Totally and utterly numb

Okay new story, even though I am not finished with my first one. Also I don’t own LWD and if I get anything messed up just tell me and I’ll fix it. Also this is about Edwin, because I can hardly find any good fanfic about him and he’s one of my favorite characters on the show. Also in this fic Derek is a complete asshole and jerk, so if you like Derek don’t read this.

----Edwin’s point of view----

Edwin Venturi, it’s my name but most people call me Ed, or Eddie though I don’t like Eddie all that much. I am 16 and I am I going to be a junior when the summer is over. I will admit right here and now that school isn’t my favorite place, unlike my older brother Derek I am not popular in the least. I feel like everyone expected to much from me. As soon as they heard my last name was Venturi they all were like ’OMG your brother is Derek’ and then they got all giggly, until they got to know me and then they just called me a loser and walked away. I hate feeling like I am second to Derek, who at the moment is 19 and in college, well more like he’s living in a dorm and having sex with a new girl every week end.

You know what also is sad is that everyone knew my step sister Casey McDonald also and even though were not blood related some of my teachers thought I would be super smart like she is. Ha, wrong. Casey is also 19 at the moment and also away at college, though she went to the US and only comes home for Christmas, she has a fiancée and thinks she’s queen shit and has the best life.

On the topic of my family lets talk about Lizzie my other step sib, she is the only person that gets me. Even though were basically opposites she understands me, ever since we where kids she’s understood me, if she wasn’t around I don’t think I would be alive. Lizze at the moment is 15 and going to be a sophomore when summers over, she sadly has a boyfriend named Ben, whom I hate with a passion he’s going to be a junior and is on the football team, Lizzie is more like Casey then she thinks.

Last but not least is Marti, my youngest and only blood sister at the moment she is 10 and going into the 5th grade. There’s not much to say about Marti she is only a 5th grader she hasn’t had to deal with middle school or high school, she is still innocent and thinks that unicorns and the tooth fairy are real, some times I wish I could go back to a time like that.

I shook my head and got out of my bed, I had been sitting there for more then an hour just thinking about my lame ass family. I glanced at the clock and noticed it was 6:30, I has half and hour to get ready and get to school which started at 7:20. I sighed and went to the bathroom and took a 10 minute shower then I got out and changed into Black jeans, and a black ’My Chemical Romance’ t-shirt, then I put on my wrist bands and other things, last I put my eyeliner on, if you haven’t noticed I am what everyone calls "Emo." I hate when people call me that. I look at the clock and it was 7, I then grabbed my black zip up sweater and ran out of my room and down the stairs, I was thankful today was the last day of school, I only has two finals and then I was out.

I looked at the kitchen table and spotted Lizzie eating breakfast, she was wearing a pink, white poka dotted tanktop and a white jean mini shirt and pink flipflops, she looked beautiful, I shook my head as I put my sweater on, it was most likely 90 degrees outside but I didn’t care. "Bye Liz." I waved as I walked out the door. "Bye Edwin." I heard her muffled voice threw the door. I then walked down the drive way towards the bus stop, I wasn’t aloud to drive to school until I was a junior and lucky Lizzie got to ride with her boyfriend and his friends who where already Juniors to school. I hated the bus, Nelson is on my bus. I shuttered thinking of Nelson Wilson.

Nelson Wilson is my worst enemy, a bully persay, but 10 times worse. I closed my eyes and all I could see was Nelson, he dressed like me but was ten times bigger and a Junior, almost Senior as today was the last day. I shook my head trying to get the thoughts of Samantha Mack’s party out of my brain.

I arrived at the bus stop and went and walked over to my best friend Will. "Hey." I said as he noticed me. "Hey Ed, what’s up." "Nothing." I sighed, Will had been my best friend since first grade, he had moved away when we went into seventh grade and he had come back in ninth grade, I was happy he was still my best friend after such a long time of us not talking. "Derek is coming back on Saturday." I said slowly, no one but Will knew how Derek was to me. "Oh man, really." Will sighed and stuck his hands into his jeans and looked at the ground. Derek treated Will basically the same way as me when he was around, as Will was basically like a brother to me and used to live at my house when his mother and father started to fight back in 6th grade.

"I hate him." I whispered to Will as the bus showed up. Will agreed as I cringed I could already see Nelson’s face. "I hate school." I breathed as Will got on the bus and I followed, I cursed the bus driver as my bus stop was the last to be picked up so if was always hard to find a seat. I walked behind Will to the back of the bus, I noticed that Nelson has an empty seat next to him I felt like puking as Will look back at me and sat next to Nelson I thanked him with my eyes and sat next to some freshmen a few seats from Will and Nelson.

Know one knew what Nelson did to me but Will knew that something happened as I shook horribly whenever he was around or talked about, one time I even puked. Will tried to force me to tell him but I am too embarrassed, I assumed he just guessed what happen or something very close. I turned and looked at the floor as Nelson turned and looked at me with a death glare.

After 10 minutes we finally arrived at school I waited until almost everyone was out and walked off and joined Will as we started towards school. "I hate Nelson he breaths like a fucking creepy stalker guy like in those movies." Will barked and I mustered up a small laugh and nodded.

I walked slowly to my math class with Will next to be talking about some girl he was fucking, he was such a manwhore it wasn’t even funny I just nodded and pretended I knew what he was saying. Finally we reached are class and both walked in and sat down.

After 45 minutes the final exam was over and I was off to history while Will head to English. I sighed Nelson was in this class, he failed last year and had to take the class over. I walked in slowly when I finally reached the room. I took my seat which was sadly in front of Nelson. "Edwin, why didn’t you sit with my this morning." I gulped as Nelson leaned forward and whispered into my ear. "Uh, uh." I stuttered for a moment as my teacher walked in. "No talking, the exam is starting now. Flip your testes." I then noticed there was a piece of paper on my desk and I flipped it over silently thanking my teacher. After another 45 minutes the test was over and I hurriedly handed over my test and tried to book it out of the class room but Nelson suddenly has a death grip on my elbow, he started to pull my down the hall I tried to get away but the hall was so crowded with people screaming about it being the last day of school that I was shoved so close to Nelson that we where touching at the hips, I fought the urge to puke as he pushed me into a bathroom and locked the door after making sure know one else was in there.

"Eddie." Nelson said slowly as I backed up against a wall. "Why do you avoid me and treat me like we don’t have anything together." He moaned like a rejected boyfriend or something. "Nelson I fucking hate you." I almost spit on him but he was to fast, he already punched me. "Ow." I yelled as I put my hand on my face. "Oh I am sorry baby." Nelson was so strange one minute he was happy and semi nice then he was angry and beating on me then he was all semi happy again. Nelson lightly kissed my lips. "Why wont you leave me alone." I cried out the tears finally rolled down my cheeks. "I can’t leave you alone, I love you." I tired to get out of the bathroom then but he grabbed my arm and shoved me up against a wall and hurriedly unzipped my sweater as I tried to fight him off. "Stop." I mumbled as Nelson grunted and started to roamed up my bare chest.

Okay, you like? want me to keep going or not?