Seeds of Jealousy

Justin



It’s been two weeks since Dee came home. Michael and I are just leaving the loft after having dinner with Brian.



Brian and I managed to sneak a few minutes alone in the bathroom. Kissing him again was just what I needed after that night at the loft when Dee first came home. I miss sleeping with him.



I still can’t believe I had to kiss Michael like that. Of course, I was thinking of Brian at the time, even though they both taste totally different. So far, we’ve had to kiss a total of four times. Not full blown kisses, though, not after seeing the look in Brian’s eyes the first time. Since then, we just tell Dee that we just don’t like showing too much in front of others. To make it convincing, Michael added that we’re also afraid we won’t be able to stop once we start.



After leaving the loft, we head back to Michael’s.



“You okay?” he asks me.



“Yeah, but I miss him already.”



He nods his head. “I know how you feel. This is going to be harder than I thought. Being without Ben, I mean.”



I offer him an appreciative smile, knowing he does know how I feel. “Did you see their faces when we kissed?”



“Yea, I can still see the stares. Justin, you know that it meant nothing, right?” he asks, looking a little concerned.



“Of course. It meant nothing to me, either. I hope we can get away without doing it again. Nothing personal Mikey, but I just want Brian.” I look away with a frown.



“I know and I want Ben home,” he whispers.



After getting to Michael’s, we each do our own thing. I sketch the only thing in my mind which, of course, is my family – Brian and the kids. Michael is busy going over the latest Rage stuff.



“Who would have thought that you and I would be living together?” Michael jokes, trying to lighten the mood.



“Not me. I figured when we all got older that we would put you in one of those homes.” I smile at the look of surprise on his face, but I can’t maintain it for more than a few seconds and I have to look away.



“You really miss him. I really miss Ben. Fuck, we are pathetic,” he says with a sigh.



“No, we are just in love. You know, you can have Ben come over; I can go out for a while.” I offer.



The four of us have had to arrange a lot of meetings over the last couple of weeks. Ben comes over here to spend time with Michael and Brian brings the kids over so we can spend time together. Never on the same night, of course.



“I was hoping you would say that,” Michael admits.



Smiling I get up just as the door opens and Ben walks in.



“Hey, Ben,” I greet him.



“Hey, Justin. Can I steal your boyfriend for awhile?”



Smiling, I nod. “You can have him. I have my eye on the man you are staying with.”



He laughs. “Please, take him. He’s an asshole.”



“I know, but man it’s a tight one.”



He wipes a tear from my cheek and then hugs me. “I know you miss him, Justin.” After a reassuring hug, he pulls away. “Hey, I’ve been wanting to talk to you guys.” He takes a seat as we both wait for him to say what’s on his mind.



“I have noticed some things with Dee that just don’t seem right.”



“She hasn’t been right in a long time,” Michael informs us bitterly.



“No, I mean about this whole memory loss thing. I keep finding her in lies. I mean, things that she claims not to remember, but then suddenly does,” he explains. “She also called your daughter Justine, but quickly corrected herself and said Anna. I asked her about it and she said that for some reason you were in her mind.”



I run my fingers through my hair, wondering what this might mean.



“You think she’s been lying?” Michael asks, posing the question on all our minds.



“I don’t know. She seems to have an answer for everything but yet there is too much that isn’t right. I will keep my eyes and ears open.”



“Thanks, Ben,” I say with a nod before getting to my feet. I’m having a hard time believing that even Dee could go to those lengths.



“Justin, you don’t have to go out. Why don’t you just hang with us?” Michael suggests. I can tell he is worried.



“I’m okay; I’ll just hang in my room. You guys deserve some time alone. Besides my kiss got him horny.” I walk off hearing Mikey loudly deny it while Ben laughs.



Heading to my room, I sit on the bed with my sketchbook. After a few minutes, I realize that I’ve got too much on my mind to concentrate on drawing and I pick up the phone instead.



Brian



“Hey, Sunshine.” I say into the phone, having seen his name on the call display before I answered.



“Hey, is it okay to call now?” he asks, worried that Dee might be listening.



“Yeah, she’s in bed. What’s up, Sunshine?” I hear him sigh.



“I just miss you,” he answers sadly.



“I miss you too, baby. I haven’t had a chance to tell you yet, but I talked to the doctor today.”



“You did?” he asks, sounding surprised.



“Yeah,” I answer with a smile. “I would have told you when we were alone earlier, but I had other things on my mind.”



He chuckles softly. “Yeah, me too. So, what did the doctor say?”



I look through the doorway and see her sound asleep in the bed. “He wants to try a few things.”



“That’s good,” he all but whispers.



“Spill it, Justin.” I know him well enough to know something is bothering him.



“Ben told us she’s been doing some strange things, like accidentally calling our daughter Justine and then trying to explain it away by saying she’s been thinking of me lately,” he says.



“Yeah, he told me that, too. Don’t worry, I’m keeping a close eye on her.”



“Ok,” he says dismally.



“So, what are you doing?” I ask, trying to cheer my partner up.



“Sitting here sketching,” he replies.



“What are you sketching? My dick again?” I know I’m not far off the mark when I hear him laugh. The sound brings a smile to my lips.



“Yeah, something like that. Since I haven’t seen it in a few days, I think I might have forgotten what it truly looks like,” he sighs unhappily.



“Put the book down,” I tell him in a slow, seductive voice.



“Brian, we can’t. What if she wakes up?” he asks. We have done this a few times when I’m in the tub in the mornings.



“Stop worrying and just take your cock out, Sunshine. I have mine out, stroking it, thinking of you,” I moan into the phone.



“Oh, God.”



I can tell he’s doing the same thing on the other end of the line. “Is it hard?” I ask.



“Yes,” he moans. “And I know you are.”



“How do you know,” I ask, biting back a moan of my own.



“Because you always are when it comes to us.”



I laugh, knowing he is right.



“Just imagine me there, Brian, stroking you while you stroke me,” he breathes in a throaty whisper.



“Shit, Justin.” I moan.



“I know, it feels good,” he tells me.



“Now, I am laying you back, kissing you all over. Moving down as I take you into my mouth.”



We both moan.



I stroke faster, listening to my baby pleasure himself. I want to hear him cum. “I suck you hard and fast. Do you feel it,” I hear him let out a low growl.



“Yessss,” is all he says.



I know that tone. “You have one of the toys out, don’t you, Sunshine? Pushing it up that tight ass of yours.”



“Yes, I am,” he tells me with in that sexy voice that drives me insane.



“Take it out.”



I hear a grunt of protest and then a sigh at the feeling of loss. I grin wickedly. “Now, slam it back in.”



We both want to scream. I can’t, of course, with Dee in the next room, but I hear him getting louder.



“Again,” I tell him as I slam my hand down on my cock.



“God, Brian, I love you. Can you feel my tight ass, gripping your dick?”



I knew this wasn’t going to be that easy.



“Shit, Justin, so tight.” I squeeze my hand around my throbbing cock.



“I’m squeezing your cock with my ass, Brian. Oh God, I’m close,” he mutters.



“Me, too. Come on, Justin, let me hear you cum,” I demand “If I know you, you are on your knees with the dildo up your ass. Now, slam down onto it like it was my dick buried in your ass.”



“Fuck, Brian!”



I hear his breath hitch as he pants wantonly into the phone. He screams my name as his orgasm hits.



The sound sends me over the edge like it does every time. His name is a whisper on my lips as I shoot my load.



Both of us are breathing heavy and I can hear the rustling of bedcovers as he stretches out on the bed.



“Damn, Sunshine, I can’t wait to fuck you again. That was hot,” I breathe.



“I know. I can’t wait for the real thing,” he whispers.



I smile at the thought.



“You are amazing, Justin,” I tell him, cleaning myself up



“So are you. Brian, I love you so much.”



I can tell he’s trying hard not to cry. “I love you, too, Baby.” I really do love him.



“What if she never truly remembers? If she hasn’t been lying all along, I mean.”



“Justin, I promise it won’t be much longer. I already told the doctor that we can’t keep this up,” I whisper.



“I know, but I just want to be home, in our bed.”



I lean my head back.



“Me too, Sunshine.”



“Brian?”



I know what’s coming by the tentative tone of his voice.



“No, we haven’t slept together. I won’t go that far.” I relax a little when I hear his relieved sigh.



“Okay. We going to hook up tomorrow?” he asks.



“Yes, you know where to meet me. Stop in at the daycare and see the twins. Or better yet, you can come see me first and we will go down together.” I run a hand through my hair.



“I’ll do that,” he says with a laugh.



“What?” I ask.



“You just want to fuck me in your office again.”



Laughing, I have to agree. “You have always been onto me.” I don’t even hear Dee as she comes out of the bedroom.



Dee



“Everything okay?” I ask pointing to the phone. It’s not like I don’t know who’s on the other end.



“Yeah, Mikey needed my opinion on something for the new issue of Rage,” he lies.



“Why don’t you talk tomorrow? Come on to bed,” I tell him.



“In a sec.”



I walk to the bed, pretending not to listen when he turns his attention back to the phone.



“I love you, Sunshine, always remember that. This will be over soon.” There is silence and then “I promise; get some rest.” Another break “Love you too. Later.”



After hanging up, he comes in and lies down with me, but I have other plans. While he was on the phone, I decided tonight was the night I will get him to have sex with me. Knowing he thinks I’m his wife, he won’t be able to refuse. Oh yes, Sunshine, it will be over soon, all right.



Just not the way you expect.



I can’t seem to stop the smile spreading across my face. This is it. Tonight is the night. In a matter of minutes, the man I love will be making love to me.



Yeah, Justin, it will be over real soon.



Over for you, that is.