Crash Into Me

HERE IS MY DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, I don't make any money off my stories, and it's all for the love of it!

***Oh, and you come crash into me and I come into you and I come into you. In a boy's dream, in a boy's dream.***

Rodney McKay never considered himself as clumsy, matter of fact he was usually very much a together person. He hated not being in control, when things spiraled out of his control that is when it happened. The butterfingers syndrome, it was inevitable. Since he had come to Atlantis the syndrome had escalated out of control. The cause of his problem was the most perplexing person he had ever come across, he was in the middle of the biggest case of denial in the Pegasus galaxy. John Sheppard was the fire that lit it. Sheppard was the one none life sucking life form that knew how to cause panic inside McKay’s little world. He couldn’t quite comprehend what it meant but Rodney McKay knew that something had to give. What was worse was the sudden magnetic force between them, meaning Rodney kept running into Sheppard. Literally. Rodney had the bad habit of not watching where he was going, nose planted solidly in his laptop or belittling someone over his comm then BAM right into the tall lean figure of Sheppard. Rodney was usually the one sprawled on the floor limbs flying with a loud “ompfh” as Sheppard stumbled catching himself with an agility Rodney knew he could never gain. So it happened again…just like that.

“McKay…” Sheppard sputtered as he reached out to the scientist pulling him up. “That’s is the third time this week. You really need to watch where you’re going.”

Rodney’s face turned crimson “Me? Major I think it is you that not watching where he is walking.”

“Right, ok then” Sheppard sighed “Are you ok?”

“Fine, I’m fine. No thanks to you…” He straightened out his light blue shirt and rescued his laptop from the floor eyeing it with worry. McKay used all his will power not to look into the eyes of the other man, his skin felt hot and he had to get away from him before anything else gave him away. He knew it from the very first time he had meet the bed head ridden man. His breath had caught in his throat. Rodney knew his taste for the same sex was not an accepted thing in the military world and it was something he had been able to keep in check when he had signed up for the mission, but it hadn’t been easy around Sheppard.


Sheppard sighed rolling his eyes “Right McKay…” he gave his self a customary dusting of is uniform then moved off with a purpose.

Rodney watched him go his words of retort caught in his throat. He felt a tinge of guilt; Sheppard had only shown concern under his eyes. Damn, he thought what do I always use my stupid mouth when I should just shut the hell up.

***Oh, I watch you there through the window. And I stare at you, you wear nothing, but you wear it so well. Tied up and twisted, the way I'd like to be. For you, for me, come crash into me. Come crash into me, yeah.***

The mission brief the next morning was scheduled right after breakfast. Rodney had lost track of time and hurriedly walked into the room balancing the remainder of his bagel with his laptop.

“Glad you could make it McKay, did we interrupt your morning feast?” Sheppard smirked

Ford chuckled as Teyla smiled welcomingly her eyes full of amusement.

Rodney rolled his eyes for Johns benefit “It just happens Major I was going over the specs for this mission.”

Sheppard shook his head as Elizabeth eyed them both “I was just telling Major Sheppard, that the MALP showed some nearby buildings. Relatively old and looks like they are abandoned. Most likely the natives have been culled into extinction by the Wraith..” she paused “But I think you should check it out all the same.”

Rodney nodded “I agree with Dr. Weir from what readings we could get from the MALP there is something putting off energy waves and from what I can tell they are coming from within the buildings, might be something of use.”

“Right,” Elizabeth said as a conclusion “So use caution and see what you can find. Dismissed.”

The team nodded in response pulling away from the table. Teyla, Ford and Elizabeth strolled from the room leaving Sheppard and Rodney in silence. Rodney pretended to be engrossed into his laptop.

Sheppard breathed in deeply “Look McKay, we can’t always be like this..” he started to push back from the table.

“Just forget it ok..” Rodney hastily closed the laptop and pushed off from the table and right into Sheppard clattering to the floor they landed with a thud. Rodney groaned the dull thunk of his head contacting the tile. Sheppard yanked himself up going to Rodney. He looked him over quickly “McKay…McKay, Rodney?” he repeated, “Are you ok?”

Rodney opened his eyes and was greeted by two concerned stormy reflections. “Major, could you please get off of my arm?”

Sheppard looked down he was kneeling on Rodney’s arm that was cocked to one side “McKay, you really know how to make an exit.” He touched the back of McKay’s head gingerly “You get a concussion or what?”

“I’m fine, just feeling a little embarrassed at the moment…” Rodney sat up as Sheppard pulled him up.

McKay looked at the floor “We should, uh get going, they are going to be waiting for us.”

Sheppard nodded “Right.”

Ford and Teyla were waiting by the gate as they joined them neither saying a word.

“Good luck, be safe..” Elizabeth called down to them as the gate engaged.


Sheppard waved and the team turned in unison each stepping through the horizon with a slurping sound.


“Incoming wormhole Dr. Weir, no teams are scheduled.” The technician advised as Elizabeth briskly walked into the room. She had heard the all too familiar sound of the gate dialing from her office.


“IDO?” she asked

“Coming in now, it’s Dr. McKay.”

“Open it..” she said her feet barely touching the floor as she hurried down the stairs. The team had been gone barely 30 minutes and she could feel something was wrong. Medical team to the gate room.” She called out her instincts kicking in.

Teyla stumbled in through the gate her concentration on Rodney who was leaning on her; Ford came in holding up Sheppard who was barely conscious as the gate closed behind them.

“What happened?” She asked as the medical team came running up.

“One of the machines we found in the first building spewed some sort of white powdery chemical on the Major if Dr. McKay hadn’t pulled him away…” Ford said as the medical team laid Rodney and John on cots rushing them to the infirmary.

“Are you ok Rodney?” She asked as he wheezed his throat dry “I’m fine, I didn’t get any on me, just breathed some of it, Major Sheppard was dosed with it…” his voice trailed off.

Elizabeth watched as John and Rodney were wheeled off she tapped her comm. “Dr. Beckett this is Weir. You have some patients on the way.”

“Aye, came the response, I heard I will let you know when I know.”

“Thank you Doctor, Weir out.” She sighed putting herself back into work.


Rodney sat up roughly “Really, I’m fine…” he wheezed pleading with the nurse “I just need something to drink.”

“Dr. Beckett wants you to lay down until he can check you out..right now he is prepping the Major for decon.” She pushed Rodney back down again.


Rodney huffed as she turned away from him he rolled over to the side pretending to go to sleep. Moments later he heard her footsteps echo as she walked away. Rodney jumped from the bed hurrying the few paces to the next room. As he rounded the corner he could see Carson cutting John’s clothes with a large pair of scissors and shouting out orders. “I want the decon chamber prepped, I almost have him ready.”

A nurse nodded as she ran from the room. “Carson..” Rodney said he voice catching “Is he..is he ok?”

“I don’t know Rodney, he is unconscious right now and I’m going to get him into decon. Why aren’t you in bed.” His voice is was rough and worried.

“I’m fine, really…just tell me he is ok…” Carson looked at him over his facemask a moment as he pulled at one of Johns boots. “Help me get these clothes off.” He handed Rodney a pair of gloves and mask.”


Rodney nodded quickly putting them on and he grabbed a foot yanking at the boot. Carson had already removed the gear and John’s shirt. Rodney’s heart raced with fear and guilt he swallowed it down as he tossed the boot ripped off the sock then reached for the pant leg as Carson undid the belt nodding at him as he pulled the garment down carefully taking the boxers along with them the white powder that had coated his clothes floated around them. He froze at the sight of the naked man. His hair in its normal state long lean legs attached to the firm torso sparse dark hair decorated its center as the ragged breath caused it to rise and fall slowly. Rodney forced his gaze from settling on the region he knew he shouldn’t be seeking out as Carson gripped the edge of the bed “Rodney lets roll.”

Rodney shook his head and pushed the other side of the rolling bed as they raced it into the next room. A small standing chamber with sterilization warning stickers stood in its center. The same nurse Rodney had seen earlier was prepping it as they came in. “Help me” Carson said as the three of them lifted the man from the bed and carried him inside. Carson started the chamber as the cleansing process began.

“This will take a few hours Rodney..I want to check you over real quick.” Carson said his voice no nonsense.

“Give me a minute, please.”

Carson’s mouth dropped open his voice ready to place his argument but it stopped as he watched the scientist eye the chamber.

“Fine,,but I want to see you soon.”

Rodney nodded as Carson gave him a concerned look and left the room. Rodney sat on the edge of the bed as the water rushed over Johns form the droplets running along his skin as they ran their course along his body disappearing from sight at the bottom of the chamber. The dark hair wet flattened for what he thought was the first time he had ever seen it. He smiled at the thought of it not sticking in more directions then what could be humanly possible.

After a few minutes the nurse came in to check the chamber “You had better go see Dr. Beckett before he has you hauled out.” She smiled with a wink.

Rodney looked at her with no words nodding he forced himself from the bed and went back to his own.


***You've got your ball; you’ve got your chain. Tied to me tight, tie me up again. Who’s got their claws in you my friend? Into your heart I'll beat again. Sweet like candy to my soul sweet you rock, and sweet you roll. Lost for you, I'm so lost for you.***


John was moved from the chamber a few hours later and was back in the infirmary room redressed in a hospital gown in no time. Carson checked his vitals and despite the fact he was still unconscious he seemed perfectly fine.

Rodney was run out of the infirmary after Carson’s examine with a promise of any news if John woke. Rodney worked with no concentration at what he was doing his mind straying to thoughts of John. He slammed the laptop closed and headed to the infirmary.

Carson was just walking into the lab “Ah, Rodney I was just coming to get you..he’s awake..” Carson advised

“Is he..ok?”

“He’s fine, asked how you and the rest of the team were…”

Rodney didn’t stick around to hear the rest he walked into the infirmary as Ford and Teyla walked out. They both nodded and smiled.

“The Major is doing well..” Teyla assured

Rodney nodded as they both walked away he peered around the corner spotting his target. John was sitting up in the bed eating from a tray his hair back to its chaos look.

Rodney cleared his throat loudly stepping from around the bend. “Major, good to see that you’re up.”

“McKay I was wondering if I would see you pop in.”

Rodney came to the bed “I..uh,” The words were lost on his tongue.

“It’s ok McKay, it wasn’t your fault how they hell were you supposed to know that thing would do this? I know you’re smart but hey you’re not clairvoyant. Hell, you pulled me out I’m pretty sure that means we’re even on some cosmic level.

“Right, I mean you’re right.” Rodney pulled himself up straight “I just wanted to make sure we’re cleared up on that subject. So everything good?”

Sheppard shook his head “Unless you have something else to add, I’m going to enjoy the rest of my blue Jello.” He grinned.

“No, nothing more..” He coughed and turned away from him.

“McKay?”

“Yes, Major?”

“Are you sure you don’t want to say anything?” John asked his voice completely serious.

“What are you talking about?” he said turning back he kept his voice even

“Nevermind..”


Rodney swallowed turning back again to the door he paused and walked out.

Several days went by and John was released from the infirmary with no lasting effects of the powder shower he had received. Rodney stayed away from him when it was none worked related he just couldn’t handle being around him. He couldn’t shake the feeling that had caressed him that day in the infirmary. He was denying it completely. That gut punch to the stomach that said John knew something. He just wanted to hide under his bed in his quarters.


He was typing up a report at his desk when a knock at the door jarred him. “Come in” he called out absently.

John walked in wearing khakis and a dress shirt. “You know McKay you can take a day off once in awhile you wasted your whole day in here didn’t you…”

“What is it Major?” He scowled in defense eyeing the dinner tray he had left on the counter. He really did need to get out more. “I’m kinda busy.” he replied

“Wanted to know where you were hiding, I can see you have been medicating yourself with work again.” John plopped down on the bed

“Listen Major I’m not really in the mood for chit chat..” Rodney trailed off his eyes locked to the screen.

“What is wrong with you?” John asked

“What?” Rodney’s back stiffened he looked up

“Are you in denial? Or are you just that dense?”

“What are you talking about?” Rodney pushed aside the machine standing up he crossed his arms.


John sighed “Rodney..”

Rodney involuntary shuddered when John said his name the silky easy way he spoke as though they were having a discussion about the weather. “I know what you’re doing Major, you know that I’m gay and that I’m attracted to you, well you can forget it. I’m not going to let you get me transferred or let you..” Rodney huffed coming closer to John “…poke fun at me…I just won’t” He folded his arms his stance becoming the picture of a standoff.

John leaned forward “So it’s dense then..” he stood coming to the flustered scientist.

“I, uh, what are you talking about?” Rodney stammered.

John stood over him “For such a brilliant mind you are utterly clueless. Why do you think I keep running into you?” He grinned, “I wanted to Rodney. It seemed the best way to really get to be near you. I admit I didn’t know you were interested for a while I was just hoping. I guess I wasn’t been clear enough.”

“Wait, you…” Rodney hesitated his mind reeling. “So this isn’t…” Rodney crumbled his legs became weak.

John caught him “Hey, Rodney..” He took him gently to the bed. “It’s ok..” He took the whiskered face in his hands “I don’t know why you are so scared but I’m here, I’m real and I care for you..the same way I know you care about me.”


Rodney chased away it all, chased the doubt the worry he looked at the man sitting in front of him. “I do..I do care about you.”

John let out a happy laugh he gripped Rodney’s face eagerly bringing his lips close. Rodney hesitated then rushed forward as lips and teeth clashed hunger drew him in as they kissed tongues reaching deep inside fervent for more. John reached for the front of Rodney’s shirt gripping it tightly he pulled it over his head then reached for the belt as Rodney kicked his shoes free. Rodney joined it to help as John smacked his hand away shaking his head “Oh no, it’s my turn, as I hear you already got to do this.”

Rodney flushed again. “That was different..” he breathed heavily has John released the button pushing Rodney deeper into the bed.

Rodney moaned as John licked his way across his nipples down his chest slipping his hand under Rodney’s ass to maneuver the pants down his waist over his thighs.

John raised up quickly undoing the buttons on his own shirt over his head tossing it aside he shimmed from his pants kicking off the shoes his motions leaving no wasted time he quickly returned his attention back to Rodney. His erection colliding with Rodney’s they moaned in tune the fever of the friction gripping them both. John held on tight as they rocked kissing him as Rodney arched back with a lasting thrust John completed himself between their bodies Rodney cried out spurting his response as the cum mixed on their skin. John collapsed alongside him Rodney smiled for the first time in days his racing pulse slowing as his skin cooled. He tugged at the covers encouraging John to join them under the crisp sheets. They laid in silence as the dark filled the room.

“Talk?” John asked sleepy


“In the morning…Sleep now.”

John sighed in response as Rodney drifted to sleep.



***Touch your lips just so I know. In your eyes, love, it glows so. I'm bare-boned and crazy... for you.***


Rodney showered humming to himself he cut off the water stepping from the stall he reached for his towel when a hand gripped his. “Morning..” he said with a grin

“Hey..” came the lopsided reply “How are you feeling? Regretful?”

“What do you think?” Rodney asked his eyes danced challenging

“I think you need another shower..” he replied his gaze going down “A cold one this time..”

Rodney chuckled “That would be your fault you know.” His fingers traced over Johns red lips swollen from kissing.

John smiled “How about that shower?”

Rodney laughed heartily reaching for him his skin tingling “You can never be too clean.” He agreed as they backed toward the stall bodies crashing together in impatient anticipation.