Back to the 70s

Back to the 70s

Pairings: Jackie Burkhart/Steven Hyde (main), Donna Pinciotti/Erik Forman, Fez/Nina Bartell, Michael Kelso/Brooke Rockwell

Rating: M / X / NC-17 for future chapters for swearing, violence, blood and sexual content.

Disclaimer: I don’t own ‘That ‘70s Show’ or any of its characters. NO COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT INTENDED!

A/N: Hey there! This is my first FanFiction for ‘That ‘70s Show’ and I hope you’ll like it. This will practically rewrite the show because I hated Season 8 but I have to admit that many problems already started in earlier Seasons.

In this chapter I will rewrite Episode 8 of Season 3: ‘Jackie bags Hyde’ so there will be some quotations from that episode. This chapter also got quite long but I hope you’ll still like it.

Please leave a comment; even if it is criticism, I’m striving to get better after all. Enjoy!

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Chapter 2: Jackie bags Hyde

Point Place, Wisconsin

November 11, 1977

Veterans Day

Location:

Forman’s Basement

Hyde sighed: “Okay, you know what; you forced me to do this. I'm gonna explain my

feelings to you through a highly disciplined form of Japanese poetry: Haiku.

‘My heart aches with pain.

When I see you I vomit.

Die away from me.’

Sayonara.” With that he turned around and went into his room.

Jackie stood there dumbfounded. She could hear Donna say ‘Ouch’ and laughing in the background but nothing really registered. What the hell did just happen? One moment she was dying on the floor with a figment of her imagination talking to her and the next she stood in Erik’s basement and had to listen to this horrible poem again.

‘God she would even take that stupid hurtful Haiku Steven once told her again if she could get another chance out of it.’

‘Well I guess you deserve one.’

‘I must say you wished for an interesting starting point but I can see the merit in it, just don’t screw it up this time and keep in mind that everything you do can change the things you remember.’

Remember … the memories ran through her like a flash but … it couldn’t be real right? She wasn’t really back here in the 70s, living through all of it again … able to change things— no! This was some kind of dream because of the blood loss. It couldn’t be real. Angels and miracles like this didn’t exist … Time travelling, sure, that sounded like one of Erik’s movies or comics.

“—CKIE!”

“What?” Jackie was startled out of her thoughts by Donna’s voice shouting her name.

“You kinda zoned out for a minute there.” Donna had stopped laughing and looked a little concerned. “Look I know Hyde probably hurt you just now, but you need to stop stalking him. It only annoys him. I mean … you are to Hyde —”

“What Fez is to me.” Jackie said like she was in trance. Oh it was a little different but she remembered this conversation. Could memories be that vivid? Donna looked so real, sitting there on the back of the Couch with her magazine and she had red hair again! She also looked younger. Come to think of it, Hyde had also looked younger even though she only saw him for a moment. His hair … it was longer just like it had been back then and he didn’t have that stupid mustache anymore that made him look like a porn star. Looking downward she saw the same blouse and the short-legged jeans suit she had been wearing that day. It was eerily real.

“Exactly.” Donna looked a little stunned that Jackie seemed to know where she was going with that metaphor. They didn’t think that much alike did they? She shrugged that thought off; it had just been obvious what she meant, even to Jackie.

Jackie ignored her and looked around. Even the basement looked like she remembered and it all felt so real. She felt younger, like she hadn’t really grown into her body yet and even though she knew she wasn’t anymore, she remembered the last years clearly after all, she felt 16 again. No … it couldn’t be. It had to be a dream but how would she know? Well in a dream she could do anything she wanted, right? Everything was possible. So why not get a Popsicle out of the fridge with just the power of her mind? She stared at the freezer but nothing happened. Okay … so her dreams sucked nothing new here.

She pinched herself. Okay, that hurt! That didn’t really say something, did it? She also heard that letters and numbers are distorted in dreams so it would be hard to read. She looked at her watch and could read the time without any problems, no matter how often she looked away and back again. She then began to count her fingers and had no problem with it. Now slightly panicked, she walked over to Donna and sat next to her. Looking down at the magazine in her friends’ hands she could read every word and the topic wasn’t something she really knew about so it was hard to believe her mind could come up with it.

Oh God was this real? She wished she could ask Eric but if the Angel came to him when he and Donna had broken up then it didn’t even happen yet and it probably wouldn’t if she could prevent the break up by talking to them about their fears. Or at least to Donna … the Eric in this time would hardly confide in Jackie, she would have to take it slow with him and become his friend first.

She felt like tearing her hair out. Was she really planning to change her past? Did she actually believe this was real? That she was back in the day she and Steven had their first official date instead of her mind playing tricks on her? If she was, then she should start acting her part soon, after all she might needed to change the outcome but she wanted the date to happen and for that she had to do the same things as last time.

Oh for heavens sake what was wrong with her? Was she planning and panicking already even though this couldn’t possibly be real? But thinking about all the possibilities for a moment, she realized that she didn’t really care. If this was a dream or some kind of hallucination she might as well enjoy it until she died. Surely there was no harm in that. If it was real, as unbelievable as it seemed, than she really should use this opportunity, not only for herself but for all her friends. Hadn’t the Angel said it was her last chance? Well dream or reality she had no intention of screwing up! She was Jackie Burkhart and she would get what she wanted and right now she wanted her first date with Steven Hyde!

She cleared her throat and said: “Oh God. Steven and I will never happen.” She did say something like that the last time, didn’t she?

Donna put her arm around Jackie and said: “Jackie, it's all right. You just gotta get over this. Be strong.“

Jackie nodded, that sounded familiar. “You're right Donna, you're right. Oh, I wish my Daddy could buy him for me.” she answered and rested her head on Donnas shoulder.

Donna sighed and said in a placating tone: “Yeah, I know. I know.”

They both looked up when Fez entered the room and held something under their noses. “Does this smell like chocolate to you?”

Giving him a disgusted look Jackie separated herself from Donna and stood up again. This was about the time where she came up with the glorious idea to get herself a date for the Veterans Day Party. Chip … the guy who called her a bitch. Well at least Steven punched him for it and whatever happened after that with Mrs. Forman in her kitchen convinced Steven to go out with her. Since she had no idea what Mrs. Forman said or what Steven was thinking at the time, it would be best to play along to get her date. She only had to change the outcome but she couldn’t rush things. This Steven didn’t know anything about their relationship, what they went through and what they felt for each other. This was the Steven who took her to the prom, who spent the day at the mall with her and at Sizzlers, who taught her to be Zen. The Steven who went to jail for her … Ah!

‘Don’t get lost in your own thoughts, play along.’ She thought.

“Fez that is disgusting. Donna I will see you at the party later.” She finally said grabbing her things and leaving the basement.

“Bye Jackie.”

“See you later my goddess.”

Shaking her head she ran up the stairs outside and sprinted to her car … which seemed to be in perfect condition. Quite ironic since she just crashed it into a tree. It was no wonder her hands shook a little as she got into the Lincoln but she had to get a grip! She wouldn’t let that accident stop her from driving. It was a crucial part of her date later and … Jackie Burkhart wasn’t afraid of anything!

Okay, not true but the accident hadn’t been her fault at all and … well … if this was a dream nothing could actually happen to her … even though pinching herself did hurt so she wouldn’t put that theory to test anytime soon. Well and if this was the past, then the accident didn’t happen yet.

‘No need to worry right?’ With that thought she started the car and carefully drove to the garage Chip and his band had rented to practice. That’s where she found him last time.

The drive to the garage was thankfully uneventful and she tried to put on a happy face as she parked. She was never really interested in Chip, his music was okay and he put on a nice front but now that she knew what lurked behind it, she was even less thrilled about spending time with him. It was for a good cause and if everything went right he would pay for his stupidity later. That actually put a smile on her face and she got out of the car to walk inside the garage where the band was. Some of them were playing, others were still tuning their instruments. She walked up to Chip who smiled as he saw her.

“Jackie! Long time no see.” He exclaimed and pulled her in for a hug.

Uncomfortable she patted him on the back. “Yeah ... I know. That’s why I came here. I thought you could be my date on a Veterans Day Party.”

“A Party? Sure. Wait— as a real date?” he asked grinning full of himself.

“Yes, a real date Chip. Are you up for it?” Jackie was slowly losing her patience with him. How did she ever stand this guy? Oh right, because she thought he was fawning over her. Pretty naïve.

“You bet I am. Just let me get my jacket.” He walked away from her to get his jacket and said good-bye to his friends. They knew he had been trying to get into Jackie Burkhart’s pants for a long time now, so nobody said something about him leaving practice just like that.

“Great let’s go.” Jackie took him to her Lincoln and heard him whistle.

“Nice ride Jackie. Much better than the Van you drove us in last time.” he patted the hood of the car before climbing in the passenger seat.

“Yes this is my Dad’s car. The Van was Michaels.” She explained as she started the car and pulled down the road.

“Cool. So where is this party?” Chip asked slinging his arm behind the driver’s seat, probably trying to be suave about it.

“It’s at Eric Forman’s house. His father is a veteran and he holds a party every year.”

“Forman … Oh you mean that loser brother of Laurie Forman?”

Jackie had to bite her tongue to prevent herself from screaming. Eric wasn’t the loser in that family but it was no wonder that a guy like Chip had a higher opinion of a slut like Laurie than of her younger brother. She just had to put up with him for a few more hours. She could do it!

“Yes Laurie is part of that family. She will probably be there.” Actually she knew Laurie would be there, if she remembered correctly they would have a little talk at that party, about sex. Typical.

“Their neighbours, the Pinciottis, are also having a party so there will be more people to mingle with. You remember Donna, right? Eric’s girlfriend? It’s her family.”

“Yeah the redhead … I could never understand what she saw in Forman.”

“They have been neighbours forever and Eric is a nice guy. She said he’s funny and I think they really like each other.”

“Yeah right …” he sounded a little bored and definitely unconvinced. He only saw a hot chick and a scrawny guy and it didn’t add up for him. Feelings weren’t really his field of expertise.

“Here we are!” Thank God! She couldn’t get out of this car fast enough but as soon as they walked towards the house she felt Chips arm around her. Great …

‘Smile. Put on a good Show’, were her only thoughts as they walked to the others. As soon as they came closer she saw Bob walking towards them. She remembered saying something about him being a boy scout the last time. She couldn’t do it this time. This was the man who let her live in his house and who had been ill used by her mother. So she just said: “Hey Mr. Pinciotti. Nice uniform. You look very dashing.”

He stared at her for a moment, obviously upset with something. No wonder this was the time where he would lose his job. She wished there was something she could do about it but she couldn’t exactly change economy.

He smiled weakly as he answered: “Thank you Jackie”, and left for his own backyard.

‘Well time to get this show on the road’ she thought as she pulled Chip forward with her.

“Hey everybody. This is Chip.” She put her own arm around him before continuing: “He's been after me for awhile now so I decided 'what the hell?' Chip, it's everybody.”

Chip smiled: “Hey everybody”, and turned to Jackie saying: “Jackie, I'll … uh, get you something to drink.”

Jackie smiled at him dismissively; glad to be rid of him for a moment only answered: “Whatever.” Well if that wasn’t Zen than nothing was. Casually she strolled over to a sitting Hyde and leaned against the porch.

Hyde looked up to her behind his glasses and asked: “So you're with this Chip guy now?”

“Why? Do you care?” Jackie asked, trying to muster up the same sarcastic tone she used last time.

Hyde raised an eyebrow and shrugged, “No, I mean if you wanna date this guy that's … cool." He couldn’t quite help stressing that last word.

 

Jackie knew this was coming but she was still surprised at the weird way he emphasized that word. No wonder it had gotten her hopes up the last time. She played her part and gasped a surprised: “It is?!” before running of the Pinciottis.

Like last time Donna was decorating the fence with stars but instead of just babbling at her friend she helped her pinning them on. It wouldn’t do any harm, Donna and Eric were so preoccupied with helping their fathers throwing great parties, they didn’t had time to influence Jackie or Steven that day but she talked about Steven anyway, just to make sure. Only less excited. Last time she was practically floating on clouds.

“Steven and I talked about Chip and he said me dating him was ‘cool’ but … he sounded weird saying it. Not so cool, more like he was jealous.”

“Jackie, or he just thinks it’s cool.” Donna said dismissively.

Jackie weighed her options but she didn’t think her talking about West Side Story and Puerto Ricans again would help anything so she just shrugged and pinned another star on the fence. “Yeah maybe … ehm I think I’ll go back to my date now. Are you good here?”

“Sure. Thanks for your help Jackie.” Donna sent the brunette a real smile and waved her off.

Jackie walked back to the Forman’s driveway and saw Steven and Chip sitting down next to the basketball hoop. She went over to them and stood next to Chip who pulled her on his lap. It felt weird sitting there. She seldom sat on Michaels or Fez’ lap but with Steven … they did it all the time. Sure she also sat next to him with his arm around her but most of the time she sat comfortably on his lap. It always felt so good, right now it just felt wrong, especially with Steven watching them, but he wouldn’t even know what she thought about.

She pushed her worries away. It was time to let things play out and for that she had to leave. It was hard because she wanted to control everything, she wanted to make sure it went correctly, but she knew she had to leave for that.

“Excuse me, I’m going to get myself that drink.” She said smiling at them both as she stood up and left them alone to walk towards the porch where the drinks were. Laurie intervened just like she expected her to.

“Hey Jackie, who's that hot guy you brought with you?”

“Back off! I need him for right now but you can have him when I'm done. As usual.” she said brushing past her and grabbing a beer from a cooler. Boy did she mean that! Chip and Laurie deserved each other and could ride into the sunset together for all she cared.

 

Laurie turned around and asked: “Wait a second Jackie, are you working an angle here? Nice.”

“Noooo, there's no angle. I just wanna see if I can make Steven jealous.”

Laurie nodded. “So you're gonna sleep with him a couple of times and see what happens? Yeah, I've been down that road.”

“No!” Jackie shuddered at the thought of acting like Laurie.

Laurie sneered at the brunette and mocked her: “Oh, you're such a child.” Her tone changed to a commanding one as she continued: “Send him to my room when you're done!” With that she walked inside and left Jackie to head to the backyard and where she could talk to some other people but her eyes never really left Chip and Steven.

 

Hyde sat in his lawn chair across from that Chip idiot and tried to hold up a conversation as Jackie mingled. Something about that guy rubbed him the wrong way. Jackie just went from one idiot to another but at least Kelso was a nice guy. Chip couldn’t even get her that drink he promised her.

He shook it of and nodded in Jackie’s direction. “So, you and Jackie, huh?”

Chip smiled: “Yeah, isn't she something?”

Hyde paused carefully and looked back at Jackie before answering with a “Sure.”

“Sometimes, though, I kinda hate it when she talks.”

This made Hyde laugh, maybe that guy wasn’t as stupid as he thought. “I hear ya.” He said as he got up to head towards the direction of the kitchen to get himself a new drink. Chip walked with him.

 

“And she's always talking....but, I figure it's worth it if I can nail her.” Chip smirked as he imagined Jackie under him. She was hot, no matter how much she babbled.

 

Hyde turned around and looked at Chip. He was wrong. The guy was an even bigger idiot than he thought … and an asshole. “Huh… You should probably think about that, man. You know, I mean, Jackie's kinda young...she only had, like, one boyfriend so...”

 

“Hey, that's not a big surprise. You know - she's a bitch.” Chip pitched in, interrupting Hyde’s reasoning.

Hyde looked at him with no emotion. He had to keep his cool. “Oh no.” He looked down for a beat trying to be Zen but he remembered Jackie’s face at the prom and all the times she cried when Kelso cheated on her. He remembered the desperation on her face when they sat in her car and he told her that she could do better than Kelso. That guy wasn’t better, he was worse and he couldn’t hold onto his aloofness. He didn’t even put the rest of his drink down as he punched Chip in his smirking face. The other guy dropped to the ground like a ton of bricks. It was pretty satisfying. He hated smug assholes like that. No matter how annoying Jackie could be at times, she didn’t deserve to be used like that.

Before he could do anything else Jackie came running towards him from the backyard. He just punched her date … well that would be funny to explain.

“Steven, what happened?!”

Hyde was still at loss for words as he muttered: “What? Nothing. Just ... somebody— and then a guy said ...’bitch’ ... and … it was nothing!”

 

“Oh my god! He called me a bitch and you hit him and that's what happened, isn't it?”

He couldn’t help but stare at her with a guilty pause. “Nooo...” he tried.

 

Jackie didn’t believe him of course. “Liar! I am the bitch. And you lo— you like me!”

He had a feeling she wanted to say something else but he didn’t dwell on that. He couldn’t deny that he just defended her again. He wasn’t even sure why he always helped her, he just hated it when she was truly unhappy. Teasing her was fine, funny even, but when she cried … he just couldn’t take it. He also couldn’t take the way she always looked at him when he did something nice to her. She was a spoiled, rich Princess; she should be used to people doing things for her but as soon as he did something remotely nice for her she always looked so grateful and happy. She got the same dreamy look on her face like she got right now and she looked at him as if he was some kind of hero. As if he was a better person than he actually was. As if he wasn’t the worthless white trash that everyone saw in him. He hated that look, it made him feel … something. So he did what he always did when he lost control of the situation, he snapped at her: “Stop staring at me. Quit it! I'm not this guy. Oh God.”

He had enough of that! He chugged the rest of his drink down in one gulp and just left Jackie standing there as he went inside the house. On the way to the living room he passed by Mrs. Forman who stopped him as he stormed through the kitchen.

“Oh, Steven, I saw what happened. Is your girlfriend okay?” she asked.

 

He stopped short of the door and looked at her. “My girlfriend?!”

 

“Yeah, th-th-the bossy little mean one you're always hanging around with ... oh, uh, Jackie.”

“She's not my girlfriend.” He gritted through his teeth.

 

Mrs. Forman looked at him incredulously. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, I'm sure. I don't like her. She's shallow and rich and mean and bossy. She's everything that I hate.” Hell was he trying to convince Mrs. Forman or himself?

 

“But Steven, you hate everything.”

 

“What's that supposed to mean”

“Well, it means that ... that maybe you like her cause ...” and she continued in a singong voice: “I kinda think you dooo.”

 

“No! How could I like her? Because I don't like her! Because I can't like her! Mrs. Forman, if I like her ... shoot me.”

 

Mrs. Forman turned to him immediately and made a gun with her fingers. “POW!”

 

Hyde sighed frustrated and didn’t say anything. What was wrong with him? If he couldn’t even convince Mrs. Forman that there was nothing going on between him and Jackie … he had to admit he was acting weird for someone who claimed to hate Jackie. Not only today but the last weeks he was always helping her out. Hell he went to jail for her and got into a lot of trouble with Red for it and he knew that he would get in trouble while her Daddy probably would have bribed her out of it. That’s one of the reasons he should hate her. Rich cheerleaders like her shouldn’t spent time with burn outs like him but then again … since when did he bent to social conventions? He was Steven Hyde and he wouldn’t let ‘the man’ dictate his actions with popular beliefs and society regulations. He wasn’t part of the system! He would just prove to himself and everyone else that there was nothing going on. One date wouldn’t be so bad, right? It would be horrible and Jackie would finally give up on him and he could shut everyone up when he told them that he always knew there was nothing between him and Jackie!

He went back outside where Jackie and Fez sat at the picnic table in the driveway. Kelso was hanging out by the basketball hoop. Well … at least he would see their baffled faces. There always was a silver lining.

“Jackie, get your car, we're going on a freaking date!”

 

Jackie looked up at him obviously shocked but she still smiled. Fez and Kelso on the other hand were visibly upset. Good. Those creeps could use a little reality check. Kelso should just leave her alone, she had forgiven him too often already and he still screwed it up. With sluts like Laurie. He couldn’t see how that bitch was worth it and Fez … well he would never get Jackie and he should finally understand that. Fez look displeased at his proposition but Kelso looked downright shocked. For that alone the whole thing was worth it.

Jackie stood up and took a few steps forward. He was sure she would exclaim something girly and idiotic but she stilled for a moment and just said: “That’s cool.”

Was that girl using Zen on him? Huh, so the little grasshopper hadn’t forgotten her lessons. He motioned for her to come with him and they exited toward the garage for her car.

 

Jackie couldn’t help the smile as they sat in her car. They were on their first date, so far so good. To make Steven more comfortable with the situation she let him drive the Lincoln again. He had liked it on prom night … well he probably liked the backseat even more since he fooled around with Pam Macy there but she would ignore that fact. She had the car chemically cleaned after that night before her father could see the suspicious stains.

The last time she sat behind the wheel and was driving around aimlessly while chattering away at Steven until he told her to drive to Fatso Burger so they could grab something to eat and drive to Mount Hump. This was Point Place, there weren’t many places with a scenery for dates.

She hoped he would enjoy it more this time around since he drove himself and she only made casual conversation like noting that the Forman’s and the Pinciotti’s little party war today was funny. They both chuckled about some of their friends’ stunts today. Who knew you could make so much fuss about food and napkins.

“Hey, how about we grab something to eat at Fatso Burger?” she finally suggested. Even though there wasn’t as much tension in the car as last time, they still couldn’t drive around forever.

Steven looked positively surprised, he probably thought she wanted to go somewhere fancy and was relieved to avoid that particular fight. “Sure. We can get some Pop too.”

“That’s cool.” She replied and had to hold her grin back. She knew she was playing with fire by reminding him of their Zen lessons and using Zen on the Master himself but he had always liked it when she kept her cool instead of bubbling away. This Steven didn’t have time to get to know her better yet, so he didn’t really know there was more to her than the shallow cheerleader. If she wanted tonight to end better than last time she had to help things along a little.

Jackie could feel that he was staring at her like he was trying to figure her out, but she stayed silent and looked out of her window. It was the only way to keep herself from grinning like an idiot. She couldn’t exactly blame him; after all she had been running after him for weeks now. She never stopped pestering him and now she was silent and cool about everything. That would look suspicious to a normal person but to a guy who spun new conspiracy theories every day it must have been like a giant warning sign but she also hoped it would intrigue him.

Steven drove to Fatso Burger and stopped for a minute. “Ya wanna go inside or should I pick something up?”

“Let’s just use the drive thru. We can eat at Mount Hump.” She answered smiling at him.

He stared at her for a moment before shaking his head and drive through the drive thru. He ordered a burger with some fries and a Pop.

Jackie herself wanted water and some fries. She already had something to eat at the Forman’s and she was a little too nervous to eat anyway. She was glad when they left the Clown behind them. She still hadn’t forgotten the Clown head in her bed but Steven didn’t know anything about that and he didn’t need to now she was afraid of Clowns at all. She had learned to cope with it. When they drove to the pick up window she searched through her purse to get some money only to have Steven stop her.

“It’s fine, I got it.” He took their food and let her hold it while he paid himself.

That surprised her a little. It wasn’t like Steven had never paid for her food before but on their original first date she had paid for everything and he just went along with it. She must have gotten on his nerves a lot with her chattering back then. At Mount Hump she had been more silent and he had been in a better mood. Well she took it as a good sign that he was already more comfortable around her and treated this like a real date by paying for her food.

“Thank you Steven.” She said, placing their food on the dashboard but holding onto their drinks so nothing would spill.

He only shrugged, obviously thinking it wasn’t a big deal and drove them up to Mount Hump. Nightfall was beginning to creep down the sky and soon it would be getting dark. He drove around until he found a good place. It wasn’t hard since it was pretty empty, probably because of Veterans Day.

She smiled as she recognized the place. Steven parked at the exact same spot he did the last time. Very promising. She gave him his Pop when he reached for his food and she grabbed her own fries before they exited the car and sat on the back of it.

They ate in a companionable silence enjoying their food in the nice evening air. After they finished Steven was still sipping on his Pop while Jackie already finished her water. The salty fries always made her thirsty and even though she did all of this before she was even more nervous than the first time, maybe because she knew what was at stake. Back then it was all fun and games, now it was serious.

After a while she decided to proceed with things according to plan, at least to a certain amount.

“This is the best date ever.”

Steven looked at her doubtingly: “Jackie, we haven't talked in 30 minutes.”

 

She couldn’t help but smile at his doubting tone: “That's okay. Steven, you don't have to say anything. I understand you.“ Oh he wouldn’t like that.

Just like the last time he sounded a little annoyed as he answered: “Oh, you do, do you?”

This is where she went down a different road. She had known that he wouldn’t really think all those things about her being too pretty and he didn’t deserve her, at least not at the time. Sometimes she really had the feeling that he felt unworthy of love in general, not that he would ever admit that. Feelings just weren’t his thing. It was hardly surprising when you looked at his upbringing and role models. It’s just what she had wished him to think, that he had just been too conflicted to react to her advances, she just didn’t want him to be really this indifferent to her. Well all it had gotten her the last time was him pretending to cry and then blowing raspberries at her.

“Sure. I mean it’s not like I know everything about you but I did realize that in my enthusiasm I had come on a little strongly and I do know that you enjoy silence more than endless talking about nothing.” She finally said. It sounded reasonable enough … right?

“You came up with that all on your own? Took you only what? About a dozen rejections from me?”

Now she was getting a little annoyed. She wanted things to be different but she wouldn’t become a push over! “You know what? If you can’t even appreciate me trying we can just go home.” Maybe they were doomed … that stupid Angel had been giving her false hope.

Even though it was a different argument he reacted just like last time and stopped her when she slid down the car. Maybe he really did want to spend time with her … in his own way.

“Oh c'mon, I'm kidding! No, this is, this is alright. We can hang out here for awhile, ok? God...”

 

She gave up on her annoyance; it wouldn’t do her any good in the long run and walked around the car to join him again. She couldn’t help smiling when he said:

“Here, have some of my pop.”

 

Jackie took the soda from him: “Sure.”

Still smiling at him she scooted closer and took his arm to put it around her shoulders and nuzzled into him before taking a sip of his drink.

Staring at his own arm for a second he surrendered with a simple: “Okay.”

She felt way too giddy as they sat there, as if it really was the first time she went out with him. Well … she was back in the body of a 16 year old. It may only have been two years, but they had been eventful. Now she was back at the beginning and she felt just as nervous, blushing when she glanced at him. Well she had been very inexperienced at the time. No wonder her body felt so unused to everything. Her only boyfriend had been Michael and she always had to tell him what to do, she always had to pick up his messes. After six month she finally gave into him but after that everything had always been about sex with him and it was always so rushed. She was still getting used to it when they broke up. It only got better much later probably because he got more experience with his stupid sluts and shortly after that he had left for California. Even after that she still had learned so much from Steven. Both in mind and body, it was surprising. Of course this Steven was also younger, but she knew that he already had plenty of girls: rocker chicks, cheerleaders and everything in between, even though most of them only for one night.

She shook off these thoughts and cuddled closer to Steven. It was getting darker, the sun was slowly going under and created a beautiful picture of blue, orange and red. It was also getting colder and she shivered a little.

“Are you cold?”

She shrugged. “Just a little. No biggie.”

He nodded but after a moment he took his own jacket of and gave it to her wordlessly.

She took it from him and slipped it on. “That’s so sweet of you Steven.” He was only wearing a T-Shirt himself after all. She had nearly swooned the last time he did this. She always had to tell Michael to do these things. Steven acted like he didn’t care but he was considered where it counted.

“Nah. Just don’t want you to bitch at me later ‘cause you caught a cold.”

She just rolled her eyes. She hadn’t missed the fact that his careless act used to ruin romantic moments. Instead of an answer she bundled up more into his jacket and sniffed the collar. It smelled so much like Steven, she immediately felt safe. She hadn’t realized before how much she missed small things like his smell.

“Did you just sniff my jacket?” she heard an amused voice ask.

Blushing she refused to look at him and shook her head. “Of course not! Why would I do such a thing?”

“Whatever ya say Princess.”

“Shut up and watch she sky.” She mumbled embarrassed and only got a chuckle as answer.

They sat in silence again until it turned completely dark. Steven got up and put on the headlights of the car so they could see something and she sat down on the hood of the car while he did so. He put on the radio too and sat down next to her again after he finished.

She played with the sleeves of his jacket a little nervously, knowing that the big moment was just around the corner. Their kiss … would it make her feel like the last time they kissed? Or would it take her by surprise like the first time they had this date? She couldn’t decide what was better but knew that this time she wouldn’t lie about her feelings. She wouldn’t throw all of them into his face either, she couldn’t catch him off-guard like that. For now she just tried to make it happen again and when she heard Leo Sayer’s ‘When I need you’ playing on the radio she knew it was time.

“So...our first date is almost over.”

“Yep.”

“What do you think?”

 

Hyde considered it for a moment: “It was no worse than bowling.”

She had to fight down the grin that wanted to come out at this familiar ‘compliment’ and gave him a confused look instead.

“No, I don't hate bowling.” He continued as some kind of explanation.

 

She nodded and they looked at each other. This was it, the moment she had been waiting for and she leaned in slowly to kiss him and to her relieve he leaned in too. They kissed, softly at first but soon enough it got more intense and she moved her hand to his cheek, stroking it lightly while their lips met again and again.

She was totally overwhelmed by their kiss. It was both familiar and new. It was the familiar taste and smell of her Steven but the feeling … this body of hers wasn’t used to kissing Steven Hyde and it felt glorious. She let it go on a little longer than the last time because this time she wasn’t afraid of her feelings, wasn’t afraid of getting lost … because she already was.

When they finally pulled away from each other she stroked his cheek one more time before pulling it back too. They were staring at each other and she could feel the heat creep up her face. She should stop expecting that she would react like an adult towards him, her body was obviously that of a teenager and everything that would happen between them would overwhelm her like the first time. It really was a second chance but if she wanted to get it right this time she had to weigh her options carefully. She loved him but she couldn’t spring that on him, he would just think that she was back to her stalking but she had to keep this going somehow.

She decided to keep it simple for now. “That was hot.” She did say that back then after all, who cared if it was under different circumstances.

He stared at her for a moment longer before nodding. “Yep.”

She swallowed nervously so far so good. “I guess … you wouldn’t be opposed to doing that again?” she tried a spin on his own words back then, hoping it would move him somehow.

A grin formed on his face: “I wouldn’t be opposed to doing it.”

Jackie had to laugh at this. Some things never changed. She hit him on the arm in mock anger and said smiling: “Kiss me again before I change my mind you pig.”

“Yes dear.” Steven said smiling as well. This time he embraced her face with his hand and pulled her to him to kiss her again. The kiss deepened fast and she couldn’t do more than close her eyes and surrender herself to him. His lips were a little rough but warm and inviting as they moved hotly against hers. She felt like she was floating and she grabbed his T-Shirt with both hands to ground herself a little but as his other arm wrapped around her hip and pulled her body closer to his, she was swapped away by the feelings he caused in her. Her body crushed against his as close as their positions would allow and their mouths worked harder against each other, their harsh breaths the only noises in the quiet of the night.

Jackie was so far gone she didn’t even realize that Steven was moving until he had to let go of her lips. He was only moving to stand before the tiny brunette sitting on the hood so they were practically the same height and he could work at a better angle but she didn’t know that. Instead of the protest she was trying to voice, there was only a tiny whimper that escaped her lips as she slowly opened her eyes again, staring directly at Steven as he took his glasses off.

“Shh Shh. I got you doll.” He whispered as he stood between her legs and grabbed her face again, stroking her cheeks softly while he shushed her by capturing her lips in a searing kiss again before she even had the chance to think of the tender way he just spoke to her. Her eyes slid shut automatically and her hands wandered aimlessly over his body up to his shoulders, trying to get a grip.

His arms wandered down, roaming her sides and before they realized it he had lowered her down on the hood, leaning over her, keeping them connected. She gasped when his warm body pressed down on hers. Their lips crashed into each other and his tongue slipped into her mouth without meeting any resistance, taking his fill of her taste. Moaning she buried her fingers in his hair, keeping him where he was.

The passion between them was palpable. They completely lost control and he couldn’t help but grind his hips into her. Her legs wrapped around him on instinct, keeping him even closer to her own heat as she could feel him harden against her. He let out a moan and she suddenly realized what they were doing. Steven’s erection was pressed against her center and she could feel it clearly, even through all their clothes. They were practically having sex on her car. What the hell was she thinking?! She couldn’t sleep with him on their first date. What was wrong with her? The last time they had made out for months before she had been ready to have sex with him. She wasn’t that kind of girl but she could clearly feel that what they were just doing wasn’t just making out, she really would let him do everything if she didn’t get a grip right now.

It was hard to open her eyes but she managed it and weakly pulled at his her to separate theirs lips. “Steven … Steven stop.” She gasped, still feeling his warm hands roaming her sides.

He ripped away from her like she had slapped him, stumbling back a few steps back, staring at her tiny form lying on the hood while he wiped his hand over his mouth.

“Fuck Jackie…” he groaned out.

For a few seconds Jackie lay staring into the sky with glossy eyes, trying to slow down her rapid breathing. She had to keep a grip on the situation. They had made out on the hood of her Lincoln and were practically dry humping until she pushed him away that is. How the hell did she get so carried away? They nearly had sex with their clothes on. How could she lose control so fast this time? It had been so familiar but still everything felt so new and absolutely breathtaking.

She braced herself on shaky arms to sit up again and looked at Steven who stood a few feet away from her, running a hand through his hair and obviously upset. Oh God she ruined it. He was a guy so of course he reacted when a girl rubbed herself against him like a slut. He knew everything about her and Michael, because her ex boyfriend liked to talk about his sex life and now she was throwing herself at him on their first date, after all he didn’t know they actually had history … he just knew she followed him around the last weeks and now … God she acted like a such a whore and then she ha d the audacity to stop it. As if she was just stringing him along for the heck of it. What must he think of her?

Tears gathered in her eyes and she slipped from the hood burying her face in her hands. She had ruined it. Her last chance and she ruined it. This wasn’t a dream, she was sure it was real now; it wouldn’t hurt so much if it was just a dream. She couldn’t believe she messed everything up already. “I’m sorry.” She sobbed.

“What? What are you sorry for? Jackie … are you crying? Hey … come on don’t cry man.” He said coming towards her again.

“I … I tell you to kiss me and then I throw myself at you even though I know how much … how much I annoyed you the last weeks. On our first date … out … out in the open … I get you all hot and bothered and then I push you away … God you must think I’m such a slut. Worse … you must think I’m such a tease.” She cried, her voice muffled by her hands.

“What the hell! No!” he grabbed her hands and pulled them away from her face but she just cringed at his loud tone and faced away from him. “Hey … I don’t think you’re a slut Jackie.” He said in a much calmer tone now. “It was me man. I know you’re not the kind of girl who would do it on the first date … It was me okay?! Man … I lost control and nearly took you on the hood of you car.”

He took her face into his hands, careful but firm and forced her to look at him. “Shit, stop crying please. If anything we both got carried away. Like you said before … it was hot.” He tried to make her smile but her lips just quivered, not convinced at all that she didn’t just ruin everything. He couldn’t possibly grasp the real extent of her panic, he just thought she was shocked by his behavior and her own this evening, since she didn’t have that much experience. He didn’t believe half the stories that Kelso told him.

“But … but I could feel how turned on you were and I panicked like a child … how can you say that’s not teasing? I know that you’re aware of the fact I’m not a virgin anymore but I act so prudish.” she whispered dejected. He didn’t even know half of it, after all the things they did together this seemed so harmless, but she had panicked so much at the thought that sleeping with him too early would only make him leave her. This Steven wasn’t in love with her yet so what would stop him from leaving her, if he already got sex out of her on the first date. That was his usual procedure after all.

“Come on Jackie. I nearly banged you with our clothes still on, out in the open on our first date. You had a right to tell me ‘No’, I would never force myself on a chick. I know you didn’t stop me to be a tease or to string my along. When I went out with you tonight I definitely didn’t expect you to have sex with me. Don’t get me wrong I’m up for it. You’re hot but … I also know you’re classy. We won’t be doing it today and we definitely won’t be doing it here. I’m not angry about it, I just needed a minute to calm down. Stop worrying about it man.” He shrugged helplessly. Compliments and reassuring people weren’t really his turf but Jackie always seemed to bring that out in him.

Jackie finally got a hold of herself and stopped crying. Leaning her face slightly into his han she sighed. “God I’m such a mess. I’m sorry. Here we are again. I break down and you have to pick up the pieces. What a turn on.” Bitterness was becoming a very good friend again.

“Hey, we will do it some other time. Even though I would enjoy some making out sessions like this in the meantime.” He smirked.

“You forget something Steven. For that you would have to see me again.” She reminded him a little snarky. Lord why was she talking like this? Was she trying to scare him off?! She should be sucking up to him right now, instead she acted like an insecure bitch.

He looked at her for a moment, totally silent, before he shrugged. “That’s cool. We can do that.”

Perplexed she opened her mouth but nothing came out. Kicking herself mentally she asked incredulously: “You would date me? Not just for sex?”

He shrugged again. “Why the hell not? I’m not an animal Jackie. Today was pretty cool, we might as well try again.”

“But … but the others will tease you about it and … and everyone at school will talk.” God shut your trap girl. What the hell was she doing? But … she had to make sure they were on the same page this time.

“Whatever. They’ll get over it and why would I care about a bunch of gossipers at school? Screw them we’ll just do what we want.” He said, sounding offended by the very idea that he would let others dictate his actions.

“Oh … Steven!” she exclaimed and jumped him for a hug, slinging her arms around his back and pressing her face against his chest. She was so happy she felt like she could burst. They had a chance. It would take some work but at least they would have a chance!

He patted her on the back uncomfortably before pushing her away lightly. Their little talk hadn’t done much to calm him down and if she pressed herself like that to him he wouldn’t be able to control himself much longer. “There, got to keep a little distance right now.”

She looked down without thinking about it and blushed when she saw the bulge in his jeans. “Right … sorry.” She mumbled embarrassed even though it was kind of flattering that he reacted to her like this.

“It’s cool but maybe I should take you home now.” He said steering her to the passenger side of the car and opening the door for her.

“Yes … it’s getting late.” She agreed, after all she had a lot to plan and to think about. It would be weird at first, dating him again. She couldn’t just jump into old habits and it would be awkward finding out what he would allow in front of others. At least he didn’t tell her it had to be a secret when she told him the others wouldn’t understand. Shaking her head she got into the car and soon Steven was pulling down the road.

After a while she wanted to tell him that he was driving the wrong way, her apartment was in the opposite direction but she held her tongue as she realized that ‘home’ was the Burkhart mansion again. With her parents in it … even though this was the time where they started to vanish for even longer periods than before so she probably wouldn’t have to deal with them too often. She also noticed that Steven would have to walk as soon as he dropped her off, seeing as this was her car. This was the time where he lived with Bud, before that stupid idiot bailed on him again. He didn’t even know Bud was only his stepfather and it wasn’t really something she could just tell him.

“You could drive by Bud’s first. I can drive home myself from there.” She finally offered.

“That’s cool. I can walk. Bud doesn’t care if I come home late.”

Right … Bud only started to put his feet down after Christmas. So for now Steven was still living with a parent who let him do what he wanted. Well maybe it would make things a little easier when it came to dating him until it’ll blow up into his face that is.

She just nodded and the rest of the car ride was quiet. When they reached her house Steven got out with and gave her back the keys. He even walked her to the door.

“Thank you Steven. It was a lovely and … stimulating evening.” She smiled coyly before leaning over and kissing him on cheek but when she was pulling back he stopped her and leaned in to give her a short kiss on the lips.

“Yeah it was … interesting.” He kissed her again before finally pulling back. “I’ll be at Forman’s tomorrow”, he informed her while he put his glasses back on “gotta see who won the party fight.”

Jackie smiled. She knew this was his way of telling her he would like to see her again tomorrow. “I’ll see you there. Goodnight Steven.”

“’Night.” He waved and walked down her driveway.

She looked after him for a long time until she got inside and walked up to her room. It was so weird standing there in front of her old bed with all of her stuffed animals around her. This place hadn’t felt like home for a long time, so she wasn’t surprised that it didn’t now. She could still remember where everything was so she changed into her pajamas and got into bed. She would need her sleep, she had some planning to do in the next days. Maybe she could even secure her financial situation a little bit, seeing as her father wasn’t in prison yet. She snuggled into her covers and hoped that when she woke up tomorrow, it wouldn’t turn out to be just a dream.