Heaven's a lie

Disclaimer: Title is a song from Lacuna Coil. No harm or fraud meant against them. I do not own Voyager, nor ANY part of the other Star Trek series. Nor the actors. I figured I’d just take them out of retirement. Dust the cobwebs off, and give them one hell of a fu! Who could blame me. If ya reading this, ya feel the same way. Enough said!


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Heaven’s A Lie

Look at me.

Blonde/red hair.

Blue eyes that people can lose themselves in.

I’m tall.

Nice thin body.

Hot, tight ass.. (As I’ve been told on several occasions)

My life is all I’ve ever dreamed about. .

I find myself dating the man I have been in love with forever.

One that if anyone ever found out, it would break may hearts.

He’s dark, and handsome.

Gorgeous, and ...well that’s the same as handsome, I know.

It’s just that he’s... well he’s my everything. I don’t know if I could live without him.

He has brains and brawn. He fights for what he believes in.

Would never go against his honor code. And never willingly hurt anyone without a reason.

He’s a animal when it comes to sex.

Anyone would feel envious if they knew what he does to me.

A god in the bed he is.. Well hung, and he knows how to use it.

Unfortunately...

I just woke up...

Reality stepped forward and left with with a size 11 boot on my face.

He doesn't love me.

Never once has he even kissed me.

I have to wait to relieve myself when he leaves.

All he does is come in, help me out of my pants and bend me over.

I can't believe I could hurt this badly.

He has willingly hurt someone.

And that someone is me.

I was desperate for his affection; Any from the man I could get.

When we started having sex, I just figured that maybe, just maybe he was starting to care about me.

I should of woken up when he refused to tell anyone about us. Demanded I keep silent.I am not even to tell my best friend about us.

I guess he doesn’t want to ruin his reputation and all. God forbid, I am that horrible? Is Loving me so wrong?

The sex was always a wham bam, thank you man. He never stayed after he climaxed. Even if I asked him to.

But, I guess the past and my insecurities let me be taken by him.

Now I sit here alone. Thinking about the laughter at my expense.

How could someone I love be so cruel.

And only to me.

He’d never hurt anyone else on board like this.

Never.

I just wanted to feel his love.

I just wished he could love me.

But, instead he hurt me.

His words to his friend tore my heart into two.

I was such a fool.

I thought I was in heaven.

But my heaven's a lie.

All I can seem to do now, is lay here and cry.

I just want to know one thing, Chakotay.
One thing only.

Why can't you even try to like me.

Why can't you even try.

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