Those Days are Gone
Those Days are Gone
Title:
Those days are gone Part 1
Author:
Mary Eve Parker mary_eve_parker@yahoo.com
Archive: where ever you want it
Homepage:
www.eves-paradise.de.vu &
Rating:
NC 17 Category: Crossover Pretender / X-Files ~~ Parker POV,
ly Ply POV
Timeline:
tP-before season 3; XF- around season 5
THANKS:
to Mel, my always very best beta J
Note:
well it’s a response to two challenges … the twin one and the one parker finds
a baby in front of her door … even if not one of them was planned!
Note 2: well firstly I wasn’t happy
about the idea to write a crossover because they are really complicated but I
thought about it a couple of days, and I realised that it would be an ultimate
goal – to write a third X-File story. I am sure that there will be somebody out
there criticising my picture of Scully and Mulder, sure, always is – but let me
say that they are mine now and I do what I want with them!
Those
days are gone
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>By Mary Eve Parker
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>It was too early for a weekend to get out of
bed, somehow I didn’t really want to get down and make some coffee. Just
staying in bed would feel so right, so perfect. I just want to relax and get a
clear head again.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>The last week had been horrible. My health
wasn’t the best, my ulcer worse than ever – sickness all over. I couldn’t
believe that I hadn't taken a day or two off but this was not Parker style so I
had to stay and work every day with even more breaks to run to the toilette and
less explanations for Sydney who was the one who was bugging me with questions.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I was lying awake in my bed, still naked,
not even pulling the robe from next to me over my body. I wouldn’t say that I
studied my body, no, I knew it too well – I was just staring at an imaginary
point somewhere above me.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Suddenly I heard the doorbell. God who
would disturb me on my first free day in a month? I needed to kill this person.
I pulled the robe over and took my weapon from my nightstand. Slowly I made my
way downstairs to see who the hell was disturbing me in the morning.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I opened the door and nobody was there,
nobody out there.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Who the fucking hell thinks this is fun?” I
yelled and had nearly closed the doorn I n I saw the wooden basket in front of
me. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing there. What was in front of me? I was
in shock. A baby. A newborn.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I looked around to see if I could see
somebody. But nobody was there, not even the wind made a sound. I got down and
grabbed the basket and took it inside, closing the door with my leg. I sat the
basket down on the couch table and sat down, opposite it.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I couldn’t believe it. A baby in front of my
door. Who could be so insane and want me to raise a child? Me, the person who
isn’t even able to take care of myself? A lame joke.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Now I was looking at the baby. She had a
soft skin, baby skin, typical. I wasn’t even able to think clearly! Her black
hair was soft and fluffy, and her eyes blue. Cute. God it was a baby and every
baby was cute.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>A letter? There must be a note or something
like that with the baby. Somebody telling me if it was a boy or a girl, the
name and all these things.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>And here it was, one hand of the baby
holding, it the other hand tucked neatly under the purple baby blanket.
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Parker
me and I don’t want you to search for me because it’s not secure anymore, not
now. Now, you have the baby and I feel fine to know that you will take care of
your little darling on your own. I don’t feel able to do it anymore. I can't
work for the Centre a minute longer. I've done this job for to long now and I
saw too many women with sad faces in my dreams- I have stolen their dreams.
Like yours. This little girl is yours!
day ago and is absolutely healthy. She is a cutie. I found out that I was
pregnant with your child when I was more than six months gone and I haven’t had
the heart to let an accident happen. Normally they just impregnate me and
that’s it but this time I got an internal mail from somebody, not signed with a
name, telling me that it would be your gene I was carrying, yours and the ones
from a guy named “J.” in it. I don’t know him but I am sure you can find it out
on your own.
letter I will be gone, forever.
named her. She is yours. “
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Holy shit.” was the only possible thing for
me to mumble.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I was sitting there in shock. I couldn’t
believe it.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>The moment was absolutely bad. I had a small
operation a couple of days ago, nothing serious but I have to relax a little
and a baby isn't the most positive thing for it.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>The fact that I had a child was
unbelievable. I really wasn’t able to believe it. Would I ever be able to do
so?
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>So there were women who were being paid by
the Centre to carry kids. I thought that these programmes had been stopped and
cancelled ages ago. But it seems that these rumours I didn’t want to believe
were true, fucking shit. an>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I wasn’t able to hold back tears, not able
to do anything against it. What should I do now? I couldn’t let them know that
I knew about their experiments, about the fact that they were creating a new
generation of pretenders.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>How many other women would be out there, who
had given birth to one of my kids.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Remember Parker, remember …. so many things
happened lately and I have been at the Renewal wing more than once, just to
check things up. A couple of months ago, maybe it was already a year, I got
shot into in my shoulder. I had been in there for about a week. Maybe then? Maybe.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I looked at the baby. She was looking at me
too. I am not sure if I have ever seen a baby so young before. I don’t know. I
haven’t ever been handy with kids. My friends, the ones I have had from
boarding school, were mostly married with kids – the classic 1,5 kids family,
with a dog and a picket fence.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Acanacana BT"'>Tears were running down my face, more than
just running – I felt like a leaking river. I couldn’t believe that they have
done something like that to me. No, not me. Daddy this ….
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style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I slowly went down the building. Today was
Monday and my weekend hasn’t been very relaxing. Mulder had called me today at
5am that he would need to see me a little earlier in our office I was really
tired, more than normal – but he had begged and I had imagined his puppy look
and couldn’t refuse.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I didn’t knock, just entered. It wasn’t his
office anymore, it was ours and I was working hard on showing everybody that we
were equal partners.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Before I entered the office I heard the end
of a telephone call.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Sure Parker …I will take care of your
problem …. We haven’t seen each other in a long time, hon I know and I am
really sorry for it.” He was calling 0900-numbers from the office –
interesting.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Morning Mulder …. I am far away from
calling it a good Morning.” I nodded when I sat down slowly.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“I will get you some coffee Scully. Stay
calm and smile,” he mumbled before he headed to the coffee machine. Thanks god
that we had our own one with good coffee and not this cheap office crap.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I watched him getting there, bending down a
little. God his gorgeous rear end – not that I haven’t noticed it before, that
it looks so good that I want to grab it. But this was fantasy – Dr. Scully’s
Private Dreamworld.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I was sitting there at my desk watching him.
I couldn’t get my eyes off his ass, never could. It was too amazing to miss a
perfect view like this.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“We have to help a friend of mine and I
really need your help here.” Mulder said when he placed my mug in front of me.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Why is it always me when it comes to one of
your friends Mulder?” I asked him, not wanting to help again. The last time I
ended waiting for him at a restaurant with one of his style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Oxfordstyle='font-family:"Americana BT"'> friends– he never showed up. Mulder was in
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“I haven’t seen her in ages and it seems to
be that she is having serious problems.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“She?” I asked wondering a little. Why
should I be dealing with one of his ex lovers? Why me? I am sure she would be a
tall, dark haired or even blond woman with incredible legs and big boobs. His
type.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Yes, it’s a womanlly.lly. I handed her a
ticked to Austria
there now but was always causing troubles and nothing seemed to have changed
during the years.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Aha so she is in style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Austriastyle='font-family:"Americana BT"'> at the moment?” I asked and really asked
myself why I even tried to talk him out of it. I knew that it was quite
impossible to resist one of his theories. Sometimes I was able to find a good
excuse or my mum was my excuse or stuff like that. But I really couldn’t say
now if he was coming with this puppy look.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"\es ses she is in style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Tyrolstyle='font-family:"Americana BT"'> at the moment, in a small cottage in the
mountains but it’s getting winter there too and they have had the first snow a
week ago.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Don’t want to go to the cold parts of the
world again Mulder.” I whispered.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“She has a baby … it’s a rather complicated
story at all. Our flights are going tomorrow morning at 4amstyle='font-family:"Americana BT"'>, so I will pick you up at 2, just to be
sure. They check everything a little more if you do this over sea flights at
the moment.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Mulder ….”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>He turned around and faced me. He hasn’t
done that before. I mean he had gotten us tickets without asking me first but
never in a personal case.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“What Scully?” He asked me questioning.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“It’s something personal, nothing to do with
the X-Files.” I said and if I would have had a chance to open the floor and
jump in it – I would have done it.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“I know Scully and if you really don’t want
to go with me I would understand it but I am not really good with female stuff
so I wanted you to go with me. I really haven’t seen her in ages, just talked
to her twice. I didn’t even see her when she picked up the tickets. I wanted
her to be safe, that’s why she got a new ID from me and papers for this
journey.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Mulder you know that this was absolutely
against all rules.” I really tried to sound serious but somehow I couldn’t
believe that my voice betrayed me.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Come on. You know that (I never follow the
rules and she was a friend who needed help. I know that you two are very different
and I am not sure if you will get along with her but you are the only female I
know.” he said and pulled his puppy look out. Shit.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“That’s a lie Mulder! You know more females
than I know.” – And most of those were laid by you, apart from me. But dreams
are dreams, not reality.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Pleeaassee Scully.” he said and moved over
to my desk. “I will do whatever you want me to do when we are back. Just don’t
let me go alone. I can't guarantee anything if I have to go on my own. Please
Scully, you are my only support.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I looked up at him into his amazing hazel
eyes with these golden points in it. Amazing. I could do that for days, just
staring into them.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>What should I do now? I couldn’t say no, not
when he was begging like a little boy for a lollipop. And he was quite good at
this begging thing because most of the time he got what he wanted from me. Shit
I was so vulnerable if he was begging for anything.
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I hadn't thought that he would bring a
woman with him but he did. I hadn’t asked for it but Fox was always a
specialist in these things. I am not sure how often he had helped me out of
troubles while I’ve been in Oxford
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
“Sleep darling, just sleep a little
more.” I said and brushed softly about my baby’s head. She was really a darling
and since she was sleeping through the nights, my daily routines had gotten
easier.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I was sitting in the
arrive. A female partner who hasn’t been laid by him? There must be something
wrong with her then I guess.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I was sitting there, Caroline sleeping in
her stroller. She was cute and three months old now. Life had gotten me into
serious troubles in Blue Cove and Caroline was my final reason to run away. To
run and not be chased by anybody. Nobody ever found out where I was. I called
Fox and asked for help and he helped me. Like always.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I have gotten a new ID and papers for
Caroline. Now I was Georgia Sanders. I really hate this name and thanks god
that I am not very sociable. There is no reason to tell people my name though.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Their plane was late, over an hour now. My
belly was growling and I couldn’t resist ordering some toast and mineral water.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>After another hour I finally saw the doors
open and a lot of people heading outside. Then there was Mulder. God he was
looking like twenty years ago. Gorgeous. Handsome. Trained.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Parker.” he said and headed with a big grin
towards me and Caroline, a small woman with fire red hair behind him. He hugged
me tight and pressed a soft kiss on my cheek.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“So this is little Caroline” he said and
bent down to the baby. “Sorry … Parker this is Dana Scully …. Scully this is
Sarah Parker.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Hello” she said and we shook hands. Now I
understood why they were just partners. She wasn’t his type. She was short with
fire red hairs, soft freckles and a slim body, looked like small tits and she
didn’t seem to be one of those Agents who would be able to break a rule.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I looked at Mulder who had gotten Caroline
out of her stroller and pressed her firmly against his chest. She was wide
awake and smiling at him.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“How far along are you?” Dana Scully asked
me. She had noticed my belly. Yeah me being pregnant –what lovely news!
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“About three months.” I answered, coldly.
She wasn’t a person I would put any trust in.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“You are showing at an early state!” she
mentioned when we headed to the car.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>It was true – I was showing early and I
wasn’t really willing to be pregnant. But this was another story.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
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style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>This was a typical Mulder woman! Shit! I
thought I was behind this jealousy. Even with her softly showing belly, even
this hard bulk, she was an amazingly beautiful woman with a strong mind, I
guess.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>But something wasn’t right about her. I
haven’t a clue what it was and I am not even sure if I really want to know it
because even now I am uncomfortable in this situation.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Sarah didn’t even try to flirt with Mulder,
don’t ask me why, but at the moment she doesn’t seem to be interested into him.
I wonder why! But I really have to thank her for that because if she would be
doing it, I couldn’t guarantee anything. I am really jealous even if a woman
just gives him a smile, a small part of my heart dies.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Mulder was so perfect, so handsome and the
most caring man I have ever met. On the other hand I haven’t met too many men
in my life who got that near towards me.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>She was wearing a small pair of warm slacks,
woollen, I think, and a thick, skinny pullover. Her hair was nearly black and
her eyes, like mine, ice blue. I am not sure if she was able to smile when the
baby wasn’t around. I also noticed that she wasn’t nursing the baby. She was
giving her the bottle and this at such an early age.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Mulder was driving the car while Sarah was
feeding the hungry baby. She was really cute. I haven’t seen a lot of babies
lately because I refused to get in contact with these sweet creatures. It was still
causing a lot of pain inside and I am sure that Mulder had noticed it. Hasn’t
he? No he hasn’t! Shit. He was still telling her how cute her little girl would
be and how much she was looking like her mother.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Stop it Fox, please.” Sarah said and looked
back towards me. “You two don’t know the full story and I am still not able to
tell but let’s just say that things aren’t as easy as they seem to be. Okay?”
she said wi low low voice, “And please stop asking me about the baby Fox, stop
bugging me with questions, for the moment!”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>This woman was everything I wasn’t. She
might not be Ms. Super Boobs but well she was tall and looked like an angel
–with cold icy eyes.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Somehow it feels that they haven’t been the
closest friends during their years.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“So how are you Ms Scully?” she asked me and
looked backwards, towards me.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Well call me Dana please.” I nearly
whispered, “Thanks I am fine, just a little tired.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Well I understand I guess. When we are up
at the house I am sure you can find a place to sleep, a calm, warm and silent
one.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Thanks” was the only thing I was able to
answer her before Caroline started to whimper a little.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Calm down honey” Parker whispered,
“Everything is fine. We’ll be home in a couple of minutes.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
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sty'fon'font-family:Wingdings'>¶¶¶
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style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>This woman Mulder came with is somehow
strange. I don't know why she is only nice to me when Caroline isn't around.
Well nice is not really the correct word - she speaks with me when the baby
isn’t around would be what I meant to say.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>She is a silent and hot blooded woman, I can
tell this from her eyes but somehow she is hiding something deep inside.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I showed them their room. My cottage was
small so they had to share a room but he said that it wouldn’t be the first
time so he was the one who was sleeping on the sofa.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>God! I was hungry again. I could eat all day
long and thanks to god that I’ve ever had any morning sickness.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Can I help you with anything?” –Fox asked
me standing behind me in the kitchen.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“No thanks” I nearly whispered. He hasn’t
changed a lot and the little changes he went through only made him more
handsome! He was a little thinner than the last time I saw him but god this
small glasses in his hands.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>It had been long since I’d seen a handsome
guy. Here where I was living now or shall we call it hiding, there aren’t many
males around.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Does your friend need some sleep?” I asked
him.
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“I guess … I haven’t been able to give her a
lot of time to decide what to do. I told her to pack and that our flights are
going the next day and that was it. Please Sarah understand her, its not easy
at the moment- nothing is easy now.”
style='font-family:"Amena Bna BT"'>“Well I guess than she deserves some sleep.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“I see those dark rings under your eyes and
I think that they don’t do you well.” – God he was cute – “Go get some sleep
and I will look after Caroline.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“Have you ever dealt with a baby?” I asked,
just to be sure that he won’t kill her.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>“It’s a long time since the last time I
babysat but on the other hand I was told that it should be like riding the
bike.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I turned around and headed to the living
room door, turning a last time around I said, “Thank you Fox and I really hope
it’s like riding a bike.”
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>With these words I went to bed. It was just style='font-family:"icanicana BT"'> style='font-family:Wingdings'>¶¶¶ style='font-family:"Americana BT"'> style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>God this had been good, I thought. The bed style='font-family:"Americana BT"'> style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>And what did I see there? Mulder was laying style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>Slowly and with tiny steps I went towards style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I sat down at the kitchen table and gave her style='font-family:"Americana BT"'> style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I hadn’t seen Sarah stepping into the room style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>She was really tall and must have been very style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>She can't be that far along and this cute style='font-family:"Americana BT"'> style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>I saw her and noticed that she was studying style='font-family:"Americana BT"'> style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>~END PART ONE~ style='font-family:"Americana BT"'>
afternoon but going to Innsbruck
mountains again wasn’t a journey I do every day.
was cold and I was still fully dressed and psedpsed the little watch I had
posted on the nightstand – 7pm
putting on shoes and went to the living room.
on the sofa, the baby pressed against his chest sleeping – Caroline was fully
awake. He had his arms around her to make sure she wouldn’t fall off him.
him and took her from him. She was a beautiful baby.
the warm bottle that had been waiting in a bottle warmer. She didn’t refuse
drinking because I was a foreigner, no, she was drinking like a baby bear. So
cute.
and I don’t know how long she’d been standing in the doorframe, not that I
cared.
thin before her pregnancy. But let me think of it – it doesn’t match. God I am
a doctor and I haven’t noticed it. Darn I am stupid.
girl couldn’t be her daughter, it wouldn’t even work. It wasn’t possible. Dare
to ask her, she will tell sometime.
me. Sarah was wearing a black fuzzy robe and sweats, a pair of warm woollen
socks and not to forget a remarkable smile when she noticed Mulder sleeping on
her sofa. She was an amazing woman. Unfortunately.