Just My Size

Title: Just My Size
By : Phoenix Ghost
Rating: Adults Only
Category: Fanfiction
Characters: Justin Taylor, Brian Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Michael Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Ted Schmidt, Gardner Vance, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Gus, Cynthia, Jennifer Taylor, Craig Taylor, Molly Taylor, Chris Hobbs, OMC's and OFC's.
Genre: AU, Drama, General/Misc. Angst/Romance
Warnings: Strictly AU, Justin/other Brian/other Implied Mikey/Brian, but, that's just all one sided on the delusional Mr. Novotny's part. Brian/Justin, OMC/?
Very OOC, and Anti-Michael with graphic language, sex, and drug useage in future chapters as well as some violence, and a forced rape scene in a future chapter.
This is also a song fic, and will feature such artist's tunes like Uncle Kracker, Butch Walker,
and, well, just wait and see! lol
Even if you normally don't like song fic's I hope you give JMS a chance, as it's a unique story with a unique plot. ;)
Summary: A What IF AU.
Set in Season One, Episode 110, after the loft is burglarized and Brian has heatedly informed Justin of the fact that, "You've got 5 minutes to pack your shit, none of which, of course, was stolen, and GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!"
So, Justin does just that.
After a heart-to heart with his best friend Daphne Chanders, Justin runs away to NY... Or, does he?
From this point on, story goes AU.
Brian never signs over his Parental Rights to Mel, and in MY world, Kip NEVER existed.
Disclaimer: All Characters and situations from Queer as Folk are the properties of Russell T. Davies, Ron Cowen and Daniel Lipman, (Cowlip) Showtime, and others. No Copyright infringement has been intended by this author or this website. This story has been invented for entertainment purposes only and has been rated by the author, and not by any independent body.
A/N All mistakes are my own.
Jaden Long's character voice, accent, and cowboy looks come from my personal experiences with some very sexy and hott South Texan cowboys from my saucy past and my over-active imagination.
FYI, while not all Texans are 6 foot tall, from experience, I can vouch for the 'long' part, as I was NEVER disappointed.
Song: In A Little While
By: Uncle Kracker
LBNL, This story is a plot bunnie from a few hot X rated movie clips My Cassy Luv sent to me.
My jaw dropped as I saw the slender sexy body and blond hair, and just how much the young actors in those clips resembled the young actors my friend could of sworn they were! Although of course it wasn't them, but just a pair of very sexy spot on 'look-a-likes,' still my lil' muse went, "OH, yeahhhhhh! DO. IT!"
PG
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CHAPTER 1

They say that somewhere in the world, there is a twin for everyone. Someone who resembles us or possibly someone we might mirror as well.

But, seventeen year old Justin Taylor never believed in that saying until he ran smack dab into his own doppelganger.

"What the fuck!" Justin yelped, closing his eyes and rubbing his sore forehead as he now sat scowling from his sprawled position on the highly polished marble-esque Airport floor.

"Why don't you watch where you're going asshole!" He mumbled under his breath, struggling with his heavy dark blue back pack and shoulder bag as he tried to sit up and then attempted to stand once again.

But, all he had accomplished was looking like an upside down blond headed dark blue ladybug.

Bracing his hand on the floor to keep from falling over as he was moving his long blond bangs out of his eyes, Justin glared at the pale slender hand now poised in front of his face.

Still grumbling, he moved his other hand to grasp at the proffered one while pushing off from the floor.

Feeling himself being quickly lifted to his feet by two small yet strong hands pulling him straight up, Justin's mouth fell open as he found himself button nose to button nose with a familiar stranger as he gazed into his own brilliant baby blue eyes.

Momentarily stunned, Justin felt himself wince slightly as his own perfect mega watt sunshine smile nearly blinded him.

Cocking a pale eye brow, Justin soon found that despite himself, he couldn't actually resist the urge from checking the other boy out.

Soon, his perceptive artist eyes were quickly scanning and picking out all of the differences yet the amazing similarities of the pretty blond boy now standing in front of him, doing a wonderful demonstration of Molly's white goldfish Harold.

Letting go of the boy's hands, and stepping back a bit, he softly snickered, then nibbled at his full bottom lip before acknowledging the handsome stranger.

"Hey, thanks for the hands up. I'm Justin Taylor by the way, what's your name? And, where in the hell were you going in such a hurry?" Justin sarcastically remarked, reaching behind himself to rub at his sore butt.

~*~

Jaden Carl Long was in L.U.S.T. Lust!

This short, sexy, slender little pretty blue-eyed darlin' blond replica of himself standing in front of him was like a tall glass of water to the thirsty Texan!

He'd always been in love with himself, and he'd be the first to admit it.

'Yep, folks, Jaden Long was a big narcissist! Well, a 5'5 inch tall one.' He thought, as he continued to just drink in the beautiful boy who was now staring at him just as openly.

Jaden just smirked and fluttered his long pale lashes slowly, arching his own blond brow as his 'Sunshine' grin melted into more of a sexy leer.

Enjoying the tiny blush that now stained the boy's porcelain skin, Jaden watched with glee as it was now creeping it's way southward.

For a moment, he wondered if the blush had traveled all the way down, because he knew it had at least touched the boy's slender chest.

This he could tell because the boy had on a tucked in dark blue long sleeved button down shirt, and the top two buttons were undone, showing off a milky smooth complexion, all the way down to the delicate curve of that suckable, lickable throat, giving anyone a peek of his tasty collar bones.

Jaden turned up the seduction wattage of his smile, and he had to bite back a laugh as the boy's loose fitting beige khaki pants became a bit snugger in the crotch area, causing the boy to have to rock a bit on his sneaker clad feet and then reach down and adjust himself, making the blush bloom even more rosy.

Tipping his black cowboy hat, Jaden used his sexiest drawl as he throatily replied, "Ah, no problem, it was mah pleasure sugah. Aftah all, it was mah fault you fell on that fine bubble butt in tha first place. Ah'm Jaden bah the way, Jaden Long, pleased to make yah aquatience Justin Taylor. And, wha yes, ah do believe Ah was in a verah big hurry sugah.
Yah see, mah plane just left for New-ah Yah-k ah bout 10 minutes ah go, and Ah'm afraid ah just missed it. Ah am so very sorry for plowing your fine body down like a ripe corn field darlin' please forgive me?"

Jaden pouted prettily, nibbling his full bottom lip as he stared expectantly into Justin's lust clouded memorizing blue gaze.

Watching the other boy nod his blond head slightly and then blast him back with an identical 'Sunshine' grin, Jaden quietly chuckled, already knowing full well Justin Taylor would.

Forgive him that is.

Back home, they always did. In their eyes, he could do no wrong.

He had a killer pink pout that even his homophobic older step-brother had fallen prey to more times than the prick would ever admit.

Even from the time he was little, Jaden would climb up onto his mother's small, white fake fur topped dressing stool, twirling a long blond curl round and round his tiny finger as he peered into the large oval mirror on the vanity dresser, making silly faces at the pretty little blue eyed blond boy staring back at him.

All through school, girls and boys flirted and teased with the small blond, and of course Jaden gave just as good as he got!

But, he had yet to find anyone worthy of his most cherished prize, and so, he'd remained a virgin, determined to wait until he found just the right guy, or girl.

Jaden Long had known early on that he was different than most boys, in the fact that not only did he find girls attractive, he found boys just as stimulating as well.

He was a charmer and he knew it.

Jaden enjoyed the tongue tied way others would act around him as they breathlessly checked him out.

In fact, back home he was loved by just about everyone; everyone that is except his older step brother Kane.

It had been Kane's insane jealously and Jaden's own obsessive star_struck desires that had driven him to graduate early from his High School so that he could seek out an uncharted pathway to the seductive bright lights of The Big Apple, taking him far away from the protective fold of his South Texas home.

After all, for now, there was nothing left for him there any more.

Last year, after a two year fight with cancer, the cancer had won, leaving sixteen year old Jaden motherless and at his step father and step brother's mercy.

His mother had richly provided for him, leaving him not one but two ranches with several hundred thousand acres each.

Along with a very nice nest egg in her will, as well as the untouched wills of her husband and Jaden's father Carl Jay Long, and both of her parents, Steffon and Kayla Ash, still none of it would do Jaden a lick of good, until the day he turned 21.

That was the hidden clause.

Jaden was thankful at least, that Colleen Arabella Ash Long-Parkins had made all three wills air tight, assuring that Jaden's greedy step father Cole Parkins and his hateful homophobic and equally greedy prick of a son Kane couldn't touch any of it.

Not one thin dime.

Not any more.

Had it really been just two days ago, Kane had threatened Jaden with the same old song and dance about the loss of his life if he didn't sign over the control of the entire estate and wills to Cole?

Yeah, whatever.

The fat fucker had been tweeting the same song since the reading of the will.

But, when the scumbag had made some hateful nasty remarks about Jaden's mom?
Jaden had finally had enough.

And poor stupid Kane never saw it coming.

Seeing nothing but red, he'd pounced, kicking the shit out of Kane.


~*~


Hopping into his Jeep Wrangler, Jaden had driven into town where he then had informed Maxwell Q. Harding, his mother's and now his own lawyer and Guardian Ad Litum of Jaden and of the wills, that he wanted to see some of the big bad world before he had to settle down and run two huge ranches.

Jaden had told the older man where he was heading, with strict instructions NOT to let Cole or Kane know where that would be.

He'd then explained to Max that he would stay in touch, via internet and or his cell phone, and had made sure the older man had copies of both.

Max knew that since Colleen’s death, Jaden had put up with a lot of shit from the two older Parkins men.

For Jaden, it had been hard to say goodbye to the man who for the last several years had become a good friend, and shoulder to go to.

Max gave him a big bear hug, and then had taken out his check book, writing him out a check which, of course Jaden had at first, refused.

But when Max had explained to Jaden that it was a graduation/good luck gift, Jaden had thought hard for a moment, swallowing down his pride, before nodding his head, and accepting it for what it was. A gift from the older man's heart, and an assurance that Jaden would be okay. After signing some necessary papers, Jaden was out the door and on his way.

After cashing the check, and then transferring the funds to an ATM checking card, he had returned to the Ranch and had packed two bags of things important to him.

Inside the army style duffle, Jaden had placed all of his journals that contained his life, and his dreams.

He had then rolled up three pair of his favorite button down 401's along with two long sleeved shirts and two short sleeved tee's, a white wife beater and one black tank.

Next came three pair of socks, blue, white and black. He added four pair of white boxer briefs and the duffle was full.

He then took his photo albums, and his carefully wrapped trophies, and the small brown velvet box that held his parents diamond wedding rings, his High School diploma and his real ID's and some trinkets, and then his knapsack was full too.

Looking out of his bedroom window, he spotted Blu his 4 year old quarter horse stallion.
Baby Blu had been a birthday gift from his mother, when Jaden had just turned thirteen.
She and Cole had been married for one year at that time.

Snickering to himself, he tried to imagine the look of fury on Kane and Cole's faces as they watched Max cart off Blu and Jaden's Jeep tomorrow morning.

Jaden had already signed the guardianship papers for Max to stud out Blu as well as keep him in Max's personal care until Jaden's return.

He had also sold his Jeep Wrangler to Max for the sum of one dollar as well, with the understanding that upon his return, he could buy it back at the same price.

Although the tricked out black Jeep would of fetched the Parkins men a pretty penny, 'Jaden's Baby Cordon Blu' had an impressive pedigree as long as his pretty cream colored tail, and Cole and Kane wanted nothing more than to possess the magnificent horseflesh for themselves.

At stud, the beautiful animal got well over five thousand dollars per service, guaranteed on just his name alone.

With a small sigh, Jaden realized that it had been a good thing his mom had finally seen through to the scum that was the amount of the man she'd married and the stupid son he had.

On the video, tears had fallen from her big blue eyes as she'd begged Jaden to forgive her of the colossal mistake she'd made by trying to give her little boy a family once again.
And, during the shocking reading of her will and the viewing of her tape, Cole and Kane had shown their true colors.

Both had loudly cursed Colleen and had been red faced and outraged as they watched her say in a clear voice, "I have filed for and been granted a divorce on the grounds of Irreconcilable Differences, on the day of the taping of this video, after finding out from a private detective hired through my attorney Maxwell Harding, of the shady and illegal workings of my now X husband Cole Parkins and his son Kane Parkins.

Through the sound advice of my attorney Maxwell Harding I have now avoided any and ALL debts that shall soon occur for them.

I have on this day, taken back my maiden and my first husbands last name of Long, and it shall be known from this day foreword on all of my personal paper work and holdings as well as my future tombstone, I shall be known once again as Colleen Arabella Ash Long."
As for the current fate of my now X husband and his son, they have been given the lowly task as caretakers WITHOUT PAY of the two large ranches, until Jaden's twenty-first birthday to make up any and all of the funds stolen from myself and my son, Jaden."

And, she had left no doubt about her feelings on the subject as she added that both men were to, "Pack up their shit, and get the fuck off of the Long & Ash properties and never darken Jaden's door again. Or face prosecution to the fullest extent of the law for their unethical and questionable practices in the handlings of both properties."

Both men had then turned white as a sheet when she had smirked in the video, as she had narrowed her pretty baby blues snarling and pointing a bony finger saying, "And Cole and Kane don't you dare fuck with Jaden, because up until right this minute, he knew nothing about it. So, Cole you WILL sign the divorce papers that Maxwell will present you with as soon as this tape is finished. If you have any questions about the validity of my accusations, just ask my Attorney Maxwell Q. Harding for a copy of the papers. You'd BOTH best leave quietly when it comes time, or face prison for a long, long time."

After the tearful goodbye to her son, the tape ended, and the last will and video/audio testament of Colleen Arabella Ash Long was completed.

For Colleen had left her entire estate with a net worth up into the high millions to her and her late husband's Carl Long's heir, and her parent's heir, her only son, Jaden Carl Ash Long.

Kane was glaring at a smirking Jaden the entire time Cole was signing the divorce papers.
But, Jaden didn't dare gloat. Kane Parkins was as mean as a snake, and everyone in Texas knew ya didn't fuck with a pissed off snake.


~*~


After spending some time with his Baby Blu, and after nuzzling noses with the pretty horse, it was with a heavy heart that Jaden had returned to the ranch house and had taken out his cell phone and called up his best friend.

They spent that day and then all that night re-hashing their childhood, sharing more secrets and drinking bottomless shots of tequila with frosty bottles of Corona and lime wedge chasers.

Jaden more so than Rose, as she was a total light weight in the drinking department, preferring big globs of gooey cookie dough ice cream on a big spoon, straight from the colorful Ben & Jerry's carton.

She even loved Pillsbury Chocolate chip raw cookie dough too, and would rather eat it that way, then take the time to bake it. And, he loved her for that silly little quirk and more. She was such a sweet and unique individual.

After the first plate of double decker killer nacho's and the second pitcher of extra lime Margarita’s, Jaden had somehow crawled to her parent's large couch, and had passed out.
Rose had passed out as well, right along side of him.

That next morning, when the blaring of the alarm awoke them both, Rose had acted so strangely, bolting up off of the couch and mumbling something about shower and coffee.
Jaden hadn't batted an eye lash nor had he been surprised to see them both in their all together, because since they were toddlers, they'd done lots of silly things, like (according to their mother's) had dared each other to remove their diapers, and as they grew, they had enjoyed being skinny-dipping partners as well. They'd always been close, more like brother and sister, and less like the boyfriend/girlfriend couple like everyone and their families had expected them to become.

So, seeing her very sexy and very naked slender body that morning had been no big deal.
And, he'd guessed the dried cum stains on his tummy was just what it probably was, a wet dream.

As he'd seen a very cute guy in town earlier that day, and had told her all about it.
She'd been more quiet than usual though after he'd taken his shower and had gotten dressed and after popping some Extra Strength Tylenol's they had both sat there sipping at their coffee and nibbling on dry wheat toast, each lost in their own thoughts...

It almost broke his heart, but, telling Rose Rene' McMullin goodbye at the San Antonio Airport had been the hardest thing he'd ever had to do.

The petite pretty brunette girl had been his rock ever since he could remember, and, he'd miss her something fierce.

Looking back on it now, Rose had a strange look on her face, as if she wanted to say something, but was afraid to do so.

Perhaps they shouldn't of done what they did that night, but, for Jaden it had felt right. Even if it had given him one BITCH of a hangover from hell.

But, again, it had been nothing a couple of Tylenol couldn't handle. Again, Extra strength, of course...

Holding her trembling slight form so close to his chest he could feel her heart beating like a wild humming bird.

Fighting back the tears, he buried his face deeper into her soft fragrant long dark curls.
Then, hugging her once again, he let her go, watching as two fat tears glistened like diamonds on her little heart shaped face. Her bright blue eyes were silently telling him what her pink rosebud lips never would allow.

Leaning down and picking up his bags, slinging his knapsack over one shoulder, Jaden Long slowly walked away.

Even though it was so hard to do, Jaden knew deep down inside, that if he didn't leave now, he never would.


~*~


Stepping onto that New York bound plane, his shoulders suddenly felt lighter with the knowledge that for now, he was leaving his past and South Texas far behind.

With his fake ID that he'd had since he was sixteen, Jaden had enjoyed a couple of drinks in the First Class section that Max had insisted he fly.

But, after a while in the air, the plane had experienced some dangerous problems forcing it to land in Pittsburgh.

His stomach rolling like a tumbleweed, Jaden had found himself wishing he'd not drank a thing.

After joining the other seventy-five hysterical passengers in bouncing down a long rubber-like slide to escape the burning plane, Jaden had almost decided to take a Greyhound Bus the rest of the way to New York.

Almost.


~*~


Looking the boy slowly up and then just as slowly down, Justin's eyes widen as they watch the bulging 'y' juncture of the young man's tight and faded 401's.
Justin blinked, then continued his visual journey further down, and then up the jean clad form.

This boy was hott!

If GQ ever had a cowboy magazine spread, this kid could easily pull it off.

From the tips of his worn black tooled leather boots, to the bottoms of his skin tight Levi's that were tucked into them, Jaden's slender yet muscular form was breathtaking, making Justin's fingers itch to dig into his bag for his sketchpad.

A two upper front pocketed solid red long sleeved shirt was tucked into a slim waistband, secured with a solid black leather belt with a big golden buckle.

His collar was tipped with what looked like mother of pearl, and his shirt front was open down to three mother of pearl buttons, showing off the perfect pale skin. Justin found himself licking his suddenly dry lips as he once again looked into identical bright blue eyes.

Eyes that were now twinkling with a saucy mixture of playfulness and obvious interest.
If he hadn't known any better, he'd of sworn his mother had been relieved of a second Taylor twin by mistake, so much did this boy and he resemble each other.

But, when Mr. Hott and sexy cocked back his black cowboy hat with one slim finger and opened his pretty pink mouth, Justin felt his cock lengthen and harden and his own mouth slightly drool as the other boy introduced himself in a voice that had Justin longing for the secret confines of a bathroom so he could jerk off himself silly to that soft sexy southern velvety voice.

He felt his mind glaze over like a doughnut, as he slowly struggled out of the fog of lust to find that the boy seemed to of sincerely have apologized.

And when those full lips formed that pretty pink pout, Justin was a goner.

Soon he found himself not only helping the other boy, but offering to change his own flight time, just so they could fly together.

After all, like Jaden had excitedly reminded him, they were heading to the same place, New York City!

A tiny part of his mind reminded Justin of just who's generosity was paying for their impromptu trip, and if said person wanted to, Justin's cute little bubble butt would soon be behind bars and cozying up to some foul-smelling-black-toothed-and-heavily-tatooed-hung-like-a-horse-who-probaby-had-killed-his-whole-family-AND-their-dog-convict, named 'Bubba'.

But, then, as he and Jaden were walking through the pale tan colored long cylinder walk way to board the plane that would soon take Justin far away from his reluctant benefactor, and all of the unhappy memories of a family that no longer wanted him, Justin shrugged off the cloying and nagging guilty feeling of stealing the older man's credit card, as he followed the most perfect blue jean clad swaying ass almost as fine as his own khaki covered one, down the narrow airplane isle and finally to their assigned seats.

First class of course, for nothing was too good for them as Jaden had so easily persuaded him, after grabbing his arm, bouncing up and down excitedly, instantly reminding Justin of Daphne after one too many Starbucks Latte Mocha's, promising Justin that, "As soon as ah make it big shugah, we will fly-ah first class everywhere we go!"

And, when Jaden gave him that pretty little pink pout, Justin got weak in the knees and soon found himself at the ticket counter quickly agreeing and upping them from lowly coach to the posh First class.

Snickering to himself, he watched his new companion flirt shamelessly with the now blushing blond flight attendant.

Moving ahead of Jaden before he settled himself into to the assigned window seat, Justin put one of his bags into the upper storage, and the other at his feet, then he sat down.

Wiggling about a bit, he felt the posh leather hug his ass firmly.

Closing his eyes, he couldn't help it as he replayed the loft scene with Brian over and over again until it became a cruel loop in his mind.

Sadly, Justin realized that he was just doing as Brian had wanted, as Brian had hatefully suggested when he'd heatedly blasted Justin for leaving his loft alarm un set.

A small shiver ran down his spine as it dawned on him that he really was 'getting the fuck out.'

Out of the Pitts, out of Pennsylvania and out of Brian Kinney's life.

Still, thinking back on yesterday's events, Justin realized that he'd been hurt by the things Brian had said, and the hateful way he'd done so in front of Brian's own personal cheerleader Michael Novotny no less.

Justin snorted as he thought of the short, pale, whiney little joke of a man.

'No, not man,' he told himself. 'No', if anything, he was more of a boy trapped in a man's body. But, whatever the fuck he was known as, 'Mikey' Novotny had been a thorn in Justin's side from day one.

And, to Justin he'd always be Michael, Brian's Best friend, the one person that Brian would always love above all others.

And, even though Brian sneered repeatedly that he 'didn't do love', Justin knew that Mikey had been right all along, Brian also didn't 'do' boyfriends either.

So, Justin had been left homeless, with no where else to go.

He couldn't go back to his parents home, because his father hated his queer lifestyle.

He also didn't want to cause his mother or his little sister Molly any more grief than he'd already had.

Justin had made a hard decision after leaving Brian's raided and tattered loft that day.
After he'd met up at the diner for a chat with his own long time best friend and fag hag Daphne Chanders, Justin had decided that he would leave for New York.

Daphne had given him secret shelter for the night.

Justin had spent most of the night curled against her chest, safe in her slender arms watching old romance movies and crying for Brian and what they'd had, and what he'd lost and trading off big blobs bites of cookie dough ice cream with a large spoon straight from the colorful Ben and Jerry's container with Daph, as he was listening to her blast Brian Kinney, as she had tried her best to console Justin.

Later that night, as they lay in bed together, Justin had wished with all of his heart that the deep love he felt for her could really be a being in love, not just loving her as a friend only kinda love.

Because if it were, he'd never of met Brian, or his friends, as he'd never of ventured so far away to the siren pull of Liberty Avenue. And, he'd never gotten his heart broke.

Liberty Avenue, home of the Diner, and the Liberty Avenue gang and that stupid streetlight, the very place where he'd met an older man who had stolen his innocence, as Justin had given away his heart.

Late last night, wrapped perhaps for the last time ever in Daphne's warm and safe embrace, Justin had vowed to be just as cold hearted as the man who now owned the one piece of him that he could never recover, nor did he want to try to.

What they had shared that first night, and the amazing days and nights that had followed, Justin would forever cherish, deep inside in his now locked heart.

For only one man did and would ever hold that key.

And he hoped that when Brian Kinney remembered him, and IF he ever thought of him again, Justin hoped with all of his heart that someday the beautiful selfish and vain man would miss Justin just as much if not more than Justin himself would miss Brian.

Missing him oh so badly that it hurt to even think about it.

Feeling himself tearing up, as Jaden caught up to Justin and sat down beside him, Justin quickly turned his head away, appearing to suddenly find the dark tarmac outside the window very interesting.


~*~


Jaden, who was very sensitive to others feelings, after fixing his own seatbelt, reached over and carefully buckled Justin in too.

Patting Justin's hand to get his attention Jaden handed Justin a white hanky as he said, "Ah'm a good listener if yah need tah talk about it darlin'."

Justin smiled, thanked Jaden, took the soft cloth and blew his nose and then wiped away his tears.

Taking a deep breath, he did just that.

Starting out slow, he filled Jaden in on what he was doing, and why he was doing it.

Jaden had been rather impressed with the size of Justin's balls for stealing a credit card from the older man, and he'd been just, if not more verbal than Daphne about his feelings on how Justin had been treated by one Brian Aiden Kinney of Pittsburgh PA.

Justin had never experienced a friendship closeness with another male like he did with Jaden.

It was way different than his friendship with Daphne.

And, he'd always wanted an older brother.

He had been pleased to find out that Jaden was indeed three months older than Justin, and that he too had a fake ID that showed him as 21.

To Justin, who had lived a very sheltered life up until the BAK experience, Jaden was a very impressive individual. Sorta like a Brian, only shorter and in Justin's skin, but without Brian's sexual appetite, as wonder of wonders, Jaden was still a virgin. He was just a very good flirt.

As the plane slowly filled with passengers, soon, the pretty blond flight attendant that Jaden had been flirting with and a tall red headed one was standing in the isle and instructing them as well as the other First Class passengers in the art of using the floatation device as well as the air bags.

After the Captain of the huge craft made his own announcements, Justin and Jaden braced themselves as the large plane slowly made a huge circle, and then journeyed slowly, picking up speed as it ran swiftly down the runway, suddenly lifting quickly, and bringing them airborne.

As the enormous plane shot firmly upwards climbing for a higher altitude, both boys became a bit breathless.

Squeezing their blue eyes shut, they tightly held hands and prayed.


~*~


' Here's to the goodlife or so they say
All those parties and games that all those people play
They tell me this is the place to be
All these beautiful people and nothin' to see'

Justin Taylor sat boneless in the large rainbow stripped floating lounge, surrounded by dozens of beautiful, sexy and sleek tanned bodies of both sexes.

He really should of been shocked.

After all, it had been a month of this, a full month of living around this wild type of hedonistic lifestyle, and even though he knows he really should show some form of disgust, at this type of lewd behaviour, his blue eyes no longer widen in surprise as they did the first week he and Jaden had arrived.

Justin watches with mild amusement as the brazen hotties cavort in their colorful skimpy bathing suits, splashing and laughing, and then playing naughty as one by one, tops and bottoms were removed only to be tossed high in the air, landing in a series of wet splats on the heated stone edge of the pool.

He then shook his head and chuckled as he watched Lucria, a tiny little Spanish woman and the head maid of the mansion bark out some orders to her staff.

Soon, the discarded wet clothing was hastily cleaned up, and once again, the pool side looked as pristine as it had before the rowdy bunch had invaded it's tranquility. Along the large stone benches now stood stacks of creamy white fluffy body towels, and pure white robes.

Lucria Ramerez ran a tight ship, and no messes were tolerated for very long.

Observing the skinny-dippers swimming, Justin's artistic eye couldn't help but notice their alluring shapes as they tread in the sparkling dark aquamarine depths of the extra wide large phallus shaped underground swimming pool, their golden tanned limbs breaking the water's calmness.

It seemed peaceful enough, until one or more of them got out of the pool, only to run giggling, sexy parts bouncing, as they were quickly diving back in.

Plastic smile firmly in place, Justin reached for his sketchbook. Drawing for him had become the only thing that brought a bit of sanity into his life since he'd met Jaden Carl Long.

Sometimes I feel like something is gone here Something is wrong here, I don't belong here
Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town
And I've lost what I've found, it'll all turn around

Closing his eyes, Justin thought back on the amazing luck that had brought both himself and Jaden to where they now were.

They had arrived thankfully unscathed at JFK airport in New York, despite Jaden's tale of fear in the sky, as he'd wickedly informed Justin of his harrowing trip from San Antonio to Pittsburgh.

The stewardess had been quick with the iced Sprite served in a short cut crystal glass, but it hadn't stopped him from bolting to the bathroom and tossing his cookies.

'SHIT!' He'd thought, as he washed his hands and then wiped off his mouth. 'A fucking FIRE!? Oh, god....' He had moaned, feeling his stomach lurch as the plane caught a bit of turbulence.

Returning to his seat, Justin had glared at Jaden, but the boy had been involved in a lively chit-chat, this time with the pretty red headed stewardess. The blonde one was watching them closely, her slim arms folded across her more than ample chest as she was sending her auburn co-worker and Jaden her own little death glares.

Justin had just snickered darkly as he thought, 'Stand in line bitch.'

Deciding to get back at his evil twin, Justin smirked, placing his hand possessively onto Jaden's firm forearm as he purred, "Honey, don't bore the poor girl so."

At Jaden's comical lift of both of his sandy blond brows, Justin almost giggled, but he kept his composure long enough to ask suggestively with a little pink pout, "Sugah, you DID still want to join the Mile High Club, right?" he said wiggling his own brows, and tilting his head expectantly and eagerly toward the bathroom.

The girl looked like she'd eaten something very sour and very nasty as she sprang away from Jaden and loudly spat, "Oh, shit, not another fag?! And brothers at that? EW! Incest! EW! EW! Twincest!"

Mumbling to herself as she walked off they could hear her say, "Why? Why are all of the good looking ones gay??? And why oh why did this one have to turn out to be a big pervert?!"

Jaden had just narrowed his blue eyes at Justin before bursting out laughing.

With tears streaming, he choked out, "Good one bro! Touche' "

The girl had flounced by them still muttering, and they both had looked at each other, making the sign for crazy by twirling their forefingers in a circle by their heads, then burst out laughing again.

Grinning a huge Sunshine grin at each other, all was forgiven.


~*~


They had found a nice place to stay called Marriott at the Courtyards.

It was within walking distance of the airport, but, Jaden had insisted they take a taxi to get there, so they did.

After they had checked in and unpacked, Jaden informed Justin that he wanted to swim.
But, since neither boys had packed trunks, Jaden then said he wanted to go shopping in Manhattan. Justin thought he was nuts, but had agreed to go along.

After they returned, they both got dressed in their new swimming trunks that left little to be seen, and grabbing their room key card, went down to the swimming pool.

They had fun splashing and playing, and both boys felt something they hadn't in quite some time.

Freedom.

It had been during that swim that they had met Emanuel, or 'Manny' the Team Titan talent scout.

With some heavy persuading on both Manny and Jaden's part at breakfast in the lovely Hotel's Courtyard dining room that next morning, after feeling both of their excitement, Justin had told himself, 'How can I possibly say no?'

Soon, all three of them were quickly packed, and booked on the first plane out, and winging their way out West to La, La, land. The home of movie stars, and dreams...


~*~


In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you
In a little while I'll still be here without you
You never gave me a reason to doubt you
In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby


~*~


After he'd sketched for a while, Justin put away his book, slipping it into his water proof bag and sealing it shut.

The pale blue cell phone taunted him. As all he could do was just stare at it longingly. He wanted SO damn bad to just hear Brian's soothing sexy voice. Just to tell him...

"YAHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!!"

Justin cursed loudly as he almost fell over board when he jumped at the loud Tarzan-esque bellow.

With a huge sigh, he thought, 'Now there was one half of the 'Sunshine' duo that was taking the Titan Team by storm.' as he watched tongue in cheek while 'Sunshine' twin number one showed off his more than ample charms.

Jaden Carl Long had NO quibbles about showing it all. Unlike Justin who was a bit more shy.

Upon arrival in Mortin Titan's black double stretch limousine to the grand Titan mansion in Beverly Hills California, Jaden had taken one wide eyed look out of the window and had declared that he felt, "Content as ah ba-bah calf a suckin' on it's mam-ah's teat!"


~*~


Rolling his eyes as he recognised his friend, Justin laughed out loud when his saw the big tanned dick flapping as Jaden was leading the rowdy bunch in cannonballs off of the low dive board. How someone so damn short was hung like Brian Kinney still baffled him.

"Would Mr. Taylor like another drink, sir?"

Justin smiled and then accepted a tall rum flavored frozen treat from one of the many scantily clad servants now offering drinks to the other guests. Looking slowly around he noticed some of them in their birthday suits, and those milling quietly around, were silently enjoying the large stock of eye candy.

Watching his new friend heavily flirting, it still amazed Justin that the boy was still as cherry as he himself had once been.

BBAK. Before Brian Aiden Kinney...


~*~


On the other side of a coin
There's a face there's a memory somewhere that I can't erase
And there's a place that I find someday
But sometimes I feel like it's slippin' away

After flipping open the little blue phone, Justin was trying to decide if now would be a good time to call him, or should he just do what he'd done since arriving, and get rippin' drunk instead?

He sat his cell phone down.

'Ah,' he thought, 'decisions decisions.'


~*~


Sometimes I feel like something is gone here
Something is wrong here, I don't belong here
Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town
And I've lost what I found, it'll all turn around

Tipping the creamy cool drink to his lips, his mouth and tongue savoured the frozen beverage, and he smiled as he felt the familiar burn in his tummy.

Then, he felt his skin crawl as he heard a familiar whine.

Oh God, what he wouldn't give just to be back at Liberty Avenue with Brian and his friends.

Hells, he'd even tolerate Michael! But, no matter how hard he pretended, Justin wasn't Dorothy, and his red Speedo was not a pair of ruby red slippers. Although the girl speeding toward him was more like the bad witch, than Wanda the good one...Damn, he giggled softly, he really needed to lay off of the Pina' Colidas...


~*~


In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you
In a little while I'll still be here without you
You never gave me a reason to doubt you
In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...I'll be thinkin' about you baby


~*~


"JUSTIN!"

'Shit.' He thought to himself, ' just fucking great. His own version of Michael Novotny complete with big tits, a big ass and long blonde hair...' Dammit all TO FUCKIN' HELL and back!' He silently fumed, wishing the spoiled rotten girl would just get a clue, and leave him the hell alone!

He'd tried everything to alienate her obvious and VERY unwelcome attentions without pissing off daddy dearest.

Fighting the urge to dive off of the side and hide, instead he smiled a huge fake plastic smile at the beautiful girl now zeroing in on him like the fucking shark she was as she swam swiftly under the dark blue-green water, then under his floating chair.

Popping up on the other side, making a big deal out of wetting her waist length long summer blonde hair, she floated, treading water, obviously waiting for Justin to acknowledge her presence.

Carefully placing the tall frosted glass into the circular drink holder on the side of the rainbow hued chair. Slipping his phone back into it's waterproof case, he then nonchalantly plucked out the thin tiny rainbow umbrella out of the top of the creamy icy mixture, and stuck the end of it in his mouth.

Reaching into his water proof sun bag, Justin took out his sunglasses, and then slipped them on.

He didn't want her to see his real feelings towards her, as he was still kicking around the idea of working for her father, Mortin Titan, or 'King Triton' as he was called behind his back.

Because he resembled the Disney Father figure of Ariel in The Little Mermaid, as Mortin too was tall, barrel chested, nice looking, and had long white hair.

And, the way both he and his daughter swam, Justin wouldn't be surprised if there had been 'mer' in the Titan family tree. 'Or tank.' He though as he inwardly giggled. Damn frozen drinks!

But, despite the hilarity of the situation, just thinking about the film brought a near tear to Justin's eyes, as it reminded him of the many times he'd watched it, pretending to suffer for having to, all for the sake of his little sister Molly. and he wondered if the little girl even thought about him, and was missing him too? Did anyone back there even care?

Now twirling the tiny bit of rainbow colored balsa wood between his thumb and forefinger, Justin gritted his teeth, willing away his sorrow and then smiled at her again, only this time, it didn't quite reach his eyes.

But, then, SHE didn't need to know that.

Some things are lost some left behind
Some things are better left for someone else to find
Maybe in time I can finally see
I just wonder, wonder if you think about me


~*~


Seventeen year old Karena Leigh Titan pouted.

'Justin fucking Taylor, a walking blond god and her father's latest discovery and one half of the Sunshine twins, and if she could swing it somehow, her future husband to be, was ignoring her! Again! The nerve! How dare he!' She fumed silently to herself on the inside, while on the outside she appeared serene sweet.

Because, if there was anything the spoiled little blonde heiress hated the most, was being ignored.

But, again, this was Justin Taylor ignoring her, and she didn't want to piss him off.
Nope. Uh, uh. No. Way.

When Justin had first seen Team Titan, he'd went off like a lit roman candle, (at BOTH ends) screaming obscenities about Jaden's stupidity, and sex slaves, and snuff films, and other stupid shit, and shouting the mansion walls down about how he wanted to just go home!

The whole mansion had seen his temper that first night they had arrived, and it wasn't pretty.

In fact, Karena had been pretty impressed.

Not to many boys or men, or even women had gotten away with talking about, or even to her daddy like that.

The twenty one year old's small body had risen up menacingly on his little tippy toes and he had gotten in her daddy's face, demanding to be sent home, because "He was no one's fuckin' boy toy."

And, when her daddy had just burst out laughing, Justin had shouted that, "He was NOT spending one more minute under the roof of a pervert!"

In fact, Jaden Long had been just as verbal, if not more so too.

And the two older men had argued well into the night. With Jaden pleading at first, and then shouting just as loudly as Justin, AT Justin!

Which, of course had made daddy want them BOTH even more for the Team Titan.

They had spit fire, and daddy had said spit fire was what it took to be a part of team Titan.
Her daddy ALWAYS got what he wanted. And, she'd over heard her daddy telling Manny that, "Those boys were gonna pull Titan Entertainment to the top! Sign them, I don't care how ya do it, just DO. IT. Sign them to a five year contact, make it air tight. I want them for all of it. The straight stuff, the bi stuff, and the gay stuff. Hell man, I want you to find out if they can dance, cause I've got promotion idea's brimmin' out my ass, and I REALLY WANT THEM. NO, scratch that, I NEED THEM! NOT JUST ONE OF THEM BOYS BUT BOTH! Ye gods but they have the prettiest little sunny smiles I ever did see! And the cutest lil' bubble butt's too! And, fuck me if they don't look identical too! YES! THAT'S IT! We'll BILL them, as, THE SUNSHINE TWINS! DAMMIT MANNY, Ya got one month. If I don't get them signed and ready to work in ONE month, you'd best be looking for work. But, you'll never work in this business, or in THIS town EVER again! I made you, and I can and I will break you!" He had roared.

Karena had never seen the greasy little man so chalk white.

Not even when they'd all gone boating on daddy's huge yacht and her daddy had hooked a small great white shark by accident, instead of the large swordfish he'd been going after.
Lucria had just shrugged and had one of the servant boys gut it, clean it and get it ready for supper.

The shark steaks had been delish.

Karena still didn't understand much about her daddy's past, but she did know this, her daddy hated wastefulness of any kind. As he'd once been very poor as a child growing up in the North Carolina mountains...


~*~


Karena watched patiently as Justin sipped at his drink, his dark mirror sun shades giving nothing away, and his face still had that stupid silly smile plastered on it.

Today was the day that BOTH young men gave her daddy an answer, and she was hoping it would be the one she had prayed for.

Just as she was about to open her mouth again, she squealed loudly.

Smacking at the brown blur that swam by her she hollered, "Damn you Jaden Carl Long you perv!" She yelled as she yanked her bikini bottoms back up her slim hips, and diving under the water, swam away.

Just then, Justin's evil twin surfaced the water.

Pointedly ignoring her, he shook the water out of his eyes with a sexy head toss, smirking a sassy smirk at Justin, his bright blue eyes twinking, he sweetly chirped, "Yah up for a game of dick tag luv?"

Justin snickered loudly and then rolled his blue eyes, thinking, 'Ah, that would be a big fat no?'

Putting his hands into the dark blue water, he began slowly rowing his way to the edge of the pool, trying to put distance between Karena's nagging, and Jaden's manipulative words.

Giggling to himself as he paddled, he snickered again as he thought about how it was just too funny listening to Jaden mangle the Queen's English language.

Even though he wasn't signed on yet, Jaden had quickly fit into Team Titan, and had instantly fallen head over dick for Borne, a sexy tall dark haired Englishman, and proud of the title of current head boy position at Team Titan.

Cocking his blond head, Jaden grabbed the chair before Justin could escape as he smiled slyly saying, "Well bro, have yah decided just what your answer will be then? You know mine, as I'd made up my bloody mind on day one!"

Just then, both boys watched as Mortin Titan, decked out in knee length rainbow swim trunks came strolling out for his afternoon swim.


~*~


Sometimes I feel like something is gone here
Something is wrong here, I don't belong here
Sometimes I feel like a stranger in town
And I've lost what I've found, it'll all turn around

Reaching down to the chair, Justin plucked out the light blue water proof bag. It had been a gift from Mortin, or 'Morty' as the tall man had insisted both he and Jaden call him.

In fact, almost every day since they had arrived in LA, Mortin Titan had done his best to woo both boys with lots of things just to come and join his team.

JUSTIN! JADEN! How tha' sam hell are you boys doing this fine California afternoon?" Boomed the tall older man over enthusiastically as he hurried over to where they stood, Jaden now toweling off and Justin looking very nervous.

Shaking both of their hands, Mortin had a gleam in his eyes that Jaden being a bit of a businessman himself instantly recognised, and Justin really didn't quite trust.

"So boys have you decided yet? What's it gonna be, hmm?" Holding out his large hands wide, he boomed, "The beautiful California hillsides, or?" He let the rest of his sentence trail, knowing full well they knew what he meant.


~*~


Jaden had just looked at Justin once, and he saw the other boy's answer in his own blue eyes.

And then his smile got even bigger, as he hugged the small boy tightly to him whispering in a shell pink ear, "OH God, sughah! Thank you Justin! Thank you baby! Oh I promise you, you will NOT regret this! We are gonna be BIG baby!"

Justin hugged him back and then held Jaden at arms length as he seriously said, "Don't make me regret this, okay? We'll stick together just as we first planned, okay? If at anytime you want out, we BOTH leave, got it?"

Jaden, tears clouding his vision could only nod.

Walking over to Mortin, Justin held out his hand as he firmly shook the older man’s hand as he said, "Count me on the Team Morty."

Jaden quickly composed himself as he proudly said holding out his own hand, "Yeah, Morty, I'm in too, so, now, you really have us, BOTH of us, the Sunshine Twins!"

"GREAT!" Mortin all but crowed.

"Lucria!" He bellowed.

Just then the tiny maid appeared.

"Jew rang sir?" She said dryly.

But, Mortin was too over joyed to notice. "Yes, yes I did!" He laughed, grabbing her tiny frame and twirling her around.

"Sir! I, must ask that jew remember yourself!" The little Spanish woman said breathlessly, as she patted at her hair, and straightened her crisp white uniform dress.

Swatting her on her butt, he howled, "Dammit woman, losen up! We are gonna have us a shin dig to beat them all! Now, go get Manny, and meet me in the front library, I want to go over the guest list!"

Nodding, the red faced woman quickly sprinted away to go and do her employer's bidding.

Looking back at his newest team Titan members, he smiled as he said, "Now, boys, why don't ya'll go and grab some Z's and then meet me in the front library, say around 4:30, to sign the necessary paperwork?"

Nodding and saying "Yes sir," both young boys headed off to their private quarters inside the rambling mansion.

Once back at their adjoining room suite, Justin and Jaden both stripped to take their shower.

They fooled around, nothing serious, just some horseplay, as they then washed each others blond hair.

After towelling off, Jaden motioned for Justin to join him on his big bed as he held out his arms for the position that they'd both become accustomed to during their month long stay.

As Justin heard the steady even breathing of his new best friend, he allowed himself one more look at what had once been with Brian Kinney, because, once he and Jaden signed those papers later, that day, there would be NO turning back. It was a five year contract, or nothing...All, or nothing.

And, as Justin already had nothing to go home to, he figured, he'd make even, by taking Morty's offer.

A silent tear fell down his face as he thought about a song that reminded him of Brian. But, then, most every song did, and always would.

Slowly, and with a heavy heart, he turned his face into Jaden chest and cried himself to sleep.

In his sleep, Jaden gently ran his hand through Justin's silky hair, patting his shoulder as he murmured sweet promises to him.


~*~


In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you
In a little while I'll still be here without you
You never gave me a reason to doubt you
In a little while I'll be thinkin' about you baby...
I'll be thinkin' about you baby...
baby, baby...