In Your Dreams

Chapter 20 - Invisible And Classic Speeches

At around nine fifteen, Andie arrived at Jen's house. She walked slowly up to her house trying to keep all her thoughts in order.
Jen didn't know it yet, but Andie had a thick invisible speech prepared inside her head with invisible note cards and blue invisible ink written on them...
she had to make it perfect and practiced it about four times on her way over from Pacey's house. (Please let this go well.) She adjusted the bun in her
hair a little before knocking. No one answered. She knocked once more and waited a minute before putting her ear up to the door to listen for any sounds.
There was nothing to be heard. Andie began to feel a little sick in her stomach, thinking that Jen was too freaked out about the night before to see her again so soon.
(She's avoiding me...I know it) Andie went to knock again, but stopped herself before her hand hit the door. (It's no use) Sadly, Andie turned and walked back down
the porch steps, looking down at the ground. Just then, while looking at her feet, she saw another shadow cover her feet, slowly she looked up realizing who it was.

"Jen." she sighed out in relief.

"Hi." Jen said. "Where are your books?" she asked seeing as it was suppose to be a study session. Andie totally forgot, she used the study session cover up to
really be able to just come over and tell Jen how she felt, but now realized that it would've probably been a good idea not to forget all of her study books.

"Oh...I thought....you had some," Jen looked away and Andie shut her eyes and kicked herself for giving such a stupid answer. "Can we just go inside,"
Andie asked. Jen looked back towards her.

"Ok." she said letting Andie go first. Once inside the girls resided in Jen's room. Andie took a seat on Jen's bed and Andie sat at the chair in the corner near Jen's desk.

"So what do you want to start with?" Jen asked pulling her book bag out from under her bed. Andie felt her stomach fill with rocks, as she started her invisible speech.

"Actually, I wanted to talk to you aboometomething first..." Andie gulped. Jen looked up and quickly shoved her book bag back under her bed.

"Well can you come over here and sit down next to me?" Jen asked patting her bed.

"O.k." Andie said a little unsure. (Why does she want me to come over there?) Andie sat down next to Jen when she
realized a dalooklook in Jen's eyes which were focused directly on her. Andie looked at Jen and was ready to start her speech when Jen
took her hand and place it along Andie's cheek, pulling her to her lips quickly, giving her a hard but fast kiss. Andie closed her eyes and kissed back.

"I've been thinking about you since last night, into this morning, into earlier tonight...into right now....and I don't want to stop thinking about you..."
Jen said sweetly pulling away but staying close to Andie's lips. Andie's eyes stayed shut as she let Jen's voice linger in the small space between them.
"Andie....open your eyes," Jen softly mummered to her. She obeyed quickly.

"Jen I had a speech prepared and all..." Andie laughed looking into her eyes.

"So did I...that little one I just made I've had in my head for the past two hours and even practiced it a few times before I made
my way back home, so since both of our speeches have the same meaning...I hope, can we just skip the studying?"
Jen finished as she placed her hand on Andie's thigh, stroking it up and down.

"I would love to not study...for once," Andie whispered in a light laughter...she moved into Jen again and took Jen's hand off of her thigh.
"But only on one condition..." she started.

"Anything." Jen said putting her hand back on her thigh on to have Andie remove it again.

"I wanna please you..." Andie said into Jen's ear before rolling her tonuge along the outer edge of it. Jen shut her eyes and tried to breath
feeling a strong dizziness come over her. Andie pulled back to look at her face to see what her blonde friend's answer was. Jen's face was
full of passion as she weakly nodded. Andie smiled and went in for a kiss, moving her lips along Jen's slow and steady. Jen opened her mouth
to feel Andie's tongue entered and moaned. Soon enough clothes began to drop to the sides of the bed as Andie climbed ontop of her friend while
the both laid naked, securely staying underneath the blankets on Jen's bed. Once on top Andie positioned herself so that her pussy was right over Jen's,
she then took a hold of Jen's leg and pulled up towards her side putting her in the postion to start grinding her. Jen moaned out loudly when their privates
touched each other feeling the excitement heirheir clits pressed together intensely. Jen's leg began to squeeze around Andie, grinding against her.

"MMMM ahh god baby I need to kiss you..." Jen moaned out loudly pulling Andie down fiercely onto her lips as they continued to grind feeling the temperature
go up even more between them. Andie kissed Jen harder than she'd ever kissed any guy. Her lips began to go numb which made her kiss even harder and
focus more on the approaching orgasm that felt only a few more moments away. Andie pulled up off of Jen's lips and rested her head on Jen's shoulder as
Jen moved her hand down to Andie's butt pushing her pussy as hagaingainst her as possible. Andie screeched in pleasure and as her orgasm hit she felt like
she could say anything.

"Mmm fuck...yes....Jen cum with me...aw god I love you so much...." Andie screamed out in the midths of her orgasm. Jen felt her own self began to climax right
in the middle of Andie's orgasm...she pushed her clit roughly against Andie and grinded hard until Andie collapsed on top of her. Both girls stayed silent, regaining
their normal thinthing and Andie weakly crawled off of Jen and onto one side of the bed. Both girls laid on their backs in silence staring up at the ceiling.
Jen decided that maybe some music might help start a conversation. She flipped on her radio next to her bed as the disc jockey came through the speakers.

"This is Donna Michaels and it's ten thrity on the dot...which means it's dedication time here on Soft Sounds 96.1 FM...this first song goes out to Frankie from Willow...s
he wants you to know that she loves you and hopes one day you'll feel the same...."

Jen immediately realized that when Grams dusted her room for her she switched the station to her preference and forgot to put it back,
but she just decided to stay still and listen as the song began to play.

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close
Don't patronize
Don't patronize me

`Cuz I cant make you love me if you don't
You can make your heart beat something it won't
Here in the dark
In these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I feel the power
but you won't
no you won't

`Cuz I cant make you love me.....if you don't

I close my eyes
Then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come
And I'll do what's right
Just give me til then to give up this fight
Then I will give up this fight

Cuz I cant make you love me if you don't
You can make your heart beat something it won't
Here in the dark
In these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I feel the power
but you won't
no you won't

Cuz I cant make you love me....if you don't


Andie sang the Bonnie Raitt song along in her head...she remembered it all too well.
When she still had feelings for Pacey after they split she use to keep the song on repeat on her own stereo.
She knew what had happened in the heat of the moment. She said what she said and she couldn't take it back,
but truly she really didn't want to. All she wanted was for Jen to turn to her and say it back, but she had yet to.
Then Andie began to think that the song was a sign of something, any song could have come on the radio at that moment,
but that one did and it described how she was feeling as she laid there, and then yet another thought crossed Andie's mind...
maybe she wasn't suppose to be with Jen, the song orallyally applied to her first love Pacey...maybe she really was suppose
to be with him again. Now confused she just laid there slightly glancing over at her friend every once in a while.
Finally about fifteen minutes later a word was said.

"So....." Jen said softly.

"Yeah...." Andie said back.

"We should probably..."

"Yeah..."

They gathered their clothes and put them on at separate sides of the bed. When Andie was dressed she got up and began to walk out,
Jen looked up and her eyes widened.

"Hey..." Jen started to say but Andie just continued out and into the hallway. Jen struggled to squeeze on her left shoe and tie it.
She got it on and went after Andie, catching her walking down the porch steps.

"I said hey..." Jen said coming outside quickly and following Andie over to her car, Andie just looked straight ahead.

"I know and I said I love you..." Andie said getting closer to her car. Jen got in front of her which caused her to stop.

"Yes I know you did, it's just...." Jen started scratching her head.

"It's just what Jen, you have that classic speech on file you're gonna use on me now...well I'll save you the precious time!"
Andie yelled as she made her way around Jen. She stood dumbfounded watching Andie get to the car.

"Hey!" Jen said, but Andie kept walking. "I said hey!" Jen repeated, this time Andie turned and looked at her opening the car door.

"Yes you said hey and now I'm saying bye, it's the same three lettered word with one different letter...get it?! Bye!"
Andie got into her car and slammed the door. She pulled off in a fast motion and sped down the street.
At the stop sign her eyes began to water and she bursted out into full fledged tears, she took one hand from the
steering wheel and wiped her face with the palm of her jacket. Another car pulled up behind Andie and honked
loudly for her to go. Andie whimpered and hit the gas. She dec ins instead of going home she'd take a detour,
hoping that the one person she really needed to see would be there and as she pulled up to the house just as
the porch light turned out she realized that...he was.