A new start

Luka couldn’t believe his eyes. So, it was true! John was sitting on THEIR table with a stranger. When he had called the restaurant the waiter told him that Mr. Carter was there with his date. ''Don't worry'' he had said. ''Mr. Carter is fine and amusing himself.''

Until now Luka had thought it would be a confusion. It was impossible that John could sit in this restaurant after he run away from him in that way. But there he was, holding hands with another guy! Luka felt rage rising inside him. How did he dare! Luka had been so worried about him, fearing the worst. Instead the younger Doctor seemed to console himself pretty soon.

The rage in Luka's belly almost felt like jealousy. The table was reserved for HIM and John, not for this stupid red haired and John. HE should sit there and have a romantic dinner with his co-worker and lover. How could Carter tell him he loved him when he was flirting with another guy at the same time? Was all what John had told him a lie? And why was John attracted to this red haired? There was nothing special about him. In fact, he looked rather ugly. Luka thought.

John felt a shudder running down his back when he looked into Luka's dark face. The guy was definitely angry! Maybe even jealous? This thought also caused a jolt of joy exploding in his belly. Instinctively he held Samuel's hands faster. Should Luka think he had another love interest. It served him right!

Luka swallowed hard. He was on the verge of freaking out. Finally he couldn't bear John's smiling face anymore. The guy was supposed to be sad, not happy with another guy. Luka didn't know why he couldn't endure to see those two together. After all he didn't feel anything for John, at least nothing that gave him a reason to be jealous. Nevertheless he couldn't control himself and stormed to the beautifully decorated table.

''I thought you would be unhappy because didn't love you back. Instead you are already ready to fuck the next guy. You little slut." He hissed at John. The irrationale anger inside him seemed to completely shut out his brain. He didn't care if he was making a scene. All he knew was that interrupting this romantic dinner made feel him a little bit better.

"Please Luka, the people are already starring at us." Abby tried to calm down her co-worker.

"Bah, I don't care." He shook her hand aside. "I just won't stay here and support this LOVELY couple. You didn't deserve me, you...."

"Don't say it!" John interrupted, getting angry himself. How could Luka dare to offend him? And that even in public! Luka had started that all and he had no right to play the 'hurt guy'. The older man was the one that had fooled him and hurt his feelings. Even if he still loved the guy he wanted to give some of the pain back.

"Do you really think my life would be finished only because you don't love me? God Luka, there are still other men! And yes, you are right. I don't deserve you, because I do deserve BETTER. And now go! I don't want to see you anymore!"

Luka was speechless. He didn't find any words to let his anger out. So he slapped John.

"You better go now, Mister." The owner of the restaurant had secretly called two security people that now dragged Luka slowly but determined to the exit.

"What the heck was that?" Samuel starred confused at John. "Was that your boyfriend?"

John bit his lip, not sure if he should say something. Certainly Samuel wouldn't like him anymore if he knew that he was gay. Somehow this thought made John sad. But he decided to tell the truth. Lies weren't good for the beginning of their friendship.

"I was together with him. Yes. But he only took advantage of me. He didn't love me the way I loved him. I'm sorry if I shocked you now. I can understand if you don't want to be friends with a gay. Excuse me." John wanted to stand up and leave, but Samuel's hand on his arm stopped him.

"Don't be silly. Let's finish our dinner. Besides I have to confess something too." A secret smile played around Samuel's lips. "You make me very happy. Because I like men too, John."

"Oh." Was all John could reply. That was really a surprise to him. He would never ever guessed that his new friend played in the same league. He didn't make that impression. But probably you couldn't see at first sight if a person was gay.

"I have to confess something else." Samuel continued and grapped John's hand again. "I think you are very handsome, John. I was attracted to you from the first moment on. So if that guy doesn't want you, I'd take you immediately." Samuel smiled, but his words weren't a joke. His heart beat faster when he waited for the other man's reply.

"Thanks, but don't look for new relationship right now. Just let us be friends. Please?" John felt flattered. Also Samuel seemed nice and honest. He wasn't disgusting either. But it was really too soon to think about him as a lover. It wouldn't be fair, not when his heart still belonged to somebody else.

"Sure, I understand. I don't want to urge you." Samuel swallowed down his disappointment. "But I can wait, John. I'm very patient. I really like you. And now where I know that there could be something between us... I won't give up."

John only smiled to that and took his glass of wine. "Let's toast in honour of our friendship."

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The next days at work were the hell for John. Luka was colder than a fish and treated him like he would be garbage. Whatever he did, Luka had only insults and bad words for him. John was now glad when he didn't have to see him, but the older man seemed to follow him. And everytime they met, he yelled at him.

"Could you please leave me alone?! I really don't know what's wrong with you!" John hissed when it finally was too much for him. "Isn't that what you wanted? I don't run after you anymore and molest you with my love. So you should be happy!"

Luka didn't know what to answer. To tell the truth, he was not even sure what was wrong with him either. But it totally bothered him that John ignored him. And when he caught the other man talking and laughing on the phone with Samuel he could explode. He didn't like that, not at all! Those new feelings were driving him crazy. He just wanted his lovely and submissive Carter back. But apparently the other man didn't want him anymore. All he could do was yell at John and treat him like he couldn't stand him. But not even that could make those confusing feelings go away. God, he couldn't be jealous, could he?

"Yes, I would be happy. Happy, if I didn't have to see your face anymore, Carter. I would feel so much better if you were out of my sight. Go back to your red haired idiot and fuck him. You surely deserve dirt like him."

"You know what? Maybe I will do exactly that. And don't call him dirt! He is surely a better man than you!" John had enough. The situation at work was getting unbearable. He would ask for some days off and think about his future. Maybe he should change his place of work. Apperantly there was no way that he still could work together with Luka.

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"It was really bad. I'm glad that Weaver gave me three weeks off. I don't want to confront him anymore." John was lying on his couch and stroked Samuel's head. The red haired guy was lying in his lap and listened patiently to his ranting. "I think I'm finally over him."

"Really?" Samuel looked up hopefully. "Does that mean your heart is free for another love now?"

"I don't know..." John looked down at his friend. He had been there for him in all those terrible last weeks. He couldn't imagine his life without him anymore. But was he ready for another relationship? Sure, he liked Samuel. Very much even. But was it enough for a future with him?

"I think, we should give it a try." He finally answered and leant down to kiss Samuel for the very first time.