A new start

"What?! You can't be serious. Do you really think I would come back to you and let me treat like a worthless toy again? No way, Luka." John wanted to slam the door, but Luka had already set a foot over the threshold.

"John, you didn't listen to me. I said, I love you! I didn't realize my feelings before. But now I do. I want to be together with you like a real couple. Please, give me another chance? I have changed."

"God Luka," John laughed bitterly. "Do you know how long I waited for these words? I've waited for you like forever. But now where I finally have found somebody else, you suddenly realized that you loved me? Did you really think I would shout in joy and immediately jump into your arms? No Luka. You have waited too long. It's over. Forever. I don't want to be with you anymore.'' John turned around, but Luka wrapped his arms around the other men's belly and put his head on his shoulder.

"Please, John. It can't end this way." Luka wispered into John's ear. "Think about what we had. Not everything was bad. We had some wonderful time together. Remember, you in my arms...the way we loved each other in the craziest places..."

Against his will John felt his knees getting weak. Something had to happen soon, otherwise he would give in and kiss Luka. The man still had an intoxicating effect on him. And something happened.

Samuel was coming out of the bedroom, nude like god created him.

"What is going on here?!"

"Oh no, I can't believe it! You sleep with this...this...person." Luka let John go and starred at the red haired guy. Jealousy runned through his venes. How could John be that faithless? To see the kisses was already hard to bear, but knowing that the other man touched John everywhere made Luka almost lose his mind.

Without thinking twice he rushed at Samuel and hit his fist into the other man's face. Blood was soon running from the Italian man's lips.

"Luka, stop!" Any other time John would have been flattered that two men were beating each other over him. But this time it was too much for him. He thought he finally had his life under control, but now he realized that he didn't even know anymore what he wanted. He just knew that he didn't want the two men to get hurt. He cared about them, both of them. Still, he was a bit angry at Luka. Why did he come back just now and made a mess of his new arranged life? Seeing him here did upset him more than he had imagined.

Mad with himself, John grabbed Luka on the shoulders and dragged him away from the other man.

"Please Luka, go! Leave me alone. Do you have to destroy everything I have carefully organized?!"

"What do you mean?" Luka hissed. The alcohol made his blood even boiling more. Why could John not forgive him and come back to him? Why did he have to make it so difficult? "There is no way that you prefer this little somebody." Luka's scornful glance felt on a certain part of Samuel's body.

When he noticed John starring madly at him, Luka realized that he had spoken out loud his last thought.

"You know what, Luka? Maybe he isn't the most beautiful man in the world. But his heart is beautiful. He is the man that can make me happy and I want to marry him!" The words had hardly left his mouth when John already regretted them. Why did he say that? He had been angry about Luka's cruel words and wanted to let him know that. But he never really thought about a marriage with Samuel. And now he didn't seem to get out of this situation anymore. He couldn't take his words back anymore. Samuel looked too hopefully. It was probably exactly what he had been waiting for all the time.

"That's true. I know a nice wedding chapel in Las Vegas where also homosexual couples can get married." The red haired man said beaming into Luka's horrified face.

"No John, that's not true! You can't do that!" The Croation Doctor felt tears in his eyes.

John starred at his feet, his arms dangling down helplessly. He didn't have the courage to look into Luka's eyes. He knew his heart would break if he did so. He would forgive Luka and throw himself at the other man. But John didn't know if that was a good idea. Could he trust Luka now? Maybe it was only a cheap trick to get him into bed again. But John didn't want to go back to that kind of relationship they had before. Besides, there was Samuel. John liked him too much to hurt him so badly. He rather made himself unhappy. 'No, it was good the way it was now.' John thought. They would fly to Las Vegas soon, get married and maybe move into that area as well. Then he would be far away from Luka and his memories. Perhaps he could forget him then and finally begin his new life.

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A few days later John and Samuel were down in Nevada already. The organization for their wedding were done pretty soon. They didn't have to prepare very much anyway. Their wedding would be calm, secret and without any guests. John thought it was for the best. His family wouldn't be happy about this wedding either. So there was no reason to invite them.

On the day where the priest was waiting for them in the small chapel, John had to fight his tears. But it weren't tears of happiness. John hoped that he could show more joy. Samuel deserved it.

"When it is right, why do I feel so sad?" John whispered while he starred out of the window. He was already sitting 30 minutes in the bathroom of his hotel room.

"Are you ready? The nuptial car is already waiting." Samuel yelled in front of the door. "Please hurry up! So we won't be late. Can you imagine? A few minutes still and we are a married couple. Isn't it wonderful?"

"Yes." John sighed and stood up. It was time to go.