Connected

I don’t own Touched by an angel, if I did then it would not be allowed on the Hallmark channel! Also there would be the small change of Adam/Andrew being a couple! If you don’t like Slash, and you don’t think Angels should be allowed to get it on with each other then I suggest you stop reading right now. Any flames about that and I will only laugh at your stupidity. If you have any real reason to flame or rather give constructive criticism, them by all means go ahead.

Rating: Adult + or rated T for strong sexual themes and bad language.

Pairing: Adam/Andrew

Summary: “Same as first chapter and will continue to be so as well for the rest of the fic.”

Connected

Chapter 2: Friendship or more?

Adam wanted to growl again, but Andrew had finally fell asleep and there was no way he was going to risk waking him just to growl at nothing. I couldn’t believe that Sam would just go and tell him! I was hoping to keep him from knowing those kinds of assignments even existed. He is so young and innocent, he wouldn’t be able to cope with it. I know I hurt him by disconnecting, but I had no choice really. With as fresh as the last assignment I took for him was he would be able to know and understand what had happened on the assignment. Then the whole thing would be blown to the pits; not that its not already. I hate that he’s hurting like this and I know its my fault, normally I don’t have to disconnect because I come home to him. I know what I had sacrificed was worth it, that he was worth it. Adam laid there unable to sleep for the rest of the night and soon morning was calling for Andrew to awaken.

“Adam? Are you awake? Adam please I’m hurting. I didn’t mean to upset you really. I wont bring it up again, I promise just please reconnect with me.” Andrew pleaded the minute he was awake enough to realize I was still disconnected from him. I know he spoke the truth, he was probably hurting both emotionally and physically because ever since Andrew was created I was with him, was connected as his friend and guardian. This would be his first night without having been able to feel me. Without having been able to rest in the knowledge that he knew he was loved and accepted and safe. I sigh and let him roll to curl into me again seeing as he had rolled away sometime this morning.

“I will soon Andrew, everything’s just a bit to fresh right now. Just give me a little bit ok. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to get so mad at you yesterday, its just Andrew you know I love and care for you, so when I made that decision it was because I didn’t want you to take the assignment because I knew it would hurt you and if I can stop that then I will. Perhaps when your older I will let you ok.” I tell him truly sorry for I know I scared him last night especially when I told him how long I was intending to make him wait before I would reconnect with him. I hadn’t meant to but I had been worried that someone had told him what kind of mission it had been that I would not allow him to take on. He nods and slides closer to me wanting at least the physical closeness so I let him curl into me and kiss his forehead again. No matter how mad I am I will never be able to be angry enough to push him away when I know what it would do to him.

“I’m sorry too. I should have known you were only trying to help me. I know and I love you too. I just wanted to understand why you wouldn’t let me. I don’t care though I just want to stay with you.” Andrew said and that alone spoke volumes of how scared he was. He was terrified that he had angered Adam to the point of the older angel forcing him to leave and never reconnecting with him. Which Adam had to admit broke his heart because he knew it was partially his fault because of what he had said the night before. Blinking back tears of his own, he felt his shoulder start to get wet again from Andrew’s tears and, in hope’s to fix his mistake the night before started to push Andrew back in order to see his face, which in hind sight might not have been such a brilliant move. Andrew panicked thinking the answer was no and cried out while grabbing onto Adam’s hips and latched himself on while reaching up and kissing Adam; dead on the lips.

“Adam, no! Please! I love you! I really love you, and I don’t care if you wont reconnect, ok I do care, but if you don’t I still refuse to leave! I wont, I’ll sleep outside your door if I have too, please Adam, I love you more then you’ll ever know! Please!” Andrew cried out, and while it was true he was emotional, he was never so emotional unless it was something to do with the father or with the fear of losing the love of his few close friends and father; even if the last could never happen. Then started to whimper while leaning his head in exactly the right position that he always did in order to get Adam to pepper his face and forehead with kisses; yeah it was childish, but so what he liked it when Adam did it!

Adam wanted to pull back and talk to him about what he meant but at the moment he didn’t want Andrew thinking he hated him so much that he would send him away, and besides that what did he mean he loves me more then I’ll ever know? Of course I know he loves me, the silly thing must have went and forgot that I could feel HIM as well threw the connection. So it was with a small smile that he complied with Andrew’s want and let his lips reign down on his forehead before trailing a line down his nose, (which always got a laugh and now was no exception, even if this one sounded watery) each side of his checks and lips, his chin, his temple, and over each of his eyes. He knew it was childish, and should have stopped a few months after Andrew was created by god (angels generally did have a childish age, or rather time no matter the actual age they were created to be, but they also grew out of it exceptionally fast, within two or three months at most, yet some still keep things from that time, almost like a security blanket.) So he pelted a few more kiss to his face before pulling back and tilting Andrew’s head so they were face to face and told him to open his eyes’.

“Andrew I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said what I did ok? I’m not going to never reconnect with you, I could never, would never do that. I was simply upset by the situation, and wasn’t think about how you would take that ok? I promise to not say such things again though. I also don’t want you thinking that you cant come to me with things like this because you can, yes it might hurt, and yes I might disconnect for awhile, but I always want you to have the air between us open and clean, it was bad enough that I had done that I don’t want you to do it as well. Though you do know that I can feel your love for me as well over the connection right? So I have no idea why you would believe that I don’t know you love me.” Adam said with a smile trying to cheer Andrew up without connecting with him just yet, he need just a few more minutes and he would (hopefully) be good enough that he wont let his emotions about the assignment get threw the connection. Andrew actually blushed but nodded his head when Adam told him he expected a response of some type. He could never tell Adam a lie no matter what, and really he didn’t lie to Andrew, he just didn’t tell him he could be doing another type of mission that apparently could hurt one, which also had Andrew worried about Adam’s health. There were times when he came home hurt a limping before the father healed him, now that he though about it, those were probably the times he was doing those other assignments.

“I promise I wont Adam. I, I. Adam I’m in love you, I know its wrong! I know that and I’m sorry, so sorry! I tried to make the feelings go away but I couldn’t! Please don’t send me away Adam!” Andrew broke down and confessed to the feeling’s he’d been having about his best friend and teacher for over a year now. He would never of done this before, but he had just promised not to keep things for him, and Adam was disconnected form him because of things being keep hidden and he didn’t want the older angel to find out later, hate him, and disconnect from him for lying and discuss. Now he sat with Adam staring at him like he was crazy, and still holding onto his jaw, a bit too tightly it was starting to really hurt! Andrew let out a whimper 3 minutes later when Adam had yet to change his position, at all! The noise seemed to snap him out of it, or something because the next minute he mumbled an apology and was rubbing my jaw with his fingers to sooth the pain away. I was just glad he hadn’t run away screaming.

“What do you mean Andrew, your in love with me, as in like humans love; in love with me?” Adam asked quietly. I was still freaked out by everything happening that all I could do was nod my head dumbly before dipping my head down in shame, I knew he wouldn’t feel the same way. I had a habit of only using jesters when I was scared or hurt in some way, and right now I was a scared as I ever been, Adam wasn’t connected with me, and I just told him I was in love with him!

“Your words Andrew I need you to use your words.” Adam said a bit snappishly and I winced thinking that this was how it was going to be from now on. He wouldn’t want to deal with me anymore, let alone be near me, he was probably only asking to make sure he had a good reason to tell everybody why he kicked me back out to my own room. One which I had never sleep in before, I don’t know what I’m going to do. I really don’t, I cant be disconnected from Adam forever, I would rather not exist! He must have realized what I thought though because a minute later he was sitting up and rubbing my back in a familiar comforting pattering.

“I know its wrong Adam, that angels are supposed to just work on their assignments from father, and know they are doing all they can to do his will, to do their part to pave his way in the human world, but I cant help it, I’m in love with you Adam! I’ve tried to stop, really I have. At first I thought it was just something like a student’s crush on their teacher, that it would go away on its own in a few days or weeks, but those weeks turned into months and still I have this love for you! I’m sorry, I really am, I never mean to for this to happen. What’s going to happen to me Adam?” Andrew said with his gaze down at the matrices he didn’t want to see the disappointment in Adams face. He waited to hear the words of anger, hurt, or fear but received none.

Instead I felt him raise my face to look at him, only for him to let his lips line up with mine and pressing gently. What’s more is that I felt him again! His heart; and its love for me was just pouring in waves, you have no idea how much that meant to me, how much that helped me. I leap up and shyly pressed a bit harder into the kiss, only for him to switch our positions so that I was up against the head board and pressed me back as his tongue flickered out to tease at my closed lips which parted with a gasp. I didn’t miss his hands moving up from my wait to my middle to my neck where he rubbed circles with his thumb pad while he continued to kiss me and explore my mouth toughly. I was panting by that point, having no idea if he was planning to go any further, but at the moment I liked the way he was kissing me, and apparently he did too because he pulled back long enough to say one thing before moving back in to plant our lips together again.

“I love you too baby.”

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