Totally and utterly numb

Yay New chapter, oh and again I don't own LWD.


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----Edwin's Point of view----

I had my eyes closed as Nelson violated me once again, I had a secret that I would never tell anyone. I clenched my jaw as I left my body and thought about how this whole thing started.

----Flash back, in Ed's p.o.v----

The music was blaring as I as took off my winter coat and put in on a coat rack that was already stuffed with about 25 others coats, I shrugged if I lost it oh well. I glanced around the room, I was at Samantha Mack's house, she was having a sort of Christmas party because her parents where away for the weekend. I looked to my left and spotted Lizzie on a couch making out with her boyfriend Ben, I had a huge urge to puke and beat the crap out of Ben but I did neither and went into the kitchen to look for Will. I spotted him after a few minutes he was talking to some Freshman, he would most likely be getting some tonight. I rolled my eyes and called his name. "Yo Ed!" Will nodded at me and winked, and I knew that ment he would be finished with the girl in an hour or two and come find me, this happened every time we went to parties. I nodded and left the room and went back to the living room, but then I saw Lizzie again and walked into the dinning room thing, there were a few people taking shots and one girl named Meagan who was in my science class looked at me then realized she knew me and smiled, a drunken smiled. "Oh my gosh Edwin!" She stumbled up from her chair and put her arm around me. "Come take a shot with me." I didn't usually drink, it was more of Derek's thing but Meagan was pretty cute so maybe I could be making out with her in a closet later or something. "Uh, sure." She then shoved me down onto her chair and sat on my lap, she got two shot glasses from the table and poured some Vodka into it. "Cheers" She grinned and we clinked glasses and I downed the shot, it burned down my throat and I coughed a few times. Meagan laughed and ran her hand threw my hair. "AW, Ed that was so cute." She giggled and poured us another shot of Vodka, after we each had four more shots I felt a bit tipsie, I am not going to lie when I say I am a wicked light wait, Meagan was already trashed as she had been pretty drunk when I first sat down. Meagan finally got off my lap and pulled me from the room and up the stairs to one of the bed room, she opened a door. "This is Samantha's room." She giggled, I then remembered that Samantha and Meagan where best friends. Meagan pushed me onto Samantha's bed and started to make out with me, I opened my mouth and we were French kissing, it was nice until she suddenly pulled away. "I think I am gonna puke." I sighed as she jumped up and out of the room and into the bathroom I heard her puke, I vowed never to hook up with a shit faced girl again.

I shook my head and rested it on the pillow, I would have checked on Meagan but if I saw her puke then I would have also, and I wasn't in the mood for that. I closed my eyes, I knew that Meagan would come back into the room, if not then I would just dazes off until Will found me. I heard foot steps and then the door slam shut and lock, I thought it was Meagan getting a second wind, but when I opened my eyes it was a male, I wasn't sure who he was. "What the?" I sat up as the guy walked closer to me. "Who the hell are you?" I asked as he was standing in the middle of the room. "I am Nelson Wilson." He said slowly like I was a retard. "I've been watching you for awhile now Edwin Venturi." He took another step closer to me and I backed into the wall. "Your so hot." Nelson purred like he was the hottest thing around. "I am sorry." I slurred out "I am not into guys." his eyes flashed red for a moment and then he seemed to come to the conclusion of something. "So." He then took one giant step and towered over me as I tried my best to keep a distance between us, I might be drunkish but I knew the difference between a guy and a girl when making out.

Nelson grabbed my arms as I screamed and forced me to lay down on my stomach with my hands under me so I couldn't move them. I keep screaming for help until Nelson punched the side of my check that was showing. I started to cry then Nelson reached under and unbuckled my belt then my jeans, I tried to fight him off, but he was so heavy and I felt extra weak from the alcohol. I vowed then never to drink again. Nelson then pulled my boxers off and I was shaking with fear as he ran his fat hands up and down my penis. "Stop, STOP." I yelled and once again tried to fight him off. "SHUT UP EDWIN." Nelson screamed as he punched me so hard I saw stars. My mind was clouded as I heard Nelson unzip his own pants and then everything was quite until Nelson slammed his hard Penis into me. I screamed at the top of my lungs when this happened but Nelson put one of his hands over my mouth as I cried and cried, I didn't even care, I'd like to meet the guy that wouldn't cry if he was being raped, I could hardly think the word I never thought something like this could happen to me.

Nelson just pounding into me until he finally cumed, I could hardly breath now and just wished he would leave me alone. "Don't tell anyone about this or I'll kill Lizzie and Will." I started to choked then, of course he would threaten the only people I cared for in the world. He left then but not before he kissed me. I sat in silence for a good 20 minutes, until I remembered that I was in someone else's room and I quickly got dressed and ran out of the room and into the bath room, I noticed Meagan wasn't there but I didn't care I slammed the door shut and locked it, I then puked my guts out, I puked until there was nothing left.

I leaned against the toilet and just cried until I couldn't any more. After being in there for half an hour I got up and washed my face, I had a black eye on my right eye where Nelson had punched me two or three times, I couldn't even remember. I then ran down the stairs and out the door before I could see Will, Lizzie or god forbid Nelson.

----End of flash back---

I was brought back into the current time when there was a loud bang on the door. "SCHOOLS OUT GET OUTTA THE BATHROOM." I heard a teacher call, I was thankful as Nelson pushed me into a shall and opened the door. "Sorry Mrs.Martin, me and Edwin really had to go I must of locked the door my accident." "Where's Edwin?" I heard Mrs.Martin question Nelson. "In one of the stalls." I walked out the of the stall but not before I made sure I looked okay and had no tears in my eyes or anything. Nelson gave me a death glare that said if you tell anyone I'll kill Lizzie and Will. "Sorry Mrs.Martin" I mumbled. "It's fine boys just go home, I think you missed the buses so you better call for rides or start walking home." I nodded and ran from the room I didn't care that I could heard Mrs.Martin telling me not to run in the halls, I just needed to get out of the school as far away from Nelson as I could get.

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Okay, so how was that? Also do you guys think Edwin should end up with Lizzie or Meagan or another person? Help me out I don't know.