Breaking The Cycle

Chapter 15. Masked Disappointment and Regret



Catalina



Henry pulled me into a corner with his bare hands. I was startled by his actions but I regained my courage and strength over the past couple months. I refuse to let him grab me any kind of way. 



"Tell me Katherine, did you have an affair with him?" he hissed as his grip on my arm tightened. 



"No, ofcourse not. I would never follow your example." I said with hurt in my voice. How could he think such a thing. 



"When did you marry him?" 



"August. We have been married for five months." I said truthfully. He looked me in my eyes as if he did not believe me. 



"Henry I would never commit adultury." I said as his hand loosened around my arm. 



"I know you wouldn't." his hand reach for my cheek, and the space between us grew tight. As he leaned in close his lips brushed past mine. 



"Katherine." his voice is low as the back of his fingers fondle my cheek. My mind is completely empty, I had not expected him to be so close. Leaning in, Henry's lips pressed down on my cheek and over to my ear lobe. I close my eyes and take a slow breath as the warmness of his mouth suckle my ear. His lips soon trailed to my lips and he kissed me while his arms snaked around my body. He pulled me closer to him and squeezed my backside. I can feel him stiffen, and I began to moisten and throb. I selfeshly allow myself to enjoy my former husbands' attention. His kisses trailed to my neck and then to my cleavage. His hand roving all over my body and he puts his hand inside of his  breeches. He moaned as he pleasures himself. He reached for my hand and put it inside. He leaned back against the wall and moaned my name. Henry pulled me close again and lifted my dress. He put his hand inside me and I moaned. The curtian that was covering us was thick and heavy, I pulled on it as my legs became weak. Henry put himself between my legs as he lifted me. My lust ended quickly when Alejo came into my mind. Immediately I pushed Henry away from me. 



"Please Henry I can not. I am a married woman." Henry's eyes widdened and he became angry. "Henry, this can not happen. I love my husband." I said as I fixed my dress. 



"You used to love me." he said through his teeth. He was fixing his breeches and jacket. 



"You used to love me too. I loved you with all that I had, and yet God has choosen different paths for both of us. And Henry, I do hope and pray that you are blessed with a son soon." I said meaning every word that came from my lips. I was about to turn and leave from the curtained corner of the palace when Henry grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him. 



"I will cradle my son, Anne is due to give birth next week." he said with a laughter in her voice. I nodded to him. 



"Thats is good news, congradulations." I said. I felt selfconscious, Henry already has a strong and healthy son and another daughter that he knows nothings about. Just thinking about my sweet children makes me not wanting to be around Henry any longer. 



"Henry, I must go and find our daughter and depart." I said. 



"Ofcourse, Mary should be finished overseeing her belongings." Henry said while stepping closer to me. He took my hands in his. He came even closer and lifted my head with his hand. He softly kissed me on my lips. I slightly turn my had and he firmly kept his hand on my chin. I was about to protest when Henry's tongue entered my mouth. I stopped the kiss and quickly left the corner. I went straight to the entrance of the palace and left for the carriage. Mary and Alejo where there waiting and laughing together. It warmed my heart to see them getting along. After the servants placed Mary's luggage on a different carriage Alejo helped Mary in and he was about to help me in when Henry came out the entrance. 



"Your highness." he called. I turned to him as he walked up to my husband and I. 



"I forgot to wish you a happy birthday." he said with a smile on his face. I knew Henry well enough to know that his smile was false. I smiled back and nodded to him. 



"I thank your Majesty for wishing me well." I said wanting to get as far as possible from him. He looked at Mary and waved to her. 



"Goodbye my pearl." he said and she smiled waved back. 



"Bye papa." her smiled is so innocent. If only I could keep her forever. After we said our goodbyes, Mary, Alejo and myself left for Brookfield. I held Mary's hand the whole way. 



"I am so very happy to be with you again mother. This brings me great joy." Mary said as she linked my arm with hers. I leaned over and kissed her head. 



"I am also very happy you are with me. You must gift your father upon your return to White Hall and thank him for allowing you to visit me." I said. 



"Although sweetheart, I have a surprise I wish to show you once we arrive at Perseon Mannor. I only hope you will not become alarmed at what I show you." I said sincerely. 



"Ofcourse mother. What could you possibly have in your possesion that will alarm me?" Mary asked out of curiosity. I could not help but hear Alejo give a short laugh. I took a quick look at him then back at my daughter. 



"I shall show it to you once we arrive at the villa." I said and I kissed her cheek. 



"Very well mother." she said and nodded. An hour later, we all arrived at the villa. After leaving the carriage I held on to Mary's hand, we all went to my and Alejo's chambers. 



Princess Mary



As we entered my mother's and stepfather's chambers I noticed mother went straight to the bedchamber. She dismissed two servants that were there. They curtsied low to me and I nodded. I enter mothers chambers cautiously and my eyes widen when I spotted two small basinets. My mother walked over and put her hand in one of them. I slowly walked over and what I saw made my breath hitch in my throat. As I looked in the basinets my eyes widen. Each cradle held it's own small child. 



"I'll leave you two alone." my stepfather said as he quietly left the room. I was speechless. 



"Sweetheart. When your father and I divorced, I was already with child. I had no idea that I was pregnant until I was two months. I gave birth last month on November 20." she said quietly. I could not speak, and half expected this to be a dream.  "I know this must be shocking to you, but for the longest time I thought I could not have children. Now, I have three. Two strong and healthy daughters and a long awaited strong son." mother said. I had to sit down, I went to the nearest chair. Taking in deep breaths, I realized my mother had given birth to two babies. My mothers touch on my shoulder took me from my thoughts. 



"Mother, I...I did not know you gave birth. Father does not know does he?" I asked. She slowly shook her head. 



"No, he does not. If I was to tell him he would have them taken away from me." she said, I saw her point. But he has a right to know. He's our father. 



"Mother, I see your point. They were concieved inside your marriage, eventhough it was at the end. It was still inside the marriage, which makes them legitamate and prince and princess." I explained to her. As I said that her face showed sadness. That is the last thing I wanted. 



Cataina 



Mary did not see my point. But how could I expect her to. She is right, I had no right keeping them from their father. But what he did to me, and what I put up with. He does not deserve to learn of them. 



"Maria, mi amor. There is some things that happened in my marriage to your father. Things that you are too young to learn about. I love them so much, I wanted to have the experience of raising them instead of having them raised by a lady governance." I said, hoping so badly she would understand. She looked sadden and looked away from me. I saw a tear roll from her eyes. Immediately I took a chair and sat next to her. I held her in my arms. 



"Like me?" she said as she sobbed. I had hurt her feelings. I did not intend to do that. Gently I cupped her round face in my hands and kissed her on her lips. 



"Mi hija, I wanted to raise you. But your father said that I could not because he wanted you to be away. You went to Ludlow when you were a baby until you were 4. Then you moved to Hatfield Palace. Everytime you visited I was so happy. Each time I hugged and kissed you it made me very happy. And it hurt even more when you left. I could not bare it if the twins were taken from me." I said as I held her. Her head is against my chest hearing my heart. She always loved to hear my heart beat. It soothed her when she was sad. "You will not tell your father will you?" I asked, she looked up to me. 



"I won't tell, I promise." she said and I kiss her head. My lips stay on her head for a few moments and I embrace her scent. She is so young and innocent, I would never forgive myself if something happened to my child because of my actions. As I hold her, old memories of her wandered in my mind. She is still my baby, my sweet little girl. My world. Bella's small cry took me from my thoughts. I stood and went to her. Gently I reached in and picked her up. 



"Shhhh..mi dulce niña (my sweet child)." I said softly. She calmed down and her little hand grabbed my finger. Her little grip is surprisingly strong. "This is your sister, Isabella, and sleeping in his basinet is your brother Nicolàs." 



"They are beautiful." my oldest daughter commented. I smiled and walked to the chair and sat down. 



"Would you like to hold her?" I asked. Mary's grin widdened and she nodded. I carefully placed Bella in Mary's arms. 



"Hold her head up in your arm like this." I said. As Mary held her baby sister, I sat back and took in the site. My beautiful girls. One holding the other. 



"I am happy that you and Alejo are getting along. He is very fond of you." he truely is fond of her. 



"I am fond of him too. He makes me laugh and is very kind to me." I smiled, it brings me great joy to hear that. 



"He also loves the twins, I want them to grow up calling him papa. I know they will learn of Henry when they are adults, but I want them too know Alejo as father before Henry." I said. Mary looked up from the baby and nodded once. 



"You are their mother also, and I trust your judgement. We are all your world now." 



Princess Mary 



After I said that I saw a light in my mother's eye. She leaned over and hugged me while my baby sister was still in my arms. 



"Yes sweetheart, you are all my world and I love all of you so dearly." mother said with unshed tears in her eyes. My baby brother began to stir awake. Isabella also began to cry and squirm. 



"They are usually fed around this time, would you like to stay?" mother asked. I nodded. I am going to be the mother of the next Emporer and King of Spain. I need to learn anyway, so I'll watch my mother. 



"They both are showing favor of my Spanish heritage, only your sister has dark auburn hair. Nicky has my coal black hair, though both babies take after my side of the family." mother said with a smile on her face. 



"They look like little Spaniards." I said and mother rose from her seat. She chuckled and sat on her bed. I help her loosened her dress so she can breast feed Nicky. She took her breast and placed the nipple in his mouth. 



"How does it feel?" I asked. 



"It does not hurt, I can feel the milk leaving my breast. Come closer, I want to teach you how to do it also. Then you will know what to do when you feed your child." she said. I sat next to her and listened to everything she had to say. I enjoy these mother daughter moments.     



December 29, 1535



Queen Anne rested in the bed of her confinement chambers. She was sent there by her husband the King three months ago. Henry visited his Queen everyday. She enjoys when he thinks of her. The son he wished for so long was due any day now. Almost daily she felt him kick and move around in her stomach. For days now the pit of her belly has been throbbing. She knew it will be soon, the physician assured her that the prince shall be born before New Years. Anne had her doubts, it was already three days before January. Anne's worrying did not make it much better. Her main cause of worry was her husband's former wife. No matter how low the whispers are, she always heard them through her ladies. They whisper about how extremely handsome Alejandro of Aragon is. From his beautifully defined body, his honey eyes, olive skin and onyx hair. What really got Anne angry was her maid gossiping about how Katherine's new husband is much more handsomely defind than the King himself. She punished one maid for saying how the 'Queen of Hearts' left the king for a better man, that she is much happier now. That she even looks younger and more beautiful then Anne herself. After hearing all that, Anne did not care. She was carrying the king's son. That's something the 'Queen of Hearts' could never have done. Or so she thought.  



"Lady Rochford, be a dear and send for erbal tea and buscits." she asks as the throbbing increases. Lady Rochford curtsied and left the Queens confinement chamber. By the time she returned she could see discomfort on the Queen's face. Anne on the other hand was not well. Her water was breaking as they spoke. 



"Call the physicians, the child is pressing." Anne said in histerics. Lady Rochford quickly obeyed. Soon the King had all the midwives and physicians in the room. Hours upon hours went by. 



"Push My Lady!" the midwife said, Anne pushed and pushed. After 19 hours of labor, a child's wail was heard in the Queens' confinement chambers. Once the midwife exited the chambers, she told the Kings' attendant and he scurried to tell the King. He quickly ran through the corridors of White Hall Pallace. King Henry sat in his office planning the celebration of the birth of his long awaited Prince of Whales. His attendant came almost bursting through his office door. Henry immediately stood up, awaiting the news of his son. Once the attendant whispered the sex of the new addition to the royal family, Henry slowly sat down. 



'Why must you stay with Katherine when I can give you many sons.' 'I promise to give you the son you have long awaited for.' 'Let us concieve a son.' King Henry replayed all Anne's whispered promises again in his mind. Before he knew it he was at the door of Anne's confinement chambers. He entered and all bowed. Henry's ears rung with the wails of his second born child. Anne cradled their child in her arms. 



"If you can have a healthy girl, than you can have a healthy boy." Henry said with a deathly calm voice and left the chambers. He went back to his office and canceled all of the preparations for his 'sons' birth. During the next few days, Henry had Cranmer christen her Elizabeth. The bishop hismself along with Elizabeth Howard, Margaret Wotton and Marquess of Exeter stood as Godparents. Henry's misfortunes did not end there, slowly but surely he began to notice that the wealthy nobles began leaving court along with the courtiers who supported Katherine. Mostly Anne's family and her supporters came to court. The majority of the richest nobles left court and Henry realized marrying Anne had it's down fall. Even at Anne's coronation, not alot of people came. The people who did come remained quiet and shook their heads. There was only about five hundred came out and only about a hundred cheered. Henry's cornation proccession with Katherine had thousands upon thousands of people. All was cheering praises and shouts of, 'God Bless the King and Queen'. To make matters worst, the Monarchs of Europe along with the Pope is starting to question Henry's legitamacy to the throne. The main reason Katherine was sent to England was to strengthen Henry's father claim to the throne. The Tudor line mixed with the sacret Spanish line will not be questioned. Henry knew well that his first born daughter Princess Mary is the only person keeping England above water. As long as she is his heir, Europe will not have doubts about Englands legitimacy. Henry still needed a son. The Pope himself agreed to grant Katherine a divorce, he also said that if Henry had LEGITIMATE sons then there shall be no doubt about the child and Henry's own legitamate claim to the throne of England. Henry's pearl is literally the jewel in the crown of England. Anne has proven herself to give him a child. Katherine on the other hand can not have children. If he was still married to her, she would not have given him more children. She was not useless, she had given him the pearl of his world. The thought of Katherine believing he hated her made him cringe. In truth, he loved her with every part of his bien. Sometimes he just lost control of himself. He felt hurt in what he did to her. He had been absolutely horrable to her. The look in her face after he raped her clouded his dreams and his mind at times. Her screams, crying, the hurtful whimpers. Nightmares plaugued his sleep after they divorced. He had no idea how to stop them, with no way to hide from his sins. 



"Sir, are you well?" his attendant asked. Henry had not notice his thoughts of his first wife had him in tears. The abuse she suffered at his hand brought him to tears. Suddenly a realization struck him. He still loved Katherine with all his heart. He loves Anne, but not like he love Katherine. His lovely Spanish Infanta. She truely loved him. No matter how many mistresses he had, she always loved him. Unfortunately for him, Katherine still held Henry's heart.



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Well there you have it. Henry still loves Katherine. He has no idea how to deal with that. And Anne had her baby!! OMG! it was a girl. Henry feels regret now that he traded in one wife for another. In upcoming chapters situations will change. And I can tell you that in future events, things will happen that will change the course of history and many lives. 



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