Who I use to be..
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Stargate: SG-1 › Stargate Atlantis
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
2
Views:
2,448
Reviews:
3
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0
Currently Reading:
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I do not own Stargate Atlantis, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
only the broken hearted
A/N: this is depressing, and short just a warning. I haven't really wrote anything in a while. it probably sucks, but whatever.
DARK, Angst.
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John's POV
Time is on my side, yes it is. What a fucking sack of shit! Yes, it is!
God damn these 27 hours days.
The time goes by so slowly since you've been gone. The days have gone into weeks, as the weeks have fallen into months. And months have now fallen into a year and change since the day I lost the love of my life.
And no one seems to give a fucking shit!
NO ONE in this god damn fucking place seems to see what is happening right in front of their blind ass
eyes!
I am dying.
My soul is crying for it's mate.
My heart is torn and in need of major repair.
Does anyone care?
"Colonel, we need you here."
"Colonel, we can not let you go."
I am so tired, I can't sleep.
I am so upset, I can't eat.
Let me go, let me be. I need to be on earth with Rodney so I can make him remember me.
The few times I've spoken to Jeannie, she says that he seems to be getting better a little each day.
He remembers a few things about his childhood and a few memories seem to focus on Atlantis. "He will space out like a memory is trying to break it's way through: Then within a mere moment, the memory fades and he's left aggravated and his typical Rodney self."
Hearing that in her last email 4 months ago, gave me such hope, I went straight to Elizabeth to get permission to take some time from Atlantis. She refused.
I did everything in my power to get on the Daedelus, or through the gate only to be shut down at every corner.
Even Jeannie's emails have stopped coming through.
I cornered Zelenka and he told me that he rerouted my emails, per orders from above. I'm not stupid, I know who made those orders.
Now, I sit here alone in my room and let the tears fall.
I'm held hostage in a place I once loved and called home...
But my home is with Rodney McKay: And if he's not with me I don't want to go on.
I walk over to the balcony and lean over the side. Enjoying the beautiful view that once was so heavenly to me. Without Rodney I can't go on.
"Goodbye my love."
Swinging my legs over the wall I loosen my grip around the balcony and prepare to fall forward.
Good bye.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
As I let go to swan dive to my painless future, a strong hand grabs my shirt and pulls me back.
Anger radiates my face as I see Ronan let me go after I'm on the floor and away from the balcony.
I don't know what it was, the adrenaline, the exhaustion or lack of food but: The last thing I remember hearing before I fell unconscious was Ronan's voice.
"I told you he needed Mckay. Now will you let him go!"
!!Review.. If it totally blows no more: Maybe I'll work on another part. This only took 15months to do.
DARK, Angst.
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John's POV
Time is on my side, yes it is. What a fucking sack of shit! Yes, it is!
God damn these 27 hours days.
The time goes by so slowly since you've been gone. The days have gone into weeks, as the weeks have fallen into months. And months have now fallen into a year and change since the day I lost the love of my life.
And no one seems to give a fucking shit!
NO ONE in this god damn fucking place seems to see what is happening right in front of their blind ass
eyes!
I am dying.
My soul is crying for it's mate.
My heart is torn and in need of major repair.
Does anyone care?
"Colonel, we need you here."
"Colonel, we can not let you go."
I am so tired, I can't sleep.
I am so upset, I can't eat.
Let me go, let me be. I need to be on earth with Rodney so I can make him remember me.
The few times I've spoken to Jeannie, she says that he seems to be getting better a little each day.
He remembers a few things about his childhood and a few memories seem to focus on Atlantis. "He will space out like a memory is trying to break it's way through: Then within a mere moment, the memory fades and he's left aggravated and his typical Rodney self."
Hearing that in her last email 4 months ago, gave me such hope, I went straight to Elizabeth to get permission to take some time from Atlantis. She refused.
I did everything in my power to get on the Daedelus, or through the gate only to be shut down at every corner.
Even Jeannie's emails have stopped coming through.
I cornered Zelenka and he told me that he rerouted my emails, per orders from above. I'm not stupid, I know who made those orders.
Now, I sit here alone in my room and let the tears fall.
I'm held hostage in a place I once loved and called home...
But my home is with Rodney McKay: And if he's not with me I don't want to go on.
I walk over to the balcony and lean over the side. Enjoying the beautiful view that once was so heavenly to me. Without Rodney I can't go on.
"Goodbye my love."
Swinging my legs over the wall I loosen my grip around the balcony and prepare to fall forward.
Good bye.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
As I let go to swan dive to my painless future, a strong hand grabs my shirt and pulls me back.
Anger radiates my face as I see Ronan let me go after I'm on the floor and away from the balcony.
I don't know what it was, the adrenaline, the exhaustion or lack of food but: The last thing I remember hearing before I fell unconscious was Ronan's voice.
"I told you he needed Mckay. Now will you let him go!"
!!Review.. If it totally blows no more: Maybe I'll work on another part. This only took 15months to do.