A new start
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Category:
1 through F › ER
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
12
Views:
5,802
Reviews:
31
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
I do not own ER, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Why?
I'm sorry I already wanted to finish this story like 10 times before, but I just don't find an ending... =( But the next chapter will definitely be the last one!
++Lucky++
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„I don't know...“ John turned his head around. Why came Luka just now? 'The guy had the perfect timing', John thought. Actually he should slam the door into his face again. But could he really look into Luka's sad eyes and tell the other man that he didn't love him anymore? Was he that strong?
„How did you find me anyway?“ He finally mumbled.
„Your neighbor told me that you are in Las Vegas. I immediately knew that you are about to make a big stupidity. I couldn't permit that you ruin your life - and mine too. John, why do you want to make unhappy the two of us? Don't you believe that I love you? I came all the way over to Vegas just to look for you. I even had a fight with Weaver because she didn't want to let me go. But I risked my job for you, John. For two days I was already running through the city from hotel to hotel. I called every single boarding-house that I found in the telephone book. You can't imagine how happy I was when I finally heard the words: Yes, Mr. Carter from Chicago stayed with us.“
„You shouldn't have done that, Luka. I'm not worth it, especially because I won't take you back. I.. I don't love you anymore.“ John mumbled, but didn't dare to look at Luka.
„Please John, look into my eyes and repeat what you said. Otherwise I won't believe you.“ Luka took John's face into his hand and turned it to him.
The younger doctor didn't know where he took the strenght from. But he managed to find Luka's eyes for a second and got out a hasty „I don't love you, Kovac. Leave me alone. Forever.“
„Oh...“ Luka's world was crashing down. It seemed to be true. He had lost John's love. What should he still doing here? There were still so many things he wanted to tell the other man. But now they had lost their sense. Luka helplessly shrugged his shoulders. 'No, he wouldn't break down in front of Carter!' He swore to himself before he went away without any other word.
John felt like crying as he closed the door. Why did it hurt so much to send Luka away? He should be happy now where he could be sure that the older man wouldn't bother him anymore. Instead he couldn't push away the feeling that he had made a big mistake.
„Can we go to our wedding now?“ Samuel suddenly asked.
John had almost forgotten about him and it took him a few seconds to concentrate on him again. Before he could answer the question though, they suddenly heard some loud squeaking down on the street.
„What the heck was that?“ John rushed to the window.
„An accident! I have to go down and look if I can help!“ He didn't hestitate and left the room.
A chaotic scene presented itself in front of the hotel. John heard siren and screaming people. But innumerable onlookers took him the sight of the accident.
„The poor man.“ He heard an olderly woman say. „He ran exactly into the car. The driver had no chance to evade.“
„I'm a doctor, let me through!“ He arduously worked his way through the people and finally saw two first-aid men slide a man on the stretcher into the ambulance.
He couldn't see very much from the injured person, but his shoes were still stuck out under the white sheet.
John's heart stopped and black fog surrounded his eyes.
„Hey, don't pass out!“ A deep voice penetrated his ear and brought him back to reality.
„This was Luka.“ He whispered to the confused stranger that had caught him. „These shoes... They looked like Luka's shoes.“ Still while he was speaking John felt a new wave of panic raising inside him.
Why did he only claim he wouldn't love Luka anymore? He shouldn't have said it into the face of other man, especially since it wasn't true! Of course, he was still in love with Luka! Never before John was so sure about his feelings like in this moment.
Without thinking he ran to their rented car that parked in the same street and followed the ambulance. He wasn't aware that it could be dangerous. All he could think of was Luka and how unfair he has been to him. Luka had risked his job for him. He came all the long way to Las Vegas and went through a lot of trouble to find him. Why did he still have doubts?
John pressed the gas pedal. He was suddenly afraid that he couldn't beg for Luka's forgiveness anymore. Everything he wanted was a second chance for their relationship, their love...
His race couldn't turn out well. Through the tears in his eyes the environment remained blurred. He hardly paid attention to the street. When the ambulance turned the corner he drove straight on.
The car rumbled over a meadow. John screamed, held on the steering wheel and stepped on the brake. The car revolved several times. John lost orientation and just managed to hold his hands defensely over his face before the car crashed against a tree. The silent after it seemed deadly.
++Lucky++
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„I don't know...“ John turned his head around. Why came Luka just now? 'The guy had the perfect timing', John thought. Actually he should slam the door into his face again. But could he really look into Luka's sad eyes and tell the other man that he didn't love him anymore? Was he that strong?
„How did you find me anyway?“ He finally mumbled.
„Your neighbor told me that you are in Las Vegas. I immediately knew that you are about to make a big stupidity. I couldn't permit that you ruin your life - and mine too. John, why do you want to make unhappy the two of us? Don't you believe that I love you? I came all the way over to Vegas just to look for you. I even had a fight with Weaver because she didn't want to let me go. But I risked my job for you, John. For two days I was already running through the city from hotel to hotel. I called every single boarding-house that I found in the telephone book. You can't imagine how happy I was when I finally heard the words: Yes, Mr. Carter from Chicago stayed with us.“
„You shouldn't have done that, Luka. I'm not worth it, especially because I won't take you back. I.. I don't love you anymore.“ John mumbled, but didn't dare to look at Luka.
„Please John, look into my eyes and repeat what you said. Otherwise I won't believe you.“ Luka took John's face into his hand and turned it to him.
The younger doctor didn't know where he took the strenght from. But he managed to find Luka's eyes for a second and got out a hasty „I don't love you, Kovac. Leave me alone. Forever.“
„Oh...“ Luka's world was crashing down. It seemed to be true. He had lost John's love. What should he still doing here? There were still so many things he wanted to tell the other man. But now they had lost their sense. Luka helplessly shrugged his shoulders. 'No, he wouldn't break down in front of Carter!' He swore to himself before he went away without any other word.
John felt like crying as he closed the door. Why did it hurt so much to send Luka away? He should be happy now where he could be sure that the older man wouldn't bother him anymore. Instead he couldn't push away the feeling that he had made a big mistake.
„Can we go to our wedding now?“ Samuel suddenly asked.
John had almost forgotten about him and it took him a few seconds to concentrate on him again. Before he could answer the question though, they suddenly heard some loud squeaking down on the street.
„What the heck was that?“ John rushed to the window.
„An accident! I have to go down and look if I can help!“ He didn't hestitate and left the room.
A chaotic scene presented itself in front of the hotel. John heard siren and screaming people. But innumerable onlookers took him the sight of the accident.
„The poor man.“ He heard an olderly woman say. „He ran exactly into the car. The driver had no chance to evade.“
„I'm a doctor, let me through!“ He arduously worked his way through the people and finally saw two first-aid men slide a man on the stretcher into the ambulance.
He couldn't see very much from the injured person, but his shoes were still stuck out under the white sheet.
John's heart stopped and black fog surrounded his eyes.
„Hey, don't pass out!“ A deep voice penetrated his ear and brought him back to reality.
„This was Luka.“ He whispered to the confused stranger that had caught him. „These shoes... They looked like Luka's shoes.“ Still while he was speaking John felt a new wave of panic raising inside him.
Why did he only claim he wouldn't love Luka anymore? He shouldn't have said it into the face of other man, especially since it wasn't true! Of course, he was still in love with Luka! Never before John was so sure about his feelings like in this moment.
Without thinking he ran to their rented car that parked in the same street and followed the ambulance. He wasn't aware that it could be dangerous. All he could think of was Luka and how unfair he has been to him. Luka had risked his job for him. He came all the long way to Las Vegas and went through a lot of trouble to find him. Why did he still have doubts?
John pressed the gas pedal. He was suddenly afraid that he couldn't beg for Luka's forgiveness anymore. Everything he wanted was a second chance for their relationship, their love...
His race couldn't turn out well. Through the tears in his eyes the environment remained blurred. He hardly paid attention to the street. When the ambulance turned the corner he drove straight on.
The car rumbled over a meadow. John screamed, held on the steering wheel and stepped on the brake. The car revolved several times. John lost orientation and just managed to hold his hands defensely over his face before the car crashed against a tree. The silent after it seemed deadly.