Breaking The Cycle

Dear Father,
     I beg you for forgiveness. I have failed you as a princess and as your daughter. I have dishonored myself and my family by my disobedience. I was wrong in risking my life in a hunt for glory. I am unfit to where the crown of Princess of Monaco. Most likely you think I am unworthy to be your child in every way. By the time you are reading this letter I have already exited the empire. I decided to live a commoners' life. Please do not look for I wish not to be found. Inform my husband that my departure is not his fault. Allow him to marry another wife, make sure his choice makes him happy. I have left divorce papers in my vanity, my part has been signed. Kiss mother for me. Tell my siblings I love them all and will never forget them. None of them. 

                                Your most trusted servant. 
                                   Perseus of Monaco


I read this letter everyday since she had been gone. It has been over a year since she ran away. It is now October and no word has come from my secret scouts. I have sent five hundred elites to fan out over Europe in search for her. No word had come back. When Perseus ran away my wife was crushed, and so was our children. When I finally set Hellena down and told her what I said to our daughter, she was furious. She would not even allow me to sleep next to her. Nothing I could do or say would get to her. Overtime she forgave me and allowed me back into her arms. Sometimes she cries in my arms, I console and cry with her. The entire empire held a candle light visual for her sixteenth birthday, on on the anniversary of her departure. Five months ago Perseus sent a message to her mother and I. She wrote about running her own estate. She assured us she was healthy and living comfortable. We questioned the messeger. He says he is from the kingdom of Spain. I had elites and Spain and they could not find anything. Perseus may have sent the message from another kingdom so she would not be traced. Her instructors taught her well. The messenger was of no use to us, I paid him and sent him on his way. I will not rest until my missing heiress is safely in my and her mothers arms.

Jane SiVad

I woke up late this morning. Alejo and I stayed up all night talking. Since he arrived we began sparring in the mornings and showing each other combat moves. I dressed and ate breakfast. Once I finished Alejo and I decided to go riding. The November breeze is perfect. We rode the golden fields of wheat and decided to rest after a couple hours. We ended up at a busy area that was  twenty miles from London. I knew it was a risk but I wanted Alejo to see outside the walls of Brookfield. 


"This is a beautiful kingdom." Alejo commented as he leaped from his horse. 


"England has many beautiful areas." I said. I had already told him of my time at White Hall Palace. We continued to rest with our horses and conversed with each other. 

Charles Brandon

I was about and hour and a half from White Hall with my friends William Compton and Anthony Knivert. We were out buying horse brushes and I noticed a pretty face. She was feeding her horse, she was tall with neatly fixed hair. She wore a beautiful riding gown that showed her slim curves. Then I saw a man talking to her and made her laugh. Perhaps her husband or a friend. I turned the other cheek. I nudged my friend William to have a look. He smirked. 


"She is way out of your league, so do not even try. Look at her, even her riding clothes says she is of high nobility." William said. We were joking around when Anthony got our attention. 


"Wait, is it me or is that the girl Harry has everyone looking for." He said. We all got a good look at her and confirmed. She was the runaway lady in waiting. 


"You are right, let us gather the guards." I said. A few minutes later we had eight guards with us. It is a good thing we brought them with us on a trip to the country. 


Jane SiVad

In no less than ten minutes of resting I noticed guards circling around me, closing in. There were a total of eleven men. Three of whom I recognized as his majesty's friends. They were quite a ways away from me, so I a pulled Alejo to the side quickly. 


"Alejo, listen to me. I am currently being watched and have been spotted. I need you to leave for Brookfield immediately." I said in a hushed tone.


He shook his head and put his hand on the hilt of his sword. "Persie, I will not abandon you. We can take them." He said, I only shook my head. 


"You must not use violence. Please, go back. My servants will know what to do. Trust me, I can take care of myself." 


Alejo reluctantly nodded and hopped on his horse. He took another look at me and sped off. I told my servants if I disappeared one day, do not grow panic. They knew I had ran from the Queen. I knew I would get caught one day. That day happened to be today. 

As the men closed in I stood tall and brave. Charles Brandon had a stupid smirk on his face. 


"My Lady, I believe the king has been searching for you." He said folding his arms. I knew I could take them by myself. But killing the King's friends and eight of his guards would piss him off, and whatever hurt the king would also hurt the Queen. I decided to go quietly. What harm could the king do. I know for a fact that her majesty would not hurt a fly. She is a nice and gentle woman. She oddly reminds me of my mother. Perhaps it was only me missing my mother to much. 


It took two hours to get back to White Hall. Two guards escorted me to the kings office. Once the page boy announced me in I saw king Henry with another girl. I instantly felt something negative about her. She had black hair and eyes. I curtsied and was given permission to rise. He came near me, inspecting me with his eyes. 


"Ah, after six long months I finally found  you Jane SiVad." The king said eyeing me up and down. 


"Henry who is she to you?" the lady asked. 'She called him by his name, she is his mistress'. I thought to myself. 


"Leave us!" The king yelled, his attendant and groom left the room immediately. His mistress reluctantly retreated from the room, looking back at me and finally left. 


"I see you found a new toy, your majesty." I said. His face turned beet red. 


"Where the hell do you get off leaving me like that." He fumed as he neared me. "I missed you." He whispered as he came close to me taking my hand. I pulled back and he kissed me hard. He knocked me to his desk, I turned my back to him as he pressed his body against mine. I could feel him stiffen through my riding gown. 


"I am not your whore." My words went unheard as he lifts my gown. He slid his hand down my under linen and fondled me. I breathed heavy as I was being molested by a perverted king. 


"I worried for you, I almost lost you." he said as he smelled my hair and kisses my neck. I could feel the buldge in his breeches, he loosened them and pulled his penis out. I could feel it on my back side. I had to grab the table to support myself. He continuously fondled me, my body began to warm at his touch. Then he withdrawled his hand and quickly turned me, facing him. 


"No." I whimpered as he pryed my legs open exposing me more to him. As this was going on, my mind was blank. All my self defence trainning was gone and complete and utter fear took it's place. He ripped my underlinen and placed himself between my legs. I felt him rub the crown of his penis at my entrance and he pushed an inch slowly inside and images of Tomei entered my mind. I gasped and at that moment I realized what was happening to me. I slapped the king as hard as I could, pushing him away from me and I pushed my skirts down and quickly pulled up my under linen. He looked at me with mad eyes, I instictly backed away. The king stood in front of me and fixed his breeches, not taking his eyes off me.


"Jane." he breathed. "In time, you shall enjoy me as much as I enjoy you. I shall take care of you, give you what is most comforting to you. All you need to do is willingly give yourself to me." 


"I want nothing from you. I did not give you permission to take me. I am a married woman and you took me againt my will." I said as I stood up to him.   


"Jane..." I cut him off. "I shall not take any comfort from you. You have taken away my right to consent to your will. I wish not to be your mistress. I AM NOBODY'S BITCH!" The calmness of my voice was deathly. I can see in his eyes he is afraid.    


"If you wish not then I can not force you." he said and went to his desk, he cleared it as if nothing has happened. 


"You shall resume your roll as lady in waiting to the Queen." He said plainly. I nodded and his attendant came in and announced the Queen.  

KOA

As I walked into Henry's office, I see Jane. She curtsied and kept her eyes trained on the ground. Wearing a beautiful dark blue riding gown, she looked slightly disshelved. I look at Henry and his shirt and jacket was messy. My sight turned back to Jane. Her dress was wrinkled and she would not look at me. 'My God, please tell me my husband did not hurt this child.' I thought to myself. The king walked near me and held my hand. 


Jane SiVad

The Queen came in and I curtsied low to her. She looked at us both and I prayed to God that she did not figure out what happened just moments before she entered. The king took her hand and began to speak to me. 


"You have run away from the Queen and I, and committed a dispicable act and I in my kind nature have forgiven you." He said, I knew he was pissed, did I care, no. "You may take your leave back to her majesty's appartment." I did as I was told and followed the Queen.         

Once I entered her rooms I headed straight for my room, but the Queen had a differnet plan. She asked if she can speak to me in private. I followed her to her bedchambers. When we entered, she motioned for me to sit. 


"Forgive my ignorance, majesty." I said sincerely. 


"I admit that I am not please at how you handled the situation Lady SiVad." The Queen calmly said. "I find it very rare that a woman would not give herself to the king. So many throw themselves at him." She said softly. 


"As I mentioned in my note, I am happily married, and I love my husband." 

"You have my forgiveness Jane. I am content that you are here safely in the palace. However, I find that my husband chooses the company of... other women, and I wrongly accused you." she said as she took my hand. I knew I did not have to tell her what happened to me. It would hurt her even more so. 

"My Lady you are a kind woman. I do not blame you, like you have said. You come across women, who does not wish to know the king sexually, very rarely."


KOA

I know Henry had tried something with Jane. I can see it in her eyes, he did something to her. 'Could he really force her...' I quicky pushed that thought away. I knew she will not speak to me about what happened out of being uncomfortable. I would have to leave this subjuct for another time. What I really wish to know about was how she came in contact with the coin she left me. 


Jane SiVad

Queen Katherine patted my hand. "Let us not speak of my husband." she said dropping the current subject. Thankfully. 


"Lady Jane, when you first came to my house hold, you knew very little about serving others. My other ladies had to show you how to serve me properly." her majesty says with complete calm. Then something struck me. She may be on to something. It was bad enough I was just assulted, the last thing I need is someone finding out that I was one of the twelve heirs of Monaco. She knew I came from money. Perhaps she will not piece together who I really am. 

"Lady Jane, I have knowledge of reading people, and I can see you are distrustful with me. I will tell you this. I will never hurt you." 


She was right. I have some mistrust for her, and most people in England except for my servants and Alejo. The Queen looks at me and I see she spoke the truth about trusting her. As I look at her, my mothers image came to me. Queen Katherine looks so much like my mother. She has the same face, the same clear water eyes. Just like mine. The Queen took my hand and squeazed it gently. 

"Forgive me for staring." I said as I looked in another direction. 
She smiled and ask me where was I from. 


"I...I live south of here." I hesitated. 


"I did not ask where you live, but where are you from?" she asked again. 


"I am not from this kingdom." I said unsure if I should have said that or not. 

"Are you a spy, here to spy on my husband and I?" the Queen ask me out of nowhere. 


"No!!" I said louder than I should have. "Oh forgive me your majesty. I should not have raised my voice." 


"All is well, Jane. Where do you live exactly."


"Well your majesty," I hesitated again. "I am from the north. 


"Iceland? Is that where you are from.?" I shook my head slowly. 


"My kingdom is east of Iceland, your majesty." she started to think a moment and her eyes grew wide.

KOA
'No. She could not be from there,' I thought to myself. I wanted to ask another question, until Henry walked in my bedchamber. 


"Lady SiVad you may leave." she and the king looked at each other and she exited my bedchambers. 


"Husband, how is you today." I asked once we were alone. 


"Katherine, I do not want you to make any of my shirts any longer." My husband said. 

"Henry I thought you like the shirts I make you." I said. 


"It upsets Anne when you make my shirts." I felt so insulted. 


"Many years, I have been making your shirts, and now that your whore does not like it you wish for me to stop!" I yelled.


"Katherine enough!! I said stop making my shirts and that is final!" he hollered. 


"Henry I am your wife. I am your Queen and the mother of your child. How could you put the needs of your whore before my own." I yelled in a hurt voice. Before I knew it Henry came close to me and forcefully grabbed my arm. 


" Do not call her a whore. She loves me, unlike you. All you do is whine and complain."


"I do not whine and complain." I said appauled he would say such a thing. 


"Anne Boleyn does not love you! She only wants your favor and it's benefits. You already elevated her to Marques of Pembrook, her brother Viscount Rochford, and her father Lord Privy Seal! They are only using. Do you not see husband, this is proof that you are easily manipulated!" I yelled at him. I am so disappointed of him. He sqeezed my arm tighter. 


"You are only angry because you are threatened by the fact that Anne can give me sons and you could not!" my heart broke when he said that. How dare he use my precious children to his whore's defense. 


"Tell me Henry, has she given herself to you?" I asked him. 


"Why would you want to know that!"


"So, she has not. She probably feeds you some tale about only giving herself only to her husband." His eyes widened. I continued. 


"She allows you to touch her privately and then stops you when you reach to far." I said. 


"You have been spying on us haven't you. Admit it!!" I only shook my head at him. 


"No, I have not been spying on you husband. Do you not see, the pattern Henry. You brought them back from France. Thomas Boleyn whored his eldest daughter to king Francis. Now that he is here in England he is whoring his youngest to you." I reasoned. He pointed his finger at me. 


"You do not know of what you speak, Katherine."


"No Henry. To the Boleyns you are nothing but a pawn in their game. You are their personal fool!" I spat. His eyes widen. 


"You always think with your private area and not your brain." I yelled. Then Henry raised his hand and slapped me. I gasped in pain. I put my hand over my face and it stung to the touch. Henry then violently push me to the floor. I was shocked. He was about to kick me when I jumped back in fear. Then he hesitated and stopped himself. I saw hurt in his eyes. He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came, then backed away and ran from the room. 


This was the first time I feared him for my life. I was so afraid. As I sit on the floor I heard a small knock. Lady Jane opened it and came in. I noticed she bathed and changed from her ridding clothes. 


"Your majesty, are you well."


"I am fine Lady Jane." I said trying to put on a smile. Jane gasped when she noticed the bright red mark on my face. She immediately got a small basin of water and a sponge. 


"Your majesty may I sooth your wound?" she asked softly. 


"You may Lady Jane." After a few minutes of her pressing the cold sponge softly to my face, she asked if she could speak freely. I nodded. 


"Your majesty is to good of a woman to suffer like this." 


"Lady Jane you may think of the king as a horrible man. But he loves me." I know she was just one of my ladies, but I did not care. I needed someone to talk to. 


"But your majesty. If he loves you he would not hurt you." 


"He is a good man." I said and she nodded. Lady Jane comforted me a little longer, I then gave her two days leisure time with the rest of my ladies.