Seeds of Jealousy

Justin



It’s been a week since we found out that Dee has memory loss. We have been to see her, but after the second day, I had to stop going. She had to think that I went home with Michael. I didn’t, of course. I’ve been staying at the hotel. Brian spends most of the day at the hospital with Dee, but we spend the nights together. There will be enough separation once she’s released; we want to spend as much time together as we can until then.



Michael, Ben and Brianna, along with the gang have been in the Pitts moving things around.



Ben has been awesome. He isn’t happy about this, but he understands why we have to do it and he knows nothing will ever happen between me and Michael.



I hate that I have to act like Brian and I aren’t together but it’s even worse knowing that I’ll have to pretend the twins aren’t mine. It was hard enough when she was pregnant, but it’s going to be even worse now. I’ve held them, bonded with them. Aside from meeting Brian, their birth was the best thing that ever happened to me and now I have to deny them. How fucking fair is that?



I’d give anything if Daphne could have been their mother. Of course, Daphne’s husband might not like that idea much.



“You going back this morning?” Brian asks me as he puts his pants on.



We’ve been trying to get things together to go home even, but it’s hard, knowing how difficult it will be once we get back.



“Yeah,” I reply with a sigh. “What choice do I have? She’s being discharged today. I still wish they could keep her, though.” I pick up my own pants.



“I know, but hopefully it won’t be too long before things are back to the way they should be. And I meant the promise, Justin, I will make sure you spend time with your kids we’ll spend as much time as we can together. This isn’t going to come between us.” He pulls me into his arms, kissing me hard.



Once we break the kiss I look into his eyes. “We should get going. You don’t want to be late picking up your ‘wife’,” I whisper.



Getting our things together I see him out the corner of my eye, watching me. “What?” I ask.



“I love you,” he says with a smile.



“Aww, Brian, I love you, too, and I know that we’ll be together in the end. In the meantime, I’ll just have to put up with Michael and his Captain Astro stuff.”



“Look at it this way, you have more time to work on Rage.” He smiles at me.



“Yeah and I am going to introduce a new villain. Her name is going to be Eclipse. You know, because she tries to block out the Sunshine from Rage’s life. She is trying to block me from my world. She’s an evil villain who uses her sneakiest tricks on Rage, trying to come between him and JT and using all her powers of evil to get what she wants,” I say, trying to make it sound like I’m joking, but I’m really not.



“And Rage is going to save the day once more so he and JT can live happily ever after,” Brian tries to reassure me.



“I hope so,” I whisper. “If not Rage, then some other hero.”



“What’s that Sunshine? A hero other then me? I’m not that old, yet. I can still use my powers on you.” He gives me the same look he did on the stairs of Woody’s after the Stockwell defeat.



“Take off your pants. Let me suck you and fuck me,” I say without a single blink.



“Later Sunshine, right now, I want to suck you and have you make love to me.”



I smile as he pulls me to him.



**



After we have had two more rounds of blowjobs and love making we are packed and standing by the cars.



Pulling me close once more, he gives me a long, soft kiss before pulling back to look into my eyes. “We’ll be together again before you know it, I promise.”



“I know, just hope it’s not too long. I don’t want to end up killing Mikey.” We share a small smile.



“Well I should get going. I told them I would be there fifteen minutes ago,” he whispers to me.



I nod my head and start to move away but he reaches for my hand, making me look back at him.



“I meant it Justin, I love you. I am lucky to have such an understanding partner,” he says with a gentle smile.



“Yes you are, but so am I. I love you and would do anything for you. This proves it; I am pretending to be Michael’s lover.” I crunch up my nose as he chuckles.



“I’m so sorry. Hey, maybe you can finish that hand job I started on him all those years ago.” I slap him for that one. “Or maybe not,” he amends with a laugh.



“Later.” I say, smiling sadly.



“Later, Sunshine.”



I wave as he gets into his car and drives away.



Once he’s out of sight, I head home, I mean, to the loft where everyone is gathered to wait for Brian and Dee.



“You okay, Justin?” Brianna asks me.



“I’m fine, sweetheart. I am just going to need to learn to deal with this until it is settled.” I hug her to me as the door opens.



“Welcome home!” they all yell. I just look at Brian who is looking at me.



“Thank you. I just want to thank you all for being there for me,” she says, smiling at everyone.



Brianna goes over and hugs her mom. “Welcome home, Mom.”



“Thanks, sweetie. I missed you. Help your dad with the bag.”



Brianna nods, taking the bag from Brian and placing it in the room.



“Justin, Michael, I want to thank you both for taking time out to visit me. You are good friends.” She hugs us both.



“We do what we can for Brian, and you.” Michael looks over at me and I nod in agreement.



Brian



I can tell she’s making them both of them uncomfortable but what can I do?



“Justin, would you help me in the kitchen?” I ask him.



“What for?” Dee asks.



“Justin is a great cook. He made some of this and I just wanted him to check it while I get drinks.”



She nods her head.



Once in the kitchen, I pull him to me and plant a quick kiss on his lips. “You okay?”



“Yeah, I just need to remember she needs this right now,” he whispers.



“You are incredible.” I give him one more kiss before making my way to the fridge.



After getting the drinks, we head back out to where everyone is waiting. I sit on the couch and Dee sits next to me putting her head on my shoulder.



I see Justin sit down as Dee looks up. “You okay Justin?” She asks him.



“Yeah, I’m fine.” He turns to look out the window.



“Michael, I think your boyfriend is feeling left out. You need to give him some love.” I see Justin look up and at me, then to Michael.



“He had it last night,” Michael says, trying to hide his discomfort.



I laugh, knowing that isn’t a lie. He did, but it was with me, not Michael.



“Well, show him some love now. He looks a bit down. If you are worried about me, I will be fine. I have my family and friends.” She looks around.



“I know, and they are great.” Justin admits, remembering how they were all there after the bashing.



“Mikey?” Dee prods, looking at him. “Don’t be shy, sit with your man.”



I look at Ben who looks away as well.



“I would rather not right now,” Michael tells her. “I’m eating.”



“Is there something wrong?” she asks, starting to get worked up. “Did I say something I shouldn’t have? Are you fighting?”



“No, we aren’t fighting. We just don’t need to be touching at all times,” Michael tells her calmly.



Looking down, Dee starts to cry. “I’m coming between you guys. It’s my fault you didn’t have that time alone.”



“Just give him some love, Michael,” Deb tells him with a warning look and a small nod in Dee’s direction.



“Fine.” Mikey walks over to sit next to Justin and put his arm around him.



“Brian? Is this my fault?” Dee asks, looking at me.



“No, they just don’t want to be more intimate right now.”



“Michael?” Dee asks questioningly.



Michael



“Fine.” I lean over, placing a light kiss on Justin’s lips.



“You can do better then that,” Dee says, smiling at me.



I look to Ben and Brian who are looking at me then I turn to Justin.



“Don’t take this the wrong way.” I lean into him, kissing him. I can feel him tense up. I kiss his neck, whisper in his ear. "We have to make it look real. That way she doesn't freak out. It’s just a friend thing.” I feel him nod his head.



He lifts my head and kisses me, running his hand on my back as I deepen the kiss.



Shit, now I see why Brian is always kissing him. I pull back, looking at his face. He just gives me a smirk and a shrug, which makes me, laugh.



“What’s so funny?”



I hear Brian’s tone and when I look over at him I can see he’s not happy.



“Nothing, just that he knows how to kiss,” I reply, placing an arm around him.



“I know,” Brian and Justin answer at once. Brian places his hand over mine, moving it back slightly, though no one else notices.



“How would you know?” Dee asks Brian.



“We kissed under the mistletoe one Christmas,” Justin answers quickly.



“Oh, okay. I guess that makes sense. I see he’s smiling again.”



“He always smiles like that after we kiss,” I reply.



“So do you,” Justin says with a smile. I know he’s thinking of kissing Brian, not me.



“I need to use the bathroom,” Dee says, getting up and walking toward the restroom.



Once she is out of site Brian jumps in on me. “What the fuck was that?”



“A kiss. Brian, we have to make it look real. If I didn’t do it she would have been upset and you don’t want to upset her.” Looking into his eyes I can tell he’s pissed.



“They’re right. I hate to see it too, but you kiss Michael all the time, so I’m just looking at it as a friend thing,” Ben interjects.



“But, what about you?” Brian asks Justin.



“It meant nothing. I went along with it. I would much rather it was you.”



Brian nods and forces a smile. “Well, make sure to limit those ‘friendly’ kisses.”



We both nod our heads.



Dee



I got them to kiss and I could tell Brian wasn’t happy. From the look on his face he was pissed.



They kissed like real lovers. Michael looked like he was really into it.



Ben looked away during it but Brian had his eye on them the whole time to see just how far they would go.



Yes, this is going to be fun.



A lot of fun.