Shattered Illusions

Chapter 7.

I was almost asleep when Luke poked his head through my window and said, “Wake up sleepyhead.” I jumped up and ran to the window. “How the hell did you get up to my window?” I poked my head out looking around.
“Danny’s ladder” he said climbing through my window.
“Luke, what if someone sees it?” I said.
“It’s after one and this side of the house is dark. No one will see it.”
“I can’t believe you did that.” I said to him.
He sat on the bed pulling me into his lap. I buried my face in his neck and breathed in.
“So what are you doing here? You know my parents will kill you if they find you up here.” I teased him although it was true. There would be hell to pay if they did actually find him in my room at this hour.
“Go lock your door” he said.
I got up and locked my door knowing my parents were downstairs sound asleep. They were always out by midnight on the weekends.

Luke held his hand out to me, “Come here” Once again I sat in his lap and he began kissing me making my heart pound. Luke pulled away and cradled my face in his hands, pressing his forehead against mine.
“Jules, I want a real birthday present from you.” he whispered. I was momentarily stunned. I didn’t know what to say. I knew what he meant and I was scared and excited at the same time. I loved Luke and had no reservations about him being my first lover but I was still scared. Luke ran his finger through my brown curls.
“Jules, I love you so much. I’d never do anything to hurt you.”
“I know, I know” I kissed him. I was so nervous. I’d never gone beyond kissing a guy except with Luke and we’d only done some heavy making out. I must have looked terrified because Luke smiled at me and laid me down on the bed and said, “Trust me.” I did trust him. I trusted him with every fiber of my being.

Luke laid next to me kissing me passionately. I was completely lost in those kisses letting Luke’s hands wander all over my body. He took off his shirt and I rubbed my hands down his smooth chest. He was slightly muscular as if he’d worked out at one time. I started to feel as if I was no longer in control of myself as i let my hands explore. He sat me up and took my shirt off and kissed my neck sending a tingling sensation down my spine. His hands cupped my breasts as he bent down to kiss them. My rapid breathing began to match his as I ran my fingers through his hair. I was completely dizzy with ecstasy. Luke pulled off his jeans and sensing my fear he hesitated for a minute before pulling off his underwear. I quickly looked up into his eyes, suddenly becoming very shy. He stroked my cheek and said, “Don’t be scared, Jules. You don’t have to be scared with me. I love you.” He kissed me again and caressed my body as I suddenly felt at him tug at my underwear. He hesitated momentarily as he looked into my eyes for permission. I reached down and helped him pull them off. I was completely naked before him. Never had I felt so vulnerable yet so comfortable with someone.

“You’re so beautiful” Luke whispered.
I smiled at him and said, “I love you so much, Luke. I’ll never love anyone this much as long as I live.”
Our bodies enter twined as we kissed more passionately that we’d ever kissed before. I suddenly felt his hand between my legs giving me sensations I’d never knew existed. After a few minutes I exploded breathless and panting wanting more. Luke smiled at me and said, “That’s my girl.”
“Oh god, Luke......” I said, unable to finish the sentence. He smothered my mouth with kisses and I felt his erection pressing hard against me as he rolled on top of me. I felt him gently spreading my legs apart and he slowly entered me. I sucked my breath in at the sharp pain. Suddenly Luke went still and said, breathless, “I’m sorry. The pain will go away.” He continued to move very slowly in and out of me. I loved him so much at this moment that I wanted to cry. He began breathing harder and faster as his pace increased. He suddenly slammed into me hard, shuddered and fell still. I didn’t realize I was crying until I felt warm tears coursing down my face. Luke wiped them away.
“I’m sorry. I know it hurts the first time. It will get better, I promise.”
“No Luke, it’s not that. It’s just.....” I wasn’t sure why I was crying. “I’m just so happy and I love you so much.”
“I love you too, Jules.” He kissed me and curled up next to me. I felt as if we were truly soul mates now.
We talked and cuddled and catnapped until it was almost dawn when Luke went back home.

This sweet side of Luke is what kept me with him. It almost made me blind to the other side of him. The side with the violent temper.