This Is Not My Home

Warning: Some Season 3 spoilers. This is fan fiction remember so it may not be where the show is going at all. Speculative.

This Is Not My Home, Chapter 4
Rating: R, violence, abuse, death
Author: Chissy_Rose
Pairing:
Author’s Notes/Disclaimer: They’re not mine, I don’t own them. No infringement intended.


When Jack woke up he was in a strange place. He tried to get out but discovered he was behind some type of heavy glass or clear plastic wall. There was a heavy chain suspended from the ceiling. He rubbed his head, he felt like shit. He yelled to see if anyone could hear him. A woman walked into the room on the other side of the glass and greeted him. Said her name was Juliet. He yelled asking where his friends were. She kept saying they were okay, but he didn’t believe her. These people were violent and thought nothing of hurting or killing people. They’d proved that repeatedly.

Juliet offered him some food and water, but when she’d tried to bring it in to where he was, he attacked her and grabbed a shard of plastic threatening to kill her. He’d gotten into the outer hallway and had run into the man they’d known as Henry Gale. He tried to persuade Jack to give up, that he couldn’t get out. Jack had opened an outer door and sea water had come rushing into the hatch. Juliet had run to the other end of the hall and called out to him. He’d gone to the other end and they’d gotten behind a hatch door and closed it. She’d told him to push the button to drain where they were and after he did she socked him in the jaw and knocked him out.

When Jack had awakened in the same room, she’d told him how much they knew about him. All the specific details of his life. She was working on him to try and gain his trust. They wanted Jack to come over to their side and to do what they wanted him to do. She was working on brainwashing him into trusting her and it was beginning to work. She was finally able to take a tray with food and water in to where he was. He felt dehydrated and hungry and had decided finally to eat and drink to keep his strength up. He was still really worried about Kate and Sawyer and what they might be doing to them.

Sawyer had been taken and thrown into what appeared to be the polar bear cage. He was thirsty and hungry both and could tell that they had a crude machine that had to be activated in sequence to get food and water. There was a young man named Carl across from him in another cage that managed to break out and broke Sawyer out also. They’d both run away, but Sawyer had made the fatal mistake of stopping when Juliet called his name out. She’d zapped him with taser darts and he’d fallen to the jungle floor jerking. The men had picked him up and dragged him back to the cage where he was locked up again. They’d shown up with a beaten Carl a short time later, forcing his bloodied head against the bars and forcing an apology from him that he’d involved Sawyer in his escape attempt. Then they’d taken Carl away.

In the meantime, Kate had been told to take a shower and was only given a sundress to put on. She’d been taken to eat breakfast on the beach with “Henry Gale” who told her his name was Ben. He’d had her to put on handcuffs with about two feet of chain and crank them down on her wrists. She’d asked him what they had done with her friends, Sawyer and Jack. Ben had asked her why she’d asked about Sawyer first. She just stared back at him, then she’d asked him why she was being treated this way and he said he wanted to give her something to hold on to because the next two weeks were going to be hell for her. After breakfast she’d gotten a horrible surprise. They’d taken her to a room that looked like a hospital room and had done a gynecological exam on her. They had no trouble doing it. They’d attached her handcuffs over her head to the table and she realized that the dress gave them total access to her. They hadn’t even had to undress her. She had jerked and jerked her hands trying to stop them but it had done no good. All it did was tear up her wrists. She was crying when they’d taken her and thrown her into the cage opposite Sawyers. They were glad to see each other was alive. Sawyer had figured out the sequence to get the water and food and had gotten what tasted like a crunchy fish biscuit which he ate some of and drank the water when it came out. He asked Kate if she was hungry and had thrown a fish biscuit across to her cage. The next morning they were roused early and taken out to an area for manual labor. Kate was told what to do, but when she refused because she wanted to see Jack, one of the men had reached over and shocked Sawyer causing him to fall to the ground and jerk repeatedly. Kate did what they said after that. She could have dealt better with them shocking her she thought than picking a friend to force her to do it. They had Kate digging up rocks and Sawyer picking them up and moving them away in a wheelbarrow. Kate hated she was wearing a dress for this kind of work. Plus Tom, “Mr. Friendly,” had made leering comments to her about how she could take the dress off if she didn’t want to get it dirty. Sawyer had noticed a blonde woman, who he did not know, watching him and Kate. He grabbed Kate at one point and kissed her repeatedly just to show he claimed her and could do what he wanted. He physically fought the other men and managed to get one of the guns. When he heard his name called out he looked over to see the blonde woman with a gun to Kate’s head. He could tell from her cold-blooded no nonsense stare that she would shoot Kate. He gave up the gun and was stun-gunned again for his disobedience. Kate and Sawyer talked some that night from their cages, not realizing that there were cameras and microphones everywhere and that everything they said or did was being watched and recorded. He’d talked about how he had sized up the fighting skills of the men and thought they could escape at some point if the opportunity presented itself.

In the meantime, Ben had sat down with Jack and was trying to persuade him to do his bidding no matter what he asked him to do, like a blank slate. He told Jack if he did his bidding, he would make sure that Jack got back home again in two weeks. Jack did not want to agree to a blank slate but listened to what Ben had to say.

The next morning, Ben and another man had gone into Sawyer’s cage. Ben had called out to Kate asking if she loved this man (Sawyer). He’d whipped out a rigid metal baton like police use and had begun attacking Sawyer with it. He was striking him repeatedly while calling out asking her if she loved him. Sawyer was thrown around in the cage and was really being beaten. Finally Kate had called out that yes, she loved him. She was crying and hysterical. They took Sawyer out of the cage and left with him.

In the meantime, Jack was restrained and had the burlap sack put over his head again and was taken to an observation room in another building. He could tell he was outdoors and above water now.

Sawyer woke up to find himself restrained by straps and cuffs on a metal table. He was on his back and they’d opened his shirt up baring his chest. He was very unnerved by his situation now. This had the appearance of maybe being an operating room of some sort. Now he was scared. The men who were the guards were there also. He struggled with the bonds but he was tightly strapped down. The men were laughing at him and told him he was going to get a taste of what would happen if he tried to escape again. That they weren’t going to tolerate his insubordination again.

He didn’t realize that Jack was being moved into an observation room for this operating room. Jack hadn’t heard what they’d told Sawyer. They removed Jack’s burlap sack and pointed out Sawyer on the operating table. Jack felt like his heart was in his throat. They’d let them stay together just long enough that he and Sawyer had become lovers and he’d remembered that Sawyer was really James, his high school and college lover. He was the best one they could have picked out of the whole island to force him to do their bidding. Juliet asked him again if he would do Ben’s bidding, in whatever they asked of him. Jack refused again, saying he needed to know what they were going to make him do.

In the other room, things were getting drastically worse for Sawyer. A man in a white lab coat pulled two machines with electric pads over to the table where Sawyer was. He knew it was a defibrillator. The man in the lab coat spoke to Sawyer, “These machines are both defibrillators James. Only this one has been modified so the current is above 200 milliamperes. It will cause muscle contractions so strong that the heart won’t beat.” Inside the next room Jack pounded both fists against the glass and screamed “Fuck, don’t let them stop his heart! They’ll kill him! It’s not worth his life!” He’d hit the glass so hard that a couple of the men actually looked in Jack’s direction, but the screaming was not audible to them. Sawyer was shaking on the table.

“Please you don’t have to do this. I’ll do whatever you want done and I’ll behave. Oh God, don’t do this to me…I don't wanna die.”

The man in the lab coat just shook his head. He pulled another table over closer that had several items on it, including a large syringe and bottles. “This isn’t going to be pleasant James. Sorry.” The man took a large round wooden bit and forced it into Sawyer’s mouth and strapped it around his head. Sawyer’s eyes were full of terror now. He couldn’t believe these people were going to kill him like this. Why hadn’t they just shot him? They’d had plenty of opportunity to kill him before now. Why this way?

Jack was still agitated in the other room. Juliet asked him, “Are you going to let them kill your lover Jack? We know you were fucking each other. We know everything.”

Jack was frantic, “Tell me they’re not really going to kill him because I won’t agree to do whatever Ben wants me to do. Why can’t he tell me what he wants? I’m not going to do something like this to somebody. Get him to tell me what he wants – I may agree – that’s all I ask!”

The man took out two electrical paddles from the defibrillator and applied the gel and smeared it between them. He turned on the machine and waited for it to get a full charge. Sawyer was wrestling against his bonds and shaking his head no. On the other side of the window Jack was hyperventilating watching what was happening. “Get Ben. Tell him I want to talk to him,” Jack begged.

Juliet looked at him, “He only wants to hear from if you’ve agreed to do whatever he wants Jack. And you should know that if you re-nig on your agreement, he’ll do it to Sawyer and Kate both only it’ll be permanent. They won’t be coming back.”

The man in the other room said clear and stuck both paddles to Sawyer’s chest and discharged them. Sawyer’s entire body clenched and strained upwards against the strapping. It was painful to watch. And then his body sank back down on the table and he wasn’t moving. The man sat the electric paddles aside and looked towards the viewing window. Jack felt like he was going to have a nervous breakdown and a heart attack. He knew there was only minutes until brain damage would occur, only minutes they could try to bring him back. He screamed and his hands slid down the inside of the glass. “Oh God Almighty,” he cried. “I’ll do what Ben wants. Tell them to bring James back.”

Juliet went over to an intercom system and told them that Jack had agreed to do whatever Ben asked him to do, to bring James back. They removed the wooden bit from Sawyer’s mouth which he had clamped down on. The man filled the syringe with fluid from the bottles and stabbed it into Sawyer’s chest over his heart and pushed the fluid into him. Time seemed to have stopped for Jack. His own chest was so tight it was hurting him to breathe. Suddenly, Sawyer’s eye’s opened wide in shock and he gasped for air. His heart was trying to beat again. He let out a loud noise and was breathing again. Jack rested his head against the glass watching Sawyer breathe and move on the table. “Thank God,” he whispered as he slumped down defeated. Whatever Ben wanted him to do, they wanted it badly enough to kill for it.