Retribution

Chapter: 30

About an hour later Sara heard Michael stir on the baby monitor and quietly got out of bed to go and attend to him. Grissom was sleeping quite heavily, emitting a slight snore now and again.

She opened the door to the nursery and hovered over the crib to see her sons baby blue eyes peering up at her.

“Hey…” She whispered picking him up. “Hungry again?”

She took Michael into the lounge and settled on the sofa. She slowly unbuttoned her top, allowing Michael the access he was pining for.

“Ohh!”, she winced slightly at his aggression. She’s always had sensitive breasts but he was sucking like a monster. She knew she’d get used to it but it may take a while.

Sara opened her eyes. Michael happily sleeping on her chest. His breath tickling her. She must have drifted off for a little while. Then her head shot up as she heard shouts of distress coming from the bedroom. She stood quickly and pretty much ran back to the nursery, placing Michael back in his crib. She closed the door and ran to their bedroom. Grissom was thrashing around on the bed. An obvious nightmare.

“Noooo!” He screamed. “Leave her alone…god…please…no…….what have I done….? Nooo!”

Sara jumped on the bed and shook him. “Gil!”, she shouted. “GIL!!!!!”

His eyes sprang open and he bolted from the pillows, tumbling to his side and crashing to the floor with a bang.

“Shit!” Sara cried, getting down on the floor frantically.

Grissom lay on his side on the floor, stunned, sweat pouring down his face.

Sara took his face in her hands. “It’s ok baby”, she reassured him. “It’s ok, your safe….your safe. No one can hurt you.”

Grissom swallowed hard and pulled himself up leaning against the wall. Tipping his head back against it.

Sara looked into his distressed eyes and saw nothing but fear.

She took his face again. “Your alright ok? No one is going to hurt you! You were just having a bad dream…I‘m here….your safe.”

Grissom shook his head. “It….I….you..”, he stuttered.

“Take your time..” Sara said.

Grissom breathed deeply. “It….wasn’t me who…who….was getting hurt. It was you!”

He looked away sharply, not able to look her in the eye. “They were hurting you…and then…..I was…was…..hurting you. I hurt you!”

Sara felt her gut churn slightly. She tilted his head back so his eyes met hers again.

“That’s what’s really bothering you, isn’t it……?” She said softly and hesitated slightly. “What…”, she cleared her throat. “….what you ….“had” to do to me…”

Grissom nodded and Sara felt herself crumble inside.

Still looking deeply into his eyes, she knew what he wanted. “Do you want to see?”, she said, a little afraid but she knew the longer she put this off the worse it was going to get. They had to get through this and the sooner…the better.

Grissom nodded again.

“Are you sure?”

Grissom thought. A faint “yes” escaped his lips.

Sara closed her eyes and took deep breath. She got to her feet and pulled him from the floor. He just followed her lead. She turned him towards the bed and gestured for him to sit, just to steady him. He did.

“I’ll be back in a minute”, was all she said and walked to the bathroom.

Sara reappeared a few minutes later dressed in a robe. Grissom looked up, feeling uneasy. She stood before him and all she wanted to do was hold him, forget everything and get on with their lives. She knew that wasn’t going to happen….just yet.

She took his hands and pulled him from the bed.

Looking down she manoeuvred his hands to the belt on her robe and let go. He gripped the belt but froze. She looked back up at him. She could see the hesitation in his face. Was he really ready for this?

“You don’t have too…” She whispered.

“I….need too”, he chocked.

He took a grip on the belt and untied it. Sara never stopped looking into his eyes, even as her robe hit the floor. She watched as his eyes looked over her naked flesh for the first time in three quarters of a year. But now, as he placed his hands on her shoulders, she felt herself closing her eyes, tightly, as he turned her………