One Night Changes Everything

Morning came way to quickly in Natalie�s opinion. Facing what she had done in the light of day made everything all the more worse.

Maybe it was due to losing him�� only to find he was very much alive. Believing that he was dead had made her feel hollow���empty of all life. It felt like she had lost her husband all over again.

That moment��..that second�� that she saw Leland nod his head��she felt like her heart began to beat once more.

Feeling as though the last few weeks her heart beat had slowed��like life had been drained out of her.

Those weeks, without him, had left her with nightmares for weeks after his return. She never said anything to him. Never spoke of how she had felt��how much it had hurt. The way her anger at the captain has exploded for him hiding the truth from her. From how his death had made her crumble.

When she saw him with that stupid barrel in his hands, using a towel to lift the barrel, trying to cover his face��she had never felt so happy in her life.

She should have known then. The second she had extended her hand with the wipe that it would lead to what happened last night.

Jumping onto him and wrapping her arms around him she had kissed him all over his face, not caring what he thought, purely acting on her feelings.

Last night had just been the result of the emotions that she had felt from back then�to now.

She remembered the second that both of them had finally come back to earth last night. Both of their noses touching and their breaths mingling as both tried to take oxygen into their lungs.

In that instant��she knew what she had done.

She hadn�t just had sex with Adrian Monk��..she had made love to him.

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Closing her eyes as she confessed it to herself once more. She had made love to Adrian Monk.

Natalie didn�t know how today would go. The way he had looked at her in that small time as they breathed the others breath��she had felt fear enter every fiber of her being. Because the way he had looked at her�..the way his eyes stared into hers��she realized that he was terrified.

He hadn�t moved at all, she had��moved both of them.

God! I even forced him to touch me! Thinking this she covered her eyes with her hand.

Placing his hands where she had wanted them, showing him how to touch her as his fingers and hands shook��not with excitement��but pure fear.

Having pulled back slightly, it was this movement that had brought him back to reality. The result of both of them��joining together��registered���and he lost it.

His germ phobia skyrocketing so suddenly and fiercely, that she immediately extracted herself from the position they had been in, from how hysterical he had become in the span of less than a second.

�OhmyGod.� Murmuring the words in almost the same fashion as when the Captain had told her that Monk was alive. She had said them as she realized what she had done��what she had literally forced Monk to do.

Her fear had made her run. Run as fast as she could from him. Leaving him in that state was easier than staying their as both of them tried to deal with reality.

Crying again she sucked in a shuddering breath. Another shuddering breath and she pulled herself together, sniffling as she wiped away the tears from her eyes.

The worst part��the absolute horrible thing, the thing that made her feel dirty��is how she had started it.

It had all begun��with how he kissed Trudy.