Losing One's Self
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Stargate: SG-1 › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
6
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2,354
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1
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That kiss, what a kiss it was! I was still trying to get over my impulsive action. I watch, albeit a bit smugly, as Jeni smooths her very attractive mussed clothes and hair. I love her hands, her fingers so soft, long and very delicate. It is hard to imagine a killer having such hands. Her lips were as smooth and silky as I thought, as with her hair. Walking with her after was…nice. Now I really have to kick my own arse. I’m getting all mushy, but damn, that girl was definitely worth getting mushy over.
When she saw the Ori, I knew she was seeing her planet’s destruction all over again. So, I did what anyone would do, I held her hand. Even when I tried to pull away, mind you I really didn’t want to, I was glad that she held on, that she needed my support. I could tell this was very hard on her, which led to my decision to leave the planet for the moment and come back. In my opinion, I need to have my team ready to fight, I knew Jeni was not ready to fight, she had too much emotion.
Watching her run down to Jack O’Neill proved to me that I made the right decision. His silent look of approval and thanks sealed the deal. When I saw her crying, well, I really didn’t like that. This girl suffered way too much. I waited for her at the doorway. She shouldn’t be alone with this and I knew that she’d either be with Jack, no one, or, hopefully, me. Watching her walk my way, I gave her a nod, to let her know that I was gonna be there for her. Not as a punching bag though, I really don’t want to suffer a girl kicking my arse.
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Cameron was really good to me. He gave me my space; witch knocked him up a few notches on the scale. He was just there, in the background, but there to stand up when I needed him. I didn’t want to see the Empress; I know that I’d face a long belittling lecture about how I didn’t take the chance to avenge my home world. I just couldn’t take her patronising. I felt like going home and curling up in bed. Huh, imagine that, a fearless general, who has a huge reputation all over the galaxies, just wants to curl up in bed and let the world go by. I’m getting soft.
This is exactly what I did as soon as I got home. I ignored Jack and his queries, ran upstairs, got changes and slipped into bed. It took me a long while to get to sleep and when I managed it, it was plagued by nightmares. Watching the children dieing, with me not being able to save them, the absolute horror on their faces when they realised that no-one could go back for them. Suffice to say that I really did not get a good sleep.
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I woke to a feather stroking my cheek. Opening my eyes, I saw Cameron. Giving him a sleepy smile, I sat up and stretched my arms over my head.
“What are you doing here?” I ask, sleepily.
“Came to see if you were ok, Jack knows that I’m up here,” I smile.
“Thank you, I don’t know what would have happened if I stayed there longer.”
He smiled gently and caressed my cheek.
“Scoot over,” he said, removing his shoes.
I moved and let him under the covers. He pulled me to him and I rested my head against his shoulder. I smiled suddenly. It reminded me so much of the courting ways of my culture. We just sat there, watching the play of the sunset against my ceiling. He smelled nice, like cinnamon, nutmeg and sandalwood.
“You know, if we are careful, we can be a couple,” he said after a while.
“You know, I seem to be a bit agreeable to that idea,” I said, looking up at him.
He grinned and kissed me. It was soft, more like a caress than a kiss. We broke apart, his forehead resting against mine. I smiled and touched his cheek. He kissed me again, slightly harder and held me close. Feeling his arms around me was amazing. Where I come from, there are stones that show the compatibility that a person has with another. But occasionally a mate is found. When someone finds a mate, they are all they can think about. Before I left to go off-world, well, I found out that I had an over the top compatibility with Cameron. Still think that we may be moving a bit fast though.
“Cam?”
“Mmm?” came his reply.
“Do you think that we are going a bit fast?” I asked.
“A little bit, not that I really care though. Why?”
“Just thinking. When do we go off world next?”
“Tomorrow. There have been some artefacts that we need to bring back. Why?” he replied.
“I think that I can face them now. I-I want to see them and not break down,” I smiled without humour, “who would have thought the Slave General would be afraid of a few people?”
“Everyone is afraid at one point in time,” he said, brushing his fingers through my hair.
“Thank you,” I kissed him.
“Took you two long enough,” Jack said from the doorway.
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That kiss, what a kiss it was! I was still trying to get over my impulsive action. I watch, albeit a bit smugly, as Jeni smooths her very attractive mussed clothes and hair. I love her hands, her fingers so soft, long and very delicate. It is hard to imagine a killer having such hands. Her lips were as smooth and silky as I thought, as with her hair. Walking with her after was…nice. Now I really have to kick my own arse. I’m getting all mushy, but damn, that girl was definitely worth getting mushy over.
When she saw the Ori, I knew she was seeing her planet’s destruction all over again. So, I did what anyone would do, I held her hand. Even when I tried to pull away, mind you I really didn’t want to, I was glad that she held on, that she needed my support. I could tell this was very hard on her, which led to my decision to leave the planet for the moment and come back. In my opinion, I need to have my team ready to fight, I knew Jeni was not ready to fight, she had too much emotion.
Watching her run down to Jack O’Neill proved to me that I made the right decision. His silent look of approval and thanks sealed the deal. When I saw her crying, well, I really didn’t like that. This girl suffered way too much. I waited for her at the doorway. She shouldn’t be alone with this and I knew that she’d either be with Jack, no one, or, hopefully, me. Watching her walk my way, I gave her a nod, to let her know that I was gonna be there for her. Not as a punching bag though, I really don’t want to suffer a girl kicking my arse.
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Cameron was really good to me. He gave me my space; witch knocked him up a few notches on the scale. He was just there, in the background, but there to stand up when I needed him. I didn’t want to see the Empress; I know that I’d face a long belittling lecture about how I didn’t take the chance to avenge my home world. I just couldn’t take her patronising. I felt like going home and curling up in bed. Huh, imagine that, a fearless general, who has a huge reputation all over the galaxies, just wants to curl up in bed and let the world go by. I’m getting soft.
This is exactly what I did as soon as I got home. I ignored Jack and his queries, ran upstairs, got changes and slipped into bed. It took me a long while to get to sleep and when I managed it, it was plagued by nightmares. Watching the children dieing, with me not being able to save them, the absolute horror on their faces when they realised that no-one could go back for them. Suffice to say that I really did not get a good sleep.
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I woke to a feather stroking my cheek. Opening my eyes, I saw Cameron. Giving him a sleepy smile, I sat up and stretched my arms over my head.
“What are you doing here?” I ask, sleepily.
“Came to see if you were ok, Jack knows that I’m up here,” I smile.
“Thank you, I don’t know what would have happened if I stayed there longer.”
He smiled gently and caressed my cheek.
“Scoot over,” he said, removing his shoes.
I moved and let him under the covers. He pulled me to him and I rested my head against his shoulder. I smiled suddenly. It reminded me so much of the courting ways of my culture. We just sat there, watching the play of the sunset against my ceiling. He smelled nice, like cinnamon, nutmeg and sandalwood.
“You know, if we are careful, we can be a couple,” he said after a while.
“You know, I seem to be a bit agreeable to that idea,” I said, looking up at him.
He grinned and kissed me. It was soft, more like a caress than a kiss. We broke apart, his forehead resting against mine. I smiled and touched his cheek. He kissed me again, slightly harder and held me close. Feeling his arms around me was amazing. Where I come from, there are stones that show the compatibility that a person has with another. But occasionally a mate is found. When someone finds a mate, they are all they can think about. Before I left to go off-world, well, I found out that I had an over the top compatibility with Cameron. Still think that we may be moving a bit fast though.
“Cam?”
“Mmm?” came his reply.
“Do you think that we are going a bit fast?” I asked.
“A little bit, not that I really care though. Why?”
“Just thinking. When do we go off world next?”
“Tomorrow. There have been some artefacts that we need to bring back. Why?” he replied.
“I think that I can face them now. I-I want to see them and not break down,” I smiled without humour, “who would have thought the Slave General would be afraid of a few people?”
“Everyone is afraid at one point in time,” he said, brushing his fingers through my hair.
“Thank you,” I kissed him.
“Took you two long enough,” Jack said from the doorway.
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