A Delicate Decision

Justin's POV

I roll over in my hospital bed, and slowly open my eyes. I look over at Brian, who watches me with a concerned look on his face. "Water please." My voice is soft, and I smile when Brian nods and gets me some water.

He gets me some water, and then hands me the cup. "Thanks." Brian nods, and resumes his seat next to me. I look at him, and say, "I want to try again." He gives me a look that I know very well. It's the look that says, 'No fucking way.'

"Brian, I'm serious. I know that the only reason I was pregnant in the first place, was because the condom broke. But I want this, Brian. Please." He watches me silently for several moments. Then he slowly nods his head.

I'm not sure if Brian is saying yes seriously, or just to shut me up for now. But either way, I'm completely serious. As if reading my thoughts, Brian cups my chin in his hand and then says, "I know you mean it, Justin. But it'll be at least six months."

I feel my mouth drop open in surprise at his words, and Brian holds up a hand to calm me down. He begins to explain that both of us need to get tested, and that we can only sleep with each other for now.

I roll my eyes at his words, since Brian already knows that he's the only one I want to sleep with. I feel my Sunshine smile come over my face, and I say softly, "Thank you." Brian pulls me close, and says, "I just want you safe and happy."

I nod, and motion for Brian to sit on my bed next to me. He hesitates for a moment, and then does so. Brian sits down next to me in my bed, and I lay against him, my head resting comfortably on his chest.

"What did my mom and Deb say, when you called them? Lindsay too." Brian sighs softly, and then replies, "They started crying and hung up on me. Both of our mothers did that, Sunshine. Damn, our mothers are too much alike. With Lindsay, she's glad you'll be okay, and she said she'd pass along the message."

I smile at his words, and move over a little, giving him more room on the bed. Brian gets comfortable, and then I resume my position with my head on his chest. "Brian, are we really going to try again? I know you don't break promises, but I know this is a lot."

Brian wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me close, and I wait for him to speak. "Justin, you are my partner. If you want to try and have another baby, then I'm fine with it. I'm glad you asked instead of just poking a hole in a condom, and then saying 'oops'! I want to do this. I want to make you happy."

I feel my heart swell at the love that I have for this man. He is so perfect, and so good to me. I reach up, and start to run my fingers through his hair. I love how soft his hair is. After several moments, Brian gently grabs my wrist.

He gently lowers it, and my fingers leave his hair. Brian takes my hand into his own and says, "When you get out, let's just keep this between us for now. As much as you want the family to know, I think it would be safer to keep it to ourselves."

I nod, even though I want to tell Molly and my mother, but I won't. If Brian wants to keep this just between us, then I'll agree to it. "This week is going to go by so slowly. I hate not being able to do anything all day."

Brian rolls his eyes, and grins at me. "Well Sunshine, if you're bored, we can have some fun." After saying that, Brian winks at me. It's my turn to roll my eyes, and I quickly shake my head no at his suggestion.

A few moments later, a nurse comes in. She says that it's time to check my blood pressure and everything else. Brian nods, and he kisses me on the head. "I'm going home to shower and change my clothes. I'll be back in an hour."

I nod again, and then squeeze Brian's hand before he leaves. Brian presses a quick kiss to my lips, and then he leaves my room. The doctor and nurse come back in, and they check me over. It's long and boring, and I'm glad when it's over.

Before I know it, the doctor and nurse are done. Brian is entering my room again, this time with my mom, Molly, and Debbie. Molly asks if she can sit on the edge of my bed, and I nod. When she does, I hug my sister.

Debbie and my mother start talking, telling me that they can't wait for me to get out of here. Looking at the women, I say, "I'm going to be here for a week. When I get out, Brian and I are going to spend some time together, with Gus too."

Debbie smiles at me, and then leans over and pinches my cheek. Brian rolls his eyes, and motions for Deb to step away from me. My mom kisses my cheek, and Molly just smiles. Looking at Deb, I ask, "How is Vic?"
She smiles and says that Vic is doing as well as can be expected. Deb also says that Vic sends his love, and is sorry that I lost the babies. I thank her for coming, and ask her to tell Vic thanks as well, and that I can't wait to see him when I get out of here.

They visit for an hour, and then they leave. Molly hugs me gently before they leave, and she says that she's sorry about the babies, but is glad that I'm okay. I hug my sister once more, and tell her that I love her.

It's silent when they leave, and so Brian comes and sits next to me again. "Do you want to go to sleep?" I shake my head no at his question. Then I smile when he pulls me close, and wraps his arms around me, making me feel loved and safe.

We spend the rest of the day like this, and I can hear the nurses in the hall saying, 'How sweet, they're so cute,' and things like that. Part of me wants to laugh, but the other part of me wonders what Brian will do.

In the end, he ends up doing nothing. All he does is smirk at the nurses, and they blush and scurry away. It's fucking hysterical. Brian would have all the women he could ever want, if he were a straight man.