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S through Z › Veronica Mars
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
4
Views:
6,102
Reviews:
6
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own Veronica Mars, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Chapter One ~ The Good Old Days
Killing me Softly
Author's Note : This story leaves off after the events of WOCD. Nothing that happened after that really happened...well almost none of it. Aaron is still Lilly's killer, Duncan is still Veronica's first and not her brother, all the main stuff, but Verica and Logan relationship never got messed up...or well,....you get it....read on and it will all make sense.
A. N 2 ~ This chapter catches you up to speed in a series of flashbacks....enjoy. I hope the timeline thing makes sense....if not lt me know....but in a 'nice, your not a complete idiot' kind way....lol
Chapter One ~ The Good Old Days
Flashback
(April 2005)
"I can't help it, Veronica. I can't stop thinking about you . Even before the kiss, I can't get you out of my head. It's like a sickness." Loagn said, his voice tired and rough.
Veronica grimmaced from her seat beside Logan. "Gee, thanks, you sure no how to sweet talk a girl. Next you'll be telling me..." Logan cut off her witty remark with his lips, He weaved his hands through her hair, wanting to touch her with every part of his body. They stayed like that, interlocked for almost ten minutes before Veronica broke it off with a groan. Logan quickly backed off, slamming his forehead into the sterring wheel of his Jeep.
"Logan..." Veronica started but stopped, she was at a loss for words.
"Ronnie....." Logan looked at her his head still leaning on the edge of the wheel, his eyes pleading. "...please, don't do this. Don't try to explain this away with a smart quip and a hair flip. This is real, you feel it to, don't lie and say you don't. Please don't fight it. Just let it happen. "
Veronica wanted to fight, boy did she ever. But when she looked into his eyes her heart swelled. She couldn't stop the feelings that he caused in her, the way her breath quickened when she heard his voice, the way her mouth watered when she saw him give her that smart ass smirk of his.
She couldn't not do this.
It was like watching a bad train wreck. She knew it would end badly but part of her didn't care anymore, she was tired of being the honorable one. For once she was gonna act on what she felt, not what she knew.
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(May 2005)
"It's funny."
Logan waited a few second for more but when nothing else was said he turned to the girl laying beside him, his eyebrows raised in question. She looked at him a serene smile on her face, her eyes twinkling with mischief. She shifted her eyes till they rested on his bare chest, a naughty smile now replacing the one of peace. "It's funny that I'm laying here with Logan Echolls, king of the psychotic jackasses, and yet I've can't remember a time when I've felt safer, more protected." She raised her brows in a expression of confusion then giggled when he slapped her on her bare thigh, his eyes full of laughter. "Laugh it up, Mars, I'm just waiting till I get you right where I want you. Then I'll make my move."
People scattered all over the beach turned to glare at the young couple as they screamed and giggled , rolling around on the hot sand, taking turns tickling each other and giving each other wedgies like two kids.
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(May 2005)
"How long?"
Veronica's whole body went numb. She turned her head slightly to see the face she dreaded to see these days. "Excuse me?" she asked, hoping to delay the confrontation she had been expecting.
"How long have you been fucking my best friend, Veronica?"
The way he said her name, like she was trash made her heart ache. Veronica looked at the face of her ex-lover and sighed, feeling her resolve break. "It's not like that....we don't...we don't do that." She finished lamely, turning her entire body to face him.
Just then, at that moment, the anger in his eyes, the digust, set off something in her. Just as he was about to accuse her of something else her inner Veronica decided to take matter into her own hands.
"And, if I may ask what is it any of your concern Duncan? Since when do you care who I'm seeing? My love life is not yours to question and hasn't been for over a year. You dropped me, remember? You ended it, not me. So I moved on. And yes Logan may not have been the most P.C choice but I care about him and he cares about me, so deal with it and get over it, and me. "
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(May 2005)
She knew that words wouldn't help. She knew nothing really could, not now anyway. It would take time, love and understanding before things would ever be right again. She knew that he was hurting, and because of that pain she knew he was feeling she didn't celebrate her victory. She let the success she had been searching for pass her by. She knew that dealing with Lilly's affair with his father and his father's deep secrets would be a lot on him. So she just stayed with him. She stayed with him and waited for the time when he was ready to talk. She stayed with him until the words would help.
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(October 2005)
The words helped.
They helped them both to hear them. It wasn't planned, it was completly out of the blue. They were walking on the beach late one night, discussing the fact they had both gotten over Lilly. They had both begun to move on from the pain of her betrayal and death. Logan was able to let go of his Father and accept that his Mother was really dead. Veronica was finally able to accept her Dad's recent engagment and her Mom's abadonment.
It wasn't all romantic or sappy, they were never that kind anyway. Suddenly out of the blue as they were heading back to Logan's Jeep he looked at Veronica out of the corner of his eyes and smirked. "You know, Ronnie, I've got this problem...it's horrible really. It seems I'm in love with this girl. And ordinarly that wouldn't be a problem, but this girl, I mean, wow. She is this real pain in the ass. She's always so noisy and annoying and boy does she had bad bed hair. But you see there is this thing about her that I can't get over, this horrible thing that gets me everytime."
Veronica grinned through her tears and looked at him with a wink. "You don't say...and what is this horrible thing. "
Logan walked ahead so her could stand infront of her he bent down until his lips were only a mere inch from hers. He closed his eyes, licked his lips and said "She is the most amazing person I've ever met and I can't get enough of her."
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(April 2006)
"I want you."
Those three little words flooded his mind like lava, melting every rational thought he had ever had. Those three words that he had wanted to hear for almost two years. Those three little words said in a breathy whisper coated with desire was all it took to break down his resolve.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(July 2006)
Veronica stared at her lover in shock. She was left speechless, she had never thought about any of this before now, but now that it was out in the open there was no escaping it.
"But, Logan...." She started, reaching for him.
"No, Veronica." Logan said, his deep voice laced with a seething anger. "No kids. Never. I am not going to turn into a monster like my father, Ronnie. I can't let that happen, I can't bring a child into this world knowing what I know, seeing what I've seen. It wouldn't end well. I refuse to put a innocent child through that. "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(Late August 2006)
Veronica's tired swollen eyes stared back at her in the harsh glare of the bathroom mirror. She looked like hell. Her eyes were red rimmed and hollow, her skin pale and dry, her hair limp and listless. She had been throwing up for more than a week now, everytime she smelled the slightest hint of anything edible she would be running for the nearest trash can. She had managed to convince herself and Logan that it was just the stomach flu that had been going around. But now, looking at herself in the mirror for the first time since the vomiting began she knew the truth.
Splashing a handful of ice cold water into her face she stepped away from the sink, making her way into her bedroom, slowly closing the door and reaching for her cell. Dialing a number she had gotten from the yellow pages she held her breath as the operator picked up on the other end. "Yes, Veronica Mars for Dr. Mason, yes I um, I need to schedule a pregnancy test. Yes ma'am, is there a spot availble for this afternoon? "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(September 2006)
The world was fuzzy.
Nothing seemed to be on track as Veronica sat on the edge of the coffee table, the phone in her hand. She had tried a million times to call him, tried so hard to tell him. To tell him that she was pregnant, five weeks almost. Pregnant with his child. The child he never wanted to have.
At that thought a wave of nausea hit her and she was sprinting to the bathroom once again.
Ten minutes later after she finished cleaning herself up once again she sat, back facing the toilet and hit speed dial 2 on her cell, her hands shaking.
Her whole body began to shake horribly when he answered, his voice soft and loving when he realized it was her. Suddenly her mind froze and she paniced, she realized she couldn't tell him. She couldn't make him go through this. This was somehow all her fault, her problem and she would handle it, alone.
"Logan..." Veronica started weakly.
"Ronnie, baby whats wrong, where are you?" Logan sounded paniced.
"Logan...." She said her voice breaking, tears welling in her eyes. "Logan, I can't see you anymore, I am so sorry. I can't do this, I can't love you anymore. Please don't try to contact me , it's for your own good. I'm leaving. Tonight. I'm not coming back. I am so sorry. I just can't make you suffer anymore. I'm.....so....I'm so sorry."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(August 2011, The Kane Estate)
"Logan Echolls, meet Ameila Lillianne Mars, your daughter."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~TBC~
Author's Note : This story leaves off after the events of WOCD. Nothing that happened after that really happened...well almost none of it. Aaron is still Lilly's killer, Duncan is still Veronica's first and not her brother, all the main stuff, but Verica and Logan relationship never got messed up...or well,....you get it....read on and it will all make sense.
A. N 2 ~ This chapter catches you up to speed in a series of flashbacks....enjoy. I hope the timeline thing makes sense....if not lt me know....but in a 'nice, your not a complete idiot' kind way....lol
Chapter One ~ The Good Old Days
Flashback
(April 2005)
"I can't help it, Veronica. I can't stop thinking about you . Even before the kiss, I can't get you out of my head. It's like a sickness." Loagn said, his voice tired and rough.
Veronica grimmaced from her seat beside Logan. "Gee, thanks, you sure no how to sweet talk a girl. Next you'll be telling me..." Logan cut off her witty remark with his lips, He weaved his hands through her hair, wanting to touch her with every part of his body. They stayed like that, interlocked for almost ten minutes before Veronica broke it off with a groan. Logan quickly backed off, slamming his forehead into the sterring wheel of his Jeep.
"Logan..." Veronica started but stopped, she was at a loss for words.
"Ronnie....." Logan looked at her his head still leaning on the edge of the wheel, his eyes pleading. "...please, don't do this. Don't try to explain this away with a smart quip and a hair flip. This is real, you feel it to, don't lie and say you don't. Please don't fight it. Just let it happen. "
Veronica wanted to fight, boy did she ever. But when she looked into his eyes her heart swelled. She couldn't stop the feelings that he caused in her, the way her breath quickened when she heard his voice, the way her mouth watered when she saw him give her that smart ass smirk of his.
She couldn't not do this.
It was like watching a bad train wreck. She knew it would end badly but part of her didn't care anymore, she was tired of being the honorable one. For once she was gonna act on what she felt, not what she knew.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(May 2005)
"It's funny."
Logan waited a few second for more but when nothing else was said he turned to the girl laying beside him, his eyebrows raised in question. She looked at him a serene smile on her face, her eyes twinkling with mischief. She shifted her eyes till they rested on his bare chest, a naughty smile now replacing the one of peace. "It's funny that I'm laying here with Logan Echolls, king of the psychotic jackasses, and yet I've can't remember a time when I've felt safer, more protected." She raised her brows in a expression of confusion then giggled when he slapped her on her bare thigh, his eyes full of laughter. "Laugh it up, Mars, I'm just waiting till I get you right where I want you. Then I'll make my move."
People scattered all over the beach turned to glare at the young couple as they screamed and giggled , rolling around on the hot sand, taking turns tickling each other and giving each other wedgies like two kids.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(May 2005)
"How long?"
Veronica's whole body went numb. She turned her head slightly to see the face she dreaded to see these days. "Excuse me?" she asked, hoping to delay the confrontation she had been expecting.
"How long have you been fucking my best friend, Veronica?"
The way he said her name, like she was trash made her heart ache. Veronica looked at the face of her ex-lover and sighed, feeling her resolve break. "It's not like that....we don't...we don't do that." She finished lamely, turning her entire body to face him.
Just then, at that moment, the anger in his eyes, the digust, set off something in her. Just as he was about to accuse her of something else her inner Veronica decided to take matter into her own hands.
"And, if I may ask what is it any of your concern Duncan? Since when do you care who I'm seeing? My love life is not yours to question and hasn't been for over a year. You dropped me, remember? You ended it, not me. So I moved on. And yes Logan may not have been the most P.C choice but I care about him and he cares about me, so deal with it and get over it, and me. "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(May 2005)
She knew that words wouldn't help. She knew nothing really could, not now anyway. It would take time, love and understanding before things would ever be right again. She knew that he was hurting, and because of that pain she knew he was feeling she didn't celebrate her victory. She let the success she had been searching for pass her by. She knew that dealing with Lilly's affair with his father and his father's deep secrets would be a lot on him. So she just stayed with him. She stayed with him and waited for the time when he was ready to talk. She stayed with him until the words would help.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(October 2005)
The words helped.
They helped them both to hear them. It wasn't planned, it was completly out of the blue. They were walking on the beach late one night, discussing the fact they had both gotten over Lilly. They had both begun to move on from the pain of her betrayal and death. Logan was able to let go of his Father and accept that his Mother was really dead. Veronica was finally able to accept her Dad's recent engagment and her Mom's abadonment.
It wasn't all romantic or sappy, they were never that kind anyway. Suddenly out of the blue as they were heading back to Logan's Jeep he looked at Veronica out of the corner of his eyes and smirked. "You know, Ronnie, I've got this problem...it's horrible really. It seems I'm in love with this girl. And ordinarly that wouldn't be a problem, but this girl, I mean, wow. She is this real pain in the ass. She's always so noisy and annoying and boy does she had bad bed hair. But you see there is this thing about her that I can't get over, this horrible thing that gets me everytime."
Veronica grinned through her tears and looked at him with a wink. "You don't say...and what is this horrible thing. "
Logan walked ahead so her could stand infront of her he bent down until his lips were only a mere inch from hers. He closed his eyes, licked his lips and said "She is the most amazing person I've ever met and I can't get enough of her."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(April 2006)
"I want you."
Those three little words flooded his mind like lava, melting every rational thought he had ever had. Those three words that he had wanted to hear for almost two years. Those three little words said in a breathy whisper coated with desire was all it took to break down his resolve.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(July 2006)
Veronica stared at her lover in shock. She was left speechless, she had never thought about any of this before now, but now that it was out in the open there was no escaping it.
"But, Logan...." She started, reaching for him.
"No, Veronica." Logan said, his deep voice laced with a seething anger. "No kids. Never. I am not going to turn into a monster like my father, Ronnie. I can't let that happen, I can't bring a child into this world knowing what I know, seeing what I've seen. It wouldn't end well. I refuse to put a innocent child through that. "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(Late August 2006)
Veronica's tired swollen eyes stared back at her in the harsh glare of the bathroom mirror. She looked like hell. Her eyes were red rimmed and hollow, her skin pale and dry, her hair limp and listless. She had been throwing up for more than a week now, everytime she smelled the slightest hint of anything edible she would be running for the nearest trash can. She had managed to convince herself and Logan that it was just the stomach flu that had been going around. But now, looking at herself in the mirror for the first time since the vomiting began she knew the truth.
Splashing a handful of ice cold water into her face she stepped away from the sink, making her way into her bedroom, slowly closing the door and reaching for her cell. Dialing a number she had gotten from the yellow pages she held her breath as the operator picked up on the other end. "Yes, Veronica Mars for Dr. Mason, yes I um, I need to schedule a pregnancy test. Yes ma'am, is there a spot availble for this afternoon? "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(September 2006)
The world was fuzzy.
Nothing seemed to be on track as Veronica sat on the edge of the coffee table, the phone in her hand. She had tried a million times to call him, tried so hard to tell him. To tell him that she was pregnant, five weeks almost. Pregnant with his child. The child he never wanted to have.
At that thought a wave of nausea hit her and she was sprinting to the bathroom once again.
Ten minutes later after she finished cleaning herself up once again she sat, back facing the toilet and hit speed dial 2 on her cell, her hands shaking.
Her whole body began to shake horribly when he answered, his voice soft and loving when he realized it was her. Suddenly her mind froze and she paniced, she realized she couldn't tell him. She couldn't make him go through this. This was somehow all her fault, her problem and she would handle it, alone.
"Logan..." Veronica started weakly.
"Ronnie, baby whats wrong, where are you?" Logan sounded paniced.
"Logan...." She said her voice breaking, tears welling in her eyes. "Logan, I can't see you anymore, I am so sorry. I can't do this, I can't love you anymore. Please don't try to contact me , it's for your own good. I'm leaving. Tonight. I'm not coming back. I am so sorry. I just can't make you suffer anymore. I'm.....so....I'm so sorry."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(August 2011, The Kane Estate)
"Logan Echolls, meet Ameila Lillianne Mars, your daughter."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~TBC~