Seeds of Jealousy
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M through R › Queer As Folk
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
35
Views:
8,132
Reviews:
11
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
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I do not own Queer As Folk, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
chapter 20
Justin
It’s been three days since the twins came home and I already can’t imagine life without them. They have made my life so much brighter.
Lindsay is on her way to get Dee. It’s been quite a ride to get here.
I know a lot of people might think I’m going for custody as some sort of revenge on Dee, but the truth is, I want them in my life more then just weekends. I am worried she will try to use them as some sort of bargaining chip.
I’m afraid she won’t let me see them since she did have hopes they would be Brian’s. I don’t want to be mean, but I don’t want to lose my children either.
I would even settle for joint custody. I just don’t want her to have the right to take them from me. I may not like her, or trust her, but she is still their mother.
Looking down at ‘the stars’ I can’t help but fall even more if that’s even possible.
“What are you thinking?” Brian asks me.
“That I am willing to go joint with her. I know it’s crazy, but she is their mother.” He pulls me into him, kissing me.
“What was that for?” I ask, looking up into his eyes.
“For being you,” he answers, smiling at me.
I put a hand on his chest. “What she did was wrong, Brian, but she does love them. At least I hope she does. Since they’re not yours, I’m not entirely sure how she feels.” I look away from him and he gently turns my face back to look at him.
“Justin, you are doing what you feel is right for your children. I think she loves them. Who wouldn’t?”
Smiling, I kiss him one last time before getting the bottles for the ‘grandmas’ to feed the twins.
“Thanks, sweetheart,” they both tell me. I look from the purely joyful look on Deb’s face to the matching one my mom wears. Man, things have come along way.
Sitting next to Mel I take a deep breath. “I want to change it to joint custody,” I say quietly.
“Are you sure? I mean it will make you look better for wanting to let the mother have some rights,” she says, looking at the folder in front of us, “but are you sure you want to give her that much leeway after everything she’s done?”
“Yes, I’m sure. She loves Brian, she loves Brianna and she loves the twins and I want to do this for them. They deserve a mother,” I reply. “But I still want some sort of custody. I won’t take them from her, but I don’t want her to be able to take them from me either. I want to be fair, and I think the best for all concerned is for us to share custody.
She nods her head slowly. “Okay Justin, we will do that then.” She pats my leg as she gets up.
Looking around at sight of Brian, Brianna and the twins, I know that this will all work itself out.
Yes, joint custody is the best option. Dee shouldn’t be too upset about that, plus, she won’t be able to take them from me completely. Now, all I can do is sit back and wait for her to get here and hope that things won’t turn ugly.
Dee
I’m driving back to the loft with Lindsay, thinking about the time that I had to think in the hospital. I know that I’m doing the right thing.
“So, what are you going to do, Dee?” Lindsay asks me.
“I’m going to show them that I’m serious about this change. I am going to look for an apartment a few blocks away from the loft so that Justin and Brian can see the kids anytime they want to. Also, Brianna wants to stay close to her fathers.” I look down at my hands, smiling.
“That’s great, Dee. I know they will be happy to see that you are serious about this, that you’ve changed and that you’re willing to do what it takes to make things right. Moving into your own place is the perfect start.”
I think about when I decided to do all this. Lindsay has talked to me a few times about how things are, about how Justin and Brian have been together for a while.
I can see the love they share when they are around each other. I want the kids to be around that, for me to be around it. They are good for the soul.
Pulling up in front of the loft, we head upstairs. I can’t wait to see my babies.
Walking inside, I see Brian and Brianna holding the twins and my heart just melts. Shaking that feeling, I smile at Justin.
“They were just fed,” he tells me, smiling.
“Cool.” I walk over kissing each of them on the cheek, including Brianna.
“Hi, Mom.” She hugs me.
“Hi, baby girl,” I reply, returning the hug.
“I have some good news,” I tell her.
“Cool.” She burps Aidan. “What is it?”
Before I have a chance to answer, I see Mel walking toward me.
“Mel, what’s going on?” Lindsay asks.
“I have something for you, Dee.” Mel hands me an envelope and I open it to find a sheaf of official looking papers inside. The only words that catch my eye are ‘petition for custody’. I look up at Justin who moves toward me.
“I want to be a part of their life, Dee.” He’s standing beside Brian who slips an arm around Justin in a show of moral support.
I don’t even hear the rest of his words through the ones screaming inside my head. All this time I was thinking I was wrong about him and now he’s trying to take my kids away from me. After everything I’ve done, I won’t stand a chance if this goes to court. I slowly look around the room at the faces of those I thought I could trust before turning my gaze back to Justin who’s looking at me with an expression of concern. Over my dead body, I think to myself, my former dislike for the man coming once again to the surface along with a wave of anger for the man I thought was one of my dearest friends.
Over my dead body
It’s been three days since the twins came home and I already can’t imagine life without them. They have made my life so much brighter.
Lindsay is on her way to get Dee. It’s been quite a ride to get here.
I know a lot of people might think I’m going for custody as some sort of revenge on Dee, but the truth is, I want them in my life more then just weekends. I am worried she will try to use them as some sort of bargaining chip.
I’m afraid she won’t let me see them since she did have hopes they would be Brian’s. I don’t want to be mean, but I don’t want to lose my children either.
I would even settle for joint custody. I just don’t want her to have the right to take them from me. I may not like her, or trust her, but she is still their mother.
Looking down at ‘the stars’ I can’t help but fall even more if that’s even possible.
“What are you thinking?” Brian asks me.
“That I am willing to go joint with her. I know it’s crazy, but she is their mother.” He pulls me into him, kissing me.
“What was that for?” I ask, looking up into his eyes.
“For being you,” he answers, smiling at me.
I put a hand on his chest. “What she did was wrong, Brian, but she does love them. At least I hope she does. Since they’re not yours, I’m not entirely sure how she feels.” I look away from him and he gently turns my face back to look at him.
“Justin, you are doing what you feel is right for your children. I think she loves them. Who wouldn’t?”
Smiling, I kiss him one last time before getting the bottles for the ‘grandmas’ to feed the twins.
“Thanks, sweetheart,” they both tell me. I look from the purely joyful look on Deb’s face to the matching one my mom wears. Man, things have come along way.
Sitting next to Mel I take a deep breath. “I want to change it to joint custody,” I say quietly.
“Are you sure? I mean it will make you look better for wanting to let the mother have some rights,” she says, looking at the folder in front of us, “but are you sure you want to give her that much leeway after everything she’s done?”
“Yes, I’m sure. She loves Brian, she loves Brianna and she loves the twins and I want to do this for them. They deserve a mother,” I reply. “But I still want some sort of custody. I won’t take them from her, but I don’t want her to be able to take them from me either. I want to be fair, and I think the best for all concerned is for us to share custody.
She nods her head slowly. “Okay Justin, we will do that then.” She pats my leg as she gets up.
Looking around at sight of Brian, Brianna and the twins, I know that this will all work itself out.
Yes, joint custody is the best option. Dee shouldn’t be too upset about that, plus, she won’t be able to take them from me completely. Now, all I can do is sit back and wait for her to get here and hope that things won’t turn ugly.
Dee
I’m driving back to the loft with Lindsay, thinking about the time that I had to think in the hospital. I know that I’m doing the right thing.
“So, what are you going to do, Dee?” Lindsay asks me.
“I’m going to show them that I’m serious about this change. I am going to look for an apartment a few blocks away from the loft so that Justin and Brian can see the kids anytime they want to. Also, Brianna wants to stay close to her fathers.” I look down at my hands, smiling.
“That’s great, Dee. I know they will be happy to see that you are serious about this, that you’ve changed and that you’re willing to do what it takes to make things right. Moving into your own place is the perfect start.”
I think about when I decided to do all this. Lindsay has talked to me a few times about how things are, about how Justin and Brian have been together for a while.
I can see the love they share when they are around each other. I want the kids to be around that, for me to be around it. They are good for the soul.
Pulling up in front of the loft, we head upstairs. I can’t wait to see my babies.
Walking inside, I see Brian and Brianna holding the twins and my heart just melts. Shaking that feeling, I smile at Justin.
“They were just fed,” he tells me, smiling.
“Cool.” I walk over kissing each of them on the cheek, including Brianna.
“Hi, Mom.” She hugs me.
“Hi, baby girl,” I reply, returning the hug.
“I have some good news,” I tell her.
“Cool.” She burps Aidan. “What is it?”
Before I have a chance to answer, I see Mel walking toward me.
“Mel, what’s going on?” Lindsay asks.
“I have something for you, Dee.” Mel hands me an envelope and I open it to find a sheaf of official looking papers inside. The only words that catch my eye are ‘petition for custody’. I look up at Justin who moves toward me.
“I want to be a part of their life, Dee.” He’s standing beside Brian who slips an arm around Justin in a show of moral support.
I don’t even hear the rest of his words through the ones screaming inside my head. All this time I was thinking I was wrong about him and now he’s trying to take my kids away from me. After everything I’ve done, I won’t stand a chance if this goes to court. I slowly look around the room at the faces of those I thought I could trust before turning my gaze back to Justin who’s looking at me with an expression of concern. Over my dead body, I think to myself, my former dislike for the man coming once again to the surface along with a wave of anger for the man I thought was one of my dearest friends.
Over my dead body