Sweet Salvation
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Category:
CSI › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
41
Views:
4,351
Reviews:
7
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
I do not own CSI, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Decisions
Sweet Salvation
Decisions
Chapter 9
Catherine woke me up a while later. “Could you please move your head, because otherwise I won’t be able to move my arm ever again.”
“I’m sorry, babe.” I quickly brush my lips against hers, before I sat up leaning against the cushions. “Did you sleep alright?” I ask her while I whip away a stray of hair.
“Yeah I did, but I kind of forgot about Lindsey.” She said while she pointed at the note on the table.
“I know I read it when I woke up earlier, but it was to late already and I figured that you needed the sleep.”
“Well I wasn’t the only one who needed it, you cried until you finally fell asleep from exhaustion.” I gave her a small smile. “Thanks for listening to me.”
“Well why wouldn’t I listen to you. I can’t really say that my past is clean, can I?”
“Nope, but at least you never made a secret out of it.” I sighed the more I had kept secret the harder it got to live a normal life. I made it all to damn hard on myself and on the once that I love and that matter to me.
“No I didn’t but that is because Gil was there for me and he pulled me out. He was my mentor, he knew what I had been going through and it’s like I always say. Never regret, don’t look back. You have to go forward not back. And I know that that sounds really hard, but it’s the way I live my life.”
There was an odd silence we where both thinking deeply about the things that where said. Catherine broke the silence when she asked me; “Did you tell your parents?”
“About the miscarriage, yeah they know but they where pretty clear about what they thought about it. They didn’t believe that Paul would do something like that.”
“They didn’t believe you? Do you still talk to them?”
“Nope they didn’t believe it. I still talk to my mother every once in a while on the phone, but I haven’t seen them since I’ve come here. I haven’t talked to my father he completely shuts me out. Ever since he found out that I’m gay.”
“Have you told your mother about us?”
“No, I haven’t told them because I know what their reaction will be like and I have been there and done that and I don’t know if I wanna go back there again. I have been so depressed, I can’t go back there I have been suicidal and it’s a damn long way to get back from something like that.”
“Well, why don’t we pay them a visit sometime, so that we can show them how happy you are. Considering that you are happy with me?” Catherine said while she smiled.
“Whatever Cath, you just want to hear that I love you.”
“Okay, I admit, but I just love to hear that from you. So what do you say? Shall we visit them?”
“They’ll freak out when I come home and bring you and Lindsey with me. And tell them that I’m ‘no offence’ living together with an eight year older woman and her daughter. God forbid that they ever find out about your previous profession and marriage. Somewhere along the line my parents thought that conventional families are the best you know those where the male is a little older then the woman and yada yada yada … They’ll go ballistic.”
“Well maybe they should. It has been almost four years since you last saw them. Things can chance. Why don’t you give them a chance. I know what it’s like to loose a family. I don’t speak to my mom, my dad isn’t my dad and the one who is well I framed him for murder. I only have my sister.”
“But why should I go to them, I did nothing wrong?”
“No you didn’t but apparently your both suborn and if you don’t go there nothing will ever change, maybe they’ll accept it and maybe they won’t but at least you tried and that is what counts. And the longer you’ll wait the harder it gets.”
“I’ll think about it, but right now we better get ready to pick up Lindsey.” Catherine blinked at the clock, and saw that it was in fact almost time to pick her daughter up.
We both got up and put some make up and clean clothes on and in a record we we where seated in the car driving towards Lindsey’s school. I put on my sunglasses as we got out of the car and we walked towards the fence that separated the school parimisses from the road. Lindsey came out as one of the first children.
“Hi mam, hi Sara. Mom, my teacher wants to talk to you.” Lindsey looked guilty as sin while she said it.
“Oh Linds, not again what was it this time.” Lindsey was just inspecting her shoes while. Catherine walked towards the entrance when she finally noticed that Lindsey and I where still standing by the fence. “Linds, Sara follow me.” She demanded while she pushed her sunglasses up into her hair, I had no idea what I had to do with it but I followed Lindsey.
Decisions
Chapter 9
Catherine woke me up a while later. “Could you please move your head, because otherwise I won’t be able to move my arm ever again.”
“I’m sorry, babe.” I quickly brush my lips against hers, before I sat up leaning against the cushions. “Did you sleep alright?” I ask her while I whip away a stray of hair.
“Yeah I did, but I kind of forgot about Lindsey.” She said while she pointed at the note on the table.
“I know I read it when I woke up earlier, but it was to late already and I figured that you needed the sleep.”
“Well I wasn’t the only one who needed it, you cried until you finally fell asleep from exhaustion.” I gave her a small smile. “Thanks for listening to me.”
“Well why wouldn’t I listen to you. I can’t really say that my past is clean, can I?”
“Nope, but at least you never made a secret out of it.” I sighed the more I had kept secret the harder it got to live a normal life. I made it all to damn hard on myself and on the once that I love and that matter to me.
“No I didn’t but that is because Gil was there for me and he pulled me out. He was my mentor, he knew what I had been going through and it’s like I always say. Never regret, don’t look back. You have to go forward not back. And I know that that sounds really hard, but it’s the way I live my life.”
There was an odd silence we where both thinking deeply about the things that where said. Catherine broke the silence when she asked me; “Did you tell your parents?”
“About the miscarriage, yeah they know but they where pretty clear about what they thought about it. They didn’t believe that Paul would do something like that.”
“They didn’t believe you? Do you still talk to them?”
“Nope they didn’t believe it. I still talk to my mother every once in a while on the phone, but I haven’t seen them since I’ve come here. I haven’t talked to my father he completely shuts me out. Ever since he found out that I’m gay.”
“Have you told your mother about us?”
“No, I haven’t told them because I know what their reaction will be like and I have been there and done that and I don’t know if I wanna go back there again. I have been so depressed, I can’t go back there I have been suicidal and it’s a damn long way to get back from something like that.”
“Well, why don’t we pay them a visit sometime, so that we can show them how happy you are. Considering that you are happy with me?” Catherine said while she smiled.
“Whatever Cath, you just want to hear that I love you.”
“Okay, I admit, but I just love to hear that from you. So what do you say? Shall we visit them?”
“They’ll freak out when I come home and bring you and Lindsey with me. And tell them that I’m ‘no offence’ living together with an eight year older woman and her daughter. God forbid that they ever find out about your previous profession and marriage. Somewhere along the line my parents thought that conventional families are the best you know those where the male is a little older then the woman and yada yada yada … They’ll go ballistic.”
“Well maybe they should. It has been almost four years since you last saw them. Things can chance. Why don’t you give them a chance. I know what it’s like to loose a family. I don’t speak to my mom, my dad isn’t my dad and the one who is well I framed him for murder. I only have my sister.”
“But why should I go to them, I did nothing wrong?”
“No you didn’t but apparently your both suborn and if you don’t go there nothing will ever change, maybe they’ll accept it and maybe they won’t but at least you tried and that is what counts. And the longer you’ll wait the harder it gets.”
“I’ll think about it, but right now we better get ready to pick up Lindsey.” Catherine blinked at the clock, and saw that it was in fact almost time to pick her daughter up.
We both got up and put some make up and clean clothes on and in a record we we where seated in the car driving towards Lindsey’s school. I put on my sunglasses as we got out of the car and we walked towards the fence that separated the school parimisses from the road. Lindsey came out as one of the first children.
“Hi mam, hi Sara. Mom, my teacher wants to talk to you.” Lindsey looked guilty as sin while she said it.
“Oh Linds, not again what was it this time.” Lindsey was just inspecting her shoes while. Catherine walked towards the entrance when she finally noticed that Lindsey and I where still standing by the fence. “Linds, Sara follow me.” She demanded while she pushed her sunglasses up into her hair, I had no idea what I had to do with it but I followed Lindsey.