Somwhere I Belong

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Nathan’s POV

I feel like I’m at a crossroad. On one hand, the left path takes me down a road paved and controlled by my father. A road that’s filled with misery and ultimately…loneliness. On the right, is a path never accessible before, due to it being gated; a road filled with uncertainty and mystery. But the key to that gate was given to me Lucas.

I know it seems like an easy choice, but other factors are involved. How will I be sure that I’ll achieve true happiness and fulfillment in life. What assurances do I have that Dan won’t taint this road, the way he taints everything else. And finally, will I have the strength to break the predestined mold Dan has created for me.

But one look towards Lucas, and I know what path I will take. What’s the point of living life, if it’s all laid out for you. Life is about forging your own path. My resolve is set as I open the gate with the key Lucas gave me…

“I prefer deep infatuation.” I reply to his revelation, “And since you’re revealing secrets, it’s only fair to tell you that I’m deeply infatuated with you as well.”

The surprise in his eyes tells me that he wasn’t expecting that answer from me. But the surprise quickly turns to relief., and I can’t say I blame him. The fact that he’s strong and confident in himself to admit his feelings to me without caring about the repercussions, only makes me fall harder for him.

“I wasn’t expecting that.” He said softly.

“You have been on my mind for the longest time.” I said in all honesty.

“Me too.”

I don’t know what’s going on, but I feel this unexplainable pull towards Lucas. I find myself leaning towards him, and I see him doing the same thing. His face was mere inches away from mine and all I want is for the space to become invisible. As if he was reading my mind, Lucas closed the gap between our faces and presses his lips against my own. I almost melted right there. Lucas groaned into my mouth. The kiss became more intense as Lucas parted his lips to lick my lips. I shivered at the sensation and greedily granted him entrance. His tongue swept into my mouth and explored the treasure within. I savored the feeling of his tongue in my mouth and felt myself getting lost in his touch. We pulled apart when we needed to breathe and just looked at each other.

“Wow.” He grinned.

“Yeah.” I grinned back.

That was the most intense, most pleasurable kiss I ever had. And holy fucking shit, the kid can kiss! Not to mention that tongue piercing of his made it more interesting.

“That was the best kiss I’ve ever had.” I felt the need to tell him.

“I’m sorry, I can’t compare it to any other kiss I’ve had, cause that was my first.” Lucas said shyly as he looked down.

Part of me was shocked, but the other part was glad that I was his first kiss.

“Wait, if I was your first kiss, does that mean you’re a virgin?”

“Uh, yeah. People tend to stay away from us Goth kids.”

“Well if it’s any consolation, you were my first guy kiss.” I reasoned.

“Really? I pictured you being kinda’ a man-whore…uh…no offense.”

I laughed, “None taken.”

“So…”

“So…what does the next topic say?” I ask.

“It says…” he checks, “…’Show your partner something personal.”

“Something personal?”

“Yep.”

I had to think on that one. I don’t know what to show Lucas that could pass off as personal. But then suddenly, the images of yesterday flashed into my mind. Lucas and Haley in the tutoring center. Lucas showing off his pierced tongue and navel. I couldn’t explain why, but after school, I went down and got a piecing too later that day.

“Alright. I can show you something personal. Something no one else has seen before.” I said as I stood up and faced Lucas. His mouth dropped as I took my shirt off and he sat still, stunned as his eyes traced my body. Starting where the bottom of my shirt just was moments before and slowly moving up, feeling hot instantly as his eyes traced over my solid stomach and up my chest.

"Like what you see?" I asked, smirking but my eyes dark with emotion.

Lucas couldn’t help but immediately blush as his breath came slow and shallow but when he saw the ring on my left nipple, Lucas stood as if in a trance, and without even realizing what he was doing Lucas reached out to touch it.

My body stiffened underneath his fingers and then finally realized what he was doing and went to pull his hand away quickly but I wouldn’t have any of it, so I quickly reached a hand up and grabbed Lucas’ wrist, stopping him. Lucas looked into my eyes as I released his wrist and then looked back down at the nipple ring, continuing to trace it. My heart was beating rapidly under his touch and I‘m sure he could feel it.

"It’s it‘s incredible." Lucas said in awe as he stared at it, captivated by it.

“I got it yesterday.”

“What compelled you to do so?”

“You.”

“What?”

“I saw you yesterday, showing off your piercing. I instantly wanted one myself.”

Lucas stopped his innocent strokes, much to my displeasure, and pulled away. I decided to keep my shirt off, to further tease him.

“Okay, your turn.” I grinned, as I sat back down, clearly thinking I had him beat.

He must’ve noticed my cocky attitude, cause a sly smile graced his features. He took his stance before me, and his hands went straight to his pants. No…he wouldn’t…would he? No, he’s probably teasing me. I’m sure of it. He’s going to stop any second now…any second now. Shit, he’s unbuttoned his pants and now unzipping them. I don’t even have the willpower to look elsewhere. I can feel my breath becoming erratic. Lucas hooks his thumbs in the waistband of his boxer briefs and slowly pulls them down. His forest of pubes instantly come into view. Yeah, he’s definitely a natural blond. The more he reveals, the tighter my pants become. Lucas looks around the area to make sure there are no voyeurs lurking about before pulling down his underwear the rest of the way. I gasp at not only the sight of him, but Lucas’ brazen nature.

“I figured you don’t get a long enough look at it without someone catching you sneaking a peak. Enjoy.” I don’t have to look up to know he’s sporting a smirk, not like I want to anyway. In a way, I’m sort of nervous. I’ve never really seen another man’s cock before. Not like this, and not this close. I felt my nervousness decrease as I saw his cock was getting harder. I watched as the veins running through it pulsated, making his need for her obvious. Pushing my fears aside, I reach out, and before I touch it, I finally tear my eyes from his length to his eyes, silently asking for his permission to continue.

“Go ahead.” Lucas whispered huskily.

The first time I stroked his shaft, Lucas moaned in pleasure. I took this as an indication that I was doing it right and did it again. I found my rhythm and soon, I heard him panting my name. I then tried squeezing it and he gasped. I did it again, and then rubbed my thumb over the tip.

Lucas’ POV

I couldn’t believe Nathan was doing this for him, and it took all of my self-restraint not to take him right there; I knew that wouldn’t be right for our first time, though, and as much as I want this to continue, it’s not right. We still need to get to know each other better before taking this kind of step. With all the strength I can muster, I placed my hand on top of his to stop him from continuing.

“What’s wrong?” he asks.

“We have to stop, any longer and I’ll cum. And as much as it’s a convenience that you’re shirtless, I doubt you’d appreciate getting it all over you.” I explain.

Of course he responded with a smirk and a leer, and I stopped him before he had a chance to speak.

“Okay, you’ll appreciate it, but I won’t. Well, not right now, anyway.”

Nathan grinned at my response, “So there’s a chance of it happening in the future, then?”

“I’m hoping so.” I told him honestly, “And I’m hoping we do it in a more private place than out in the open.”

“Hey, I’m not the one who flashed his cock for all to see, not that I didn’t enjoy it considering…” he paused.

“Considering what?”

“Considering that your’s is the first dick I’ve touched that wasn’t my own.” his face was graced with this adorable blush that he tried to hide from me.

“Am I the first guy you’ve ever been with like this?” I ask softly.

“Uh…yeah.” he smiles sheepishly.

“We’ll be each other’s firsts.” I said more to myself.

“Yeah.” Nathan said in awe.

“All the more reason to continue this in a private place, and when we are more comfortable with each other, and that you are fully dating me. I’m not going to be a one-night stand.” I stated as I pulled my pants back up.

“You will never be that for me.” Nathan said as sincere as possible and I knew it.

“Good. But there is also the issue of Peyton. Cause I also am not going to be the other guy.”

“And I respect that. And as for Peyton, I know there’s no future for us. It will be over by the end of high school. Besides, despite the fact that I’m essentially using her to cover up my own sexual preference, but…”

“There’s Dan.”

“Yeah. I honestly wouldn’t care if anyone did know, if Dan wasn’t my dad.”

“Nathan, I want you to know that it’s not my intention to get you to come out. That’s only for you to decide. Hell…I’m not comfortable coming out. There’s just something about this town that makes you want to keep things to yourself.”

“Tell me about it. I think once I leave Tree Hill once and for all, I’ll be more comfortable with myself.” Nathan said.

“Agreed.”

Nathan and I spent the next couple hours completing our project and getting to know each other. I laughed hard when he told me about his obsession with old school rap, and he snickered at my obvious choice of emo music and 90‘s rock. Then came the favorites. Food, books, hobbies, movies, TV shows, which started another bantering session. We both agreed that reality shows need to go, and that South Park was the best cartoon show to date. We found out that we’re closet Supernatural fanatics, and think Jensen Ackles is a hot piece of ass.

Nathan tried every excuse he could think of to avoid going home, and I felt bad for him. I then came up with the idea of him staying over for the night, to which he eagerly agreed. He asked if my mom would be okay with it, and I told him that she’s dating the richest guy in town, Andy, and that she’s staying with him for the weekend after her business with Tric was done.

We ordered take-out and had ourselves a mini movie marathon, during which we made numerous remarks, comments, and jokes about each movie. And sometime during the course of the night, we ended up snuggling on the couch. When it came time to go to bed, I offered Nathan my bed while I took the couch, to which he immediately refused.

“Lucas, I’m not taking your bed.”

“My house, my rules. And I’m telling you to take my bed.”

“Do all your guests get the option to sleep in your bed?” Nathan teased.

“No, but you’re a special case.”

Nathan grinned, “Aw, you care.”

“Of course I do, but that’s not the point. The point is that you’re sleeping in my bed.”

“Only if you sleep in it with me?” Nathan shot back.

Okay, now he definitely has my attention. He’s actually suggesting that we sleep in the same bed? I know he’s not expecting sex, and I know we’re not going to have any…yet, but the prospect of holding one another in bed all night long, and waking up together, it’s a deal I’d be stupid to refuse.

“Okay.” I smiled at him.

“Really?” Nathan was clearly surprised, but started grinning like a maniac.

“Yep. Come on.”

As Nathan got familiar with my room, I went about my nightly routine. When I was done, Nathan went to do the same. While he was gone I argued with myself on what I should wear to bed, and decided to go with my regular option.

Nathan’s POV

I returned from the bathroom to find Lucas shirtless in bed, and I had to use every ounce of my willpower to keep my erection down. But the thought of being able to touch that toned skin of his was not making things easy for me. I could feel Lucas’ eyes on me as I stripped down to my boxers, and slowly approached his bed.

“You sure about the sleeping arrangements?” I ask.

“Absolutely.” He responds, “But just to let you know…I sleep in the nude.”

“Yeah right, you’re just fucking with me aren’t you?” I was skeptical of his claim, but not entirely. He did expose himself to me earlier today.

“Nope.” Lucas said as he pulled back his comforter not only as an invitation to join him, but to show me that he was indeed completely naked.

And this is the point where my upstairs brain takes it’s leave, and my downstairs brain assumes complete control.

“And I should tell you…so do I.” My cock spoke for me as I pulled down my boxers to show him I’m also capable of showing off my goods too.

Lucas’ eyes never left my cock as I got into bed, snapped out of his gaze when I covered us both up. We both look straight in each other’s eyes before coming together in a slow, soft, sweet kiss. As soon as we parted, I turned off the light and we situated ourselves to where we ended up spooning one another. Let me tell you…you try holding yourself back from ravishing someone like Lucas, who is a) completely hot, b) completely nude, and c) positioned so that my cock is right up against the cleft of his ass. I tell you, it’s damn near impossible, but somehow I’m managing. I finally drifted off with my face buried in the back of Lucas’ neck.

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A/N: I apologize for the lateness, first I had something personal come up on Wednesday, and then got distracted (through no fault but my own) on Thursday. I promise to make up the days that I missed.