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Title: Secrets

Warnings: Angst,
hurt/comfort, abuse, rape

Characters: Bo/Luke; Bo/OMC

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Luke Duke rolled over in bed and
opened his eyes, he wondered what had woke him up. As he heard Bo whimpering in
his bed, he knew, once again Bo was caught in a nightmare. Luke sat down on the
edge of Bo's bed and began to call his name as he gently shook his shoulder.
"Bo, come on now, wake up. You're havin a bad dream." Suddenly Bo jerked upright
in the bed. He jumped a foot when Luke began to speak, "Bo? you allright?" Bo
nodded his head in response, he couldn't speak, afraid of what might come
spilling out so soon after the nightmare. Luke sighed, he knew Bo wasn't okay,
but he didn't know how to get him to talk about it. However he knew he had to
try, "Bo, I wish you'd tell me what's wrong. You haven't been yourself ever
since that mess with Diane Bensen, is that what these dreams are about?" Bo
looked at Luke in surprise, he had thought he'd hidden his feelings better than
that realizing that Luke was waiting for an answer he shook his head no. "Bo,
it's been two weeks since the dreams started, you can't go on like this. I think
you need to tell me what's going on, before you end up collapsing from
exhaustion."
"I can't Luke, you wouldn't understand." Luke was a bit
surprised by that "come one Bo, do you think you're the first man to be used and
hurt by a woman. You think I've never had my heart broken. I want to help,
please let me."
"I.....it's not like that Luke, if I tell you,
you'll......never mind it don't matter. I just can't tell you, I know you want
to help, but you can't......nobody can." Bo finished in a small voice. Luke
didn't know what to say to that, knowing he wouldn't get any further tonight he
suggested they both try to get some more sleep. Though Luke did eventually fall
back asleep, Bo couldn't. The images from his dream and the memories they
provoked wouldn't let him.

The next morning as the Duke family was
finishing breakfast their phone rang. When Jesse hung up, he told the kids he
had to go help cousin Kate, who had hurt her back and would be laid up for at
least a week. Daisy offered to go with him and he accepted, it only took a short
time for Daisy and Jesse be ready to leave. After they left, Bo and Luke went
back in the house and cleaned up the kitchen. "So cousin, what do you want to do
first, fix the tractor or mend the fence?" Luke shrugged in answer "whichever
you want to start with is fine by me Bo." What he didn't tell Bo is he had
decided that sometime while Jesse and Daisy were gone he was going to get some
answers from Bo. Later as they worked on the fence, Bo tried to avoid staring at
Luke. He didn't understand how this had happened, he only knew that he had
fallen in love with Luke. After the Carnival of Thrills had left Hazzard, taking
Diane with it, Bo had become depressed. The only one he had been able to talk to
had been Luke, as the months passed, his feeling for his cousin began to change.
Three weeks ago as they were sitting out at Sunset pond fishing it suddenly hit
him. He nearly dropped his pole when he realized he was in love with Luke,
looking back his only surprise was that it hadn't happened sooner. It wasn't
long after that day, when the dreams started, he didn't know what to do about it
either. He couldn't tall Luke, if Luke didn't feel the same way he might hate
him forever. Bo couldn't stand the thought of losing Luke's friendship, then
there was his other problem. Bo knew he loved Luke and he was definitely
attracted to him, but what if he couldn't bring himself to be with a man, even
if it was Luke. He knew Luke would never hurt him on purpose, but what if he was
wrong, what if Luke betrayed his trust too.

As the days passed Luke grew
more and more concerned about Bo, he wasn't sleeping well and was barely eating.
He had to figure out some way to make Bo talk, he couldn't keep on like this.
Neither of them could, as Luke thought about it, he wondered why Bo wouldn't
tell him about the dreams. What could be so bad that Bo didn't think anyone
could help him? Suddenly he remembered all the times in the last few weeks he
had caught Bo looking at him with an odd look on his face. As he tried to figure
out what the look meant, he realized what was odd about it. The look on Bo's
face was a mixture of hunger and fear mixed with a look of love. The shock of
that thought nearly had Luke tumbling out of the hayloft he was currently
sitting in. 'It couldn't be, could it, after all this time could Bo return his
feelings! Luke had realized when he returned from the marines that he was
attracted to Bo. As time passed that attraction grew into love, he had never
told anyone for fear of Bo's reaction. He couldn't lose his friendship and was
sure if Bo ever knew how he felt, that was exactly what would happen.

For
the next couple of days Luke watched Bo even more closely than before. He wanted
to talk to Bo, but he needed to be as sure as he could that it was the right
thing to do. When Uncle Jesse called that night to say he and Daisy would be
gone another week, Luke knew the time had come to talk to Bo. He might never get
this good of an opportunity again. Luke decided he would wait until the next
day, so he could have time to plan what he would say.

That night after
another nightmare, Bo lay in his bed thinking back to five years age. He had
been only 15 then, Luke had been in the marines for a year with three more to
go. Bo was very lonely, he missed Luke so much, he didn't know how he would get
through another three years. That was when he met Jeff Miller, Jeff and his
mother Sue Ann had just moved to Hazzard where his mother had opened a bakery.
Sue Ann Miller had grown up in Hazzard and had returned there after the death of
her husband. Jeff was 19 and at loose ends, he and Bo met when Bo's bicycle had
gotten a flat and Jeff offered him a ride home. They soon began to hang out
together all the time, Uncle Jesse wasn't sure he liked it, but he remembered
Sue Ann from when she was a girl. She had always been a good girl and seeing as
how Jeff was her son he supposed it would be okay. Jesse knew Bo missed Luke,
when Bo was a child, because of his asthma he had never had many friends. It's
hard to make friends when you can't run and play as easily as the other boys.
Although Luke was four years older than Bo he always found a way to include Bo
in whatever he was doing. As a result of this most of the friends Bo had were
older and many of them were busy working or had been drafted, so when Jeff came
along Bo was desperate for someone to spend time with. Bo and Jeff were together
everyday except Sunday, which Jesse insisted Bo spend with his family. One day
in June a few months after they met Bo and Jeff were skinny dipping in an effort
to cool off. Jeff had gotten out of the water a few minutes before Bo, as he sat
near his clothes he watched Bo with a speculative look in his eyes. Bo got out
of the water and headed for his own clothes, as he passed Jeff he was tackled
from behind. Bo quickly stopped struggling when he felt the knife at his throat,
"ya know Bo, I've been wondering for a while what it'd be like to fuck you!"
Jeff was thrilled when he felt Bo tremble in fear beneath him. Bo didn't know
what to do, he could feel the knife at his throat and Jeff's erection on his
backside. He had never been so terrified in his life, he didn't date fight for
fear Jeff would cut his throat, all he could do is plead and hop Jeff would
change his mind. "Jeff come on, don't to this, you don't want to do this Jeff. I
thought we were friends, please don't do this to me." If Bo had known how much
it was turning Jeff on to hear his pleas, he wouldn't have made a sound.


Bo lay in his bed trembling with remembered fear. He could still
remember the feel of Jeff's dick as he forced it inside of Bo. He heard himself
scream as he felt the worst pain he had ever experienced, when Jeff was finished
with him he told Bo not to tell anyone. "I want us to be very clear on this Bo,
if you tell anyone, I will kill the person you tell. Oh, and one more thing from
now on you are my whore, we will see each other every day just like we've been
doing and every day you will let me use your body to pleasure myself. When I get
tired of you, then you'll be free to go, do you understand Bo?" Bo looked at
Jeff with fear filled blue eyes and nodded his head. "Good, glad to hear it,
well better get you home wouldn't want your Uncle Jesse to worry, now would we?"
Bo couldn't believe the look of coldness in Jeff's brown eyes, he had thought
they were friends. How could Jeff betray him like this, what was he going to do.
He couldn't do what Jeff wanted, but what if Jeff was telling the truth, what if
he killed anyone Bo told. By the time Jeff dropped him off at the end of the
Duke driveway, Bo had decided Jeff was bluffing just so Bo would stay quiet. As
he walked up the drive he saw Uncle Jesse out in the yard, sharpening his ax. Bo
approached Uncle Jesse fully intending to tell him everything, but as he began
to speak a shot rang out, missing Jesse's head by inches. Uncle Jesse had of
course thought it was a careless hunter, but Bo knew better, there was no doubt
in his mind that Jeff had fired the shot. He knew then he couldn't tell anyone
and what was worse he would have no choice but to do as Jeff said. For the next
six months Bo was forced to go with Jeff every day except Sunday and he had no
choice but to allow Jeff to rape him. Just before Christmas Bo got the best
present of his life when Jeff and his mother moved to Atlanta to be near her new
boyfriend. He hated remembering the things Jeff had done to him, the things he
had been forced to do. Knowing if he refused someone he loved would die. Bo lay
there all night remembering and wondering what to do about the future. If he
told Luke how he felt, what would he do? Would Luke hate hime, if he didn't hate
him could Bo ever let another man touch him?

When mornign dawned Bo was
no closed to an answer than he had been for the past few weeks. After breakfast
and chores Luke asked Bo to come into the living room so they could talk. As Bo
sat on the couch, Luke took the chair and once again saw the fear in Bo's eyes.
"Bo, there's something I need to tell you and I'd appreciate it if you'd let me
finish before you say anything. Just remember if you don't like what I'm saying
we can still be friends......I hope. Ya know Bo that some men prefer to be with
other men sexually don't you?" at Bo's nod Luke continued. "When I was in the
marines, I found out that I'm one of those men. There were a few men I was with
while I was in the marines, wasn't none of them a relationship, just sex and
friendship. When I came home I realized I was attracted to you, but I wasn't
going to say anything cause I didn't want to lose your friendship. The thing is
eventually it turned from attraction to love, it's been love for the last year
and a half. Bo I love you and I want to be with you, if you don't feel the same,
I'll understand and I just hope we can still be friends. I don't ever want to
lose that.....so do you think there's a chance for us?" As Luke finally chanced
a look at Bo he was surprised to see tears streaming down Bo's cheeks. "Bo, what
is it? I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you, please Bo say
something........please Bo we can forget I said anything, please don't hate me."
As Bo struggled to get himself under control he managed to choke out "don't hate
you". Luke let out a relieved sigh at Bo's words, as Bo continued to cry Luke
was at a loss as to what could be so upsetting to Bo. "Bo can you tell me what
has you so upset?" Luke asked not without a little fear. When Bo didn't answer
Luke moved onto the couch and slowly put an arm around Bo's shoulders. "Please
Bo talk to me, I don't understand what's wrong if you don't hate me then what's
wrong? It's okay if you don't love me, we can just continue to be friends," Luke
was close to tears himself as he tried to get Bo to calm down and talk to
him.

After what seemed like an eternity but was really only a few minutes
Bo finally regained the ability to speak, however he quickly had Luke even more
confused. "Luke after that mess with the Carnival of Thrills and Diane, you were
there for me. Even though I treated you so bed, you were still there, I can't
tell you what that meant to me,"
"Bo, I love you there was nowhere else I
wanted to be."
"I don't know what to say Luke, what I do know is I couldn't
have gotten through it without you. A few weeks ago I realized I had fallen in
love with you."
"I don't get it, if you love me and I love you, what's the
problem?"
Bo had no idea how he was going to tell Luke the rest of it. He
took a coulple of deep breaths, as he began to speak he had to look away, he was
afraid of what Luke would think of him. "The problem is.......I don't......Luke
I love you more than anything, but I don't know if I can ever......I don't know
if I can ever let another man touch me." At this Luke interrupted "Bo, what are
you talking about? Did someone hurt yuo?" As Bo slowly told Luke about Jeff,
Luke reeled with shock. He was horrified that Bo had been put through such hell.
He wanted nothing more than to find Jeff Miller and kill him slowly for what he
had done to Bo. By the time Bo had finished he was once again in tears, as Luke
put his arms around Bo to hold him Bo began to shake wht the force of his sobs.
As Luke searched for the right words to say he realized that at that moment all
Bo needed was to be held. When the time came for words if he let his heart lead
him the right words would come.

After some time, Bo fearfully looked at
Luke, what would he see in Luke's eyes? Would Luke still love him, now that he
knew about Jeff? Now that he knew what Bo had let Jeff do to him, would Luke be
so disgusted he would hate Bo. As he looked at Luke he was relieved to see love
and understanding, he didn't know how Luke could possibley love him now, but he
was definitely grateful. As he softly carressed Bo's cheek Luke knew now was the
time to let his heart do the talking. As he did, the words began to pour out of
him " Bo I wish you had never been put through that. If I could go back in time
and stop Jeff from hurting you I would. Bo you are such a good man, you didn't
deserve what Jeff did, I am so proud of you, not many people could survive
something like that, and you did it alone at only 15 years old. You are amazing
darlin, at 15 you experienced one of the most horrible things a person can and
yet here you are still able to love, still able ot believe in the goodness of
others. Bo do you realize most people would have curled up and died after such
an experience? We will take this as slow as you need and if you don't feel like
you can be with me, we can always continue as we have been. There is one other
thing for you to think about, if you give up on us before giving us a chance,
Jeff wins. He wins because he is still controlling you with fear." When he had
finished speaking Luke leaned forward and gently kissed Bo's lips, he then stood
and as he left he spoke once again "You think about it and let me know what yu
decide when you're ready."

As the day passed all Bo could think about was
Luke's words, what was he going to do? He knew Luke was right, if he denied
himself, denied them the chance for happiness then Jeff would win. Bo didn't
know though if it would be fair to Luke, what if he gave it a chance and he
found he couldn't get past the fear that Jeff had taught him to live in. Then he
remembered the kiss Luke had given him, even though it was quick, it was also
incredibly gentle. He had never experienced anything as wonderful as that kiss,
could he be just friends with Luke now. That night as they got ready for bed Bo
knew the time had come to tell Luke what he had decided. When Luke sat down on
his bed he was very surprised when Bo knelt on the floor beside him, as Bo began
to speak Luke found himself touched by the trust Bo was giving him.


"Luke, I've been thinking all day about what you said this morning, and
the more I thought about it the more I knew you were right. Jeff taught me to
live in fear, I'm tired of being scared Luke, I don't know how long it'll take
but, please can you show me what it's like when, I don't know how to put this.
No one has ever loved me, Jeff enjoyed hurting me, I guess he liked the power
and Diane was only using me for her own gain. Show me what it's like to be
loved, please." Luke reached out to once again carress Bo's face, he couldn't
understand how anyone could ever hurt a man like this. "Bo, I love you with
everything I am and I want nothing more than to show you how very much you are
loved. But we are going to take this slow, all I want for tonight is to hold you
while we sleep, would you let me hold you tonight and every night for the rest
of our lives?"
"I would love to have your arms wrapped around me, keeping me
safe," Bo said as he climbed into the bed with Luke. As they lay there a thought
occurred to Bo, "Luke what are we going to tell Jesse and Daisy?" Luke startled
for a second, "I don't know Bo, hadn't thought about it yet, how about nothing
for now, first let's you and me get used to the changes before we tell anybody
else. Does that sound okay to you?" Bo snuggled closer as he answered "Love, if
that's what you want to do, I think it's probably best for now."

As the
weeks went by Luke showered Bo with love and attention, every night they slept
in each other's arms, showing Bo that he could be loved. When Bo felt that he
was ready he decided to surprise Luke. He went to the cabin at still site #4 and
made the preparations, making sure they had all the supplies they would need for
the night. He told Uncle Jesse that he and Luke were going to Capitol City and
would probably be gone for the night, then he cb'd Luke and asked him to meet
him at the cabin.

Luke rushed to still site #4 wondering what was wrong.
Bo didn't really sound upset, but there must be a problem why else meet at the
old still site. When Luke walked in the door he was pleasantly surprised to find
Bo laying on a pallet in a candle lit room. Bo held out his hand in an
invitation, which Luke was only to happy to accept. "Are you sure Bo? I don't
want you to feel like you have to do this?" Bo was touched by Luke's words and
what's more they told him he was right to trust Luke. "I've never been more sure
love, please Luke show me that it can be good, show me it doesn't have to hurt.
Love me and take away the pain they left behind." Bo trembled lightly as Luke
began to remove his shirt, but he soon forgot his fears as he was lost in the
sensations Luke was creating. Luke slowly removed Bo's clothes, as he pulled
Bo's boxers over his feet he slowly began to kiss his way back up Bo's body.
When he reached his lips he took them in a passionate kiss that left Bo
breathless. As Bo returned the kiss he bagan to unbutton Luke's shirt, it didn't
take long to divest Lust of his clothes. Soon Bo was returning the favor as he
rained small kisses on Luke's chest, gently suckling the nipples as Luke writhed
beneath him. Suddenly Luke twisted and Bo was on his back "my turn" Luke growled
as he bagan to pay attention to Bo's chest. He slowly worked his way down until
he came to Bo's erection as he took it into his mouth, he thrilled to hear Bo
moan in pleasure. Bo couldn't believe the sensations he was experiencing,
nothing had ever felt this good and then his brain simply melted as Luke pressed
a finger inside of him and suddenly before he could even warn Luke, he came. It
was the most powerful climax he had ever had, he pulled Luke up to meet his
lips, he could still taste himself on Luke's lips, it was the most erotic thing
he had ever felt. "Love, I want to feel you inside of me, feel you as you cum,
would you give me that gift?"
"If that's what you want darlin, nothing would
make me happier" Luke whispered as he lovingly carressed Bo's body. "You need to
turn over and get up on your knees, it'll make it easier for you the first time,
okay?" Bo nodded, his eyes filled with love and trush, with maybe a hint of
fear. Luke slowly and carefully prepared Bo, as he slid himself into Bo's
tightness they both gasped at the feeling. Luke waited a moment, giving Bo time
to adjust to Luke's presence, when he felt Bo push back against him he knew he
was ready. Bo had thought the blow-job was wonderful, but this, this was heaven
on Earth. He couldn't believe he had waited so long, this was nothing like he
had feared it would be. Afterwards as they held each other close, Bo was
suddenly aware of a lightness in his soul, at first he didn't understand, then
he realized, the fear he had lived in for so long was gone. He had taken the
first step when he revealed his secrets to his love. Now because of that first
step, his love, his Luke had been able to drive the fear away. As he drifted off
to sleep safe and loved, he knew he was exactly where he wanted to be for the
rest of his life.

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