Heaven's a lie

I played your game again.

Let you in, and have your fun.

The burning in my ass is nothing to the pain my heart.

I drop my head down to the pillow, as you quicken up your thrusts.

If you really cared at all for me, you would see the tears that are falling from my eyes.

But, I know you don’t care.

You never have.

And you probably never will.

Why did I let you in?

I spent all day crying over you.

How could you say such negative things about me.

Then hours later come to my door, and expect me to allow you to bang me through the floor.

I should of told you to go.

Should of told you to leave.

But, I’m a fool.

To let you do what you do to me.

I’m only a man.

I’m only human.

I cry a thousand rivers from my tears.

I bleed when you pick away at my fears.

You think you know me all so well.

When in reality you don’t know one single truth.

I’m no whore.

And as soon as I get up the courage to tell you to leave.

this will be no more.

Sadly, today is not that day.

I cry out in pain as you pull away.

I bury my face deeper into my pillow, refusing to watch to walk out the door.

I wish you would just once stay... And hold me tight.

Beg for my forgiveness for the words you said.

But, yet again, I expect too much.

I turn as I hear the door swish shut.

I know it’s true.

As I said. I am a fool.

And totally devoted to you.

R/R