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Oh, my. You have no idea how much of my sanity your update just saved. It's been hell today, and I was sure nothing could distract me, but this did. This totally did. There's just this...angst that's really gripping. You write so fully, the little details and the despair & misery - you just make it flow so well. Thank you.

I can't wait for the next chapter. Sam's therapy sessions ought to keep bringing more and more of these little pieces of something that could turn into either salvation or absolute chaos. I think it's safe to say that a story where so little happens yet so many things are going on is quite an achievement for any writer. Now I'm just going to keep reading and wait with great interest to see how long you are going to keep it up, and how it's going to go down in the end.

That is some of the most accurate and realistic work I've ever read. Sam's actions and reactions through out are so beautifully described and so effective that my heart actually aches reading them. And poor frantic Dean, still putting Sam before himself, trying to help but forgetting he's just as lost.

I was so excited to find an update, and it didn't let me down. It just left me yearning for more, actually. This chapter 13 was a set-up chapter, clearly, and the most significant thing about it was Sam finally starting to try and speak. I can't wait to see how this goes on. And I'm starting to ask myself how long Dean can keep watch over Sam without being overwhelmed by the urge to go closer - or how long Sam will continue to just numbly accept this state of affairs.

All in all, I look forward to the next part.

Well... that didn't make me much wiser... or change anything much in the story at that...

Things are still very much on edge, and while it makes me yearn for more, makes me desperately want to read more because I really care about Sam and Dean in this story... at the same time I'm also slowly starting to lose my patience with them... And the ability to sympathize with their thoughts and feelings... Way over a hundred days and still they haven't figured out anything at all about their situations / problems. Except that they're in an impossibly deep impasse without any clue whatsoever on how they actually got there or how to get out...

Patience is a virtue, yes, but this Dean and Sam are really pushing it...

I don't know how much more of this I can still take, but I'll come back anyway. Your story is way too well written for that ;-) .

Perfect as always! Heartbreakingly sad and beautifully dark.

Ah. I have to commend you on letting the story go this way - a lot of people would have fallen victim to the old 'love conquers all, nothing else is needed' scene. I never doubted your judgement on that, though. After all, it would have killed everything you've built so far. Anyway, you didn't fall for that, and let this happen - time apart, acknowledging the need for help, no irrationally bold moves. I'm impressed. I'm actually looking forward to what you throw into the mix next time.

Your style never ceases to impress me, either. It's quite unique, both refined and strangely maniacal... At any rate, yet another satisfactory chapter and I'll be back next time.

Aha! Dean's finally found a way of trying to solve things. Finally a (still tiny) flutter of hope has entered the pool of angst that this story has been ever since the beginning (which I liked it for; do not missunderstand me :-) ), and I am hoping that, however difficult and intense it will most likely be, it will lead Sam to get at least some of his old spirit and intelligence back. And that it will lead the brothers to at least normalize their relationship again.

You've got my full attention with this! I'm deeply curious if the psychiatrist will be able to help... and if Sam will let him...

My gratitude for the speedy update, and until next time!

P.S.: It's a mystery to me why I hadn't seen your story on the Livejournal-Wincest board before... I'v scanned through that one several times already, but still... I'll continue to read this story in here now though, as I somehow feel that the grayish colourscheme of this website is more fit to the atmosphere of the story ;-).

After getting so caught up in this story, I've become emotionally involved with the characters. It's so nice to see a glimmer of hope. I love angst, but a bit of hope thrown in now and again makes it so much more addictive. Will be interesting to see if it lasts. Excellent as always!

... *sits silently staring at the computer screen*...

This is beyond tragic. Sam believing he needs to sacrifice himself for / to Dean, that he needs to make himself worthy of having a brother like Dean again... Even after everything that has happened he still can't and won't turn his back on his big brother, which is beautiful and deeply tragic both at the same time.

I still don't really understand why Sam lets Dean re-enact the demonic rape, and even wants him to (actually in a way I do, bu then in another way I don't; can't really put it into words...). I still don't really understand why Dean has started to believe that it was actually him, and not the demon, who wanted to rape Sam, and even "rapes" him 4 extra times (!!!!). The way things are now, there doesn't really seem to be a way out of the mess they're in anymore, as the two brothers just keep walking in cirkles and downward spirals, without any kind of solution within immadiate range. Especially not with the way Sam and Dean are reasoning right now... Even a shrink would need months to try and change their thinking pattern...

All to say that I'm more than curious now about how things will proceed. It would seem that Dean leaving Sam will evoke some kind of "big turn" within Sam, will get him to think things over again, and thus figure out the true nature of the situation / of what happened, through the shock of his brother's sudden abscence.
Then again, considering the main tone of the story, it might as well make him sink even deeper into the ever deepening quicksand he's struggling in, slowly leading everything to a tragic ending...

One little light in the tunnel: at least the demon's been sent back to hell.

Sadly it didn't release Dean and Sam from theirs (yet?)...

Thank you once again for writing. Congratulations on maintaining the good quality of your writings, and I will certainly be back to read what's next!

What a cliffhanger ending... Jeez, I really am speechless again. I'm supposed to have a dentist's appointment, and here I am wondering what to write in a fanfic review, instead.

The pacing really doesn't work for me as well as it should, but I think I'm getting used to that now. Because the story itself, the idea, your style, and the absolute emotion you manage to cram into it just takes my breath away. This chapter was so very full of despair again that I forgot what I was going to say in the review. Sam's completely broken and Dean's shattered, and everything's so entirely upside down. All I can think about is that you really have an amazing story going here. Please take care of it to the end. Because it's one of the best fanfics I ever came across and I sure as hell am going to be back to read more.