break for the beautiful, young man in her arms. The pain he had been through could be seen masked behind his eyes if you looked hard enough. He wore it on his skin and felt it throughout his entire being.

He had lost everything and had to run for his life for 7 years. He had no one to care for him and couldn’t risk caring for anyone else. When John found him and brought him to Atlantis, Ronon merged well with his team but still kept to himself. It was hard to see a man so young carry the burden of such a tortured past.

He had no one to run to when he was hurting and yet he came for her in her time of need. He took care of her when she was so lost she couldn’t stand anymore. He allowed her to invade his quarters and most importantly his heart. She could tell his heart was the one thing he guarded the most and he let her in.

The gratitude on his face after they had sex tore at her very being. It wasn’t the release of his sexual tension that he thanked her for but that she accepted him into her body. She could tell that had some great significance to him. He had said that he hadn’t found a woman worthy enough to share himself with since he had resided in Atlantis.

He chose her.

Elizabeth couldn’t fool herself anymore if she tried. She told him she was falling for him but it was going beyond that and it scared her a little. She glanced down at his sleeping face and smiled softly at his peaceful features. She couldn’t ever remember seeing him this relaxed before and it made her feel so special to know she was the reason.

He had seen her at her worst and still cared about her.

She had seen him at his most vulnerable and cared for him even more.

She felt almost giddy with the emotions he invoked within her. It had been so long since she cared about someone like she did for him. Even Simon didn’t draw this kind of feeling from her.

She kissed him softly on the top of his head and smiled when he nuzzled further into her breasts. A few minutes later, she joined him in peaceful slumber still holding him tight in her arms.

~*~

“Colonel?”

John glanced up from the files he was going through and waved him in. “Major, take a seat.”

Major Lorne sat in a chair opposite him and glanced around the office. “May I ask why we are meeting in Dr. Weir’s office, Sir?”

“Elizabeth is currently taking some time off.” John rubbed his weary eyes and reclined back in his chair. “She has been through an ordeal lately and I ordered she remain under protection.”

“Protection? What has happened, Sir?”

“She is being stalked, Major, and I’m gonna need your help to find this guy before things get worse. We have all these files of new transfers to go through.” He slapped his hands down on the twin stacks and let out a deep sigh. “He has already attacked her once and I won’t see it happen again.”

“What do we know so far, Colonel?”

“He has access to her office. He has broken into her quarters and he can get in and out of medical without raising any suspicions.” John clasped his hands in front of him as he placed his elbows on the armrests. “She is a mess and refuses to go back to her quarters.”

“Where is she staying then, Colonel?” Lorne asked in curiosity as he grabbed one of the files.

“She is under Ronon’s protection for the time being and staying in his quarters.” John took another file and began to read through it as he kept addressing his second-in-command. “It’s funny but I get the distinct impression that those two are getting involved.”

“No kidding?” Lorne smiled as he stared over the top of the file he was reading. “You really think so, Sir?”

“They were looking very…close in the gym this morning and if the look in Ronon’s eyes is anything to go by, I’d say the big guy is gonna put up a hell of a fight to keep it that way.”

“Does Dr. Weir feel the same?”

“She refuses to leave his side and couldn’t tear her eyes away from him in the gym or when Beckett was examining her.” John replied casually as he continued to read. “I think it is great for the both of them. I just hope we can settle this soon so they can figure out if this thing is real or just blossomed out of proximity.”

“Yeah. I see what you mean.” Lorne tossed one file aside and grabbed another. “She could be reaching out to him because of gratitude or something. What is Ronon thinking?”

“He’s probably thinking he’s been alone for years and would like to find a woman to love, Major.” John’s steel gray eyes pierced Lorne’s and a hard edge crept into his voice. “The man is entitled to find happiness after living through the hell he went through. If he finds that with Elizabeth, then I am happy for him. Now get back to work.”

“Yes, Sir.”

~*~