All that you left behind to save the world.

The apartment was quiet and she wasn’t used to it. It was hard not being out there, her father had told her once that it can get so addictive even the hard parts like the torture and pain that you forget real life. Some days you just have to stop and live real life or just life in general. She stood in Jason’s bay window thinking about the man and her baby boy.

Jason had become obsessed with being a father again. It seemed every child he got wasn’t his and was taken away after a while, the ones he did have were gone. He was tired of the bad boy biker and enforcer and simply wanted the simple. Love, and family, but she was sure he knew that his life made that very thing difficult. Jason felt punished for the life he chose, but the last person on the planet who should be punished for protecting the people he loved was Jason.

God Liz missed him so much; even when she was mad at him she missed him. Now he was yet another worry in her life. She really didn’t care; he made CJ smile again, like only Jason could. Why wouldn’t God give him a child of his own? Now the obsession was hers, to see him a father or happy. Which was it? To Jason being a father was happiness, just like for Sonny. For Sonny children died and he believe himself cursed now he had three of his own and was more devoted then ever.

-Poor Jason.-

Strong arms wrapped around her.

-What so poor about me?-

-Nothing just feeling your pain.-

-Yeah it getting tiring.-

They didn’t have to say anything else. They just stared out of the window both thinking about life.

-Where are we going?-

-I don’t know, does it feel like its not the right time?-

-It feels like we just met, have a connection and are taking it slow.-

-Boy, you have changed.-

-What?- He laughed.

-A while ago all you would have said I don’t know what if feels like.-

-Yeah.-

-Yeah.-

-So now that you talk lets talk about this.-

-Okay.-

-We’ve changed so much Jason, I’m not as needy as I used to be.-

-I need a little more then I did before.-

-So just about right?-

-I feel more for you then I did before.-

-You think you can love me now.-

-I’ve always loved you.-

Liz pulled out of his arms.

-Jason…-

-I was wrong.-

-Easy to say now when you want me now.-

-Liz.- She growled when he did.

-You never call me Liz, what? And no bullshit!-

Jason sighed they had to finish there conversation. He could say things that no one would expect Jason Morgan to say, to Liz most of all.

-I told you I’m tired.-

-That’s not all.-

-I’m angry at you, at Courtney, at Sam. Jason’s good enough to save your life but not husband and father material.-

-I never thought that and I’m sure neither did they.-

-Then why do you all keep leavening me?- Liz gasped.

-Oh Jason. You are a hard man, so hard in fact that once you feel is all or nothing. Sometimes that can be over whelming to a women who isn’t ready.-

-What am I supposed to do?-

-What we all do superhero, keep looking.-

-This whole thing with you Liz wasn’t like Sam and Courtney. We grew together, learned together. It didn’t just hit me with attraction and want. I realized I felt something, I knew that if we went further it would be more and it would be good.-

-Then why all the shit!- She snapped.

-I was reacting, I know I said it didn’t hurt seeing you with Zander but…-

-Honest, I asked you to be honest.- She growled at him.

-I didn’t want you to know.-

-Jason if you couldn’t tell me of all people then why do you think you’ve been feeling this way. You shut out as you said the one person you could trust.-

-I couldn’t stand it! I couldn’t stand the look on your face. Liz I was afraid.- He said.

She knew that was hard for him to say she put her hand on his face and he looked into her eyes.

-Why are you calling me Liz.-

-Because I realized that you have changed. Because you affect me in ways you never did before. I feel like I can not only talk to you, but some days I just need you. Hold you, touch you, kiss you, and make love to you. I told you I could wait once, I know now that was a mistake. Waiting is what got us in trouble the first time.-

Liz looked at him, the shadow of the man she knew. Jason was looking at her like he never did, hungry. Liz liked the way he looked at her, for a long time she didn’t feel like much of a woman. That very looked made her wet, Jason was right they let it go once before. Liz wasn’t going to let it happen again. She removed her shirt and her pajama buttons Jason groan and growled at the same time. Pulling her naked form into his arms, and kissing her fiercely.

Liz gasped feeling his need press against her belly there was something erotic about him in his jeans and her completely naked, it was like their whole relationship. But now Jason was the one who’s open, the way he kissed her and touched her was more then she had ever expected the usually clam and cool Jason was feral with need. Lifting her till her legs were wrapped around his waste he carried up to the bed room. He kicked the door close behind him kissing her breathless, then he moved down to her breast. Kiss and licking until Liz was whimpering his name.

Jason wanted to savior and feel and just sinks into Liz and stay. Even if the moment didn’t last longer then a night, he was thankful Liz would grant him this one request. He kissed flat belly and down to the dark wet curls, Liz cried out when his tongue dance over her need, Jason groaned when her juices flood his mouth. Suddenly Liz’s nails dug into his back thighs locked around his head and she exploded.

Jason pulled away breathing hard, chest heaving in time with Liz’s, he looked at her, and taking a deep breath he removed his jeans. Climbing over her, Liz gasped, all her fantasies where right she smiled a womanly smile as Jason moved within her. She couldn’t help but groan as the ache built inside her again she locked her ankles around his waste. Jason was the one to groan as he sank deeper, leave it to Liz to give him everything he needed.

The ache turned into gasps, Liz grabbed his biceps and squeezed and exploded again. Jason road it out with a groan, no this for him would last, for so long they let this need and feeling cool. Not ready to let it get this far, no Jason was going to savor this for a while. By the time he rolled from her body the sun was coming up. Liz couldn’t move, Jason looked over at her she was asleep. He was surprised by her throughout the night. He wasn’t the only one hungry, a few old porn movies Max and Johnny showed him had come to mind when Liz got what she called her second wind.

She was, everything a man wanted, sexy, sensual, no where near as innocent as Carly thought, and dirty, kinky, lude and loud, thank god for sound proofed rooms. She knew how to get him going, whispering not just fantasies but wants into his ear for three hours he laid back and let her drive and was not disappointed. She even whispers his mind.

-This is what took us so long, this night, the moments when we die in each other arms. The look in your eyes, the feel of you inside me, moving and coming. This Jason was perfect timing.-

That’s what she said to him the last time, and with those words even after the night they had he exploded louder and harder then he ever did.

-I love you Elizabeth.-

tbc