I Just Want To Go Home

Abby swallowed, watching the vehicle leave then squeezed her arms against her body as if she was cold. Her whole scrubs were covered in blood and her body was sore from the rape. Even her breasts got sore. She turned and hurriedly ran back into the ER. She felt like crying again and screaming for help. An ambulance was leaving and only very few people were around the bay but Abby didn’t ask for their help. She ran into the ER and laid eyes on the man she really liked for months, Ray Barrett. Ray started to like her as well although they haven’t shared intimate feelings for each others yet.
She started sobbing again and pushed the button to open the doors. “Ray!” she screamed. “Ray!” Ray turned around, alarmed and saw Abby in bloody scrubs and in tears, obviously in distress.
“Abby?” he questioned, looking at her and dropped a chart on the admit desk.
“Oh, my god, Ray!” she sobbed and opened her arms. Ray accepted her and Abby had just put her arms around his neck tightly while she cried on his shoulder.
“Abby, what? What’s wrong?” he asked her, concerned over Abby’s behavior and emotions, then her scrubs and tears. Pratt, Luka, Susan and Jerry gathered around them.
“Abby? There’s blood all over you! What happened to you?” Susan asked. Abby just kept on crying in Ray’s arms, unable and too upset to answer. Susan noticed that Abby was too upset so she stepped back. “I’ll just get her some new scrubs,” she said, leaving admit.
Abby sniffed, sobbing as Ray looked up at Jerry. “Jerry, I’m going to take Abby over to Exam one, can you just keep people away for a while so we can have some privacy?” he asked.
Jerry nodded. “Yeah, sure.”
“Do you need any help, Ray?” Luka asked.
Ray shook his head. “No, no, I got it. Thanks.” Ray started to walk with Abby towards Exam one. Ray pushed open the door in the exam room and set Abby down to sit on the edge of the bed as she buried her face in her bloody hands.
“Abby, it’s okay, it’s going to be okay,” Ray assured her. “You’re here and we’re all here now. Can you tell me what happened?”
Abby shook her head. “I promised them I wouldn’t tell anyone.”
Ray sighed. “Alright, let’s not worry about that now, let’s just get you treated, okay? Why don’t you lay on the bed?” He bent down to grab Abby’s feet so she could swing her legs up onto the bed as she lay on the bed.
“Alright, I’ll get a nurse to help me.” He put down the blood pressure cuff on the bed next to her then he started to turn away towards the bed. “I’ll get some washcloth to help you clean up then we’ll go from there.”
“Get a rape kit, too,” Abby added.
Ray suddenly stopped in his tracks and quickly turned back to Abby. Abby sat back up to try and calm him down. “Ray…” she started.
“You were raped?” he asked, alarmed. “Is that what happened? Is that your blood?”
“No, no, Ray, just forget it. Just get the rape kit.”
Ray shook his head. “No, Abby, I’m not going to forget it!” he started to snap at her. “I’m not going anywhere until you tell me what happened!”
Abby shouted back, “Damn it, Ray! Would you stop treating me like this? You act like this is my fault! Did you actually think that I asked for it? I never asked for it, Ray! I did not ask them for it!” she started yelling.
Ray sighed, bowing his head down. “Okay, you’re right. You’re right, you didn’t ask for it.” Abby looked down, sobbing again then Ray put his arms around her. “It’s okay, Abby. It’s going to be okay.” Ray rubbed around her back for a few minutes then Abby looked back at him with tears stained on her face.
“Abby, are you sure you can’t tell me what happened?”
“I told them I wouldn’t.”
“Did they threaten you if you did?”
Abby shook her head. “No… I just told them I wouldn’t say anything. That was when they were just driving after it happened. I thought they were going to kill me or something afterwards.”
“After what, Abby?”
Abby sighed and moved her hands away from her face and looked down more into her laps. She wouldn’t tell him what was going on.
“Abby, we need to call the police. We need to find out what happened. I assure you that you’re safe here and nothing else is going to happen here.”
“They’ll come after me. They know where I work.”
“We’ll be sure that you’re safe here. We need to know what happened.”
Ray paused for a minute to let Abby compose herself and speak. “I thought they were going to go and kill me after it happened.”
“After what happened? After they raped you?”
Abby quietly sobbed again and nodded. “I was raped, Ray,” she admitted. “I didn’t know when they’d let me come back here.”
“Abby, tell me what happened.”
Abby swallowed, wiped off her tears and told Ray the story. “I was outside waiting for an MVA. This SUV came around and one guy jumped out and started yelling about his brother who got shot. I ran over to the vehicle to look in the back. Then this guy just shoved me into the vehicle then the driver just started driving off.”
“There were two of them?”
“No, there were three. The driver just drove off then told me to get in the back to save his cousin who was shot. He was shot from the back and bleeding in the front profoundly. I told them that I couldn’t fix him and he had to go to the hospital to have surgery. They wouldn’t drive back to the hospital. The guy was just laying there and the guy who shoved me inside held a gun at me….”
Ray sighed and looked down. “Oh, god, Abby…”
Abby continued. “I told them what this guy needed then we stopped at the drug store to get some needles, threads, gauzes and codeine, everything. I had to try to help him the best I could in that SUV by myself. They had the gun at me the whole time…” she started crying harder. “They stopped because I had to go to the bathroom and I had to do it in some woods with them watching me. The brother stopped breathing. He was apnic and I tried to do compressions but I couldn’t do anything. He was dead then the two guys just took me somewhere, more private where no one was there. It was so dark. I had no idea what was going on then that’s when the driver told me to lay down and… and… and he…” she struggled.
“Then he raped you?” Ray suggested.
Abby nodded. “Yeah… he had me there for a few minutes then they let me up. I thought they were going somewhere to kill me… but instead… they just brought me back here.” Her tears went down her face then Ray gently pulled her in closer to let her cry in his arms.
“Oh, my god, Abby…” he gently rubbed her back. “I… I don’t know what to say… I’m just so sorry.”
Susan pushed open the door with scrubs in her hands. “What happened?” she asked. Ray looked up at Susan and went up closer to her.
“Dr. Lewis, she was raped. Kidnapped and raped. I’ll tell you about it but I want to get her cleaned up and let her change.”
Susan nodded. “Okay… let me just clean her up and change her then I’ll do a rape kit.”
“Thanks, Dr. Lewis. Come and get me when you’re done.”
Susan nodded as Ray went leaving the exam room. Abby moved over to sit on the bed with the pillow on her head. Susan sighed as she started to help Abby remove her bloody scrubs. “So, you want to talk about it?’
Abby shook her head. Her whole body started to ach while she was relieved to start getting her scrubs off. Susan and Abby didn’t exchange words while doing the sponge bath or the pelvic exam. When Susan finished the exam, she removed her gloves. “You can put your legs down. There was some semen there so we’re going to want to take that.”
“Is Ray calling the police?”
“I don’t know. But we will need to call them to turn over the evidences to them. I’ll also take the scrubs.”
“Ray’s going to tell you the scrubs doesn’t belong to me. It was from the GSW victim I tried to save.”
“He didn’t make it, did he?”
Abby shook her head.
“Okay… I’m going out to talk with Ray and see if he’ll come back here.” Susan took the evidences and went out to admit where she found Ray.
“How is she?” Ray asked. Ray started following Susan while they went upstairs to the lab.
“She has been raped.”
“Did she tell you what happened?”
“No. Looks like Abby was trying to save some guy.”
“Yeah, they wouldn’t let her take him to the hospital. They had a gun at her.”
Susan sighed. “I can’t image what happened to her. Why don’t you go back and be with her?”
Ray nodded. “Right.” He turned around and headed back over to where Abby was. Abby was laying there along, softly sobbing in the bed while looking up. She looked at Ray when she heard the door open.
“So, how you doing, Abby?” Ray asked her.
Abby sniffled and sat back up on the bed. Ray moved to sit next to her. “I shouldn’t have gotten into that car.”
“Abby, they shoved you. You didn’t know what they were going to do. Listen, you did what you could. If that guy’s intestines were out and they wouldn’t take him to the hospital and you had a gun to your head then there’s nothing you could’ve done. The important thing is you got out without getting killed and you’re here now. Now, Susan says that we should call the police. Are you sure that’s not what you want to do?”
Abby continued to look down for a minute then back at Ray with tears still in her eyes. She feared for her life of what they’d do to her if they found out that they were reported. The three guys spent all night trying to escape from the police. After all, she was safe in the E.R. with securities around. She glanced at Ray and nodded. “Let’s call the police.”
Ray looked back at her for a second quickly and nodded, getting off the bed. “Okay, I’ll call them.”
Abby reached out for Ray’s arm. “Right now? Do you have to go now?”
“Well, the sooner, the better.”
“Let Susan call. I’m sure she will when she turns over the labs to the police for evidences. Just stay with me.” Ray looked at her for a minute then got back on the bed with her. He put his arms around her, making her feel really safe for the first time that evening. Abby leaned over on his shoulder and quietly cried on him. “I tried, Ray. I tried to get out of there. I went banging on the windows and yelled for help and I had to stop when the driver had the gun on me.”
“Shh, shh, it’s okay. It doesn’t matter now. You’re alright now.” Ray rubbed her back up and down smoothly and gently kissed her on the head. He gently rocked her in his arms and put his other arm across her chest. Abby moaned softly.
“Are you okay, Abby?”
“He squeezed them when he raped me.”
Ray pulled back a bit to see Abby. “He what?”
Abby had her hands across her chest just above her sore breasts. “I’m still sore there.”
“Does Susan know?”
Abby shook her head.
Ray was hesitating to ask. “Do you want me to take a look?”
“I’m not wearing a bra.”
“Want me to get Susan back here?”
Before Ray could get off the bed, Abby was already slowly lifting up her top, exposing her firm, medium breasts. So Ray figured he’d stay and examine. He noticed a few minor bruises but more were found on the left side than the right. “Yeah, he bruised them, for sure.” Abby let him examine and feel around her breasts while he was very gentle with the bruises. Normally, Abby would feel turned-on but not after she was assaulted like this. Ray, on the other hand, felt a little hard below his waist. He tried not to be so obvious.
“Okay, I’m going to get an ice pack. You can place them on the bruises.” Ray looked at Abby again and just realized what a beautiful face she had. He wanted to tell her how he felt. She did too. Ray wanted to get it on that night even on that bed in the ER but that night was not a good night for Abby. He looked into her eyes and slowly leaned to kiss her. Abby can taste his lips then and he put his arms around her again to lay her down on the bed and started to reach for his scrubs bottom.
Abby gasped and sat up. “Ray, wait…”
“Oh, god, I’m sorry… sorry… I didn’t mean to. You know that I wouldn’t hurt you, right?”
For a minute, Abby did not speak. At last, she looked at him. “Ray, I love you… but now is not good. Can you just get the ice packs?” Ray nodded and got off the bed to leave the room and soon returned with the ice packs and continued to be her doctor. There was other times to be the naughty doctor!