Fleeting Touch

Disclaimer: I don't own the Dukes of Hazzard, making no money just
cheap thrills.


Warnings: Angst


Fleeting Touch
Chapter 6


After a week passed, life at the Duke farm finally settled into a
routine. Bo did what he could to help out with chores, but he was
limited in what he could do. His first few days at home had been the
hardest, he couldn't help Luke to patch the porch roof because of the
dizziness, so he thought he could help out with the little things. But
when he tried to gather eggs he found it didn't work because he couldn't feel the eggs hidden in the straw. When he tried to milk the goat, she protested when he squeezed too hard, and kicked out at him. Bo was becoming frustrated by his inability to do even the simplest chores.


Daisy had tried to help by suggesting that he help her in the kitchen. That hadn't worked either, when he became distracted, he had sliced his finger while pealing potatoes. If Daisy hadn't been there he wouldn't even have known he'd done it. He couldn't cook anything either, he found that out when he grabbed a hot pan without thinking and got a second degree burn out of it.


All of this had left him feeling frustrated and he had begun snapping at his family over every little thing. When Uncle Jesse had tried to talk to him he had yelled at him that he wouldn't understand and there wasn't anything to talk about, and then stormed out of the house. He hadn't behaved any better with Daisy, snapping at her when all she was trying to do was help. But it was Luke who got the worst of it, not only was he snapping at Luke over every little thing, he had gotten to where he couldn't stand to be touched. It only served to frustrate him, to see Luke's hand on his arm but not feel it, to have Luke kiss him, but if he closed his eyes he might as well be lying in the bed alone. He had never felt so alone in his life, had never felt isolated like this before. The worst had been five days after he came home.


He had been lying in bed when Luke came into the room. As Luke got
ready for bed Bo silently watched him. Seeing his lover's naked body
had made him long for his touch. When Luke came to the bed and looked
down at him, he smiled at Bo and said,


"That for me?"


When Bo looked at where Luke's gaze was focused, he was surprised
to see that he had an erection. As Luke had laid beside him and began
to fist Bo's dick, he had watched. It was like watching somebody else,
he saw Luke's hand moving, knew it was his dick Luke was handling, but
couldn't feel a thing. As far as his messed up brain was concerned
his dick wasn't even attached to him anymore, as his erection wilted
Bo began to cry, more frustrated than he could say.


"You should leave me Luke, you deserve somebody who can be a real
lover to you." Bo sobbed out.


"Bo you are a real lover to me and you are the only lover I ever
want. I know it's frustrating Bo, but it's temporary you know that.
It hasn't even been a full week yet, it's just going to take time darlin. I don't want to hear anymore of that kind of talk, ya hear me?"


"I'm sorry Luke, I just feel so useless. I can't make love to you,
can't kiss you, can't feel your arms around me. Maybe I could handle
all of this better if I could at least help around the farm, but I can't even do that. Shoot I can't even do something as simple as gathering eggs, what dang good am I?"


With tears in his own eyes, his heart breaking for Bo, Luke tried to
help as an idea came to him. "Bo I just thought of something you could
do. You could help Daisy with the cleaning, ya don't have to feel to
be able to sweep a floor or run a washer. There ain't no way you can
hurt yourself hanging clothes on the line or folding them up. I know
housework ain't your favorite thing to do, but it would allow you to
help until you're fully recovered. What do ya think?"


"If Daisy's willing to put up with me I think it sounds like a good
idea. At least if I feel useful, maybe I won't be so frustrated."


A few hours later Bo woke up, not sure what had woke him he started
to move, only to find that Luke's arm was pinning him in place. As he
lay there with his lover's arm wrapped around him Bo realized something, although he couldn't feel it, just knowing that Luke was there, that he still wanted to touch him was enough. A moment later he heard it,


"No, please Bo don't..."


"Luke? Wake up Luke." Bo whispered as he shook Luke's arm, trying to
wake him from his nightmare.


"Bo? What is it?"


"You were having a bad dream Luke."


"Sorry, didn't mean to wake you."


"Don't Luke, you don't have to apologize. Will you tell me what you were dreaming about?" Bo gently asked.


"I...I don't remember."Luke answered, looking away as he spoke.


"Please don't lie to me love, I heard you call my name in your sleep. Please let me help you Luke, tell me what's wrong." Bo begged his lover. When Luke didn't answer Bo tried again, "was it the bank robbery, is that what you were dreaming about?"


"No, it wasn't that...I...Bo I don't want to upset you." Luke told
him tears shimmering in his eyes.


"Luke, you're upsetting me by not telling me what's wrong. I want
to help you but I can't do that if you won't tell me what the problem
is. Please Luke tell me."


"I...you...in my dream you were about to jump off a cliff, you said
you couldn't live without being able to feel. I tried to stop you, to
help you but I couldn't, no matter what I did it wasn't enough, you woke me up just as you stepped off the cliff in my dream." Luke admitted as the tears finally began to flow.


"Ah, Luke I'm sorry I've been being such a jackass lately. I never
meant to make you feel like that, you do help me you know, just by being here you help me."


"I know, but that doesn't change the fact that you don't want me to
touch you, and I understand that. I really do Bo, if I were in your place I'd probably feel the same way, it's just that even if you can't feel it I can and I need to be able to touch you....Damn it, I'm sorry darlin I didn't mean to make you feel bad." Luke whispered as he saw the tears welling up in Bo's eyes.


"Don't Luke, don't apologize you have every right to feel that way,
and if I wasn't so wrapped up in myself I would have realized how hard
this has to be for you too. I'm the one who should apologize, I do want your touch Luke, when I woke up and found your arm around me I realized something. I still couldn't feel it, physically but I felt it inside, in my heart, felt your love and I know now that no matter what happens, no matter how long this lasts I'll always be able to feel your love, and that's what really matters."


Wrapping his arms around Luke, Bo began to rub his hands up and down
his lover's back in a familiar pattern, knowing that even though he
couldn't feel it, Luke needed this. Hearing Luke moan in pleasure as
he caressed his skin, Bo found that giving his lover this comfort was
also making him feel better. Smiling as he heard Luke's breathing speed up, heard his moans begin to deepen, Bo wanted to give his lover the release he knew he needed. Not sure if he could do this, afraid he
would hurt Luke, Bo pulled the covers back and reached down to take
his lover's erection in his hand.


"Luke, I...I want to do this but I'm afraid I'll hurt you, so you
have to tell me the second I put too much presure on you. Believe me
I'd much rather you hurt my feelings than to accidently hurt you, okay?"


"You ain't got to worry about that Bo, trust me I'm not in any hurry to be hurt either. I've got an idea I think might work, put your hand around me. Yeah just like that, okay now close your hand a little, aw...not so much, that's better, oh yeah that's perfect. If you just keep your hand closed exactly that much we should be fine."


As Bo moved his hand up and down Luke's dick, giving his lover the
pleasure he couldn't personally enjoy, Bo made another discovery. The
feeling he was getting from hearing Luke's moans, knowing that he was
able to satisfy Luke was in it's own way satisfying him. Slowly increasing his pace as his lover's moans increased, it didn't take long for Luke to reach climax, burying his face in Bo's chest to muffle his cries of pleasure. After they had both cleaned up, Luke wrapped his arms around Bo once more, relieved that Bo would let him hold him like this. Soon both men drifted into a peaceful sleep.

Over the next couple of days Bo put Luke's idea into action. He soon
found that not only did it help with his frustration, but it eased the
depression that had began to develop. Feeling as though he had accomplished something, even if it was something little made him feel so much better, it just amazed him. As Bo began to feel better both Luke and Jesse felt more comfortable with the idea of leaving the house.


While the Dukes were adjusting to Bo's condition, people around
Hazzard were talking about Bo and Luke's relationship. Thanks to Rosco, everyone now knew that Bo and Luke Duke were more than cousins. Most people weren't all that surprised once they had a chance to think about it, and to tell the truth they weren't bothered by it. Most folks around the area felt that it just wasn't any of their business, it wasn't like they were hurting anybody. There were some folks too that weren't sure how they felt and then there were those who were completely against the relationship. Fortunately there weren't many of those in Hazzard.


A couple of days after Bo had begun to help with the housework, four
men were down at the Boar's Nest talking about the Duke boys. Sitting
around the table were Cal Turner, Gary Williams and the Clark boys,
Tom and Larry. As the waitress brought round after round of beer to them she heard snipppets of their conversation.


"I tell ya it ain't natural."


"Ya know we ought to go pay them a visit."


"I sure don't want them faggots around my little brother."


"Yeah, no telling what they'll do, it just ain't natural."


"Let's get out of here."


"Yeah we'll teach them faggots a lesson."


As she watched them leave Betty Sue was scared of what they might
do. Going to the phone she called the Duke farm, but couldn't get an
answer.


Out at the Duke's Bo and Daisy were outside hanging clothes and didn't hear the phone ringing over the sound of the radio. Luke had left earlier to get some parts in Capitol City and Uncle Jesse was out plowing the back 40. Hearing a car coming up the drive they turned towards the drive.


"Wonder who that is?"


"I don't know Daisy, looks like Cal Turner's car but I don't know
why he'd be coming here. Well one way to find out." Bo said as he
and Daisy headed towards the drive.


TBC


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