He Needed Me
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1 through F › Doctor Who
Rating:
Adult
Chapters:
18
Views:
6,310
Reviews:
12
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
2
Disclaimer:
The concept nor the characters of Dr. Who are mine. The BBC and Russel Davies own everything. I'm merely borrowing their toys for the purpose of this story and in no way am I making a dime out of this.
Chapter 1
Chapter 1
Rose gasped a shriek. It felt like the world, the entire universe was falling apart around her and coming back together all over again. Voices whispered in her head. Flashes of figures and information and faces filled her mind to the point of bursting. But then the pressure would suddenly release only to start all over again.
Her mind flashed to the past, seeing herself sitting in front of her mum and Mickey, the pair of them eating and talking about the mundane while her past self was devastated over the pending death of her Doctor, “But what do I do every day, mum? What do I do? Get up. Catch the bus. Go to work. Come back home. Eat chips and go to bed. Is that it?”
Mickey looked at her almost resentfully, “It’s what the rest of us do.”
Shaking her head, “Well I can’t!”
“Why, cause you’re better than us?”
“No, I didn’t mean that! But it was. It was a better life. No-...I don’t mean all the travelin’ and seein’ aliens and spaceships and things, that don’t matter. The Doctor showed me a better way of livin’ your life. You know, he showed you too. You don’t just give up. You don’t just let things happen. You make a stand, you say no. You have the guts to do what’s right when everyone else just runs away and I just-...can’t!”
She was running then. Not her past self but her, running through scenes of her life like watching it on the telly before freezing. She was on Satellite 5, staring at Lynda who was nervously watching the screen. Rose remembered feeling jealous at the thought of another companion coming along for the ride before she realized something: Lynda would have been just that, a companion. Like Jack. The Doctor saw her, Rose, as an equal. Someone beyond a companion.
Lynda looked behind her, “Got a problem.”
The voice of the Dalek boomed through the sealed door, “Kill the female detected.”
Squaring her shoulder a little, “They’ve found me.”
The Doctor’s voice echoed through the room, calming both women, “You’ll be alright, Lynda. That side of the station is reinforced against meteors.”
She managed to joke a little, “Hope so. You know what they say about Earth workmanship.” Rose saw
movement out of the corner of her eye, shaking her head in dread to see three Daleks slowly ascending in space. She could just imagine what it was saying beyond the glass before a beam shot out from it, no doubt killing Lynda with a ‘y’ as she screamed.
But she was falling again, moving through more and more flashes of the past before stopping once more. She watched silently as the Doctor’s hands fell away from the detonator, declaring he would rather be a coward than a killer. He stayed still as the Daleks surrounded him, preparing to kill him once and for all. She gasped, as did he, as the TARDIS all but appeared on the platform, the Daleks nearly panicking to see the familiar blue box.
The doors flew open, a figure glowing in the entryway. Rose’s eyes widened as she realized it was herself, the Doctor falling backward to the ground in shock and horror. Her other self moved without moving, disappearing and reappearing in front of the Doctor, looking down at him as he shouted at her, “What’ve you done?”
“I looked into the TARDIS...and the TARDIS looked into me.”
Horrified clarity sparked in his eyes, “You’ve looked into the time vortex, Rose, no one’s meant to see that!”
The emperor’s voice boomed, “This is the abomination!”
One of his Daleks immediately responded, “Exterminate!” A beam of disintegrating energy shot out, her eyes flashing of power as she raised her hand, caught the energy in her palm and forced it back, making it disappear.
She looked up, seeing the name of the game station and slowly moving her hand, “I am the Bad Wolf. I
create myself. I take the words...I scatter them in time and space... a message to lead myself here.”
“Rose, you’ve got to stop this...you’ve got to stop this now. You’ve got the entire vortex runnin’ through your head, you’re gonna burn!”
She held his gaze, effortlessly silencing him, “I want you safe, my doctor, protected from the false god...”
The Dalek emperor’s voice boomed once more, “You cannot hurt me, I am immortal.”
Rose looked up, angry and her eyes swirling with the time vortex inside herself. Time was quite literally flowing through her veins, “You are tiny. I can see the whole of time, every single atom of your existence and I divide them.” Her eyes glowed with power, the Daleks separating atom by atom and turning to dust, “Everything must come to dust. All things. Everything dies. The time war ends.”
And they were gone. Every Dalek, their ships, everything, “Rose you’ve done it, now stop. Just let go.”
“How can I let go of this? I bring life.” Through her mind’s eye she saw Jack suddenly brought back to life, and a wave of clarity rushed through her mind. Rose understood exactly what she’d condemned him to: an
immortal life.
“But this is wrong! You can’t control life and death-...”
“But I can. The sun and the moon the day and night...but why do they hurt?”
The Doctor looked close to weeping, knowing what was happening to her, “The power’s gonna kill you and it’s my fault.”
“I can see everything...all that is...all that was...all that ever could be...”
He shot to his feet, “That’s what I see all the time. Doesn’t it drive you mad?”
“My head-...”
He smiled just a little, “Come here.”
“Is killin’ me...”
“I think you need a doctor.” Rose almost laughed at such a corn ball statement in such a dire situation. She watched the Doctor kiss her, taking the power out of her other self and saving her life. And now she understood. Why he had regenerated. He’d done it to save her. But it was more than that. As memories and concepts continued to swirl inside her head, she understood what she’d done wrong, and how to fix it.
“Hello, Rose.” She didn’t move forward or backward, in fact she realized she had her eyes closed and slowly opened them. She let out a small gasp, seeing her glowing self standing before her. And only the figure. There was no TARDIS. No console room. Just her other self and her in a blank space.
She opened her mouth but nothing came out before she shook her head and blinked twice, “Bad Wolf?”
Her twin smirked, “Something like that. You and I are no different and now you’re a part of TARDIS as I have always been.”
Rose blinked blankly, “Did I just dribble on me shirt?”
Bad Wolf tipped her head back and laughed, “You’ll understand with time.” Her glowing eyes met Rose’s
as she smirked, “And you have nothing but time...now...”
The ground beneath her feet seemed to sway and she closed her eyes for a moment to get her bearings, “And when he protests, tell him by Rassilion’s mandates you have every right to know.” She opened her eyes to ask what the hell that meant and jumped a little. She was on the TARDIS, back in her own present but after a moment she realized she hadn’t really left. She looked over the console, suddenly every switch, nob, and button easily identified. She knew how to fly the TARDIS. But it was more than just that...she knew how to get home. How the Doctor didn’t know was beyond her but it didn’t matter. Perhaps he’d just never considered there would be another him in this dimension. But the way was easy now, at least for however long this knowledge floated about in her head. She wasn’t so sure she’d retain it after the promise was fulfilled.
Her mind flashed to her mom, hesitating for a moment before reaching for the corded phone tied to the TARDIS controls. She remembered the Doctor calling her with it once and knew it would ring to her phone. Her super phone that her mom was currently holding onto for her. She pulled in a deep breath, waiting as the phone starting ringing.
The line connected, her mother screeching, “DOCTOR?!”
Smiling to herself, “No mum, it’s me.”
She heard a sigh, not sure if her mom was relieved or disappointed. As soon as she heard Jackie’s voice
she realized with surprise her mother was disappointed, “Oh, well, sorry then. Your phone’s got a strange caller id is all.”
Laughing softly, “Actually, caller id’s spot on.”
“But...it...it says...TARDIS...”
Nodding and smiling, “Yeah. And that’s where I’m calling from.”
There was a very long pause before an almost teary voice came over the phone, “Are you going then?”
Closing her eyes and nodding, “Yeah, got to. Sorry I didn’t get a chance to buy your mags for you.”
Scoffing, “Don’t care one wit about ‘em.”
She tugged at her lip and tried to keep her emotions from bubbling over, “I can’t stay without him and
we both know Doctor doesn’t do domestic.”
She didn’t feel too guilty putting a bit of the blame on him since he wasn’t around to get slapped by her mother. She, however, was, “You bring that man round here right now, Rose.”
Barking a laugh at how predictable her mum was, wiping away a stray tear, “Sorry, he’s hiding and we’ll be on the other side before I find him. Timing’s a bit critical. Now or never sort of thing...you know him.”
“Swear I don’t know what you see in him. Right then, give him a good slap and a hug from me. Tell him
to take care of you and I love you, sweetheart.”
Tugging on her lower lip with her teeth and tucking a stray lock of hair behind her ear, “I love you too, mum. I will find a way to see you, promise.”
“You better. One phone call’s not gonna do it. You be sure and take care of him too, God only know’s what he’ll get into without you to bail him out. I don’t care what he thinks about us, if he’s with you he’s
stuck in this family and I call the shots, I don’t care how old he is. And you hog tie him if you have to but I want you both here for Christmas if you can.”
Swallowing to keep the tears at bay, “We’ll do our best.” She hoped this wasn’t a one time shot. Prayed for it.
“Right. I love you sweetheart and I’ll talk to you soon.”
A tear slinking down her cheek, “I love you, mummy. See you soon.”
She let out a slow breath as she hung up the phone, wiping at her cheek. That could be the last ring
she ever gave her mum, although she felt like it wouldn’t be. A gentle wave of comforting emotion flowed through her mind and she closed her eyes for a moment while tilting her head back, letting the TARDIS soothe her. Emotions under control, she opened her eyes and took a look around. Time to move forward. Her Doctor needed her. She looked over the TARDIS’ controls and a loving smile crossed her face, stroking the warm metal as if stroking a lover. Only this old girl was something more than that. She was a part of TARDIS, and TARDIS was a part of her, “Let’s save your Doctor, then.”
She moved along the controls with ease, overriding emergency program one and starting up the TARDIS. The familiar whirling, grinding sound began and she smiled with glee, flipping a few toggles before throwing the hand brake. A mad grin spread across her face, “Allons-y.” And away they flew.
Rose gasped a shriek. It felt like the world, the entire universe was falling apart around her and coming back together all over again. Voices whispered in her head. Flashes of figures and information and faces filled her mind to the point of bursting. But then the pressure would suddenly release only to start all over again.
Her mind flashed to the past, seeing herself sitting in front of her mum and Mickey, the pair of them eating and talking about the mundane while her past self was devastated over the pending death of her Doctor, “But what do I do every day, mum? What do I do? Get up. Catch the bus. Go to work. Come back home. Eat chips and go to bed. Is that it?”
Mickey looked at her almost resentfully, “It’s what the rest of us do.”
Shaking her head, “Well I can’t!”
“Why, cause you’re better than us?”
“No, I didn’t mean that! But it was. It was a better life. No-...I don’t mean all the travelin’ and seein’ aliens and spaceships and things, that don’t matter. The Doctor showed me a better way of livin’ your life. You know, he showed you too. You don’t just give up. You don’t just let things happen. You make a stand, you say no. You have the guts to do what’s right when everyone else just runs away and I just-...can’t!”
She was running then. Not her past self but her, running through scenes of her life like watching it on the telly before freezing. She was on Satellite 5, staring at Lynda who was nervously watching the screen. Rose remembered feeling jealous at the thought of another companion coming along for the ride before she realized something: Lynda would have been just that, a companion. Like Jack. The Doctor saw her, Rose, as an equal. Someone beyond a companion.
Lynda looked behind her, “Got a problem.”
The voice of the Dalek boomed through the sealed door, “Kill the female detected.”
Squaring her shoulder a little, “They’ve found me.”
The Doctor’s voice echoed through the room, calming both women, “You’ll be alright, Lynda. That side of the station is reinforced against meteors.”
She managed to joke a little, “Hope so. You know what they say about Earth workmanship.” Rose saw
movement out of the corner of her eye, shaking her head in dread to see three Daleks slowly ascending in space. She could just imagine what it was saying beyond the glass before a beam shot out from it, no doubt killing Lynda with a ‘y’ as she screamed.
But she was falling again, moving through more and more flashes of the past before stopping once more. She watched silently as the Doctor’s hands fell away from the detonator, declaring he would rather be a coward than a killer. He stayed still as the Daleks surrounded him, preparing to kill him once and for all. She gasped, as did he, as the TARDIS all but appeared on the platform, the Daleks nearly panicking to see the familiar blue box.
The doors flew open, a figure glowing in the entryway. Rose’s eyes widened as she realized it was herself, the Doctor falling backward to the ground in shock and horror. Her other self moved without moving, disappearing and reappearing in front of the Doctor, looking down at him as he shouted at her, “What’ve you done?”
“I looked into the TARDIS...and the TARDIS looked into me.”
Horrified clarity sparked in his eyes, “You’ve looked into the time vortex, Rose, no one’s meant to see that!”
The emperor’s voice boomed, “This is the abomination!”
One of his Daleks immediately responded, “Exterminate!” A beam of disintegrating energy shot out, her eyes flashing of power as she raised her hand, caught the energy in her palm and forced it back, making it disappear.
She looked up, seeing the name of the game station and slowly moving her hand, “I am the Bad Wolf. I
create myself. I take the words...I scatter them in time and space... a message to lead myself here.”
“Rose, you’ve got to stop this...you’ve got to stop this now. You’ve got the entire vortex runnin’ through your head, you’re gonna burn!”
She held his gaze, effortlessly silencing him, “I want you safe, my doctor, protected from the false god...”
The Dalek emperor’s voice boomed once more, “You cannot hurt me, I am immortal.”
Rose looked up, angry and her eyes swirling with the time vortex inside herself. Time was quite literally flowing through her veins, “You are tiny. I can see the whole of time, every single atom of your existence and I divide them.” Her eyes glowed with power, the Daleks separating atom by atom and turning to dust, “Everything must come to dust. All things. Everything dies. The time war ends.”
And they were gone. Every Dalek, their ships, everything, “Rose you’ve done it, now stop. Just let go.”
“How can I let go of this? I bring life.” Through her mind’s eye she saw Jack suddenly brought back to life, and a wave of clarity rushed through her mind. Rose understood exactly what she’d condemned him to: an
immortal life.
“But this is wrong! You can’t control life and death-...”
“But I can. The sun and the moon the day and night...but why do they hurt?”
The Doctor looked close to weeping, knowing what was happening to her, “The power’s gonna kill you and it’s my fault.”
“I can see everything...all that is...all that was...all that ever could be...”
He shot to his feet, “That’s what I see all the time. Doesn’t it drive you mad?”
“My head-...”
He smiled just a little, “Come here.”
“Is killin’ me...”
“I think you need a doctor.” Rose almost laughed at such a corn ball statement in such a dire situation. She watched the Doctor kiss her, taking the power out of her other self and saving her life. And now she understood. Why he had regenerated. He’d done it to save her. But it was more than that. As memories and concepts continued to swirl inside her head, she understood what she’d done wrong, and how to fix it.
“Hello, Rose.” She didn’t move forward or backward, in fact she realized she had her eyes closed and slowly opened them. She let out a small gasp, seeing her glowing self standing before her. And only the figure. There was no TARDIS. No console room. Just her other self and her in a blank space.
She opened her mouth but nothing came out before she shook her head and blinked twice, “Bad Wolf?”
Her twin smirked, “Something like that. You and I are no different and now you’re a part of TARDIS as I have always been.”
Rose blinked blankly, “Did I just dribble on me shirt?”
Bad Wolf tipped her head back and laughed, “You’ll understand with time.” Her glowing eyes met Rose’s
as she smirked, “And you have nothing but time...now...”
The ground beneath her feet seemed to sway and she closed her eyes for a moment to get her bearings, “And when he protests, tell him by Rassilion’s mandates you have every right to know.” She opened her eyes to ask what the hell that meant and jumped a little. She was on the TARDIS, back in her own present but after a moment she realized she hadn’t really left. She looked over the console, suddenly every switch, nob, and button easily identified. She knew how to fly the TARDIS. But it was more than just that...she knew how to get home. How the Doctor didn’t know was beyond her but it didn’t matter. Perhaps he’d just never considered there would be another him in this dimension. But the way was easy now, at least for however long this knowledge floated about in her head. She wasn’t so sure she’d retain it after the promise was fulfilled.
Her mind flashed to her mom, hesitating for a moment before reaching for the corded phone tied to the TARDIS controls. She remembered the Doctor calling her with it once and knew it would ring to her phone. Her super phone that her mom was currently holding onto for her. She pulled in a deep breath, waiting as the phone starting ringing.
The line connected, her mother screeching, “DOCTOR?!”
Smiling to herself, “No mum, it’s me.”
She heard a sigh, not sure if her mom was relieved or disappointed. As soon as she heard Jackie’s voice
she realized with surprise her mother was disappointed, “Oh, well, sorry then. Your phone’s got a strange caller id is all.”
Laughing softly, “Actually, caller id’s spot on.”
“But...it...it says...TARDIS...”
Nodding and smiling, “Yeah. And that’s where I’m calling from.”
There was a very long pause before an almost teary voice came over the phone, “Are you going then?”
Closing her eyes and nodding, “Yeah, got to. Sorry I didn’t get a chance to buy your mags for you.”
Scoffing, “Don’t care one wit about ‘em.”
She tugged at her lip and tried to keep her emotions from bubbling over, “I can’t stay without him and
we both know Doctor doesn’t do domestic.”
She didn’t feel too guilty putting a bit of the blame on him since he wasn’t around to get slapped by her mother. She, however, was, “You bring that man round here right now, Rose.”
Barking a laugh at how predictable her mum was, wiping away a stray tear, “Sorry, he’s hiding and we’ll be on the other side before I find him. Timing’s a bit critical. Now or never sort of thing...you know him.”
“Swear I don’t know what you see in him. Right then, give him a good slap and a hug from me. Tell him
to take care of you and I love you, sweetheart.”
Tugging on her lower lip with her teeth and tucking a stray lock of hair behind her ear, “I love you too, mum. I will find a way to see you, promise.”
“You better. One phone call’s not gonna do it. You be sure and take care of him too, God only know’s what he’ll get into without you to bail him out. I don’t care what he thinks about us, if he’s with you he’s
stuck in this family and I call the shots, I don’t care how old he is. And you hog tie him if you have to but I want you both here for Christmas if you can.”
Swallowing to keep the tears at bay, “We’ll do our best.” She hoped this wasn’t a one time shot. Prayed for it.
“Right. I love you sweetheart and I’ll talk to you soon.”
A tear slinking down her cheek, “I love you, mummy. See you soon.”
She let out a slow breath as she hung up the phone, wiping at her cheek. That could be the last ring
she ever gave her mum, although she felt like it wouldn’t be. A gentle wave of comforting emotion flowed through her mind and she closed her eyes for a moment while tilting her head back, letting the TARDIS soothe her. Emotions under control, she opened her eyes and took a look around. Time to move forward. Her Doctor needed her. She looked over the TARDIS’ controls and a loving smile crossed her face, stroking the warm metal as if stroking a lover. Only this old girl was something more than that. She was a part of TARDIS, and TARDIS was a part of her, “Let’s save your Doctor, then.”
She moved along the controls with ease, overriding emergency program one and starting up the TARDIS. The familiar whirling, grinding sound began and she smiled with glee, flipping a few toggles before throwing the hand brake. A mad grin spread across her face, “Allons-y.” And away they flew.