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Sweet Salvation
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Category:
CSI › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
41
Views:
4,350
Reviews:
7
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own CSI, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
A hidden past and the consequences
Chapter 8
A hidden past and the consequences
<< Flashback >>
I became friends with one of my co-workers and then one night she said that she knew the perfect guy for me. I agreed in meeting the guy, his name was Paul and he was this sweet and kind guy. He was also really jealous.
With Paul everything had been so different, I really thought that I loved him. Although it wasn’t like with Amy; that was real love. This was just love, we dated for a while and he introduced me to his family and I took him home with me on thanksgiving. My parents where thrilled to see Paul. They probably thought that I was cured and that things would be alright from now on. Still I visited Amy’s grave, nobody knew about that.
From the outside everything seemed to be normal, and I seemed happy. People around me didn’t know how miserable I felt. Then Paul told me about this job opening at the CSI team and I applied. They approved me and I got the job. Life seemed to go by and before I knew it I was living together with Paul. It felt good and secure, in some strange way. I began feeling better about myself and after a while I even began to think that Amy had just been a phase that I had to go through. A phase in which we were exploring our possibilities. But this nagging voice kept telling me that it wasn’t like that. I guess after a couple of months Paul and I were really happy and I denied the other feelings and one day I found out that I was pregnant. At first I thought that it was just the ‘flu, but the test proved me wrong.
I told Paul and he was thrilled, he always wanted a family, at least that was what he told me. But soon his behaviour started changing and he drank more then he ever had before. Then one night I came home and somehow he had heard that I had had some lesbian relationships, I still don’t know who told him. At that time I was four months pregnant. He started screaming and he became violent. He beat me up, I screamed at him to let me go for the sake of his child and he asked me whether I thought that he would raise a child from a hooker. He was so unreasonable, the hard work and the pregnancy had worn me out and I wasn’t able to avoid his punches for long. Within seconds I was on the floor screaming for mercy.
<< End flashback >>
Catherine was shocked I could see it in her eyes. “When, when did this happen?”
“About four years ago.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. “My baby would be almost four.”
“Four but then…” She wasn’t able to say anything when my story hit her totally.
“Yeah, right before I came here.” I whipped away some tears. “It all happened a couple of weeks before Grissom called. It was the only way out and I took it. I left everything behind me. Not that there was much left.”
“You must have been going through hell, why didn’t you say anything?” She was still holding me in her arms.
“Who, Cath. Who could I have talked to?” I sighed and sat back up, breaking her embrace. “My old friends abandoned me when they heard what happened. They didn´t believe me when I told them what happened. I came here and only knew Grissom, and he is socially handicapped.”
“I didn’t want to talk to any of the guys and besides that Warrick didn’t trust me. Nicky and Greg, well you know what I mean. And then you Catherine although I was interested in you from the first time I lay eyes on you, it didn’t mean that I could tell you. You hurt me when you bitched me around, how could I trust you?”
“Sara, I’m so sorry.” Catherine was crying, and this time it was me who hugged her.
“Don’t worry about it Catherine, you where keeping your distance and that made it easier on me.”
“You know what the problem is, I thought that I had managed to give the loss a place in my life. It still hurts but I managed to forget about the details. But this week with Ryan, It brought it all back. I managed to keep away from kids as much as possible, but Ryan he’s different.” Tears rolled down my cheeks, Catherine wiped away my tears.
Somewhere between the crying and my story we must have fallen asleep. I woke up several hours later, lying on the couch still in Catherine’s embrace. A blanket covered us and I was surprised to see a note on the table.
Cath, Sara
I took Lindsey to school and told her that the two of you had called me to take her. I was worried because you didn’t call me. But I guess that there where some really important things that you had to discuss.
Love Jenn
I smiled. what more could you ask for then a sister like Jenn? Catherine was so blessed. Jenn and Cath were so close, and whenever Cath needed someone to take care of Lindsey, she just had to ask her sister. But now I knew that I had someone like that too, I had Catherine.
A hidden past and the consequences
<< Flashback >>
I became friends with one of my co-workers and then one night she said that she knew the perfect guy for me. I agreed in meeting the guy, his name was Paul and he was this sweet and kind guy. He was also really jealous.
With Paul everything had been so different, I really thought that I loved him. Although it wasn’t like with Amy; that was real love. This was just love, we dated for a while and he introduced me to his family and I took him home with me on thanksgiving. My parents where thrilled to see Paul. They probably thought that I was cured and that things would be alright from now on. Still I visited Amy’s grave, nobody knew about that.
From the outside everything seemed to be normal, and I seemed happy. People around me didn’t know how miserable I felt. Then Paul told me about this job opening at the CSI team and I applied. They approved me and I got the job. Life seemed to go by and before I knew it I was living together with Paul. It felt good and secure, in some strange way. I began feeling better about myself and after a while I even began to think that Amy had just been a phase that I had to go through. A phase in which we were exploring our possibilities. But this nagging voice kept telling me that it wasn’t like that. I guess after a couple of months Paul and I were really happy and I denied the other feelings and one day I found out that I was pregnant. At first I thought that it was just the ‘flu, but the test proved me wrong.
I told Paul and he was thrilled, he always wanted a family, at least that was what he told me. But soon his behaviour started changing and he drank more then he ever had before. Then one night I came home and somehow he had heard that I had had some lesbian relationships, I still don’t know who told him. At that time I was four months pregnant. He started screaming and he became violent. He beat me up, I screamed at him to let me go for the sake of his child and he asked me whether I thought that he would raise a child from a hooker. He was so unreasonable, the hard work and the pregnancy had worn me out and I wasn’t able to avoid his punches for long. Within seconds I was on the floor screaming for mercy.
<< End flashback >>
Catherine was shocked I could see it in her eyes. “When, when did this happen?”
“About four years ago.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. “My baby would be almost four.”
“Four but then…” She wasn’t able to say anything when my story hit her totally.
“Yeah, right before I came here.” I whipped away some tears. “It all happened a couple of weeks before Grissom called. It was the only way out and I took it. I left everything behind me. Not that there was much left.”
“You must have been going through hell, why didn’t you say anything?” She was still holding me in her arms.
“Who, Cath. Who could I have talked to?” I sighed and sat back up, breaking her embrace. “My old friends abandoned me when they heard what happened. They didn´t believe me when I told them what happened. I came here and only knew Grissom, and he is socially handicapped.”
“I didn’t want to talk to any of the guys and besides that Warrick didn’t trust me. Nicky and Greg, well you know what I mean. And then you Catherine although I was interested in you from the first time I lay eyes on you, it didn’t mean that I could tell you. You hurt me when you bitched me around, how could I trust you?”
“Sara, I’m so sorry.” Catherine was crying, and this time it was me who hugged her.
“Don’t worry about it Catherine, you where keeping your distance and that made it easier on me.”
“You know what the problem is, I thought that I had managed to give the loss a place in my life. It still hurts but I managed to forget about the details. But this week with Ryan, It brought it all back. I managed to keep away from kids as much as possible, but Ryan he’s different.” Tears rolled down my cheeks, Catherine wiped away my tears.
Somewhere between the crying and my story we must have fallen asleep. I woke up several hours later, lying on the couch still in Catherine’s embrace. A blanket covered us and I was surprised to see a note on the table.
Cath, Sara
I took Lindsey to school and told her that the two of you had called me to take her. I was worried because you didn’t call me. But I guess that there where some really important things that you had to discuss.
Love Jenn
I smiled. what more could you ask for then a sister like Jenn? Catherine was so blessed. Jenn and Cath were so close, and whenever Cath needed someone to take care of Lindsey, she just had to ask her sister. But now I knew that I had someone like that too, I had Catherine.