I Can't Fight This Feeling, Part 1

Disclaimer in part 1
I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore, Conclusion
By Sage London, rated NC17, (FINALLY!)
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"I think we should make this night the most special night of our
lives," Susan said. Marcus was k tok to lovingly smile at her. She
really was trying to make this perfect for him. "How?" he asked.
"As I said before, first dinner and then back to my place."
"And then?" He just couldn't resist pushing the envelope with her.
He was very much enjoying getting to know the "real" Susan Ivanova.
She stood up and took Marcus' hands, helping him to his feehe he
wound her arms around his neck, which prompted him to wind his around
her back. They held each other very close.
"And then my dear I intend to give you a very lengthy demonstration of
my gratitude at your having waited for me."
Gently kissing the tip of her nose, Marcus asked her, "And then?"
"Wait and see my love."
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Dinner was at the Fresh Air restaurant. They split a bottle of very
good red wine, ate with great appetite and discussed Susan's dream. She
had decided it would be best to tell Marcus everything. Honesty was
really very important to them both. He needed to know why she had chosen
now to express her feelings for him.
"And so my death upset you? Well of course, you lived because I died.
Survivor's guilt is very powerful." Marcus stated flatly. He was very hurt
by her nightmare. Susan reached across the table and took his hands in hers.
"NO! It showed me I could have had something wonderful with you and threw
away my chance. You were/are the best thing in my life. I have no intention
of letting you slip away from me again."
Marcus saw tears form in her eyes as she spoke. It was enough for him, he
understood.
"Susan I have no intention of going anywhere. I love you."
"Marcus, can we leave?"
Marcus d tod to pay the bill, steadfastly refusing offers from Susan to
split it. "But I ambushed you," she protested. He just smiled and took out
his credit chit.
They walked to her quarters arm in arm. Though they elicited stares from
passers by, neither noticed them.
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When they arrived at her quarters Marcus was visibly nervous as he entered.
Susan turned around and spoke softly to him. "Don't over think this. You won't
be graded on performance. This is about joining our hearts and minds; our
bodies are just conduits. That's why they call it 'making love'."
he wondered as he began to relax.
They walked over to the sliding doors of her bedroom but Marcus stopped her
from opening them. "Susan am I supposed to be this nervous?" She thought she
might laugh but seeing the concern on his face, didn't want to make light of
the question.
"Yes. I'm nervous too." Well that just about floored him. He could not imagine
Ivanova being nervous. EVER.
"Why are you so nervous?"
"Because this is our first time."

He observed the scented candles she was lighting and just had to tease her.
"You, Susan Ivanova, are as hopeless a romantic as I am." She couldn't help but
laugh. "Just don't let it get around or you go out the nearest airlock."
"Of course not since that would involve divulging my source."
"Brag about this night and I swear I will space you Cole!"
"You don't think we are worth bragging about? I am so hurt Susan."
He pantomimed a knife piercing his heart and collapsed on the bed.


Susan pounced on him, straddling his chest. Marcus tried to get up but couldn't.
She placed a finger over his lips to silence him. Moving off him she knelt on
the floor rem removed his boots and socks. Placing her hands on his knees she
stared straight into his eyes. she mused.
Helping each other to stand they began to undress each other.

Marcus froze as he first glimpsed Susan sans clothing. . Noticing
the way he was looking at her she pirouetted for him andled.led.
"I like the way you look too."
"Why?" he asked. He'd never much cared for his body.
"Because this is you. US. Honest. Nothing to hide."
"Well I suppose you could hide something. Might be painful though." He grinned.
"Not necessarily. Depends on what I'm hiding and how large it is."

Taking him by the hand Susan led a blushing Marcnto nto the bed. They held each
other tightly for a while. Getting used to each other's heartbeat.

Slowly patipatiently they explored each other's bodies. Marcus was stroking her
tentatively at first, but listened to the sounds Susan made and used them as
his guide. Gradually overcoming his shyness he began to lick the nipple on her
left breast. When she began to moan he ran his hand down her body, eventually
touching her clit. He stroked it again and again until she gasped "Marcus!"
He then replaced his hand with his mouth.
It pleased him that he could arouse thisthis much. After a while he inserted
first one finger and then a second, stroking her inside and out. It wasn't long
after that he felt her shudder as she thrashed about the bed.
He removed his tongue and it was a long moment before he heard her speak.
"Are you sure you're a virgin?"
He grinned widely and began to laugh. "Will you buy 'beginner's luck'?"
"On your back mister. Its MY turn."

Marcus did as he was told, and Susan put herself astride his midsection. She
began by licking and then nibbling his ear. Moving swiftly down his body she
placed kisses, licks, and nibbles all the way causing Marcus to nearly convulse
from the sheer pleasure of it.
"Dear God Susan, you ARE trying to kill me." She gave him a deep throated laugh
and continued on her mission.
At last reaching his very swollen cock she took it in her hand and directed it
into her inflammatory mouth. Moving up and down she alternated between tongue,
teeth and lips to give him maximum pleasure without allowing him to come too
quickly. After a few minutes she ordered him "Up now Cole. Up and onto your hands
and knees. NOW!"

Confused, Marcus did as he was told. She maneuvered herself onto her hands and
knees as well so that she was on the bed in front of him.
Grasping behind her she took him and guided him inside of her warm wetness.
He thought he would go wild from the shock.
He began to lurch forward almost as if his cock had a mind of its own. Marcus
heard Susan's initial gasp and then felt her push herself back against him.
They moved in unison for a few moments before Susan heard Marcus bark out an
order of his own. "Enough," he withdrew from her, "get on your back, NOW."

Doing as she was told, Susan turned herself over and lay on her back. Marcus
followed her down placing himself between her legs. Plunging in again and again,
he was totally lost in utter ecstacy until he heard Susan cry out and knew it
was time. He found his release shortly after her, and then collapsed in a heap.

Later, two sweaty lovers lay knotted together in the center of the bed.
"I love you Susan."
"And I love you."
"What happens now?"
"Gee I don't really know. They usually just roll over and go to sleep."
Marcus stared at her, mock exasperation on his face.
"Woman have you nothing better to do than tease me."
She silenced him with a kiss and showed him she did.


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