Seeds of Jealousy
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M through R › Queer As Folk
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
35
Views:
8,122
Reviews:
11
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
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I do not own Queer As Folk, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
chapter 11
Month ONE
Dee
I look over on the other side of Brian to see Justin smiling at him. I don’t know why Brian insisted on Justin being here. But with time, Justin will get bored and not want to come with us and then it will be just Brian and I. The way it was meant to be.
Brianna was happy to hear she was going to be a big sister. She even asked if she could help pick the name.
I look at Brian, smiling at him as he smiles back.
“Well Dee, looks like everything is looking good.” I told the doctor last time to call me Dee.
“Ok, so same time next month?” I ask him.
He smiles, nodding his answer to me. “Now, continue your vitamins and I will see you all in a month.” He walks out.
“We will meet you out in the lobby,” Brian tells me as they walk out.
“All in due time,” I say to the empty room.
Month 2/3
Once again we are sitting in the same room as before. This is the third time, the third month and I can’t believe this still hasn’t gotten Justin to back off.
He shouldn’t be here, but Brian wants him to be. Once it gets more personal, when he can see the images and hear the sound of the baby’s heartbeat – the baby that belongs to me and Brian – he won’t want to come back. It will be far too upsetting for him to see and hear evidence of the life that Brian and I created, a life that he’s not a part of, regardless of what he may think.
“Well, you ready for this ultrasound and to hear your child’s heartbeat?” the doctor asks us.
“Yes, I am so excited. Brian, come here,” I call him over as they set it up. They put the liquid on my belly, saying it’s cold which, for some reason, makes Brian and Justin laugh.
“Okay, let’s find this heartbeat.” He runs the ‘tool’ over my stomach. Brian calls it ‘the tool’
Listening, I can hear the faint sound and as he moves lower the beat gets stronger. I look over at Brian and he smiles. “You hear that? That’s our baby.” I wipe some tears, still looking at Brian who is now looking at Justin.
I catch a glimpse of him, leaning against the wall, eyes closed. A few tears are rolling down his cheeks.
Yes, it’s hitting him. It won’t be too much longer until he can’t handle this. Brian walks over to Justin, pulling him close.
Justin wraps his arm around Brian’s neck as Brian runs a hand over Justin’s back.
“Brian,” I call to him.
He turns, looking at me. “I heard it. How does it seem, Doc?” He looks at Justin, who nods.
“It sounds strong. Everything looks to be coming alone well. You can get dressed. I want to see you here again in two months.” Nodding, I feel Brian wipe my stomach off.
“We’ll wait outside like usual.”
I simply nod my head, watching as they walk out.
The way Justin was acting, I know it won’t be much longer. Getting dressed, I run a hand over my stomach, smiling. “Not too much longer. God, I want to get rid of that blond. I’m tired of him being around with Brian and I here. This is OUR child. Not Justin’s.
Justin
“I can’t believe we heard the heart beat. It makes this so real. That was MY son or daughter’s heartbeat.”
“I know, it’s amazing.” He pulls me in to hug me. “You are amazing.”
I pull his head down to mine, kissing him.
Someone coughs and as we look up we see Dee standing there looking upset.
“Let’s go,” she says snidely.
As we drive back to the house I see Dee looking at me. “Something wrong?” I ask.
“Justin, I just don’t want you to be in the exam room with us anymore. This is about Brian and me,” she tells me.
“I want him there, and if he isn’t then I’m not,” Brian tells her.
“Fine, but not during the whole thing. He was upset today and I can’t be getting upset over you getting upset.” She leans back in her seat.
“Sorry, it was just…”
“No Justin, if you can’t handle seeing or hearing the child in me, BRIAN’S AND MINE then you don’t need to be there.” She blurts out in frustration.
“Okay, I will keep my emotions in control,” I whisper.
“No, Dee look, Justin is emotional and this kid is going to be a part of his life as well as mine. So if hearing the kid’s heartbeat upsets him, it’s a happy upset,” Brian calmly tells her.
“Brian,” she starts.
“No, Dee, you are the one who ‘stole’ the condom, now deal with the fact that Justin WILL be there with ME through ALL of this.” I can tell she’s getting on his last nerve.
“Okay, well as long as he stays calm.”
I look at her, and I see her smirk. I know she is pissed about Brian and me not breaking up. She probably thinks she still has time.
And from the look in her eyes, I know I am right.
What will she think of next? God, I wish my child was in someone else. At this point I would even be happy if it was Deb. Shit, that’s gross. But I would rather deal with EWWW then with this evil-minded woman.
I’m having all these mixed emotions. God, I must have the ‘male pregnancy symptom.’
Dee
I look over on the other side of Brian to see Justin smiling at him. I don’t know why Brian insisted on Justin being here. But with time, Justin will get bored and not want to come with us and then it will be just Brian and I. The way it was meant to be.
Brianna was happy to hear she was going to be a big sister. She even asked if she could help pick the name.
I look at Brian, smiling at him as he smiles back.
“Well Dee, looks like everything is looking good.” I told the doctor last time to call me Dee.
“Ok, so same time next month?” I ask him.
He smiles, nodding his answer to me. “Now, continue your vitamins and I will see you all in a month.” He walks out.
“We will meet you out in the lobby,” Brian tells me as they walk out.
“All in due time,” I say to the empty room.
Month 2/3
Once again we are sitting in the same room as before. This is the third time, the third month and I can’t believe this still hasn’t gotten Justin to back off.
He shouldn’t be here, but Brian wants him to be. Once it gets more personal, when he can see the images and hear the sound of the baby’s heartbeat – the baby that belongs to me and Brian – he won’t want to come back. It will be far too upsetting for him to see and hear evidence of the life that Brian and I created, a life that he’s not a part of, regardless of what he may think.
“Well, you ready for this ultrasound and to hear your child’s heartbeat?” the doctor asks us.
“Yes, I am so excited. Brian, come here,” I call him over as they set it up. They put the liquid on my belly, saying it’s cold which, for some reason, makes Brian and Justin laugh.
“Okay, let’s find this heartbeat.” He runs the ‘tool’ over my stomach. Brian calls it ‘the tool’
Listening, I can hear the faint sound and as he moves lower the beat gets stronger. I look over at Brian and he smiles. “You hear that? That’s our baby.” I wipe some tears, still looking at Brian who is now looking at Justin.
I catch a glimpse of him, leaning against the wall, eyes closed. A few tears are rolling down his cheeks.
Yes, it’s hitting him. It won’t be too much longer until he can’t handle this. Brian walks over to Justin, pulling him close.
Justin wraps his arm around Brian’s neck as Brian runs a hand over Justin’s back.
“Brian,” I call to him.
He turns, looking at me. “I heard it. How does it seem, Doc?” He looks at Justin, who nods.
“It sounds strong. Everything looks to be coming alone well. You can get dressed. I want to see you here again in two months.” Nodding, I feel Brian wipe my stomach off.
“We’ll wait outside like usual.”
I simply nod my head, watching as they walk out.
The way Justin was acting, I know it won’t be much longer. Getting dressed, I run a hand over my stomach, smiling. “Not too much longer. God, I want to get rid of that blond. I’m tired of him being around with Brian and I here. This is OUR child. Not Justin’s.
Justin
“I can’t believe we heard the heart beat. It makes this so real. That was MY son or daughter’s heartbeat.”
“I know, it’s amazing.” He pulls me in to hug me. “You are amazing.”
I pull his head down to mine, kissing him.
Someone coughs and as we look up we see Dee standing there looking upset.
“Let’s go,” she says snidely.
As we drive back to the house I see Dee looking at me. “Something wrong?” I ask.
“Justin, I just don’t want you to be in the exam room with us anymore. This is about Brian and me,” she tells me.
“I want him there, and if he isn’t then I’m not,” Brian tells her.
“Fine, but not during the whole thing. He was upset today and I can’t be getting upset over you getting upset.” She leans back in her seat.
“Sorry, it was just…”
“No Justin, if you can’t handle seeing or hearing the child in me, BRIAN’S AND MINE then you don’t need to be there.” She blurts out in frustration.
“Okay, I will keep my emotions in control,” I whisper.
“No, Dee look, Justin is emotional and this kid is going to be a part of his life as well as mine. So if hearing the kid’s heartbeat upsets him, it’s a happy upset,” Brian calmly tells her.
“Brian,” she starts.
“No, Dee, you are the one who ‘stole’ the condom, now deal with the fact that Justin WILL be there with ME through ALL of this.” I can tell she’s getting on his last nerve.
“Okay, well as long as he stays calm.”
I look at her, and I see her smirk. I know she is pissed about Brian and me not breaking up. She probably thinks she still has time.
And from the look in her eyes, I know I am right.
What will she think of next? God, I wish my child was in someone else. At this point I would even be happy if it was Deb. Shit, that’s gross. But I would rather deal with EWWW then with this evil-minded woman.
I’m having all these mixed emotions. God, I must have the ‘male pregnancy symptom.’