Breaking The Cycle

Chapter 19. Innocent Blood

"He is starting to look like his father." I said. My son is a daily reminder of Henry. But Nicky reminds me of my sweet Harry. When I first saw Henry, he had the Tudor auburn hair and rosey cheeks. He was only a boy of 10. Nicky's face was a younger version of the sweet King who once loved me. Not the King who battered me.  

"I see him in Nicky also." Alejo said distastefully. "But that does not keep me from loving him." he said softly.    

"Henry and I used to look at the stars at night when we first married. He was so nice and kind to me. During our first years he was a good man, so sweet and caring." I said thinking about the good times I had with Henry.  

"I have heard about his one time kindness." Alejo said softly while nearing me and observed Nicky's sleeping form. 

"When I lost my first son Henry, he was caring enough to comfort me. Then I lost my second son and Henry said that he did not blame me. But I knew better, he secretly blamed me. The lost of my second son devastated us both. Henry held a loving gaze, but behind it I could see disappointment and distance. His disappointment and distance had gotten worst after the loss of another son and two daughters. After I was labeled infertile everything had changed." I said as I looked at Alejo, he sat down next to me. 

"He started to yell at me when ever he would get angry. Soon he would slap me, and when he felt like I insulted his...mistress, he would punch me." I said as my eyes became moist. "Henry always punched me in places were my dresses and gowns would cover the bruises and marks." I added. "Each time I would defend myself from slander caused by the Boleyns...he would hurt me." I said as I held tight to my son.      

"The King is a bastard for hitting you." Alejo stated. "Why did you sleep with him if he was so mean to you?" he asked as I sat back on the sofa. I took a slow breath, for what I was about to tell him I have not told anyone before. 

"Henry's hitting me was not the only way he abused me." I said with a tear falling from my eyes. Alejo's eyes widen in understanding.  

"It started when Mary was 7 years old. He force me to...do things to him. Horrible things that still stirs my sleeping." I said and quietly I took another breath. "The first time he...raped me was the night I came home from visiting here. It only happened twice. The second time was after...I commited adultury. He became angry at the fact that I was sorry for sinning against God and you. I told him of how I loved you and he...forced me." I said softly. "He would beat me if I disgusted him in anyway. I could not believe the way I was being treated. But I still loved him. The best thing I have done for myself was ask him for a divorce." the tears fell from my face. "I am sorry for sinning against God and you. All I want is to live happily and free with my children. But how can I do that without you?" I questioned. Alejo put his head in his hands. 

"Catalina. I am very hurt by what you did." he said as he straightened and looked at me. 

"You can beat me." I said desperately. "I deserve it, I have been a disrespectful wife and I disrespected my husband's name." I said to him. I was desperate for him to stay. I felt as though I could not breath without him.  

"I deserve to be beat. I won't tell anyone, promise." I whispered. I looked to him and he had a shocked look in his eyes. He gasped and a tear rolled down his cheek.   

"Please do not leave me. I need you. I love you." I said as Alejo came close to me. He hugged me and placed his hand on Nicky's head while he slept. 

"I would never raise my hand against you. Do you not see that I love you you?!" he said as he held my head in his hands. "I will never treat you like King Henry did." he said. I could hear in his voice that he was hurt. "I love you so much that it hurts." he said softly and he kissed me. The kiss was passionate but short lived. He stopped the kiss and looked me in my eyes.   

"Promise me you will not know him sexually again." he said.  

"I promise." I said quickly. Alejo nodded his head and held me in his arms. He kissed my son's head and kissed mine. 

"I will not divorce you, and you shall never be alone with the King again. Never." he said. I nodded and hugged him.

"You must know that I love you and the children, our children. I will never hit you, even if I tried to hate you I could never because I love you too much." he explained, his voice held much emotion in it.  

Nicky stirred a little but went back to sleep. Alejo and I went back in our chambers and put Nicky in his bassinet. We then climbed in bed and he took my hand and kissed it. He wrapped his arms around me and I kissed him. I looked into his eyes and he kissed me softly on my lips. I slid my tongue out and tasted his lips. He opened his mouth and our tongues danced. I layed on my back and allowed him to move on top of me. I looked him in his eyes. My hands caressed his cheeks and his strong chin. My hands went over his nicely cut small triagled soul patch. I kissed the small piece of hair, his patch tickles my lips. His finger brushed over my lips and slid down my neck. Gently he caressed my breast and placed wet  kisses my on my chest. His lips trailed down to my chemise strings. He pulled my strings and exposed my breast. Alejo was as gentle as ever as he gently squeezed my nipple. I could feel his manhood hardening. Alejo gently kiss my face and neck. His kisses trail
down my neck and unto my bossom. He left a trail of wet kisses that led to my breast. I wrap my legs around him, and move my hips. I became wet quickly as I felt his man hood outside of my under linen. 

"Alejo." I whispered. His lips landed on my nipple while his hand queeze the other. He suckled my nipples and I ran my hands through his thick black hair. His soul patch tickles my breast as his suckle continue. His kisses soon trail to my stomach. He lifts himself from me and took off his night shirt. Then he took off mine and through it to the floor. His kisses returned to my middrift and lowered unto my navel. His tongue circled around my naval and much to my surprise Alejo kisses went even lower. I gasp as I feel his hands spreading my legs open. I felt my husband's wet kiss on my most sacred place. Closing my eyes my head fall back as pleasure grabbs hold of my lower region. Soft cries of pleasure excapes my lips. 

-Flash Back-

"Princess Catalina, would you like a hot towel." my Lady governess asked. She is the mother of my most truest friend. Maria. 

"No thank you Nanie." I said kindly using my nickname I gave her as a small child. I was a baby when she became my lady governess and when I was 5 her daughter became my companion. I was just getting up from my bed. For the last few weeks my mother and father have been spending all their time with me. I am to be married soon to Prince Arthur of England. My siblings were happy to spend time with me as did my mother and father. I was told that I was chosen to wed the English prince because of the English King's commoner blood. King Henry VII is a commener and Queen Elizabeth is a true royal. My mother said that Elizabeth of York should have been Queen and her husband her King Concort. By blood and birth right Elizabeth of York should have been Elizabeth I. Last year when I was thirteen, mother sat me down and told me that the Tudors royalty will increase tenfold once I married the young prince. I had my doubts at first, but my mother said that it will be good to increase the royal lineage of Englands royal family. 

As I sat in my bed Nanie came and sat at my side. 

"What is troubling you my love." Nanie asked. I look at her and put my head on her shoulder. She hugged me and kissed my head.

"What if he does not like me." I confided in her. She rubbed my back. 

"Sweetheart, do not fear. All woman go through this at some time in her life. But trust me when I say. Prince Arthur is probably inquiring about you, as you are doing now. You two are only children and I am sure you will enjoy each others company." she said. It did make me feel a bit better. 

"Come now my little Infanta, it is time you rise from bed, you know Princess Juanna does not like it when you are late." she said as she tickled me. Once I was cleaned and dressed I went to the training ground and practiced archery with my sisters Isabella, Juanna, Maria and my brother Juan. We practiced archery every morning. I bested all except Juanna. She was a master of weapons. Mother says she is very skilled and should teach us her skill. I was second best. As we practice Juan was summoned by father, only my sisters and I remained. This gave me a chance to talk to them alone, without boys. 

"Sisters, may I ask you a question?" I asked. They all stopped what they were doing and focused their attention on me.

"What is your question." Bella said. I took a deep breath. 

"As you know I am to be Queen of England in the future." I started. They all came closer, my leaving has been a sore subject for them. Seeing their baby sister off to a foriegn country was heartbreaking. Especially Isabella, she is our oldest sibling.  

"What if I do not please him." I said quietly. To my surprise they snorted while laughing litely. 

"Our little Lina is growing up." Bella said using my nickname. We decided to cut practice short and sat on a soft patch of grass. 

"Lina, naturally you would think of such a thing. But trust me, you will please little Prince Arthur." Bella jested. They laughed. I could not help but smirk at them. 

"Listen, all you need to do is take control of the situation in the bedroom." said Juanna. 

"Control?" I asked. Control of what? What exactly do I need to control in the bedchamber.  

"Yes take control. Once you are married and are in your and your husbands bedchambers, you must not let him boss you around and get rough with you. Tell him to be gentle and slow, for it is your first time is it not?" she asked. Then all eyes were on me. 

"Yes, it will be my first time." I said truthfully. I have been wondering what would it feel like with the English prince inside me. The thought of it all scared me, but at the same time it made me think off what it would be like.  

"Lina, all is well if you got curious along the way. We all have done...things." Maria said. I gasped. 

"I have done nothing of the sorts." I said. They laughed again. 

"Ok Lina, we believe you." Juanna mocked. 

"Lina, you have nothing to fear. You husband will be younger and will look to you to know what to do." Bella said kindly. 

"Yes I know, but how do I...please him?" I asked and they all looked at each other. Juanna and Maria looked to our eldest sister Bella. 

"I think she is old enough to know." Bella whispered to Maria and Juanna. They all nodded and turned their attention to me. 

"Lina, you are old enough now to know the secrets of the bedchambers. Once you enter for the first time, your appearence must be strong and not weak. You must show that you are woman enough to give him your chastity and he will indeed be kind. But sister you must be brave and when he is on top of you and ready to take you, you must not cry." Bella said. She continued. "Once he enters you, spread your legs more so you would not be so tight. I know the tightness will cause pain, but do not fear you will get wet down there and the wetness will make it a bit easier. When he enters his whole length inside he will then pull it out and push back in again. This is the point where you give yourself to him. His humping will recur probably until he spills his seed. Soon you will get used to it and he will provide enough pleasure for you to spill your essence. When he realizes he has pleased you to the fullest that is when the real pleasure begins." Bella explained.

I nodded in understanding. 

"Now, you can please him by doing little things. Like kissing his neck, moving your hips with his, men like it when you scratch their backs while they take you." Maria said. 

"There are other ways to please him." Juanna said and my other sisters shushed her. I was confused. There were...other ways to please.

"Lina, you are old enough to know that laying under him is only one of many ways a woman can please. Women can kiss his neck, his chest, even suck his nipples. Men enjoy it when we kiss their stomach, their navel and...they really love it when we provide pleasure of the mouth." she said. I was silent a moment. 

"Pleasure of the...mouth. I do not know the meaning." I said. I have not heard of such doings.  

"Catalina, I am speaking of pleasuring your husband with your mouth." Juanna said. I looked at her yet again confused.

"Sucking his cock." Juanna said flatly. I put my hands over my mouth. 

"I would never place my mouth on him in such a way." I said appauled to even think of such thing.  

"Come now Catalina, you never know what you will end up doing. Sucking his cock will pleasure him greatly. It shall satisfy him in every way." she said. 

"Lina what Juanna is saying is that sucking cock will indeed pleasure him. But..." Juanna cut her off. 

"But you will have to swallow also." she said. I could have fainted. I would never suckle him or swallow his seed. That is so nasty. 

"Do not fear, he can pleasure you also. He can place his mouth and tongue on your privates. He can also suckle and insert his tongue. There are many ways to pleasure him. You can get on top, or he can get behind you and take you. You can even ride him backwards." they all laughed again. 

Then they continued to tell me those hidden secrets and pleasureable things I could do to please and things he could do. We sat for a couple hours exploring ways to please. I sit and listen to my sisters tell me of their bedchamber secrets. They ended up writing them down for me, to bring on my voyage.  

I enjoyed those little moments with my siblings. All of them.
Isabella my oldest sister told me things in a more mature way. She was always gentle with me. My oldest brother Juan was so protective of me. He would say that it was a man's job to protect his baby sister. When we had spare time, he taught me to sword fight. He showed me how protect myself. Juanna loves me, I know that surely. She can be unwarm at times but she would protect everything she loves. She's strong and independant and answer only to mother and father. My sister closest to me, Maria, she is kind and has a heart of gold. But she would unleash the fire within if threatened. Just like Juanna. I love them all, and learn of what they teach me. Especially the bedroom secrets. I shall show what I have learned to Prince Arthur and surely I shall bring forth strong children to take after me on the throne.    

-End Flash Back- 

His tongue entered me. A loud whimper escaped me and I quickly cover my mouth so the children should not hear. He deepened himself inside and my womb grew hot with anticipation. I breathe deeply as my hands settle on my knees, moans left my lips. The pit of my stomach burns with my essence wanting to escape. I was almost there. His tongue moves vigorously within me. 

"Alejo, please." I whispered as I grew closer to releasing my climax. I was near there when Alejo pulled himself from me and undid his shorts and unleashed his engorged penis from it's prison. He climbed ontop of me and I wrapped my legs around his waist and he reached down and guided his manhood to the opening of my throbbing womanhood. Gently he entered me. As my sister said so long ago I gave myself to him. His hips swayed backwards and forwards. I could not help myself as my wails of pleasure erupted inside. My climax soon reached it's peek and I could not hold it any longer. I released my essence unto him and my wail of pleasure grew loud. So loud that the twins had woken and made there presents known.  I soon heard the slapping sounds of our love making. Alejo and I both moan loud, each thrust was strong and made us yelp with pleasure. Then Alejo spilled his warm seed into my womb. It felt so good, I never experience such pleasure. When I was Queen of England I was missing out. He calapsed onto me. His penis still within. Our breath was loud and filled with passion. The twins started to cry and Alejo pulled out of me. We were tired and weak from pleasure. Julia came in worried about the babies crying. 

"Your Highness, are you well"l she asked not opening the door fully. 

"Yes Julia we are well, but tend to the children." I said. She did as she was told. She quieted them down. Alejo and I rose from the bed. We had to take a bath and have the sheets cleaned from our climaxes. We had a hot bath ran and just soaked and sat shoulder to shoulder. After a while we cleaned each other. 

"That was wonderful." I commented. He put his arm around me. 

"You were wonderful." he said. I looked up and smiled at him. 

"Alejo, I love you. I love you so very much." I said to him. 

"And I love you." he said as he kissed me and put his hand on my stomach. I gasped in his kiss. 

"What is it?" he asked in fear.  

"During the mist of our love making, I have forgotten that I was pregnant." I said. 

"Oh, that may have slipped my mind also. I should have been a bit gentler. Do not fear, we shall consult Dr. Carlos tomorrow." he said. I nodded. We continue our bath for a while and left the tub. The maids had changed the sheets and Julia entertained the twins. We put on fresh night clothes and each took a baby. Our love making probably scared them. I breast fed Nicky while Alejo held and played with Bella. Nicky was hungry, he suckled strongly and went to sleep on my nipple. I placed him on the bed and fed Bella. She suckled hard also, but did not go to sleep. We got in bed and placed Nicky between us while I held Bella at my breast. She made little gurgles while putting her hands on my breast. 

"She will make it her business to keep us up." Alejo said in jest. I turned to him and smiled. 

"I believe that is what they do. Eat, sleep, and keep us up." he smiled and we kissed. For the next two hours Bella took to my nipple off and on. Nicky woke up again and I fed him again while Alejo had Bella. The twins did not let us sleep until 4 am. We kept them in our bed while they slept between us. Sleep finally took us around 4:30.       

Next Morning

When I awoke a wave of nausea took me from my comfort. I arose slowly and the bile that was within me came up and I ran to the bathchamber and emptied my stomach in the waste basket. While I was vomiting Alejo came and held my hair back for me. 

"Thank you." I sighed and caught my breath.  

"You are welcome Catalina, it is the least I could do. You are going through this because of my child within you." I smiled and nodded as Alejo lifts me from the floor. He had a bath ran for us. The water was hot and soothing. Alejo poured vanilla scented oil and bath salts in. This made my bath all the better. Alejo undressed me slowly then undressed himself. I slowly slid in letting the warmth of the tub embrace me. Alejo carefully came in the tub next to me. I moved to sit between his legs. I sat back and relaxed unto him. He caressed my stomach, he massaged my shoulders and my back. It felt so good, I leaned back to kiss him and he returned it with love. I then turned myself around and lowered myself onto him. We made love passionately. As I moved my hips the water swishes around us. In the middle of a wave of pleaure that washed over me I heard the faint cry of Bella. Alejo and I laughed a little. I kissed him and quickly cleaned myself, left the tub and dried off.

Bella was squirming, her under cloth must be wet. I gently picked her up and kissed her head. 

"Yes you most certainly have made a mess." I said in mock anger. Quickly I took off her little gown and under cloth. I then brought her to the tub and gave her to Alejo. I walked back to our bedchambers and woke up Nicky. He began crying. 

"Aww, my little boy, all is well. Mama's going to clean you all up." I cooed. I entered the bathing chamber and slowly but carefully lowered myself in the warmness of the water. The water immediately took the sleep out of them. We switched babies, I had Bella and Alejo had Nicky. We sat them on our laps. They splashed and played while we lathered them in fine soaps. We rinse them off and summoned maids in to take and dress them. Alejo and I climbed out the tub and dried off with big soft towels. I walked to my large closet and picked out a thin beige dress. Because of my pregancy I do not wear a corset anymore. I lotioned my body with creamy vanilla scented lotion. I was quickly dressed and ready to leave my chambers. Alejo came from his closet with a nicely embroideried blue shirt I made for him with a dark blue jacket and matching breeches. He kissed me and picked up Bella and kissed her head. 

"How is papa's favorite daughter?" he cooed to her. She giggled and babbled, Nicky made a noise wanting attention also. Alejo gave me Bella and went to him.

"Did I forget my little boy." he picked him up and held him in the air. Nicky's laughter filled the room. I walk over to them. 

"Our strong handsome boy misses his papa." I said to him. We stayed in our chambers for another few minutes and went downstairs and started our day. Alejo had Dr. Carlos come and examined me, he said that I was fine and he told Alejo to be more gentle with me. I thanked him for coming and paid him and he departed. After, we went to the comfort room and as we suspected, Jane was there. She was opening her gifts from her party the day before. She recieved so many, she had to stop, rest, and continue opening the rest today. We gave the children to maids and joined Jane. We sat down talking about the party and it's guests. All of them have never been to Brookfield. Henry and Anne did not come, and secretly I am very thankful for that. They sent Mary with their gifts. They sent a beautiful golden spear with pearls inside. It was very kind of them to gift her of such expense. Jane also recieved gifts of collars, and sleeves. Golden jewelry, perfumes, lotions,
a silk cloak, and many other gifts. We watched Jane open her gifts until 10:30 and we had a late breakfast. We continued the day as normal. I thank God every night for the happy and luxurious life I am now living. Life is grand and I am living it with my husband, my children, and our closest friend Jane. Life here is so much more comfortable and beautiful then life as Queen of England. 

May 1536
Princess Mary

My birthday celebrations was marvellous. There was a joust in my honor and a celebration dinner. My father has surprised me by allowing me to visit my mother for the first two weeks of June. After we dined we attended court, were there was a few long tables filled with gifts. I sat in the middle while my ladies passed me my gifts. During the celebrations I could hear my mother's name being thrown around. I soon found that Thomas Boleyn was speaking of her. I concentrated on what he was saying so I can hear better. As I listened I could hear him like he was across from me. 

"Now that the old crow is out the way the King can have better children with my daughter. The true Queen of England." he boasted. I was deeply hurt by his comment. But he did not stop after the round of laughter was over, he continued. 

"She could not even give the King a living son, that woman was barren since the day she sailed here on a boat!" he laughed. I looked at my father. He was drunk and laughing with them. I was angry and felt rage seep into my veins. I immediately stood deciding not to take it anymore. I marched over to Thomas Boleyn. Rage clearly visible to them. 

"How dare you speak of my mother in such disgrace!" I said with venom to him. He stood up wide eyed along with his supporters.  

"Watch your tone." Boleyn seethed. 

"You will not disrespect the Holy Roman Princess! You show disrespect to royalty! Real royalty" I said with more venom dripping from my voice. 

"Mary! Appologise." my father cut in. I look to him in disbelief. How could he rake their side.  

"He dishonors my mother and yet you sit there and do nothing!" I roared to the King. The courtiers gasped around us.  

"You will not disrespect your elder!" my father accused with an angry scowl.  

"I refuse to show respect to this snake in the grass!" I boldly told my father. 

"Henry do something!" Anne said to the King.

"Mary I said appologise. I order you!" he roared standing up. His drunkeness taking away his balance. He had to lean on his throne. 

"You allow this man to disrespect the mother of your heir! Why is such disobedience allowed in YOUR court." I seeth to him. My fathers' eyes widened and the courtiers gasped yet again behind me.

"Obey your father and appologise to me!" Boleyn yelled. I decided I was not going to let them disrespect anyone or my family anymore.   

"First, you whore your daughters to my father, now you disrespect the very woman who brought this kingdom glory and saved us from the invading Scots. If it were not for my mother England would be no more and the Scots would have control over the entire island. How dare you!" once I said that my father took a step down from the throne.  

"Mary! Appologise now or you will be confined to your rooms!" I was fed up, I turned my back to my father and walked out of court and went to my chambers. I will not be disrespected any longer. Not by Boleyn or the King. I decided to depart early to my mothers home. I waited until it was around midnight to leave White Hall. I was going to leave for Brookfield. I knew the way there, it would take about two and a half hours to ride on horse back. I planned to sneak out and go to the stables and retrieve my horse. As time went by I listened closely for the sounds to die down. I crept from my chambers and hid in the shadows. The lanturns was only on a low fire and it was easy to slip pass the royal guards. Everyone was probably sleeping or still drunk. I snuck to the stables quietly and searched for my darling mare. I spotted her and was surprised that she was still awake. I opened her stall quietly and walked near her and rubbed her nose. Then I saddled her in my most comfortable saddle. Gently I pulled
her straps and led her outside. When we were about 50 feet away I climbed on top of her and we galloped through the night. 

I was an hour out. There was so much darkness. I was moving fast on my horse, my legs were starting to get sore and chafe. I decided to stop my horse not far from a castle I could see down the road. I walked for a while to get the feelings back in my legs. I shall walk for ten minutes and saddle up again. 

Edward Seymour

As I watch for thieves and robbers I see a figure not too far away. People have been reporting that a cloaked figure have been stealing and snooping around theirs estates. No one was able to catch the thief but now I can see them nearing our estate. I motion for my brother Thomas to come. I point out the figure and he sees them. He grabs his bow and arrow and points it at the figure. We study his movements. The thief stopped, turned and picked an apple off one of our trees. I gave the signal to Thomas who now have a clear shot. Thoams places the arrow in the string.  He pulled back and aimed at his target. Then he struck.

Princess Mary

As I walked my horse I became a little hungry. I saw a tree filled with delicious apples. I walked to the lowest branch and picked the closest apple within my reach. As I picked the apple I could see that I was facing an estate. It was a distance away, but I could see the castle's detail. It was dark and I could tell it was a decent castle. Before I lift my apple in my mouth I felt a deep sharp pain in my chest right under my shoulder. It was aganizing. I began to cough blood. Which made the pain more searing. I stumbled on my knees, then I fell back. My horse nudge me with her nose. As I looked down, I saw I was struck with an arrow. The pain was raw and blood seeped from my chest and more from my mouth. More pain seized my body as I felt weak and tiredness. Someone has strucked me with a arrow. My mind turned to my mothers face. Her gentle nature and soft touch. No, not now. Not here, I can not die like a common criminal. The faces of my little siblings came to view. Little Isabella and her sweet smile. Her soft auburn her. My baby brother Nicolàs and his gentle laugh. They will never know me as a sister. I never even took the time to get to know my sister Elizabeth. My God, what is to come of me now. If I lived through this I shall make the most of my royal life. I shall become the granddaughter of Isabella of Castile. I shall perform my very best to walk in my royal heritage as my ancesters had, please God. Allow me to live through this and I shall become your most trusted and loyal servant here on earth. I prayed as much as I could. All that I took for granted was now more important to me. I lay there coughing up blood and pain strucked me again. 'Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope! To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve; to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears. Turn then, most gracious advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us...' A sudden wave of sleepiness took over me and I knew no more.  

Edward Seymour

We saw them stumble and fall I heard my brother yell "Yes!". Then our father came outside to see what was going on. 

"Ed, Tom, what is with all this noise!" father asked irritated.  

"We have caught the thief!" I shouted excitedly. Father praised us both and shook our hands. 

"That is wonderful news my sons. Both of you go out and capture him, make sure he is still breathing." he said. We did as we were told. I could not believe it, we caught the thief that's been robbing neighboring estates. Surely His Majesty shall reward us for our bravery. 
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Ok, I know you're probably pissed because Catalina seems weak in the begining of this chapter. You must understand, Henry beat her when ever he thought she pissed him off some kind of way. In her mind she made Alejandro angry, so she would rather have him beat her than him leaving her. Catalina is still a bit broken inside and is still in that stage where she would do anything to please. For example: She did not fight when Henry took her on his office table and raped her again on the office floor. She did not fight because she knew it would not please him. So she let him take what he wanted. 
Another example: Catalina knew Alejandro was not pleased when she confessed to him about Henry. She performed oral sex to get him to not be angry with her anymore. She wanted to please him sexually so he won't be angry anymore. Inside she feels she has to please her husband so he won't hurt her anymore. This is all because Henry mistreated her so badly. But, fear not!
Alejandro loves Catalina so much that he will break the fearfulness and inner pain Henry caused. Alejandro will bring out the true daughter of Spain, the daughter of Isabella of Castile and Ferdinand of Aragon. The Infanta she was born to be. Soon she will no longer be a battered wife wanting to please in order for no one to be angry or hurt her. Her true self will soon take place. Well I hope you like the chapter as much as I do. 

Damn, I could have made this little section apart of the chapter. Lol

Story will resume when I catch up the regular fanfiction chapters to chapter 19, so I can update together afterwards. So if you are reading this and is also on regular fanfiction, I would appreciate it if you did NOT blab about these chapters there. I only have written 7 chapters plus a prologue there, and I want the readers on reg FF to review each chapter. I want the people on reg FF to be surprised when they read it. So don't go telling people on regular FF about these chapters. You would ruin the surprise.    

I want you all to know that a lot of spelling mishaps will be corrected once I resume writting. I can only do so much on my iPhone and a google Internet dictionary, lol. Yes it is true, I have the ultimate texting skills, I proved that by writing a prolouge and the first 19 chapters of this story on my iPhone. But don't worry I will work much faster on a computer. 

P.S- And some names will be slightly spelled different. Example: Alexiy will be Alexei and one or two more names. Do not worry you will recognize the characters. Happy New Year to all and to all a good night. Story will resume March-April or something like that.  

Peace Out