Dirty Little Secrets: Revealed
Dirty Little Secrets: Revealed
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Title: Dirty Little
Secrets: Revealed
Author: Fire Top
Rating: NC-17 (the
first one was so this one might as well be too)
Spoilers: Let’s say
season one and two for sure.
Disclaimer: The
characters you recognize belong to Adam Sorkin and NBC.
Summery: Josh’s
little secret has been revealed. How do
his friends react?
Authors note: This
was actually written before I even posted the first part of this.
shorter. Again this is done in first
person but the people keep changing.
Everyone who sent me feedback on the first story, I thank you.
one. You can send it all to
three. That one is mostly written.
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Dirty Little Secrets: Revealed
Toby’s POV
We are all stunned.
It’s ok
CJ. You didn’t do anything wrong.
few days.” Leo says as he heads out of
the office. We all just follow him.
Donna looks
up at us as we surround her desk. “Is
he?” Leo asks as he motions to the
closed door.
“He asked
for 10 minutes about 5 minutes ago.” She
answers and looks us all in the face.
She knows there is something wrong too.
“Donna have
you noticed anything different about Josh lately?”
“He’s been
busy with all the meetings for the education bill.
withdrawn, quiet.”
“He’s been
moving oddly.” Sam adds.
but I don’t buy it.”
Leo looks
pensive. Thinking about everything that
has been going on the past week with Josh.s'>
I know because I think I have a similar look on my face.
minutes and let him know we are here. We
are all going in there.” He lets us know
his plan.
There are
no noises coming from Josh’s office and the suspense is killing all of us.
sending Donna in. We all watch, holding
our breaths as she unlocks his door and slips into the room closing it behind
her.
A few
seconds later she comes back out. She
looks pale. There is something definitely
wrong. “Is he in there?”
Donna is definitely
flustered. “Yeah, he’s asleep.
for yourself. But be really quiet.”
“Donna what
are we looking at?” I don’t like
games. Especially if they involve people
I care about.
“You
shouldn’t be able to miss it, but look at his back and wrists.”
We enter
Josh’s office. I see exactly what Donna
was talking about. We all do.
their spots.
There are
red lines, slowly growing wider, seeping across the back of his blue
shirt. His wrists are rubbed red.
front of his shirt. When I stand back up
Leo motions us to leave the room.
We are
congregated around Donna’s desk again when I tell of my findings.
burn marks on his neck too.”
“What’s he
gotten into?” CJ asks.
“I don’t
know, but it doesn’t look healthy.” No
shit Sam. “We need to get him help.”
“I know
someone.” Leo says as he picks up the
phone. We listen to the one sided
conversation that Leo is having. He is
asking for a Robert Hodges. He turns
back to us after a bit. “A doctor is on
his way. He is a friend of mine and
works in a small hospital. He should be
here in about 20 minutes. We are going
to need to wake him soon. I want to know
his story.”
“I’ll do
it.” Sam volunteers.
“Okay.
this doctor see him. CJ, Donna, I’m not
excluding you I just think that this will be hard enough for Josh without you
guys around.”
“Got you
Leo. Do you want me to tell the
president?” CJ asked.
“Not till I
know more. Are you two going to be able
to keep everyone away?”
“I think we
can.”
“Okay Sam
do your thing.”
“Wait.”
We watch as she pulls a can of soda out of her desk.
Sam nods, and we watch as Sam walks
into Josh’s office. We have no idea
what’s happening in there. I figure that
if Sam needs back up he will ask for it.
Sam’s POV.
I can do
this. I keep telling myself.
me. I’m scared for him.
I tap him on the shoulder. “Hey,
Josh. Time to wake up.”
“I’m
up.” He mumbles and tries to move.
“Let me
help you.” I offer.
“There is Advil
on my desk. Can you get me 4?”
Four Advil?
them at a time? I look at Josh
again. He looks to be in a lot of
pain. Maybe he will talk more if he is in
less pain. I open the bottle and put
four pills in his hand and offer him the open can of soda.
I don’t
think that Josh knows what’s going on yet.
He takes the pills and some soda.
recognition covers his face. I better
get this started. “Josh, we need to
talk.”
It’s almost
like he doesn’t hear me. “I got to make
a phone call.” He answers.
“Josh.”
“Sam.
I’ll be out soon.” And he picks
up the phone. I shrug my shoulders and
walk back outside.
Four pairs
of eyes look at me when I open the door.
“He needed to makphonphone call.”
I explain. Leo and Toby go over
to empty desks and pick up phones. CJ
and I exchange glances and do the same.
Josh’s POV
Everything
hurts. I need more Advil.
What is that on my arms? It is
then that everything comes back. Oh
shit, oh shit. Sam’s here.
I look at the clock. Double
shit. It’s close to
starting to panic. Sam is saying
something to me.
“I got to
make a phone call.” I tell him.
“Josh.”
Why isn’t
he leaving me? “Sam.
I’ll be out soon.” I’ll make up
something to tell him. I see Sam nod and
close the door. As soon as he’s out I
pick up the phone and dial.
I’m
sweating as the phone rings.
“Hello?” She answers.
“I’m going
to be late.”
an>“an>“You
already are.”
I
gulp. “I know Ma’am.”
“Why didn’t
you call?” She sounds pissed.
“I fell
asleep Ma’am.”
“No
excuse.” She berates me.
I
cringe. “Yes Ma’am.”
“When are
you leaving?”
“In 30
minutes Ma’am.” It shouldn’t take me
that long to resign.
“20
Joshua. And I’ll be looking for you.”
“Yes
Ma’am.” I feel so defeated.
“I have a
surprise for you. I picked up some
plastic hoops. If I pierce your nipples
tonight they should be ready to play with by Friday night.”
“Yes
Ma’am.” I’m going to be sick again.
“And
Joshua, you will be wearing spikey again tonight for not calling me
sooner.”
“Yes
Ma’am.” And she hangs up.
presentable. It takes me a bit because I’m
feeling a bit lightheaded. Maybe I’ll
pass out tonight.
Leo’s POV
How could
this have happened? I’m in crisis mode
now. As soon as Josh discots tts the
phone I dial for the secrete service.
is a woman at Josh Lyman’s residence. I
want her picked up quietly in less than 20 minutes.
“That’s
sick.” CJ says.
“Yes it
is.” Intervention is going to happen
now. “Donna.
“Yes sir.
I motion
for Sam to walk in first. In all honesty
he is the least threatening of any of us.
“Josh.” He calls.
“Sam I’ll
be out in a second. I just need to
finish this.”
We all walk
into the office. I take a good look at
my deputy. He is back in his chair with
the suit jacket and tie back on. He
looks very pale. There are dark circles
under his eyes and he looks like he lost a lot of weight.
I seem him typing at his computer.
“I’m sorry
Leo. I’m almost done with my letter of
resignation. Then I just have to
apologize to CJ.”
I guess he
doesn’t realize she is in the room. I
look around. I see her in the
corner. Away from Josh.
“Josh, talk
to me.”
“About what
Leo.”
“Joshua,
what’s going on?”
“I’m done
Leo. I’m sorry.”
“Calm
dowpan pan style='mso-spacerun:yes'> You don’t need to resign.”
“Yes I do.”
There is a
knock on the door and Donna peeks her head in.
“He’s here.”
“Send him
in.” I tell her.
Dr. Robert
Hodges is an elderly man. He shakes my
hand as he walks into the office. “What
is this Leo?” Josh asks.
“This is
Dr. Hodges. He is going to check you
out.”
Josh looks
like a caged animal. “There is no
reason. I’m fine.”
“Josh.”
Josh stands
quickly. He is trying to back away from
all of us. Okay maybe this isn’t going
to be as easy as I thought it would be.
His legs give way and he falls to the floor.
“No.” Stops them in their tracks.
There is
another knock. “Leo, Line 5.”
Without
looking away from Josh I pick up the phone.
“Yes.”
“Mr.
McGarry. We have the woman in
custody. We are brining her back to
house to hold her.”
“You got
her?”
“Yes
sir. We have called in our guys to look
over this place. They are collecting
samples and such. We will let you know
where we are once we get her situated.”
“Okay.”
I wait for him to look at me. He
is sitting on the floor. Sam and Toby
are standing on each side of him with their hands at their sides and a few
steps away. “The woman who was you’re
your apartment is now in the custody of the secret service.”
CJ’s POV
Josh looks like he is going to
loose it any second. I don’t know how
much more he can take of this. I don’t
know how much more I can.
“Oh god.”
Sam goes to
move closer. “Don’t touch me.”
Sam backs up.
“Josh you
are bleeding. We want to help you.”
Toby kneels
down by Josh. “Joshua, please.
“I
can’t.” Josh is still crying.
“Joshua,
Get up.” I can’t do this any more.
I’m
surprised he listens to me “Yes Ma’am.”
He answers. He tries to stand.
“Josh, Let Toby
and Sam help you.” Leo adds when Josh
can’t get up.
“No.”
“Josh.
you on the couch.” I order again.
“Yes
Ma’am.” He closes his eyes as Toby and
Sam help him stand. I understand why he
is listening to me. That doesn’t mean I
have to like doing this.
Toby’s POV
It’s nice
to see that at least one of us here has taken a psychology class or two.
I look at Sam. He seems to be
troubled by all of this. Hell we all
are.
We move him
to his chair. I look down at the floor
and notice a stain. I look at the back
of Josh’s pants next. There seems to be
a wet spot there. I sniff the air.
doesn’t seem like he soiled himself.
“Doctor.” I point to the floor.
“We have to
get him out of these cloths.” The doctor
looks at CJ. “Can you find us some clean
blankets and sheets? Something that we
can wrap him up in after we undress him?”
“Yeah.”
face. “Joshua.
“Yes
Ma’am.” He answers automatically.
walks out of the room.
“Sam.”
Sam is now gone.
“Josh I
need you to lean forward a little.” I
tell him. The shirt is sticking to him
because of the blood. His undershirt is
worse. I pick up a pair of scissors and
cut it off in pieces. I am horrified at his chest and back.
his skin in a rainbow of colors.
“This man
has been abused. What hned?ned?”
“We don’t
know yet. We are working on it.
Leo is talking. Good.
The doctor
looks to be cleaning the cuts. Some have
stopped bleeding. Others are still oozing.
“He should
be in a hospital Leo.”
“I
know. But we want to keep this under
wraps as much as possible.”
“If someone
will stay with him at his place I will take of this here.
“I’ll
stay.” I don’t even realize the words
come from me until Leo speaks.
“You sure?”
I just nod
“Okay.
Just let me know what you need.”
“Right now
I want to take off his pants. Where is
that blanket? I don’t want him to get
too cold.”
“Sam is
going to be working on it. He is working
on something.”
“Let’s look
at the other half.”
“Josh.”
pants. I’m going to need you to help me
a little.”
His belt is
no problem. I unbutton the pants and
pull down the zipper. The bit of his
boxers that I see is red. With Leo’s
help we get the pants down to his ankles.
The red on his boxers has grown.
It is deep red at his crotch. Oh
god. This is not good.
and gag.
Dr.
gauze. “You okay?”
“No.
crotch.
“Leo.
of paper in the other.
“Good.
around Josh with one hand. The other is
still holding the gauze to the bloody mess his penis is in.
“Joshua.
way so he can clean the bleeding organ.
I take a pen and put it in Josh’s hand.
I move the pen to the paper.
“Sign your name Joshua.” He
listens and does what I tell him. I give
the paper back to Sam.
“Leo.
“Okay.
clammy. I can feel his pulse start to
race. “I think he is going into shock.”
Josh’s shoulders. I run my hands up and
down Josh’s arms trying to warm him up.
“It’s
probably from the blood loss.”
“Josh.
mind than for Josh’s.
“Toby you
and CJ go with him. I’m taking
Sam.” Leo told me.
I really don’t want to leave Josh any way.
“I’m
worried about the blood loss.” The
doctor interrupted. “Has he eaten
anything today?” I don’t know.
us. Was he hiding from us?
him.
“Let me get
Donna.”
“What is it
Leo?” She walks into the office with
Leo.
“Has he
eaten anything lately?”
“Nothing
much. Just some toast and jelly.
“Advil?
“He took
four this morning and 2 more later in the day.”
“He had 4
when he woke up before.” Sam adds.
“That’s not
good. The Advil has probably thinned his
blood. Let’s get him out of here.”
Toby
secured the blanket tighter around Josh’s body and with CJ’s help the got him
out of the building into the waiting car.
Josh’s POV
They found
her. At least that’s what Leo is
saying. But I hear her voice.
cuts, the bruises, and my cock. I don’t
want to think about it. I can’t.
I can’t believe I said that.
Raped. I was raped.
Iwasrapediwasraped!
I’m standing on Josh’s side.
Josh’s head in her lap. She is brushing
his hair back and murmuring to him. I
can’t hear what she is saying. I look
back at Doctor Hodges.
We’ve been
here for about 30 minutes already. After
a very silent ride to the hospital we were met by two nurses and a gurney.
him into this room.
Josh
started to get agitated while we were away from him.
the doctor and nurses are working on him.
Josh has been silent since we got in this room.
was best.
I’m kind of
nauseated thinking about what is going on down that end of the bed.
mind. He was pretty fragile after beishotshot. How the hell is he going to deal
with this?
I will be
there for him. That much I can promise
myself. I won’t let this eat him up like
it did with Roslyn. I refuse.
leg. I try and will him to be okay.
After three
hours I’m standing outside of Josh’s room on a phone by the nurses’
station. CJ is sitting at Josh’s
bedside. They say that he is in a state
of shock. It’s very unnerving looking at
him with his eyes open staring at nothing.
They have him hooked up to a bunch of monitors and tubes.
disturbing.
“Leo.”
“It’s me.”
“How is
he?”
“He’s resting now.”
“It seems
that she had him all weekend. He never
made it to his vacation. He was
tortured. She confessed.
are done collecting samples.”
“What’s
going to happen to her?”
“I pulled some favors and she
will be sentenced tomorrow.”
“So quick?”
“She confessed
and her lawyer knows that he has no case.
And agrees she should be off the street.
We are trying to get her committed.
will be sentenced.”
“You are
going to need CJ there for the press.”
“Sam, Donna
and I are going to be heading over to you in about an hour.”
“Does the
president know?”
“I’ll tell
him tomorrow morning. He’s not going to
like it though.”
“We’ll
deal. See you soon.”
“The doctor
doesn’t know how long Josh is going to be like this.”
“We are
going to have to tell the press something.
They are going to realize that Josh is missing.”
I would have never guessed.I try
and not be disgusted with my friends but we are sitting in a waiting area in a
hospital talking about policy and politics.
I really just want to be there with my friend.
“Do we have
to tell them what happened? I mean not
to sound callous but this happened out of the office and we don’t comment on
the personal lives of staffers correct?”
Good job Sam.
“But we
have to tell them something. And I am
not going to lie to them.”
I see I’m
going to have to add my two cents. “How
about Josh was attacked last night. The
perp was caught. We will know her
sentencing tomorrow correct?” I look at
Leo. At his nod I continue.
House. And the White House doesn’t
comment on the private lives of staffers.”
They all
nod. Good I got them toee tee to one
thing. Now on to the next piece of
business. I know that this one is not
going to go over as well. But it needs
to be done. “We are going to have to
appoint an interim deputy.” I see them
all look at me like I have three heads.
I guess I should explain. “The
doctors don’t know how long he is going to be like this.
office back to him. We don’t even know
what kind of state he is going to be in when he wakes back up.”
I think I
get them to understand. I don’t want to
take Josh’s job from him. But we need to
keep functioning. And this way none of
us have to feel like we are pressuring Josh into returning to work before he is
ready. Which is what I think we did
wrong with the shooting. I know I have
Sam on my side as he starts to make suggestions of people we can pull.