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Adult +
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4
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Twists and Turns
Chapter 3: Twists and Turns
“Should a man feel this restless on his wedding day? Is it natural?”
“Of course it is, Isaac. Every man goes through this before they tie the knot officially. It’s a tradition.”
Isaac turned from the mirror and glared at his best man. “You aren’t any help, Leo.”
“Was I supposed to help with something?” was the innocent reply as the best man’s green-blue eyes sparkled with amusement at his friend’s nerves. At the second glare he was given, Leo sighed and stood from where he sat on the sofa. “Listen to me, Isaac. You need to relax. It’s your wedding day and you’re getting married to a man who you love and who loves you back equally. A man who you believe is your other half and he may very well be your other half. Nothing’ll go wrong. You’ll go out there in less than an hour, watch as Justin walks towards you looking all hot in his tux, you’ll say your ‘I dos’ and be on your way to your honeymoon. Everything’s gonna be okay.”
Isaac sighed and turned back to stare out the window at the lake.
“I’m gonna go check on the guests outside, alright? Take a deep breath and stop worrying.”
At the soft click announcing Leo’s departure from the room, Isaac turned around and caught sight of his reflection in the mirror. Black, form-fitting slacks made his legs seem endless; a white, crisp dress shirt made of the finest material; a black bowtie left hanging around his neck, untied. And even though it was a perfect picture of a person dressed for a special occasion, it held no hint of a man preparing for his wedding.
Bright green eyes darkened to emerald as thoughts and doubts ran at high-speed through his mind. Isaac took a deep breath, held it as he counted to ten, and then released it slowly. It was an action that he repeated three more times in hope of calming his raging nerves and clearing his mind.
(Isaac’s POV)
Two years prior to this date was when Justin and I had met for the first time. Six months later was the beginning of my falling so in love with him. Who wouldn’t? He’s smart, sarcastic, witty, funny, kind, loving, and gorgeous. He had me hook, line, and sinker by that time and probably even earlier. I fell and I fell hard.
I knew I had to take it gently with him because his prior relationship had burnt him badly. It took me over four months to get a first date and nearly three months for a second. I’ve never had this problem before. Guys usually line-up to date me. Arrogant, but true. However, I knew he was worth it… more than worth the chase.
The first time we kissed was magical. The first time I held him was special. The first time we made love was earth-shattering. And when I held him in my arms afterwards, that was completion… paradise… Heaven. It was then that I knew I could never let him go. He held my heart captive before, but now, I had given him my soul.
At some level, I knew that loving Justin was going to be something. I mean, if simply being his friend was an adventure, imagine falling for him on a deeper level. And I was more than ready to take on anything thrown at me so long as he was by my side.
Although I know he loves me, a thing I do not doubt, I also know that his ex occupies a spot in his heart still. I mean, one does not come out of a five-years plus relationship unscathed, especially when your partner of said relationship leaves you because he fell in love with another man when he stated that he doesn’t do love in the first place. However, the knowledge angers me. Not at Justin, oh no, never at him, but at the idiot who was foolish enough to let a gem like Justin go.
Justin’s ex did more damage to him than he’s willing to admit, but that’s okay. He has me now and that fool will come to see what a mistake he’s made. Justin once told me that his ex’s motto was ‘no regrets.’ I think that motto’s shot now because Kinney will regret his choice if he hasn’t already. That’s a guarantee.
I love him so much. And I’d do nearly anything to make him happy. I know that being with Kinney would be the number one thing on the list of ‘how to keep Justin happy,’ but that’s crossed off now. All I can do is hope I’ll never make the same mistake of hurting him and taking him for granted. And I’ll try my damned hardest to make sure every wound on his heart is healed. Or at the very least, numbed. And hopefully, he’ll never leave me.
(End Isaac’s POV)
“Isaac, buddy. It’s time.” Leo’s voice shattered the thick fog that had gathered in Isaac’s mind and tore him from his thoughts.
Turning his head to nod in affirmation at his best man, Isaac gave one last look out the window and at the yacht that was waiting to carry the newlyweds off in to the sunset. And as he walked out of the room, he couldn’t help but wonder if Fate would allow the two of them the chance to board the yacht as couple.
“Should a man feel this restless on his wedding day? Is it natural?”
“Of course it is, Isaac. Every man goes through this before they tie the knot officially. It’s a tradition.”
Isaac turned from the mirror and glared at his best man. “You aren’t any help, Leo.”
“Was I supposed to help with something?” was the innocent reply as the best man’s green-blue eyes sparkled with amusement at his friend’s nerves. At the second glare he was given, Leo sighed and stood from where he sat on the sofa. “Listen to me, Isaac. You need to relax. It’s your wedding day and you’re getting married to a man who you love and who loves you back equally. A man who you believe is your other half and he may very well be your other half. Nothing’ll go wrong. You’ll go out there in less than an hour, watch as Justin walks towards you looking all hot in his tux, you’ll say your ‘I dos’ and be on your way to your honeymoon. Everything’s gonna be okay.”
Isaac sighed and turned back to stare out the window at the lake.
“I’m gonna go check on the guests outside, alright? Take a deep breath and stop worrying.”
At the soft click announcing Leo’s departure from the room, Isaac turned around and caught sight of his reflection in the mirror. Black, form-fitting slacks made his legs seem endless; a white, crisp dress shirt made of the finest material; a black bowtie left hanging around his neck, untied. And even though it was a perfect picture of a person dressed for a special occasion, it held no hint of a man preparing for his wedding.
Bright green eyes darkened to emerald as thoughts and doubts ran at high-speed through his mind. Isaac took a deep breath, held it as he counted to ten, and then released it slowly. It was an action that he repeated three more times in hope of calming his raging nerves and clearing his mind.
(Isaac’s POV)
Two years prior to this date was when Justin and I had met for the first time. Six months later was the beginning of my falling so in love with him. Who wouldn’t? He’s smart, sarcastic, witty, funny, kind, loving, and gorgeous. He had me hook, line, and sinker by that time and probably even earlier. I fell and I fell hard.
I knew I had to take it gently with him because his prior relationship had burnt him badly. It took me over four months to get a first date and nearly three months for a second. I’ve never had this problem before. Guys usually line-up to date me. Arrogant, but true. However, I knew he was worth it… more than worth the chase.
The first time we kissed was magical. The first time I held him was special. The first time we made love was earth-shattering. And when I held him in my arms afterwards, that was completion… paradise… Heaven. It was then that I knew I could never let him go. He held my heart captive before, but now, I had given him my soul.
At some level, I knew that loving Justin was going to be something. I mean, if simply being his friend was an adventure, imagine falling for him on a deeper level. And I was more than ready to take on anything thrown at me so long as he was by my side.
Although I know he loves me, a thing I do not doubt, I also know that his ex occupies a spot in his heart still. I mean, one does not come out of a five-years plus relationship unscathed, especially when your partner of said relationship leaves you because he fell in love with another man when he stated that he doesn’t do love in the first place. However, the knowledge angers me. Not at Justin, oh no, never at him, but at the idiot who was foolish enough to let a gem like Justin go.
Justin’s ex did more damage to him than he’s willing to admit, but that’s okay. He has me now and that fool will come to see what a mistake he’s made. Justin once told me that his ex’s motto was ‘no regrets.’ I think that motto’s shot now because Kinney will regret his choice if he hasn’t already. That’s a guarantee.
I love him so much. And I’d do nearly anything to make him happy. I know that being with Kinney would be the number one thing on the list of ‘how to keep Justin happy,’ but that’s crossed off now. All I can do is hope I’ll never make the same mistake of hurting him and taking him for granted. And I’ll try my damned hardest to make sure every wound on his heart is healed. Or at the very least, numbed. And hopefully, he’ll never leave me.
(End Isaac’s POV)
“Isaac, buddy. It’s time.” Leo’s voice shattered the thick fog that had gathered in Isaac’s mind and tore him from his thoughts.
Turning his head to nod in affirmation at his best man, Isaac gave one last look out the window and at the yacht that was waiting to carry the newlyweds off in to the sunset. And as he walked out of the room, he couldn’t help but wonder if Fate would allow the two of them the chance to board the yacht as couple.